I look at some of Hollywood's "hottest" male actors, and they literally look inbred to me. I won't say who it is, but a very beloved actor who was considered incredibly good looking in his time has one eye looking straight and the other looking slightly down, they're unpleasantly set in his head, and his nose is crooked. Plenty of these "heart throbs" are hard to look at if you really see a clear picture of them.
I look at what passes as "feminine beauty" to most of the world, and most often, it's either something that doesn't even resemble a real woman (such as having plastic surgery and fake everything from head to toe, and a pound of makeup) or it refers to a kind of natural beauty that is so narrow that only .000001% of women fall into it without any effort.
And all my life here I've been, just an Average Jane with the occasional pimple and a maybe a couple of extra pounds, being told that men like this - who look practically deformed - are LIGHT YEARS out of my league physically, and that what I ought to look like is some blow-up doll plastic thing that vaguely resembles a female in some degenerate XY's imagination.
I feel like I've been duped my whole life, torturing myself to please a society that hates women and thus has NO business talking about what female beauty is or isn't, and who loves men and praises the least of them as Greek gods merely for not having a forest of wiry hairs sticking out of their nostrils.