Dissociated& Disordered

Diagnosed DID. ● Tasha ● Penelope ● Jamie ● Louise ● Karen ● Sadie ● Anna ● Wednesday ● Natasha ● Riktor ●

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Ryuk✔

Misa✔

Rem✔

L

Light

The Death Note

Halfway done - Jamie

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Ryuk ✔

Misa ✔

Rem

L

Light

The Death Note

Forgot to update after i finished Misa so there's an early peek at Rem 🥰🥰 - Jamie

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Ryuk ✔

Misa

Rem

L

Light

Deathnote

New project. 😊

-Jamie

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I know we haven’t really posted in a long while, it’s been hectic. We had a new split. It was rough goings for us for a while there, we had an event that I wonder if anyone other system has gone through. I was having a particularly stressy night and I was “rapid switching” according to my friend. Jumping between alters every few moments, no one was around for more than 30 seconds and this included the alters that are usually barred from fronting ie. The littles and Riktor. If you don’t know, Riktor is locked up so that was quite concerning. I plan to get him out of the garbage pit but I planned to do it with my new mental health professional (that I do not have yet, I have to switch from a trauma specialist to a Dissociative Disorders Specialist) but anywho, I’m 99% sure that our new split, Wednesday, was “born” that night. Has this happened to anyone else? Here is a picture of Jamies wall just to add some pretty haha

But yeah, Wednesday is new.

-Tasha

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-Jamie

[the-nordic-system]

System Ask Meme

[smonk-wonk]

1: how many alters are there?

2: does your system have a name?

3: do you know any other systems irl?

4: how does dating work for your system?

5: are any alters in relationships with each other? if so, what are their thoughts about it?

6: what does headspace look like?

7: how many littles are there?

8: how many protectors are there?

9: have any inside jokes?

10: how often do you switch?

11: how do you communicate?

12: any advice to systems recently discovering they’re a system?

13: is there something one alter likes that another hates?

14: are you open about being a system?

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I can't decide what to put in her chest.

Opinions?

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Wall of ladies 😁 think my niche is naked women

-Jamie

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I'm in love with this ❤ proud of myself.

-Jamie

[borderlinepdfeels]

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SOO this has me fucked up. This is from around June 2019, before I even had an inkling of my diagonosis, I was maybe a month into therapy (BorderlinePDFeels is my main).

I was scrolling down my tumblr, being nostalgic, and this made chills run down my spine. I forgot I wrote this but I remember. The name Sadie just came to me, it wasn't like I actually believed this at this time, I only wrote these words, just to write something really. Sadie is one of my littles who holds my childhood trauma. It's crazy to me, they have really always been here and were here before I even knew them. Just becoming more real to me. I'm just shocked, so weird for me.

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I never thought I could hold so much anger and disrespect toward someone so minuscule in my life. Shit is triggering as fuck. Fuck Trisha Paytas.

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I really liked this last night but the more I look at it, the more I don't. Twhatever.

-Jamie

[piratekingscooby]

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New project

-Jamie

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Happiness Will Come To You.

[12goblins]

when tho

[fuckthisbloganditscurses]

When You Least Expect It. Probably Late March

[wizardshark]

reblog for happiness to come for you in late march!

[zigxortega]

[zac--efren]

I reblogged this last year and I hung out with blink-182 backstage on March 30. Reblogging again because it worked the first time.

[scientiablr]

honestly, last year one of the best days of my life happened in late March

[nessataleweaver]

Hey, I’ll give it a shot!

[demico-art]

I’m going to the “Starset” concert on the 27th of March. So that’s good.

[cobythinks]

Bitch I might just become superstitious if this works

last time I reblogged a post like this I got a 3 dollar raise

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👀👀👀👀

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I'm Karen.

I've been here for 9 years. 9 years of nothing but hell. I split from Tasha in a very low spot. She had anorexia, major anxiety with anxiety attacks, depression, was being bullied, self harming, was drinking and started getting into harder drugs. I got here just before she, or we, went to the psych ward.

I think if I didn't come, Tasha would be with Natasha, sleeping forever. I was a necessity for this system. But what that means is I get to live with anorexia. Extreme anxiety and some pretty horrible memories. I'm always scared. I'm always sad. I'm never satisfied. I don't know what happy or content or even just calm is. I've never been calm. Every second of my existence feels like my cells are screaming. Every little fricken piece of me is shrieking. 

When I front, it's not good for anyone. I love Tasha, but our bodies are very different. It's very, very hard to look in the mirror and see an extra 90 pounds. I can't look at it. I go crazy and leave notes, I vent and it makes Tasha hate her body. I can't help it. I just shouldn't come out. I don't do any good. But I'm here. I try to retreat but I get triggered to the front and it's horrible. Coming out in therapy is hell but everyone says I need to talk too. I need help just like the rest of them, we're all our own brand of fucked up but it's painful. Every bit of this brain is painful. 

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I really debated on posting this because I feel a lot of vulnerability. Please be kind, Karen is fragile. - Tasha