All Magicians are Fools

25 years of whatever the shit this is. hating from afar. gotta get over it or die.

[errent-ward]

nothing left here for me

playing slow

laying low

nothing left to say

breath shallow

checks hollow

[errent-ward]

 "in another moment down went Alice after it, never once considering how in the world she was to get out again." - Lewis Carroll

[lauvbytz]

need my friend to kiss my busted lips and tell me they love how I taste , blood n all .

[errent-ward]

I've started something that will be the end of me.

Also I am in desperate need of constant human interaction mutuals please bother me I want to be your friend so bad.

[errent-ward]

Sorry I was late to our date I was eating a disappointing pear

[errent-ward]

Fuck guys I had a focal seizure. It was kinda awesome after I realized I wasn't gonna die. I had a childlike sense of wonder a long lost sense of indifference to the aches and pains of my flesh.

[221bluescarf]

You think you know what a person in psychosis looks like, but you probably don't. It's not confined to someone walking down the street screaming at hallucinations or ranting to everyone about the FBI implants. And it's not an axe murderer. It can be someone quietly sitting alone. It can be someone having an anxiety attack. It can be someone who's disoriented and dissociated. It can look like anything.

I've had psychotic episodes where I simply come across as depressed and a little confused. I've had them where I'm anxious and rocking and crying but I'm not loudly proclaiming my delusion.

I've had psychotic episodes where I thought my family was being stalked and I had to harm myself to appease the beings stalking us but nobody knew. My injuries were hidden and I simply stayed inside the house.

I've had voices make me feel terrible so I just cry and talk about what an awful person I am but that just looks like low self-esteem.

It can be right under your nose.

Stop acting like you know exactly what psychosis looks like - especially if you assume people who have it are violent and out of control. If someone tells you they have psychosis or schizophrenia, don't treat them like a ticking time-bombs waiting to kill someone.

[landbacklashback]

This!!! My most severe psychotic episode went unnoticed for weeks. It took me telling my mother I was God for her to realize something was wrong. I otherwise acted normal, if not a bit depressed, and just spent more time watching TV than normal (I was convinced it was talking to me). It severely changed my mom's perspective of paranoid schizophrenia because my dad's psychotic episodes were violent and unhinged so she thought all of them were like that.

One of the reasons my boyfriend is a keeper is the first time I had a psychotic episode while we were dating he LEFT HIS FRIENDS HOUSE TO COME HELP ME. And he's never shamed me for it.

It is not that hard to treat people suffering psychosis like fucking humans 👏

[anarqueeen]

Turning the cuck chair around backwards to show I'm not like your other, boring cuckolds

[errent-ward]

*kick flips the cuckchair*

[plighthouse]

[natalieironside]

you ever notice how sometimes stuff is very interesting

[natalieironside]

and sometimes u can listen 2 music

[cipheramnesia]

sometimes there's a mouse

[natalieironside]

sometimes there's a mouse

[lady-of-vitreous-sight]

we're going into the sewers to learn how to talk to dolls because dolls are cute and good. nevermind she got killed by rats.

[footlongdingledong]

had a dream that there was this new tiktok trend called "scrubbing" where people would take images of fictional characters and put them in images of bathtubs and drag around transparent pngs of soap and brushes with their tiktok art tablets and like liquify tool their hair down to mimic giving them a shower. and people would get into flamewars in the comments of every single video over the types of soap they picked and if the images had decently removed backgrounds and if they got soap in their eyes. and it got onto the news because it turned out everyone doing the trend was doing it compulsively like they physically couldn't stop and each video was a solid few minutes long because they were just collectively obsessively recording themselves fake-showering these fictional characters and arguing about it online

[footlongdingledong]

for the record I have never used tiktok and like explicitly in the dream I learned about it secondhand from a discord server so there's that also which is funny I think

[errent-ward]

I was also having Discord in my dreams around this time, I learned of a (fictional) game from a friend of mine

[f4ggydog]

i’d support abortion even if it actually killed the baby

[errent-ward]

I'd support it if it killed the doctor too

[errent-ward]

[errent-ward]

how come w never see a Shadow Cat in game of thrones.

[errent-ward]

The urgency of the urges that are afflicting me have no ends, no means to achieve. I've taken to living in a closet in a living room. As The Dog did all his business in the square so I now do the same. As a feature of architecture to be observed and judged. Only the judgement of myself is to be trusted.

[errent-ward]

Comment I made to a coworker asking my pronouns

Me" I'm a schizophrenic anarchist, I do not have the time for identity politic"