dee’s things

99% of my posts are typed then immediately deleted so don’t expect to hear from me.

[deedoesstuff]

sorry abt the absence i’ve gotten really into heated rivalry which means i have a whole fandom’s worth of fics to read now so i’ve been busy.

[micah-irl]

#queer

[deedoesstuff]

i need more long-time best friends to lovers in my life. i think it’s the best trope in the world and there isn’t enough of it. specifically college best friends/roommates. bro that shit KILLS me. y’all have spent every waking moment together for four years and i’m your senior year you finally get together? obsessed. give me ten of em.

[deedoesstuff]

thinking about an army of cats named inej standing outside a mansion waiting for wylan to feed them btw.

[deedoesstuff]

every social media page i use thinks i’m part of a different fandom.

tiktok thinks i want to see byler social media aus (i gave up on byler the second i saw s5)

instagram thinks i want to see project hail mary/iron lung comics (i haven’t seen either of these movies?)

twitter thinks i want to see foah? (finn wolfhard and noah schnapp being shipped? idk i didn’t even watch after stranger things season 5 part 1 and i DON’T ship real people, especially if they aren’t in a confirmed relationship.)

threads thinks i want heated rivalry fic recs

tumblr thinks i want soc and n2n media (rightfully so)

and threads and tumblr are somewhat right, but what i really want is AT LEAST ONE WLW SHIP PLEASE IM BEGGING I AM NOT A MAN I DON’T LIKE MEN STOP RECOMMENDING THESE THINGS TO ME😭😭😭

yes i know my interaction is what made them this way, except twitter idk wtf twitter is thinking, but i wish social media could read my mind even better and see that actually i want more than what they’re showing me and it isn’t good enough.

[deedoesstuff]

i’ve just had the realization that a big reason i can look at some fics and lots of books and just immediately shut down to the idea of reading them is the justified alignment.

i can not stand it, it scrambles my brain. it’s like, then all of the lines end in the same place there’s nothing to hold on to. i want to say it feels like rock climbing with the right side of the paragraph but that feels too on the nose.

i think a lot of it is because of the fact that i skim read, which i could talk about the reasoning behind for days, but that’s not the point.

the point is i hate justified spacing. it’s not only annoying how the lines end together, but also how the words get really weirdly spaced when lines don’t fit right. i remember seeing that a lot in harry potter or something as a kid and getting super upset.

does anyone get this? is the justified alignment hate valid?

[deedoesstuff]

modern au crows pt. 2 (this one’s obvious)

wylan’s education

wylan was obviously homeschooled his whole childhood. he definitely ask his father about public school just to get away from mean tutors and his father definitely refused.

he was really good at math, so good that his father had to hire an actual professor from the university to teach him bc he was learning at a college level. he was the same way with science. he didn’t like it much, especially biology bc of the amount of reading it involved, but he was undeniably good at it.

when he was young his father put him in multiple foreign language classes, and he picked them up really well, but as they realized he could never write or read in the languages his father gave up on those.

after he escaped, every letter his father sent him mentioned the tutors he had to fire or pay to be silent about the fact that his son couldn’t even finish his education.

[deedoesstuff]

modern au crows pt. 1

jesper’s education

(based on the us education system)

jesper was a seriously smart kid all throughout his early schooling. he was diagnosed with adhd at an early age, and the accommodations he was able to get for it at his small school in novyi zen were extensive and incredibly helpful. he was easily top of his class and skipped a grade early on (like second or third grade), causing him to be a year ahead.

during middle school one of good teachers started encouraging him to think bigger for high school, he could get an even greater education than the one he was getting at home. at 13 he was accepted into a really prestigious academic high school in ketterdam with a large scholarship.

he moved to ketterdam and started attending high school there, but quickly realized it wasn’t good for him. the accommodations offered weren’t nearly as helpful, and the teachers weren’t nearly as encouraging. he burnt out quickly, class was boring and he still wasn’t challenged, just had more work to do and less interesting lessons.

by his junior year, at 15, jesper had fallen into gambling and barely went to class any more. kaz brekker noticed him frequenting the club he worked at/hid in and took interest in the genius who spent more time playing cards than doing homework. as they became friends, jesper convinced kaz to help him forge paperwork in order to allow him to take the ged exam and drop out of school.

he passed the exam easily, officially unenrolling in high school technically three years early. having never graduated, he assumes it’ll be a struggle to find work, but also he isn’t too worried about it, seeing as he’s the second of an incredibly powerful gang leader.

[deedoesstuff]

gonna start talking more about modern au crows bc i think about them a lot. more specifically, like the exact translation of the crows into the modern world. that’s the post, i just gotta say it so i actually do it.

[hopeisawildflower]

I have decided to jump on the shameless self-promo bandwagon in honour of my fic reaching 200 kudos, so here goes...

I wrote a fic called "I Wish You Could Look At Me", which is an AU of what would have happened if Kaz and Wylan were biological siblings and Kaz was raised by Jan Van Eck till he was twelve.

I've completed three out of five chapters so far, and I'm enjoying it! Updates are really slow, but that just means you can ponder the implications of all the fucked-uppedness of the AU in all its glory...

Uhh anyways, it's cool and pretty fun if you're an angst fan who thinks there should be a thousand more platonic Kylan fics, and if you want to, check it out here!

[deedoesstuff]

btw nina zenik is lactose intolerant and it will not stop her, but it is everyone’s problem.

btw jesper fahey has severe lower back pain when he stays in one position too long and it lasts days to weeks on average

btw matthias helvar has so many more thoughts than he speaks out loud. like, he is really smart and incredibly funny when he actually says anything. he just gets too self conscious about people responding to him differently (despite the responses being positive) so he just doesn’t say anything.

btw inej ghafa has the least consistent sleep schedule of anyone she’s ever met. she tends to be known as the person who goes to bed at 9pm, but half the time she lays awake until 3am.

btw kaz brekker is a just slightly picky eater. like it doesn’t get on his way of life enough for him to actually be one, but he has a tendency to leave uncooked vegetables or intricate meals uneaten.

btw wylan van eck doesn’t sleep with a pillow. he physically can’t. he prefers to ball up a blanket and use it as a pillow, he couldn’t tell you why. it just feels better that way.

[oddandalarmingsexualfeelings]

only THE MOST PERFECT EXAMPLE OF SYMBIOSIS!! *eyebrows raise* *that’ll get him*

[victorian-ghost-bones]

I know most modern aus age the crows up a good bit, but id like to see one that leaves them the same age. let them be feral underage teenagers and street kids. give me 17 year old kaz running a shelter for the homeless kids in his gang. give me 16 year old runaway wylan who's living on the streets. show nina, inej, and matthias as the refugees that they are, and jesper as the prodigy university student who fell into bad luck and worse times.

I love that modern aus let them be happy but these are kids who have been through some of the worst life has to offer, and there is so much that can be done with that

[deedoesstuff]

so my problem with the internet is that i don’t understand tone and even if you put tone indicators i don’t believe you. like i’ve never read /gen and not thought it was actually supposed to be passive aggressive and everyone must hate me. this is not a problem with tone indicators or not using tone indicators, it is certainly just a me issue, i just wanted to say it.

[pete-da-cat]

breaking news

boy realizes he has to go to sleep to be asleep, stays up reading ao3 instead

[redstonedust]

being too warm during the day: well, this sucks, but this temperature makes sense because the sun is up, and the sun is making me warm. i am unhappy but logically i can deal with it for now.

being too warm at night: what if i kill everybody.

[deedoesstuff]

i recently figured out how to add an accessibility reader on my phone without horrible glitching, so in honor of that here’s how it pronounces some names.

wylan = weelon

jesper = yesper (but jes isn’t yes)

inej = ineigh

nina = niyena

matthias = mathayess

kuwei = kyouaii

and more to be added when i notice them.

kaz is just kaz btw. too phonetic for mispronouncing.