Rambling

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[doing-whatever]

There's a special type of hate that courses through my veins when weight gets brought up & one of my siblings goes "we have to exercise" I know we do and sometimes I do it on my own but they just keep saying it over & over & over again it's making me not want to do it because of how often they say it.

[doing-whatever]

I don't usually follow the world Cup but this year I might but my favorite thing is seeing foreigner go to Mexico & partying like crazy those are my people! Also on the other hand other foreigners going to the us and eating food they've never had before is so fun to see ☺️ as a Mexican-american it's nice to see people just having fun, if only for a little bit.

[doing-whatever]

I think having borderline abusive/traumatic experiences is a special type of hell for people that invalidate themselves (me)

[feaftlikeabeaft]

I wish depression were an emergency. I wish someone could take one look at how sick I am and go “oh my god, we need to get you to a hospital!” and then when we get there I get rushed into surgery and the surgeons say “it’s a good thing you brought her here when you did, this is a seriously advanced case” and then they put me under and spend the next ten hours pulling metres of long, sticky black strands of gunk out of my body, throwing it immediately into an incinerator so that it can’t infect anyone else. And then they could stitch me back up and I could rest a few days, and when I leave the hospital everyone can see how much better I am and they congratulate me saying “well done, you’ve been so brave, I’m so glad you’re ok. I love you.”

[doing-whatever]

What flavor of touch starved is it when you have people who don't mind you touching/hugging them but you still feel touch-starved because you're the one who's initiated it every time.

[doing-whatever]

I think I've been on the cusp of an emotional breakdown for the past 5 years but I keep pushing it back like a windows update, but I'm feeling like the threshold is close but I'm just gonna ignore it

[doing-whatever]

I know what the minecraft poem is, but I don't think I have enough life experience to fully apreciate it yet.