We got married and moved 2,000 miles away from everything weāve ever know.
I had never even moved out of my parents house and one day we decided that we would be able to take a leap of faith. We moved up our wedding to New Years Eve. and packed up a U-haul with what we could bring and left behind what we couldnāt. We made a 3 day trip from Ashland, Ohio to Scottsdale, Arizona which is just about 2,000 miles.
We drove our 2004 Mazda RX-8 (itās a 6 speed as well)
Ā This was also the car we could barely even fit this stuffed gorilla in (See Below)
Get a good mental picture of that car with 2 people, a husky, and 2 cats in it. Along with most of their belongings including our 2 PC towers (not small at all) and so many other things. I literally thought the trunk was going to explode open like the cartoons. Actually, Iāll do you one better. Look at this little snap shot to give you a good idea of how the situation went.
Excuse my face, this was shortly after one of my worst panic attacks. Just before this photo I freaked out and told Dakota I didnāt think I could do it and he ALMOST turned around because he wasnāt sure what else he could do to calm me down. I guess it just hit me that we were leaving every single family member and everything weād both ever known.
Fast forward to May 2017, 4 months later and I am glad I told him not to turn around even though every fiber in my body wanted to go back home, back to what I was used to. Itās not that I donāt miss my family, because I do. Every single day I miss them all. Especially with Easter just passing and my Birthday being next month. My mom and Aunt came to stay for a week and they just left yesterday. I guess that made me realize how much I miss them and home. The house sounds empty and it doesnāt smell like home cooked meals when I come home from work any more and that makes my heart feel empty.
Dakota cooks for me, but it just isnāt the same as a cooked meal from Mom, you know?
Itās recently been brought to my attention that you guys think I have my life together and that this move was easy for me. This could not be more wrong. I have weird moods now all the time. I just get in a slump and there is nothing I can do about the feelings that come along with it. I just start to feel lethargic and unmotivated.
I have anxiety, it runs in my family and itās something Iāve suffered from my entire life. When I was little I couldnāt even chose what cereal I wanted for myself for the week without having a full melt down.
I am thankful to have someone like Dakota in my life who is willing to just wait out the anxiety attacks because they just come in waves. We knew moving here would most likely trigger these feelings from me, but I do not regret taking this opportunity. After Dak was given the choice to open LAG and move to Arizona we talked and I just did not think I could do it; I couldnāt imagine myself without my family. Shortly after I realized how badly Dakota wanted this, I realized this was an opportunity of a life time, I knew I could not let my anxiety about it hold us back. I decided that I could make the sacrifice and change my lifestyle, we decided it would be best for us to just try because whatās the worst thing that could happen? We are lucky enough to be able to go home to just about any of our family members and we know they would have an open door for us.
Being 21 and being married is unusual, but it is also the best thing to happen to me. I know I have Dakota, he is my person. My Christina to my Meredith. We are having so much fun together. Being a newlywed and being in a new state is the best thing to happen to me, but it is hard. It was a huge transition for both of us and every day I am thankful we decided to get married first because that made our relationship SO. MUCH. stronger. It also is kind of cool to only be known as Dreama Freelon to all the new people we are making.
If you are thinking about taking a chance, DO IT, Seize the day. I was scared and didnāt think I could do it, but I have been living life for the past 4 months. Iāve had good and bad days, but overall Iāve been enjoying myself and I do NOT regret making this move.
But, seriously guys- I donāt have it all together, my life gets crazy, I get overwhelmed, and I suffer from anxiety. I have a good life, but it is not perfect and I try every single day to make it a good life.
Feel free to private message me on anything if you ever need to talk to me. Iām here for every single one of you ā¤Ā
Ā Ā Moving 2,000 Miles from Home 2 days after we gotĀ married You read that right. We got married and moved 2,000 miles away from everything we've ever know.
