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I am that book people barely read just because I have missing pages that have been torn out of me, ink spilled all over me, my cover is worn-out and my story never gets to the main plot.

- Elveera

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Said the 'King' to Her

"Honey, I love you to moon and back!"

"You think you love me to the moon and back?

My dear, I've done it all. I've strayed into the farthest, hottest, coldest, brightest and darkest corners of existence.

I've dodged radioactive flashes, swam through asteroid belts, overcome cosmic avalanches.

My dear, I've ventured deep into black holes and Quasars, been stretched, pulled, and turned to string, and yet l, I can't be flexible and accomodating enough to the bond down to the norms of that gorgeous blue pebble you live in. And you've barely just brushed over my surface.

So my dear, you can go to the moon and stay there. You'd never be able to comprehend me in my true glory and intensity.

I think beyond walls and land and borders and oceans. And unlike you, my love will not be measured by distance - Its infinite - just like me, and the universe around me and under my skin.

We're not the same."

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I am that book people barely read because I have missing pages that have been torn out of me, ink spilled all over me, my cover's all worn-out, and my story never gets to the main plot. - Elveera

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What's more fucked up than regret?

Meeting that person you thought you loved after years of sleeping on a bed of nails made of regret, guilt and anger, all reduced to nothing by that same person who's now giving you new scars - on purpose- probably out of spite? Who knows! They won't tell you either. THAT beautiful memory that you carried with you in the deepest corners of your heart? That love story you based your existence upon? Well, it now has been painted with a fresh and thick layer of SHIT all over it.

Why? Because their life was shit so it only makes sense if everything else also turns into a big pile of shit!

So what's more fucked up than regret?

I guess its the regret of letting regret bring you regret when you knew so damn well, back then and now, that regretting was totally unnecessary.

You've been foolishly regretting something you had no control over, and should've simply just recognised and accepted that long back, years back, so this person who's full of shit wouldn't have any power over you.

Burst that bubble of regret you lived in that you also let live within you. Take that bed of nails you slept on and make a blanket out of it. Wrap yourself in it and roll over any leftover bubble of regret and guilt blocking your veins. Just poke and burst them all away so they pass through your body for good and become the shit storm they never saw coming.

#anger #regret #love #hate #writing

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I hope you never find me.

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An advice: Always give your abuser a clean final goodbye. Avoid the back and forth (no matter how tempting). It's so simple but we do it anyway especially with the people that matter the most.

Don't beg for someone to believe in you. Don't beg for anything ever. The minute you catch yourself begging you must realise it's time to run far far away from this person. With the back and forth you'll only end up losing respect for that person but more importantly you'll lose respect in yourself.

And of course I'm not saying that you shouldn't feel what you feel or express your feelings in the way you want to. Do it. The good, bad, and the ugly they've caused needs to bleed out of you until you've run yourself dry. So, fight, yell, break a few things (or don't). But empty your soul of every horrid thing that's caused by them or because of them. Get rid of the paradise you've sheltered and watered inside of you in the name of love.

Then one day (when you feel like it), get up, breathe in and let go. Don't look back. Cut the cord. Break free. Throw your phone away.

Let go of every memory (including the so called 'good ones' too because they're tainted with deceit now and holding on to them won't do you any good). Let go of all the lies, the grand charade they put up and all the hurt and hate they've caused you and all the people who care for you.

Remind yourself that it's all okay now. You'll be okay now. Narcissist or not, human or not, none of it was your fault.

You are now free to go where the river flows and you will see many sunrises and sunsets over the mountains and even wish on stars at night. You will work your way through it all and grow as a person, but more importantly, you will always harbour love and kindness in your heart, and you'll live in peace and harmony with the world around you and people you surround yourself with. Those who will only love, love, and love you very much.

And there'll come a day, when the abuser will cease to exist in your memory. Until then, go walk the riverbank and follow the river flow. It'll will get you thr hell out of the jungle before becoming another predator's snack. Go, find your people. Or do it alone if that's what makes you feel safe. And never look back.

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They said you have to be yourself and then they made me list out all the benefits of being polite.

#real

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Winged Creatures

Let me take you in to a forest

Where winged creatures abide.

Listen to the mellow music 

As their voices fill the void.

Watch them fly into a forest rainbow

And up higher, as they fleet into the sky.

They’re the reason, the forest grows

Sprinkling little seeds amid leap-carpeted floors.

These birds have seen more than you’ve seen

And travelled farther than you’ve been.

These graceful creatures – wild and free

Deserve a feathered life like this;

For imagine, what would have happened

If Tigers were blessed with wings!

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Leaving isn't easy, unless I'm leaving with you.

- Elveera

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I will love you when I'm ready. But I will not lend my heart out to you. I will love you good alright, but I can't help loving you any more than I love myself. That's just who I am now, try to make your peace with it.

We live in a generation built of boundaries. People don't cross oceans or stand on thin ice for love anymore, they'd rather just 'go with the flow' and get it done with. And sadly, we're happy with just that. We are a generation of realistic and logical love, even if our movies tell us otherwise. So don't take me wrong when I say that I don't love you with all my heart, I love you but just to be on the safer side I'm okay to not be insanely in love. If you ever hurt me, believe me when I say I'm over you.

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It's funny how people expect you to always be available for them. Even when it's you who really needs some support from them. But somehow you find yourself providing comfort to these people who don't even know what you are REALLY going through inside. And it's just sad. And it's tiring. And yet you'll always be there. Helping.

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The bravest people I know are the ones who are totally shattered inside. But they'll smile at you and at everyone else, as they walk alone past you and everyone else.

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