the buddie hyperfixation persists

Rain 28 USA they/she/he mostly they Main @rain-universe

[eddiediazsmiling]

wips

Imposters

911 plot bunnies (most of my wips in one doc)

Buddie doomsday fest

Celebrity au

I decided to just share my unfinished fics via Google Docs, who knows, maybe this will give me the motivation

[flannelcollect]

You know what?? No Bobby Nash is not in some government lab. That’s insane. He’s clearly going to be brought back and cured in the season 10, eight episode long, zombie apocalypse opening emergency.

This is a show prioritizing realism, try to remember that

[rain-universe]

Am I crazy for thinking that saying a character of color is white-passing to people outside of the fandom in order to lump them into "people only care about white men kissing" is racist

like MAYBE if people inside the fandom were actually pretending the man of color in the relationship was white

but even then why lump it in with "people only care about white men kissing" when the problem is people within a fandom whitewashing a character of color?

you can also just say people only care about male characters

[teddy-after-all]

on the topic of christopher diaz and disability, or how his disabilities are shown on the show;

i think there are some big gaps between what we see on the show, and what we're meant to believe by the show,

i.e. seeing: mostly sitting down or leaning, not much spontaneous movement, in earlier seasons we often saw eddie carrying/lifting him, in chris's first episode on the show we see him doing pt exercises with eddie but idr if pt/ot/logo is ever actually mentioned on the show afterwards;

meant to believe: self-sufficient, using his crutches most of the time as his only mobility aid, he goes out with friends, takes ubers by himself, walks short distances without his crutches, takes stairs unassisted.

this gap is probably for a lot of reasons (not the focus on the show, would maybe take up to much time to explore/explain on screen,...) and personally i'm not too bothered by it, but i definitely notice it.

the more you know about disabilites in general, neurological conditions, or even cerebral palsy specifically, the more you'll probably notice these discrepancies, and fortunately or unfortunately i'm an occupational therapist by trade, so idk how the more general audience reads these things, but for me, christopher diaz the character has probably a very light form of cp, while gavin the actor has more visible limitations (i assume, i don't know him and i don't watch a lot of bts footage etc, and i don't do diagnosis through a screen). that is one gap.

the second gap is that cp doesn't just affect mobility, but often also affects cognition, behaviour, emotions, speech, communication, etc, which the show almost never shows/wants us to believe about the character (maybe because gavin isn't affected in these areas, again, idk). here there is more a gap between what little we see or is alluded too, and how fandom deals with it at large.

what i noticed, especially in the last season, his social life seems to be very small compared to the pre-texas arc (but definitely not the constant friend hang outs and sleep overs as portrayed by numerous fanfics), which could obviously be explained by the texas arc itself, but it was never outright said on the show, instead we see a 15yo who hangs out with his dad on halloween watching movies, and, in almost every other scene, chris playing games with his dad. that's pretty much it for his social life in season 9. and then there is the scene in the hospital after eddie's stabbing, where a 15-almost-16 year old boy does not in any way complain about his dad feeding him chocolate pudding in front of people (family and buck, who might as well be family). idk what i think about the scene. might be disability related, might not be. might just be there to show how close chris and eddie are post-texas. might be a lot of other things. might be all of it.

i don't think the show wants us to believe that chris has cognitive issues, because that's never even alluded too, but you could argue back and forth about behavioural components (impulsiveness, anger issues/outbursts, emotional dysregulation, frustration tolerance, mental rigidity, etc) -- it is really hard to say where certain behaviour is stemming from especially in a teenager, especially in a teenager raised by eddie diaz, especially in a teenager raised by eddie diaz in the 911 universe. (btw, in case you didn't know: adhd, autism, depression, anxiety,... are more likely in people with cp than the general populance). so. it's hard to say! but arguments could be make in every direction.

personally i'm trying to just view chris as chris, and not analysing him only based on what i think/know about his disabilities/possible limitations/symptoms. because chris might not really be a focus character on the show, but he definitely is a focus character in my heart, because i happen to like teenagers and family stories.

but as this post by @livesbetweenpages (i love your post btw) says, and which i think about often, wrt how chris is often written in fanfics, even disregarding the fics where he's only there as a buddie warrior:

"Being disabled isn’t a failing. It isn’t something other people need to pretend doesn’t exist or to the severity that it does. But it also shouldn’t be something other people forget exists. Because a disability makes you who you are, just like not having one does. It doesn’t make all of you, but it does change how you interact and move, sometimes literally, with your world."

idk if i have anything to say here, i'm just having a lot of chris feels as per usual

(sorry if this is incoherent nonsense btw, i'm blaming the fact that i don't actually speak english, it's very hot out, and that my brain is fried)

[skyhighrollins911]

First poster for season 10 of 9-1-1

[imjuliez]

he's literally a little hedgehog🦔🦔🦔

[buckleysibz]

the way that the appeal of joining connor and the gang to la (and also becoming a firefighter) is paralleling what he almost had with maddie

"you go, we [I] go"

[buddie-ao3]

X

[biterminator]

Hudson Williams always having to deal with a slavic demon on canadian television

[lumi-lex]

prev is ____ coded

deer/doe

bunny/rabbit

cat/kitty

dog/puppy

sheep

other (put it in the tags)

Remaining time: 16 hours 41 minutes

[bugbugly]

episode called evan buckley and the terrible horrible no good very bad date and it’s buck trying to come up with a plan for his and eddie’s first date but each idea he comes up with happens to be related to the next call they respond to all of them being wildly unlikely disasters

[serosedflamio]

He's a demiromantic bisexual. Girls give him panic attacks. He's a demisexual kinsey 6 and he's never kissed a boy. He's a straight single dad coparenting with his best friend. He had two affairs with his own late wife, once before and once after her death. She didn't divorce him in time. He's an athiest agnostic catholic and he thinks his priest is hitting on him. He loved ballroom dance before he hated it. Before his parents loved it too much. He's schrodinger's queer and he won't drink the juice. Get him out of my vents.

[fastcardotmp3]

you know that bit in gilmore girls where lorelai wakes rory up at the exact time she was born every year on her birthday to recount the ordeal of bringing her into the world? anyways buck retelling theo time and again about how he was in a bridge collapse earlier that day and your mom was at my place when her water broke and you were eager to get out into the world, kid, like you gave us zero time at all to prepare because you just couldn't wait to be a part of things, huh? and i was the first one to see you, you know. i was right there, front row, and i got to catch you when you were still all slimy and squirmy and pink and it all happened so fast but all of a sudden you were in my arms and I knew, I just knew, that you were perfect

and when theo's a kid he relishes in hearing about it and as he grows older he starts having questions about why his dad wasn't there and as they become their own family unit it becomes this thing that is as messy and complicated as the day he was born, as they day theo and buck became each other's all those years down the line, because it's a celebration of theo being around to love and it's a mourning for the parents who don't get to be there to love him and it's a connection between buck and the boy who becomes his son rather than is born it and once when theo's ten he cries so hard he almost pukes and once when he's fifteen he screams at buck asking if you were there then why'd you leave until they were already dead?! and in between he laughs and he quotes buck's own repetitive storytelling back at him-- and you were soooo exhausted from saving your whooooole team-- and it's theirs

the first thing that's their own, from the first time they met

[livesbetweenpages]

My hot take: I think a lot (too many) of 911 fan writers and artists are too scared to portray Chris as disabled as he is

I’m absolutely giving everyone the benefit of the doubt here. This isn’t a callout. Maybe I don’t know enough about cp. Maybe other folks don’t. Maybe researching it is taking away from people’s limited time and energy when they just want to make some fanwork, and I get that. No matter the reason, I find it disheartening that people can’t include a disabled character without downplaying how severe their disability is.

And the thing about Chris, specifically, is that 911 shows his limitations all the time if you pay attention. It’s more effort for him to sit up. He doesn’t cross his legs. He never rolls over in bed or changes positions on the couch—which isn’t to say he couldn’t, but I suspect it would take a lot more effort than people consider. In later seasons, I don’t think he’s ever shown walking without his crutches. If someone has to use crutches in both hands, they likely can’t carry things in their hands from room to room. Chris is using the crutches to bear some of his body weight on his arms because his legs can’t. He likely can’t stand for any stretch of time, and less so as the day goes on. It’s physically and mentally exhausting having to think about how you’re moving and the physical space around you. And remembering these little movements is part of his body language, just like Eddie brushing his hair back when he’s nervous or Buck’s bear hugs. Not including them is one thing; changing it so that his co is less debilitating is another.

And again: I don’t think people are doing this maliciously or with bad intent! I just think non-disabled people haven’t really thought about it. And when you are disabled, you can’t not think about it all the time.

Being disabled isn’t a failing. It isn’t something other people need to pretend doesn’t exist or to the severity that it does. But it also shouldn’t be something other people forget exists. Because a disability makes you who you are, just like not having one does. It doesn’t make all of you, but it does change how you interact and move, sometimes literally, with your world.

[missmitchieg]

The stairs thing confused me because ???? They always live in a one-story place (x, x, x, x) specifically because stairs would be hard for Chris?????

He doesn't even run when he's MAD mad. In fact, high emotions like anger make his muscles tighten up and cause him to move even slower than usual. Just FYI.

See how Chris leans on and holds the table to stand? Remember that for fics.

Also, CHRIS NEVER CALLED BUCK "BUCKY". Look, it's cute in an early s2 fic where Chris was 7, but he's, like, 15 now and calls him Buck like everyone else does. Don't make him act or talk like a toddler. He has Cerebral Palsy (PHYSICAL disability), not something like Angelman Syndrome (cognitive disability that affects speech and other things).

Oh, and one more thing.

Forearm crutches. He uses them. Regularly.

Please Google Cerebral Palsy if you're gonna write fics including Chris.

[clytemnestraaa]

hi this drives me crazy

canon is what happens in the text. e.g. merlin tries to poison morgana

a headcanon is a fact that you have personally made up as an elaboration of canon. it is your invention. e.g. i think morgana and gwen had a teenage lesbian situationship before the events of canon. or, i think modern morgana would love evanesence.

an interpretation is how one reads the existing text. it is not an invented fact nor is it a headcanon, it is a reading. e.g. i think merlin tries to poison morgana out of misplaced self-hatred. or, i think that one line was delivered with suppressed malice and shows a nuanced relationship.

fanon is the general fandom’s accepted headcanons and interpretations that elaborate or recontextualize canon. e.g. merlin is a badass waif and morgana is a bitch.

these are all different words with different meanings.

[justdecadentcollectiondestiny]

and a cannon is a large mounted gun, usually on wheels, that uses explosives to fire projectiles.

[graceful-ashes]

Help me write! 💕

Tell me which WIP to focus on writing, each suggestion = 10 minutes of writing.

⛺ 118 Camping Trip

🐹 The Angsty Hamster Fic

💍 There's nothing I wouldn't do for you (Eddie will do anything for Buck even if it's gay)

[graceful-ashes]

For 💍

[livesbetweenpages]

My hot take: I think a lot (too many) of 911 fan writers and artists are too scared to portray Chris as disabled as he is

I’m absolutely giving everyone the benefit of the doubt here. This isn’t a callout. Maybe I don’t know enough about cp. Maybe other folks don’t. Maybe researching it is taking away from people’s limited time and energy when they just want to make some fanwork, and I get that. No matter the reason, I find it disheartening that people can’t include a disabled character without downplaying how severe their disability is.

And the thing about Chris, specifically, is that 911 shows his limitations all the time if you pay attention. It’s more effort for him to sit up. He doesn’t cross his legs. He never rolls over in bed or changes positions on the couch—which isn’t to say he couldn’t, but I suspect it would take a lot more effort than people consider. In later seasons, I don’t think he’s ever shown walking without his crutches. If someone has to use crutches in both hands, they likely can’t carry things in their hands from room to room. Chris is using the crutches to bear some of his body weight on his arms because his legs can’t. He likely can’t stand for any stretch of time, and less so as the day goes on. It’s physically and mentally exhausting having to think about how you’re moving and the physical space around you. And remembering these little movements is part of his body language, just like Eddie brushing his hair back when he’s nervous or Buck’s bear hugs. Not including them is one thing; changing it so that his co is less debilitating is another.

And again: I don’t think people are doing this maliciously or with bad intent! I just think non-disabled people haven’t really thought about it. And when you are disabled, you can’t not think about it all the time.

Being disabled isn’t a failing. It isn’t something other people need to pretend doesn’t exist or to the severity that it does. But it also shouldn’t be something other people forget exists. Because a disability makes you who you are, just like not having one does. It doesn’t make all of you, but it does change how you interact and move, sometimes literally, with your world.