dylan risen

queer (they/them) / mad (psychiatric survivor) / mental health advocate w/ lived experience / spiritual being / witchy vibes / unearthing the roots of my individual & the collective trauma tree / healing through authentic embodiment

[dylanrisen]

for quotes, articles, and more regarding self-care & self-healing from trauma & oppression, follow my new tumblr @themadhealer AND my Facebook page shown above, The Mad Healer.

[tarot-dreams]

[indieteen]

[preventive]

Follow Preventive for more!

[mrs-bingley]

[lizclimo]

🎵cuz i’m my old soulmate🎵 

[cutekermit]

happy valentine's day to lesbians, gays, bisexuals, transgenders, and queer+ folk. you're all beautiful and truly deserve the most amount of love on this day and every day.

here are some things just for you: 💝🌹💞⚘💖🍫💘

[needtobeehealthy]

[did-osdd]

You are: Valid

You are: Important

You are: Loved

You are: Enough.

And if nobody has told you today: I’m proud of you for making it through to this very second.

[furiousgoldfish]

me, thinking about abuse event and not feeling much about it: hm does this mean I’m okay with it? or am I just dissociated from it?

me, having a nervous breakdown abt it later: it was the dissociation

[badlydrawneverything]

none of this feels real

[remanence-of-love]

[positivitystatements]

[nanasaki]

the clouds were so pretty this evening

[lunarhaze]

Keep Growing 🌱

Original art by LunarHaze

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[traumaeyed-deactivated20210519]

please reblog or like if

you’re a trauma blog that posts about the following:

BPD

ptsd

CSA or COCSA

dissociative disorders

trauma art

trauma vents

trauma aesthetics

anything trauma related really

I need more blogs to follow and interact with! Thanks

[system-of-a-feather]

Technically all of the above, but we focus more on dissociation, PTSD, and discussing trauma more than anything.

-Riku (Host)

[sapphic-witches]

Witches of color deserve respect and are valid

[puppydeathfarts]

Healthy integration is about the gradual reduction of dissociative barriers. It comes with improved communication, less memory loss, less inner conflict, improved self-regulation, and increased ability to hold a cohesive life narrative. It’s good shit.

“Forced integration”, on the other hand, is a term my therapist used to explain a far less pleasant experience. Think of it like your dissociative barriers being smashed with a wrecking ball. Two parts get exposed to some amount of each others memories, beliefs and emotions with no dissociative filter. It’s shocking and can leave both parts feeling utterly fucked up. It’s very short-lived and afterwards you’re left with increased depersonalization, memory loss, drastic personality changes, and new dissociative barriers. It can be overwhelming enough cause new parts to form or to trigger dormancy in any of the parts involved. It’s not a pleasant thing to think or write about. It wasn’t a pleasant thing to live through. 

I’m starting to wonder how many of the integration horror stories in online DID communities are coming from people experiencing the latter, but labeling it the former.