In the process of working on a fic chapter I was forcibly interrupted by the need to try and scribble out a sketch of what I was describing, so here ya are
(fic chapter is up now, actually: https://archiveofourown.org/works/87817381/chapters/232730781 )
Some thoughts on Kamome Shirahamaās handling of a hurt/comfort relationship in Witch Hat Atelier
>>up to and including chapter 90 spoilers under the cut<<
spoilers cover materials a couple of chapters beyond the Silver Eve arc's conclusion
Witch Hat Atelier readers are losing it right now because of the parasitic silverwood lore revelation in recent chapters.
Given that Qifrey is a host to the silverwood, he is required to be in a state of anxiety/discomfort to keep the parasite under control. The seed will only stay dormant as long as its host is in a state of unrest.
Every time Olruggio tries to help him with his most critical and consequential issues, Qifrey is in danger of his silverwood parasite overtaking him because Olruggio is his sanctuary, his safe space, his home.
The reader is shown the encroachment of the silverwood when the cat's out of the bag and Olly makes him talk. The parasite canonically takes over the body by feeding on hope, by feeding on ease and comfort.
Qifrey doesn't want to wipe Olly's memoryāhe does so out of necessity. He cannot have his support. He cannot have the peace of mind knowing someone is in his corner. He cannot have Olly providing the comfort that would truly put him at ease.
Qifrey visibly feels like shit immediately after wiping Olruggio's memoryāso much so that Coco asks him if he's okay when the girls come out to get them for dinner.
That time when Qifrey let himself sigh and lean into Olly's embrace was the first time in his new life that he felt a level of comfort adequate to allow the silverwood tree to germinate.
hug. lean. sigh. SPROUT.
And he FELT it.
Olruggio holding him after saving his ass from drowning was the first time Qifrey was in a position to feel the silverwood doing its thing and he was just like ??? wtf was that?? nope. nope. nope.
That panel is their relationship in a nutshell. Qifrey has to push him away.
At the point in chapter 40 where Olruggio is offering support
Qifrey is self-aware enough to be able to shield himself from the thing he would love nothing more than to accept: that solace, that support, that comfort, that peace, that hope.
Olruggio even offers him the clasp of covenant. The man is committed to helping him.
At the time of writing this, we have not yet been given the particulars of what Qifrey uncovered in the Tower of Tomes. We do not yet have the details. We don't know what they're doing or how it works yet.
What we do know is that Qifrey's findings made him quit. Beldaruit is under the impression that it was the discovery of his situation's irreversibility, but we only have some puzzle pieces at the time of me writing this.
The point is that when he was a kid, Qifrey started out not knowing what was going on. He had nothing but scraps of memories. He had no awareness of the silverwood parasite or what was going on with his own body. Olruggio didn't make into the library when they attempted it together. [edit: if you've read up to chapter 93: lmao. lol even.] We know Qifrey uncovered a scrap that made him remember being a guinea pig for a new type of forbidden spell.
A new possibility overgrown with mayhem scooped forth from the seeds of sown chaos. And the great cost which hope declares is none other than despair.
Regardless of what he uncovered in the Tower, at the point in the story where Olruggio offers his undying loyalty and support (again), Qifrey is aware that this is a catalyst so he has to leave Olly hanging like
Olly is offering to help him and
Qifrey's word-for-word reaction is
as in
he LITERALLY cannot have that.
He literally cannot have Olly's forgiveness (again).
He literally cannot have Olly's support.
Experiencing the ease, the peace of mind, the hope, the comfort, that comes with Olruggio's support would be the end of him.
So. Olruggio found out Qifrey was hiding things. Again. Qifrey had to wipe his memory. Again.
"yet again."
Olruggio keeps finding out Qifrey's secrets and keeps forgiving him for keeping them to himself. It's not an isolated situation. Olly keeps offering to help. It's also worth noting that having to re-experience Olruggio realizing that Qifrey is keeping things from him must be a source of tremendous guilt and suffering in and of itself. He keeps having to deal with being a source of Olruggio's pain. Over and over.
When Olly figures out that Qifrey's eyesight is going and that he's back on his bullshit tracking the brimmed caps, he finally spills his feelings about Qifrey keeping secrets from him.
The man is burning. He is wounded.
As an aside, this completely justifies how irritable Olly was when his character was first introduced.
He gets home already in a state so exhausted from a job that he lurches forward slightly in the doorway, and then Qifrey springs it on him that he brought a whole kid home without so much as talking to him.
The man is going through it. He's probably having one of the worst damn days in recent memory. The level of absolute disregard it takes to bring a kid home without a heads up is devastating! Qifrey didn't say a thing to him! And in witch society a Master has custody over an apprentice in such a way that their apprentice is considered to be their child. Your Master is the person who raises you. You're signing up for parenthood/guardianship. Atwert uses that as a legal loophole to prevent Galga from getting sent to Adanlee, the isle of oblivion. He's like. Nah. Fuck it. I'll volunteer to be his guardian. No doomed yaoi on my watch.
A Master's apprentice is their ward. You're adopting a child. Witches are considered to be the siblings of their fellow apprentices in witch society and culture.
Witches' culture of child rearing is not the same as ours. Their politics are not the same as ours. Their laws are not the same as ours. It was particularly traumatizing for Agott to have been banished from the House of Arklaum because it's considered to be a wild exception that they raise their own biological children in the first place. Richeh's sisters didn't even know she had a biological brother.
And it's taken seriously. Olly wouldn't undertake that responsibility because he knows he has other priorities. I could go on about the implications here.
So yeah. Qifrey brought a kid home.
Witch Hat Atelier won a fucking Eisner award for the volume in which Olly spills his feelings (among other big plot and social commentary things). He has so many questions for Qifrey.
Why would you hide that shit about your vision in your remaining eye?
Why would you hide being back on your brimmed cap bullshit? Why wouldn't you talk to me?
He's furious! His response is essentially I'm mad you for not talking to me and I'm mad at myself for not being the kind of person you can confide in!
Qifrey withholding information not only upsets Olruggio because of Qifrey's behaviour but it also makes Olly question himself and what he may or may not have done to create that barrier to trust. Imagine how hard it must hit Olruggio to not feel as though he's created enough of an approachable aura given that he is the legally appointed Watchful Eye of Qifrey's atelier. Witch government mandates someone with child protection services training to be present in remote locations to rat out bad behaviour. It's his job to be someone that people can come and talk to. What a blow. That's so fucked up!
Look at Qifrey's face.
bro feels so guilty he's dissociating
Keyword: desperately.
My guy. My dude. My heart. Shattered.
So. Qifrey spills the plot when Olly prompts confidence.
Olruggio forgives him and doesn't hold a grudge. He loves and cares for Coco as much as her sisters despite the circumstances that prompted her apprenticeship.
And then Qifrey takes it all back.
Because he cannot have that.
Qifrey's whole deal is how much he guards his secrets but Olruggio knows him better than anyone. He keeps figuring out what's going on with him. And keeps forgiving him. He's a source of comfort and care. He's present for the girls when work allows it. All this makes Olruggio Qifrey's closest and most dangerous narrative op.
The first time we see him using magic, it's a goddamn drying spell
which is the same spell he frantically whips up to save Qifrey, repurposed as a contraption
That's their whole deal.
It's the essence of their relationship dynamic.
Olly keeps being a fucking threat.
Qifrey keeps being a shit over and over again both as a child and as an adult; but Olly forgives and arguably enables him since he is such a people pleaser fucked up by his own trauma following the Noz incident where they decided to send a child on a dangerous a rescue mission and unnecessarily expose him to mortality and leave him with lifelong guilt and self-blame. It rewired his brain and is largely responsible for who is is as a person. Olruggio is so desperate to be the type of witch who can still save people that he keeps sticking around, providing support. Providing care. That he truly cares for Qifrey poses a tremendous risk.
Qifrey has to push him away. He has to leave him hanging. He has to make him forget. He lives with this anguish out of necessity. He carries the agony and the guilt with him every single day. He is damned to live in a state where he cannot allow himself to be held by Olruggio ever again. The answer to the Romonon query was instant. Automatic. It's the man's whole life.
everything Olly does is a freaking danger to him; from the magic he uses to the support he gives to the contraptions he makes
Qifrey is playing with fire by having Olruggio in his life at all.
It becomes a deeply personal matter to Qifrey when he deduces what's going on with Custas, who is also a host to the silverwood.
Coco informs Qifrey about Custas falling asleep in Dagda's arms. Qifrey proceeds to have a normal time about it.
Qifrey who felt the presence of the silverwood for the first time in an embrace, in his safe haven:
It's also implied that Qifrey had his memories wiped in order revert him from a state of parasitic takeover. When the silverwood sprouts in Custas, he reverts with his hair turned silver.
Restys observes that the silverwood parasite taking over its host can be undone with Custas in hand.
It's the same storytelling device Rebecca Sugar used in Steven Universe where the audience wasn't told what happened to Lion, but was shown what happens to Lars to make him pink. By seeing what happens to Custas, we can now infer what happened to Qifrey. He got taken over by the tree, had it undone, and his hair is now silver. Like with Custas.
EDIT: vol. 15 cover reveal has clarified that Restys also has silver hair. It makes sense that she would give the seeds to Custas and Ininia. It is also explicitly confirmed that Qifrey gets his memories wiped in order revert him from a state of parasitic takeover two chapters later.
Qifrey knows how to save himself from others but he also knows how to save himself from himself.
He's telling on himself. Why would he have something like that on his person if not to be used as an absolute emergency backup plan?
If you take away the serenity of the host, depriving them of their comfort and solace, you can undo it.
Qifrey carries those obliviation seals like Aspirin for a heart attack.
That said, he's made his stance on memory erasure very clear.
It's a deeply personal subject for him given his lack of memories when first exhumed in the forest of Thristas. He had practically no memories until some of them came back in the Tower of Tomes (occasional trauma response or flashback aside). He's experienced firsthand how shitty it is to not know anything or anyone. He had no magic. He had no skills. He had to start his entire life from scratch.
When Coco becomes privy to Qifrey's situation, she asks why she isn't enough to keep him in a state of anxiety. Qifrey begins a response about how she just isn't, but doesn't finish articulating his thought. He stops himself and, instead, goes into dad mode, telling her that he can't be anxious for a witch with such a bright future. She's on the right track. She's going to become an excellent witch. She's going to be fine. This is also the reason he doesn't wipe her memory the way he wiped Olruggio's. The fact of the matter is that Coco just isn't his safe haven. She isn't what he needs. It's Olly's embrace that did it for him. It's Olly's embrace that put him in danger. It is Olruggio that he cannot have.
Kamome Shirahama examines the hurt/comfort trope by taking it and turning Witch Hat Atelier into a story of hurt/[forbidden] comfort.
Shirahama hasn't put anything in a the story for nothing. Every plot point serves as a precedent for something to come or as an illustration for something parallel. Everything in the story so far has served a purpose, foreshadowed, explained, illustrated, expanded, etc. so I've been mulling over Olruggio and Qifrey's character dynamic and what it means in the bigger picture.
Although their relationship's threat to Qifrey's life has become one of the major plot points, I'm eager to see how it's going to play out in the grand scheme of things. Coco is supposed to be the "child of hope" who stands to counterbalance despair. Shirahama's commentary on how design is the key to healing or harming draws attention to the much broader scope than the individuals' intentions. We see that in how they deal with the "failure" of the phantasmal fireball, and how Olly has to encase it in crystal so that people don't lose their healthy respect and fear for fire, as it can burn as easily as it can keep people warm and alive, for example. Magic is a double-edged sword. Actions can be double-edged swords. You can't always predict outcomes no matter how good your intentions, and the way to address that is a major point of contention in the plot. The macro ties to the micro and vice versa.
It is that which Qifrey so desperately needs to heal his soul threatens to destroy him. We're just sitting here watching a man live through torture.
Read to chapter 90, then go back to the beginning and read the whole damn thing again. You'll be clutching your face the whole time.
Reblogging because this is the most heart wrenching compilation of all the ways that Shirahama built this reveal into every single episode from the beginning of the manga and it HURTSSSS
I am so gleeful cuz I shrieked so much after catching up on chapters 92 and 93 that the cascade effect roped three of my friends into reading it and falling in love with this world and these characters just as hard as I did! I started a reread and am dying over it all over again.
I should've been doing homework but the call to art was too strong so have some art instead
This summarizes a number of points that I learned about in two separate creative writing classes, and are very good ones! In particular: drama needs space and time. Don't rush, don't summarize, write it in exactly as much detail as it needs to be experienced at the pace of the scene!
Also, you can absolutely tell some things directly to readers, but you wanna lean more show-don't-tell in general so it doesn't feel overly expositional. Emotion descriptors? Swap out for a physical tell or a sensation that tells us the emotion.
Very good strategies to convey the tones for your writing!
Last book: Either The Perilous Guard by Elizabeth Marie Pope, or The Bullet That Missed by Richard Osman. I was reading Perilous around the same time I was listening to the Bullet audiobook. Both amazing, I loved them!! Perilous is the second Pope book I've read, I also absolutely adore The Sherwood Ring. Bullet is the third book in The Thursday Murder Club series, which is such a great series about a friend group of senior citizens solving murders. This is reminding me to get back into it, there are still a could books to go to finish the series. Oh but also, if we're counting graphic novels, the last book I read was actually Love and Capes vol. 2: Going to the Chapel by Thom Zahler. Love and Capes is a sweet comic series that started as a webcomic. The main character is a normal girl dating a superhero, and it follows her as she finds out his identity and their relationship progresses (if you can't tell by the title, they get married in volume 2). It focuses more on how having a superhero identity would affect your normal life, and it's very sweet and funny.
Last song: The Girl in the Bubble from the Wicked: For Good soundtrack. I just watched it for the first time yesterday and it's so good!
Last movie: The Holiday, one of the Christmas movies I binged after going to the movie theater yesterday.
Salty or sweet: Really depends on what I'm feeling, I could go either way. Lately I've been going back and forth between craving chips and queso, and dark chocolate.
Coffee or tea: Coffee. I like tea in the evenings occasionally, but coffee is my comfort drink I have every morning with my Bible time.
Working on: I think this means writing projects, but I'm not a writer, so I'm going to say my current project, which is sending out Christmas cards to my friends and family. I just finished addressing them all yesterday, and tomorrow I need to buy more stamps and mail them.
RIP it's been 12 days but better late than never. Thank you for the tag, Grey (idk what to call you, sorry)!
Last book: If we're talking book book, then What the Media Are Doing to Our Politics. If we're allowing webtoons, then Surviving a Harem (I've decided to label that as "not queer enough for gay people, probably a bit too queer for conservatives" and I adore this stupid comedy that the author wrote based on her own sister). If we're talking manga, then The Yakuza's Guide to Babysitting (100/10)
Last song: STIR by studio lico, apparently
Last movie: Wake Up Dead Man (Knives Out) (SO GOOD. I kinda want someone to criticize it too but like...who is sane about it. But I personally adored it and how it didn't villainize the religion itself)
Salty or sweet: probably salty but dark chocolate really is the best
Coffee or tea: Tea! Cannot really drink coffee the same way I don't like alcohol
Working on: my MA degree and also job searching and also trying to publish a collection of short stories that I keep procrastinating on cause I need to make a cover
Lol *14 days later* @lemonduckisnowawake you got nothing on me
Last book: Rereading the Lightning Thief (bro it HOLDS UP) unless we're counting Manga and then it's Witch Hat Atelier because apparently I love beautiful suffering. (Murder my heart artistically, why don't you, Shirahama)
(Also Lemon now I wanna ready that webtoon LOL)
Last song: Down By The River by Karliene. She's cool
Last movie: Uhhhhh.... UHHHH I don't really watch movies during the semester... what was the last one? Might've been Endgame with my dad? Last shows I was watching were Frieren and a rewatch of White Collar tho!
Salty or sweet: Salty because I'm chronically low on salt (my doctor bullies me every time I get blood tests) and I feel like crap if I don't consume an appalling amount since my body retains very little. So I like sweet but also... salty
Coffee or tea: I enjoy an occasional coffee but it makes me feel weird if it's too strong so it's tea all the way. Strong black with sugar and a dash of milk or a honeyed jasmine green, that's the stuff!
Working on: my double-major-plus-a-minor bachelors degree that will take me six and a half years by the end (fifteen credits each semester, I swear if I could speed it up I would) and two jobs. I'm tired lol
I'm going to tag people at random because my couple people I would normally pester Lemon already tagged, so this is my chance to get to know more of y'all! @self-righteous-idiot @hellocwanghere @ten-cent-sleuth @sunshineandrosesnoraincamemyway @lusavian-of-sunlight @decaffinatedflowerglitter @lanaeith
Something like this would be so colossally helpful. I'm sick and tired of trying to research specific clothing from any given culture and being met with either racist stereotypical costumes worn by yt people or ai generated garbage nonsense, and trying to be hyper specific with searches yields fuck all. Like I generally just cannot trust the legitimacy of most search results at this point. It's extremely frustrating. If there are good resources for this then they're buried deep under all the other bullshit, and idk where to start looking.
another addition as far as physical media goes there is the encyclopedia of national dress (that i still need to buy myself bc this kind of thing is super important to my sort of fantasy designing) but yes i do agree i wish there was EVEN MORE documentation on this
SAVING THIS! (I was whining at my friends for my struggles trying to find Korean historical armor for inspo for an OC, and @lemonduckisnowawake was like "here ya go, Elen")
Here I've tried to compile an order to consume ALNST by listing all the main pieces of content in order by release (not the BTS tho) to understand the story better and in hope that you'll enjoy this experience with context that you wouldn't get with the MVs alone (ofc I won't list everything that could provide lore, but if you're also interested in looking through all the other material, I made another post with all the links) (also if you think I forgot something pls I invite you to point it out so that I can add it)
You probably get asked this a lot, but how do you draw hands? Even when I'm tracing, they look so weird š
I could probably go on and on and on about hands, but here are some key points I compiled! I LOVE drawing hands, and I never hesitate to use my own as a reference
Okay but for anyone who legit wants to know how to calculate it correctly:
The elbow joint on average rests a couple inches higher than the navel, so if you measure how long the distance is from the middle of the shoulder to that point then you have the length of the upper and fore arms!
So if anyoneās wondering about legs too, the simplest rule of thumb is that the length from the top of the leg to the knee is equal to the distance between the top of the leg and the bottom of the pectorals:
And I wanna stress that when i sayĀ ātop of the legā iām not talking about the crotch (please donāt flag me tumblr itās an anatomical term) iām talking about the point where the femur connects to the pelvis, which is higher up on the hips:
Itās easier to see what Iām talking about in this photo of a man squatting:Ā
So yeah if you use that measurement when using this technique you should get fairly realistically proportioned legs:
But remember! messing with proportions is an important and fun part of character design! Know the rules first so you can then break them however you please!
I only ever saw the part where people started drawing the limbs outrageously long and genuinely wanted to know how to fix that, so Iām really thankful to see the rest.