Ellie

Ellie(ish) | She/Her | 20s | Scottish | In Pain

[cannibalchicken]

[eleaowl]

Knowing fanfiction would be amazing for me but too mentally drained to even approach it again 😢💔

[wondroustaels]

"symptoms you should NEVER ignore!" ok but what the fuck are you supposed to do when the DOCTOR(S) ignore them?

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

"If it really was that bad, someone would already have diagnosed it-" Have you guys never heard of systemic ableism?? The concept of medical neglect is a stranger to you??

[kosmogrl]

sorry I can’t hang out tonight. yeah I’m busy freaking out over things that might not even happen. yeah it’s gonna take a while

[eleaowl]

Can I like, just not keep discovering new levels of pain to experience that I subjectively insist must not be in the flare category yet?

Because my neighbours keep blocking access to my home so a flare isn’t an acceptable option right now when that means twice as much transferring & reassembling my wheelchair and travelling more than triple the distance 😭

There’s literally nothing to drop & save spoons, but I’d rather not add another chronic-overexertion induced neurological disorder to my collection 💔

[memeufacturing-deactivated20161]

me *surrounded by stuffed animals*: i think i need more stuffed animals

[eleaowl]

I love them so much, little cosy companions to keep me comforted and sane 💜

Highly recommend having a ‘pocket friend’ to help with facing the world!

[peniswizard69]

Palamedes and Harrow both instictively recognize each other as kindred spirits, but for Palamedes it means a partner and for Harrow it means a threat

[disabled-dyke]

one of the most frustrating things about being disabled and chronically ill is that everyone around you is allowed to be worried or scared for you. but the second you yourself say you’re worried or scared, suddenly it’s “you can’t be so negative, think positively, you might be totally fine in five years”

but i have to placate everyone when they’re telling me multiple times a day that they’re scared for my health??

[petulantpony]

i’ve said it before but i wish vaginas didn’t cost money

[petulantpony]

you literally can not have a vagina without paying for it. vaginoplasty for some, period products for others, if you want to stop buying period products that’s gonna be expensive medicine or an expensive procedure, recovery from surgery requires time off work and vaginoplasty specifically requires money spent on dilators. our bodies shouldnt cost us this much on baseline. having a vagina shouldnt have such a hefty tax on it. it makes me feel like i’m in a fictional dystopia written for middle school classrooms when i think about it.

[koobiie]

i feel strongly about this

[ailurinae]

[fangorn-forest]

not enough secret gardens and hidden passageways and bookshelves that open to a mysterious library these days. get working on that girls.

[paperjoshi]

on it boss

[paperjoshi]

trapped in the catacombs boss

[ace-disgrace-on-the-case]

There’s something so uniquely terrifying about memory issues. I feel like my self is slipping away from me.

[ace-disgrace-on-the-case]

Here’s the thing I feel like a lot of folks don’t get: I’m not trying to forget what you said. Honestly, I really tried not to. I can’t control what I do and don’t remember—forgetting things just happens. It’s annoying for you, I know, but for me it’s distressing as hell and when you make a big deal out of it rather than just reminding me you make me feel ashamed. I’ll remember that, at least.

It costs you nothing to be kind to people with memory problems. Please. It’s scary enough without people treating memory lapses as a personal failing.

[ace-disgrace-on-the-case]

Hey, reblog this version instead, please!

[forestdeity]

fighting to the urge to ask “what do you honestly think about me and please provide as much detail as possible”

[deathgasmic]

who else is up permanently feeling like they did something Wrong

[arizonadarling]

Feel like mercymorn when she encounters her new sisters everytime I realize I am the oldest person in a room

[harrirats]

first flower of the ninth