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I can't put in words how much lifeless eyes 3 was a masterpiece. I loved every little bit of it. It was soo good. You are so talented. God bless you because you certainly blessed mine
Thank you!!!!! It's honestly so sweet and I'm really glad you loved it <33
Falling For You
Love I'm falling for you
Completely head over heel
Constantly looking for different ways
To let you know how I feel.
Love I'm falling for you
Deeper and deeper each day
I can remember everything you speak
I can recite everything you say.
Love I'm falling for you
With your entrancing eyes
And whenever they meet mine
I feel like I've received the biggest prize.
Love I'm falling for you
Having it bad for your contagious smile
Looking at it makes the worries melt
Just to see it I would gladly run a mile.
Love I'm falling for you
Why can't you understand, why can't you see?
You're that special person of mine
Always have, always will be.
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Blessing Or A Curse?
Have heard it enough times now
Most believe it to be true
That wishing a long life to someone
Is the right thing to do.
It is repeated like a ritual
In birthdays and programs few
But is the meaning ever understood?
Do they even think it through?
These wishes are piled on someone
Who achieves great heights and success
And it is because of these prayers
That they can steadily progress.
But they also heap it all on the people
With trembling hands and a body too weak
Why do you want to put them in more misery
When they can hardly stand and barely speak?
Maybe it is right for someone
Who actually wants to live and explore
But what about those broken shells
That genuinely don't want to exist anymore?
An extended life is a boon to some
Who are willing to struggle and remain
But those who suffer unknowingly
They think of it as a strain.
Though it would certainly be peaceful
To escape and have the last call
But ponder over everything for a second
Is going away really worth it all?
It is a paradox quite incomprehensible
Nobody can say what's better or worse
All have different versions of whether
Long life is a blessing or a curse?
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the black brothers really had no idea what love was or what it felt like but when they finally experienced it, they loved harder than anyone else and therefore we have:
james “fell first” potter and regulus “fell harder” black
remus “fell first” lupin and sirius “fell harder” black
James fell first but Reg fell harder
Rem fell first but Sirius fell harder
This is adorable-
The final part for Lifeless Eyes is out now!!! Thank you so much to the readers!! And I love your likes, comments and reblogs too!!
Love y'all <33
Lifeless Eyes pt.3
Pairing - Wolfstar x daughter!OC, Fred Weasley x OC!
Summary - Nova Lupin-Black comes home for the Easter holidays and her parents are in for a shock.
Warnings - breakdown, depression and cursing.
Here is the final part of the small series, my first ever as well! Hope you all enjoyed reading it as much as I loved writing this <33
Link for pt.1 here
Link for pt.2 here
And before she knew it, a pair of arms were wrapped carefully around her vulnerable frame.
Sirius held her close, pulling his daughter close against him as much as possible, wanting to hide her away safely from all of her demons.
"Shhh," he murmured and pressed his lips to the top of her head.
"Da," she sobbed, her hands tightening as she gripped his shirt. "I c- can't- 's too much- I can't do- I'm sorry-"
"Hush love," Remus whispered from her side and rubbed her back. "Let it out".
"Pa," she stuttered and lifted up her head to look at him and Remus had never felt his heart being broken like this before.
A huge amount of pain had struck his chest as he looked at her destroyed state. He himself was shaking and he could also feel his eyes starting to water.
Her eyes on the other hand were crimson red, puffy and all wet with the tears that continued flowing down. She was shattered, as though she really had enough of everything.
Remus swallowed down his own lump and cupped her face, "I'm here. I'm not going anywhere, okay? I'm right here," he said desperately and she fell right into his arms.
"I'm right here," he repeated and shut his eyes tightly, a lone tear slipping down at last as he hugged her.
Nova Lupin-Black cried.
She cried and cried and cried.
She cried till there were no more tears left to fall, she cried till her throat was sore, she cried till her eyes were a deep red and her face a mess, she cried till every broken piece inside of her was free of all the emotions that were kept bottled inside for too long.
Her body stopped trembling after a few minutes and she lifted her head from its place on Remus' shoulder.
She let a deep breath escape her lips as she wiped her face, feeling her heart lighten at the breakdown.
"Sit down," Sirius instructed softly and directed her towards the bed while also handing her a glass of water.
"Feeling better now?" Remus asked.
"Loads," she answered and sniffed. "My shoulders seemed to have lost half the weight".
The two just smiled at her, their faces the embodiment of gentleness and comfort. They glanced at each other and both had the same thoughts.
They sat in silence after that, both men in no way intending to pressure or rush her.
"Can- can I tell you everything?" Nova broke the quiet hesitatingly.
"Course you can, love," Sirius grinned, extremely glad at her decision.
"Take it at your own pace," Remus suggested. "Go slow if it gets too hard".
She nodded gratefully but was then stumped, "From where do I even start?" She laughed nervously.
"Anyhow you like it," they said in unison.
"Alright," she said and bit her lip before beginning. "Well I've been like this for the past 3-4 months at least. And I didn't know what was happening. One day everything just suddenly went dull, black and ugly. I was no longer happy, or enthusiastic or passionate about anything anymore. It took a lot of effort to even smile, you know? It was like my face was a statue, like my very heart had gone numb".
"Dolores Umbridge," she muttered suddenly and both of their eyes narrowed at the rather familiar name. "She's the main reason, Dad," she mumbled, addressing them both.
"That woman is horrible, vile, cruel, evil, monstrous and every other synonym there is left. She tortured everyone, Da!" She exclaimed with slight emotion.
Sirius didn't say anything but Remus noticed the way his jaw had tightened considerably.
"She- She still has us read all those useless textbooks that have nothing apart from ridiculously long theories and boring passages. We still don't do any practicals because she's afraid we're gonna start our own army or something. And she's turning a blind to Voldemort as well! Talking about Cedric that way-" her voice broke as she took a minute to collect herself.
Cedric Diggory. Her best friend, the type of brother she never had. The loving, handsome, funny, brave and pure Hufflepuff.
Her Ced, whose memory was tainted everyday by the woman's false statements.
Now the only thing Nova felt was anger, and both of her parents sensed it quickly.
"I tried Pa," she said honestly and looked at him, her grey eyes meeting his honey ones. "I really tried to be as quiet as possible and not let her taunts get to me. And I was good, seriously I was".
He nodded, knowing there was a huge but coming up. He wasn't angry at her of course, he knew she had tried.
"But you can't expect me to stay quiet when that bitch mentions you," she said through gritted teeth.
"She what?" Sirius asked sharply, his gaze an identical one to his daughter's.
"Yes she did!" Nova said, glad that someone was now on the same level of furious as her.
"What did she say?" Remus questioned, his mind once again filling with thoughts of self-hatred.
"I can't even say it for merlin's sake! She- she insulted you because of- because of your furry little problem. In front of the whole fucking class!" Nova seethed.
"She did not," Sirius now whispered in a deadly tone.
"She did, Da!" Niva riled him up even more, but the pair fell silent at Remus' warning look.
"What did you do?" He asked cautiously, not wanting her to be in trouble because of him.
"I defended you," she answered with an innocent smile that was failing to hide the satisfied smirk. "Respectfully".
"Sure you did," he scoffed but a smile spread across his face anyways at seeing Sirius high-five her and at the huge grin adorning her face now.
"I got detention, but it was worth it," she shrugged. "And don't you dare tell me off for that. Even if you do, it'll be all worthless as I'd do the entire thing again in a heartbeat," she warned.
"I won't say anything," he rolled his eyes playfully. "But you should've been careful".
"Godric do I feel so much better now that I've got everything off," she laughed .
She laughed.
The two men stared at her for a second before laughing out loud themselves.
"This was the main part, the rest was just stress, tension, pressure from the exams and studies," she added.
"Sure?"
"Sure," she nodded. "Hogwarts has really become a terrible place since that wretched thing has stepped foot inside. I don't even wanna go back," she mumbled.
"No problem!" Sirius said with a very obvious glint in his eyes. "We have a teacher at home, you'll be all set".
Remus shook his head as the two shared a wicked laugh. "As much as I would love to keep you here, darling, you have to go. Unfortunately".
Nova faked a pout and huffed dramatically before resigning to her fate. "Well, the force can't always be with me".
He chuckled and leaned back against the headboard of the bed, "What did she have you doing in detentions?"
Silence. And more silence.
Remus' smile faded as his eyes glanced between Nova and Sirius, who looked a bit anxious too.
"Love, what are you not telling us?" Sirius asked, eyes narrowed in suspicion and also anger at Umbridge.
"I- um- she had me doing lines," she answered, not fully honest but not lying either.
"And?" Remus prodded her, knowing there was something to add.
She sighed, her eyes wandering for a second before she slowly lifted up her sleeve and put forward her left hand.
All that followed her action was a deadly calmness, one that was so intense that she was sure there was going to be a murder happening soon.
Remus swallowed and his eyes pierced the swollen skin of his daughter's hand, his entire figure radiating anger.
"Always a monster, always a disgrace," Sirius read it out through gritted teeth. "She's etched these words, Nova!"
"She didn't do it by herself," Nova mumbled. "I was given a blood-quill, where you use your own blood to write and the words appear on your hand".
"That absolutely revolting and bloody maniac-" An endless stream of curses fell from his lips as he paced around the room.
"Pa?" Nova said cautiously.
Remus didn't say anything and just took her hand in his, his touch filled with every bit of gentleness that his eyes were failing to provide at the moment. He tapped the red skin with his wand and she hissed a little as he healed the deep cuts.
"It looks fresh," Sirius added as he sat down again and watched the wound being treated.
"Well I did have my last detention just a day before coming here".
"For how long?" Remus questioned.
"Almost a month now".
"Why didn't you send a letter?" Sirius muttered and was already planning different ways to commit a crime.
"She would've intercepted it and the result would be more detentions," Nova grumbled. "But it's okay though, I'm fine now".
"It's not okay!" Remus exclaimed. "It's not right to use these things on students. This is a form of torture for godric's sake!"
"I know, Pa," she nodded and spoke softly. "And believe me I would love nothing more than to beat the shit out of her, but it'll not only land me, but us all in trouble too. And it's not worth the risk".
"And where did that girl go who always quoted, 'What's life without a little risk?'" Sirius frowned, not at all liking this.
"I'm still the same, Da," Nova smiled. "But it's really not worth it".
"It bloody is, it's you who's on the line. It's worth every fucking risk," Remus scowled but he did understand.
"Yeah yeah whatever," she brushed it off and flopped onto his lap while keeping her legs in Sirius'.
"If you happen to get the news of Dolores Umbridge mysteriously turning bald, I didn't do anything," he said suddenly and the other two burst out laughing.
"You'll be the first to know," Nova grinned and poked his stomach.
The trio sat there till it was quite late. Just speaking randomly and enjoying each other's presence after being away for so long.
"I'll go get some water," Nova got up holding her stomach as she wiped tears of laughter from her eyes, the reason being Sirius' very bad joke.
She still had a smile on her face as she reached the kitchen and was met with her best friends.
"Hey boys," she greeted cheerfully and the two turned around unbelievably fast.
"Nov," George breathed out and his lips rugged upwards at seeing her back. He quickly went over and hugged her tightly, almost squeezing the life out of her.
She grinned and pulled away to see him pushing Fred towards her and then shooting them a wink before leaving the two alone.
"Hey Freddie," she whispered softly and snaked her arms around his neck as he pulled her close.
"Hullo love," he smiled giddily and wasted no time in pressing his lips to hers with double the passion.
He kissed her with every bit of emotion that was filling his heart, all for her. He kissed her as a sorry for not doing more, for not helping out more. He kissed her as a thank you for fighting the battle and coming out victorious. He kissed her lovingly, feeling his happiness rise upon seeing hers.
"Thank you," she said after they pulled away. Breathless and overwhelmed.
"Every time," he replied and pecked her cheek gently.
"And sorry too".
"I'll take that one as well".
The couple laughed like buffoons, being crazily drunk over each other that they were unable to form a meaningful sentence.
Fred gave her a beautiful smile and wrapped her in an embrace, "I love you".
Her lips twitched and she leaned her head on his shoulder, enjoying the warmth and intimacy. "I love you too".
She then pulled back and gave him one last kiss before saying good night.
"Night," he whispered back and watched with a daze as she walked up the stairs.
Nova still had the red hue that had coated her cheeks during the kiss and as she entered her room, her parents were quick to spot it.
"Took you long enough to just get some water, eh?" Sirius teased and lifted his eyebrows while Remus smirked.
"Oh shut up," she grumbled and laughed despite herself as she finally settled on the bed.
"Of course," Remus smiled, one that wasn't sincere in any kind of way making her roll her eyes.
"Sleep now," Sirius said after toning down the teasing session and turning off the lights.
"Yeah," she answered, grabbing the blankets and closing her eyes.
"Love you, darling," said Remus.
"Tons and tons," completed Sirius.
"I love you 3000," she offered them a cheeky grin and wink before letting sleep take her.
The two men chuckled fondly at her antics, glad to have their little star once again. They looked at her adoringly before gazing at each other with the same amount of love.
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Love iit..... I fricken loved the 2nd part of lifeless eyes.. The way you write is a blessing. Wanted to say that u are amazing and u deserve more appreciation. Hope you have a beautiful day. Love uuuu
Thank you soo much!!! It means so much when the readers comment and I'm really really glad that you liked it! I'll post the next part soon!
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Hey there everyone!! I'm back with the next part of 'Lifeless Eyes'. And am really sorry for the extremely long wait. The third part, which will hopefully be the last one is also in the works and will be posted soon as well!!
Do check it out and thank you for waiting!! Love <33
Lifeless Eyes pt. 2
Pairing - Wolfstar x daughter!OC, Fred Weasley x OC!
Summary - Nova Lupin-Black comes home for the Easter holidays and her parents are in for a shock.
Warnings - crying, breakdown, mental exhaustion.
There's going to be another part of this, it'll be out soon as well!
Link for pt. 1 here
Link for pt.3 here
Remus Lupin tapped his foot impatiently as he waited for the Hogwarts Express to arrive. He had been standing there along with Molly and Arthur, excited to see his daughter after months.
A smile grew on his face as he heard the familiar sound and the train finally stopped and hoards of students scurried out immediately.
His eyes wandered around swiftly as he searched for someone with sandy-brown curls similar to his own, and two tall red-heads who accompanied his daughter.
The smile faded slightly at not seeing Nova even after more than half of the students were already out. She was always the one to exit the train faster.
"There they are!" Molly said with a broad grin and he turned to see Fred and George walking toward them.
Remus looked around excitedly after spotting the twins, knowing she would be somewhere near the two.
But he couldn't see her anywhere even with his great eyesight. He frowned and looked quizzically at Fred, motioning with his hand on the whereabouts of Nova but the boy just shot him a sad look and pointed towards the train.
His frown deepened at the vague and strange reply but it was quickly replaced with a bright grin at seeing a familiar figure finally walk out.
She had the hood of her black hoodie on and when she pulled it down, Remus' heart sank and he felt it being shattered into pieces.
He couldn't believe she was his daughter. His Nova. It can't be.
His smile fell as quickly as it had come and in its place was a shocked, agonizing expression.
The first thing he noticed was her face, it had lost all of its colour and was sickly pale compared to her healthy tanned one from before.
Her grey eyes, instead of having the mischievous glint like her Da were now cold and sunken. Terrible circles underlined them, suggesting a lack of proper sleep and rest.
Remus' heart was breaking more and more as he started picking up every change that had taken place.
Her shoulders were hunched over a little, as though burdened by the weight of the entire world. He immediately thought it to be due to studies and something else he couldn't quite understand yet.
The only thing similar was the all-black clothes she wore, but even they seemed so sullen and down.
His lips were pressed together as he saw Harry walking next to her, the boy being in a bad state too. He watched Nova lifting her head to scan the crowd in search of him, but he couldn't even raise his hand to indicate his position.
He was too shocked at seeing the figure of those two.
Looking up, she finally spotted him and they made eye contact. He felt his heart lighten at seeing a smile spread across her weary face.
He let out an involuntary smile too as she ran towards him as fast as she could while keeping a hold on her luggage as well.
"Pa," she grinned once she was near enough and his lips stretched wide. Him not failing to notice the slight lifeless tone in her voice.
Nova wasted no time in jumping on him, making him stagger a little as he laughed. She wrapped her arms around him tightly, as though afraid that he'll disappear and she would have to go back again. Her face was pressed into his shoulder, taking in every bit of comfort provided by his form and breathing in relief at the familiar solace.
The soft material of his fuzzy sweater brushed against her cheek and she abruptly felt her throat tighten. She swallowed to get rid of the burning sensation that was getting more intense with every passing second.
"It's okay," Remus whispered as he rubbed her back. "It's alright".
Despite not knowing the reason for her shaken-up state, he somehow managed to calm her down. He told her it was okay and she believed him just like that.
"I missed you so much!" She exclaimed in a much more lively voice.
"I missed you too," he said and took the trolley from her hand before the two joined the Weasleys.
"She's looking better already," Fred muttered to his brother who nodded brightly. "Ready to go home, love?" He asked her.
A grin was seen on Nova's face, it wasn't matching her usual one, but it was at least some start. "Definitely".
So everyone took hold of each other and together, they all disapparated to appear on the doorstep of Grimmauld Place.
"Yeah just push me around like a bloody toy why don't you?" Ron scowled at George who was purposefully hitting his little brother.
"Shush it, Ronniekins," Ginny smirked, pointing at Molly who made a silencing motion with her fingers.
The door opened and in stepped everyone, their banter dying out as the air was drowned in silence.
"Where's Da?" Nova asked her father as she searched around the hallway and in the rooms hurriedly.
Remus chuckled softly at her eagerness, "He's in the kitchen. Hopefully, the room will be as it previously was and not broken or burned down".
"Wonderful faith you have in your husband don't you, Remus Lupin?" Sirius Black's voice called out and there he was, leaning against the doorway with his classic smirk.
"Da," Nova sighed at seeing him and rushed over towards him.
Remus' smile fell as he watched Sirius' eyes scan their daughter. He saw the shocked and troubled look in Sirius' eyes as he took in her disturbed and frazzled image.
Sirius was so lost in his thoughts, aghast about the apparent change in his daughter that he didn't even notice her hugging him. He quickly wrapped his arms around her after registering her doing the same and held her right, while also sharing a worried look with Remus over her head.
"Missed you, Dad," Nova whispered and did not attempt to pull away. While Remus gave her a sense of comfort and serenity, being in her Da's arms made her feel secure and guarded by everything.
"Ditto, darling," Sirius found the words and responded, gently squeezing her before pulling away to take a closer look at his daughter's face.
His heart felt heavy and he managed to give her a huge smile to let her know how happy he was to have her back. And he was, he was glad that she was home but was also a little uneasy at seeing the grim differences.
She gave him another small smile before dragging her trunk and swiftly darting into her room. Not giving anyone else a second glance as she disappeared.
Sirius walked over to Remus, his expression filled with anguish. "What the hell happened?!"
"I don't know," Remus muttered back in a quiet voice. "Something is seriously going wrong".
Sirius was about to say something when he caught sight of Fred and beckoned the twin over.
"What's wrong with Nova?" Sirius questioned as he placed his hands on Fred's shoulder. There was some sort of desperation in his voice.
The young man looked down with a miserable face and sighed, "It's been like this for the last two or three weeks. We've all been trying to get her to talk, but she wouldn't even open her mouth. She's hollow, a shadow of herself, as good as a ghost".
"Is someone giving her trouble?" Remus asked with a slightly stern tone.
Fred hesitated, he had promised Nova that he would not tell her Dads about anything. But he couldn't leave them without any answer, he could see very well that they were broken themselves.
"I don't know exactly, there are many things and as I said, she refuses to speak about them. Sometimes she gets stressed because of her studies, or we thought so. But it's something else too, something she's not telling us".
Remus and Sirius shared a worried look, both of them thinking continuously about the possible reasons.
"I think you two are the only ones who can bring her back," George interrupted and stepped beside his brother. "Me, Fred, Harry, Ron, Hermione, Ginny, Katie, Lee; everyone has tried".
"She smiled for the first time today, you know?" Fred whispered and the two older men felt even more saddened.
"Yeah," said George with a small chuckle. "Almost after a whole month".
"We'll talk to her," Sirius nodded frantically as though trying to reassure himself.
"But don't rush her," suggested Fred. "Take it at her pace. She will lash out at you or maybe even block you away".
"Don't worry, we'll handle it," Remus gave them a small smile and they left.
The couple was left in silence now. The grey-eyed man looked at his husband, taking notice of all the worry lines on his face. He walked over to Remus and wrapped his arms around the other's torso, burying his face in the comfy material of the sweater.
Remus released a deep breath and he too reciprocated the actions, holding the other tight. "We'll talk to her after dinner," he spoke quietly.
Sirius nodded but then looked up, his eyes filled with tears and shining silver.
If there was one thing that scared him the most, it was always regarding his daughter. He couldn't bear to watch his little star struggle like that.
"I'm worried, we're not gonna lose her are we?"
"Hey," Remus whispered and cupped his cheeks. "We're not losing her, love. She's just not in a right mindset. We'll talk to her, yeah? She's gonna be fine, completely fine. We'll have our Nova back in no time, okay?"
"Yeah," he smiled and leaned forward to gently kiss Remus slowly, passionately. As though they had all the time in the world.
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The two entered the kitchen and smiled at the chaos that was currently happening, their lips twitching at the house feeling lively once again.
Remus' eyes scanned the crowd and just as he was about to sit down, he noticed Nova was missing.
"I'll get her," Sirius voiced his thoughts and he nodded, though his forehead had a crease of concern.
Sirius silently walked up the stairs and knocked on Nova's door, hearing frantic shuffling from inside.
The door opened seconds later to reveal her standing there wearing an over-sized hoodie that belonged to Remus and he smiled softly.
"Can I come in?"
"Yeah 'course," she said and stepped aside as he walked in and gave the room a brief scan, noticing it being strangely clean and organized.
Nova sat cross-legged on her bed and picked up a random book, pretending to read because she was no way interested in a conversation.
"They're all playing downstairs, don't feel like joining them?" He questioned gently, making sure he wasn't overstepping any boundaries.
"Nah," she shook her head. "Not in the mood. Just tired actually".
He nodded, fully knowing that every sentence she uttered was a lie.
"I missed you," he then continued. "Me and Rem, we missed you a lot this time. Couldn't wait for the holidays".
"I missed you too, Da. A lot," she murmured and Sirius knew this was completely genuine, filled with more feelings. "Wanted to be here with you and Pa as soon as possible".
He shifted closer and wrapped his arm around her shoulder, instantly noticing how her grip seemed much tighter, as though- as though she was afraid that he was going away.
He didn't say another word, being silent the entire time and Nova was thankful for that.
She then turned and wrapped both of her arms around his torso as best as she could while still sitting and buried her face in his shoulder.
He heard her let out a deep breath and he tightened his hold, rubbing her back as he kissed her head.
He then pulled away after a moment, much to her reluctance.
Sirius gently placed his hand on her cheeks to make sure she was looking at him, much like he had done when she was younger.
"Nov, what's the matter? What happened at school?" He asked as softly as he could muster.
He saw the way her silver eyes darkened and narrowed at the mention of Hogwarts, saw the way her eyebrows furrowed and how her jaw clenched.
"As usual, Da," she replied with a brave smile. "Just drama, gossips, pranks, laughter. The usual stuff".
"Like I'm going to believe that," he said with a slight scoff and the door opened as Remus stepped in.
Nova's heart took up its speed as she realised what they were doing, they were going to question her. She couldn't avoid them now.
Her face took on a panicked expression as she looked at Remus, but he just offered her a kind and gentle smile and sat to her left.
"Do you really think we haven't noticed it, darling?" Sirius asked with an understanding look.
"It's not just you, Star. We've seen the others as well," said Remus.
"No no," Nova shook her head and gave a small laugh. "Nothing's happening. Harry, Ron and Hermione are just stressed because of their O.W.L.s".
Sirius heaved a sigh and looked at Remus, communicating silently.
"Hey," Remus whispered and gathered her attention. He took her left hand in his, holding it as he normally would and Nova's insides burned as though her body was being set on fire.
She put her entire self-control in not whipping her hand back this instant and instead focused her mind somewhere else. But his fingers unknowingly brushed against the cut and despite it being covered by her sleeve, it stung like hell.
She bit her lip hard, holding the smooth flesh in between her razor-sharp teeth to contain the slightest reaction.
But she couldn't hold on anymore and without being suspicious, she slowly extracted her hand back from his grasp. "Let's go have dinner, I'm hungry".
"Don't do this," Sirius frowned deeply, not wanting to let this topic go.
"We just wanna help, love. You can talk to us you know that right?" Remus inquired and she nodded.
"I know that, Pa! The only thing, there's nothing to talk about".
"Nova," he said massaging his temple and sighing. Not angry, of course not. He would never be mad over this, just a little impatient.
"I DON'T WANNA TALK!" She yelled out, losing her cool at last.
Despite the door of the room being closed, they still heard the silence that fell downstairs. They had clearly heard the shout.
"DON'T YOU GET IT? I DON'T WANT TO TALK!"
"Hey now," Sirius said quickly and took hold of her arms. "No need to get all violent, Lion. It's okay, it's fine".
"I don't wanna talk," she now mumbled. The fire extinguished to form cold ashes. "Please," she whispered and her eyes glossed over.
"Alright no issue, not at all," Remus smiled at her. "It's okay, darling. You don't have to talk. But you gotta understand our side too, yeah? We're worried, we're bloody scared, Nov. You don't know the state of my heart when I saw you on the platform today".
"And your friends?" Sirius continued softly. "They're scared beyond belief. They think they're losing you, they think the Nova they know is gone, and she would never come back".
"I know that," Nova muttered and glared daggers at the floor, keeping her eyes from tearing up again. "But I'm okay, Da. I'm fine".
"Are you though?"
A simple sentence, a simple three word sentence and that was all it took for her throat to burn with a newfound intensity.
She swallowed deeply, a shaky breath followed soon and her heartbeat went out of control. The world around her started spinning and she felt her head going crazy with everything.
Conversations, comments, and thoughts echoed in her mind. Torturing and punishing her cruelly. Testing her it seemed, as to how far exactly were her limits. As to how much she can handle, before it was too much?
But this was it, this was too much now.
She couldn't handle it anymore and in a split second, hot tears streamed down her face as she gasped and inhaled, unable to control herself.
And before she knew it, a pair of arms were wrapped carefully around her vulnerable frame.
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Always Love You
I actually did it
I got her parents' approval
Now the task is out of the way
One that was indeed very crucial.
Then two days passed by in a flash
And came along a moment so precious
That I still remember her teary eyes
And the contrasting smile, indefinitely infectious.
Now here I am in my room
Looking in the mirror as I put on the suit
Thanking every deity for making our struggles.
Bear a pure and invaluable fruit.
I took a deep breath and braced myself
Nodding at the showered encouragement
Before fixing my time and walking out R
eady for a lifelong commitment.
I was standing waiting on the altar
When my breath got caught in my throat
My heart took up a pace unimaginable
From the minute I heard the musical note.
Then the doors just opened wide and
Standing there I saw my whole life
Time slowed and all I had processed was
"Do you take this woman to be your wife?"
I gazed at her beautiful face and said
"It was constantly, consistently, continually you"
Nobody has ever come close and never will
And effortlessly did the words fall; "Yes I do".
She looked at me with eyes full of love
As under the stars we had our first dance
Then I stepped closer and we laughed
Because we had our own fairytale romance.
Throughout the night all I thought was that
She really is a dream come true
A once in a lifetime chance and darling
Whatever may happen, I'll always love you.
-etherealacoustic
Tell Me Why?
Tell me why?
That whenever your eyes meet
Your breath starts to quicken
And you feel the existence of your heart's beat.
Tell me why?
That every time you hug her
Your arms are wrapped tightly
As though she's your anchor.
Tell me why?
That whenever your hands touch slightly
A deep blush coats your cheeks
Along with a smile formed too quickly.
Tell me why?
That every time you hear her name
You perk up with brightened eyes
And the ember in you turns to a flame.
Tell me why?
That whenever she's not there
You always feel sad and continue to sulk
As you hopelessly stare.
Tell me why?
That every time she looks down with a smile rueful
You simply gaze at her with admiration
Because god is she so beautiful.
Tell me why?
That whenever I question you more
You laugh and say it's funny
Nothing major hundred percent sure.
Tell me why?
That every time you call it a silly liking
Your eyes display all of the emotions
Clearly telling it's that 4-letter feeling.
- etherealacoustic
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Um sorry to bother I was just wondering when is a new part of lifeless eyes coming out?
Oh half of the part is actually written down, I just didn't complete it yet. Now that I have someone asking me, I'll be sure to post in 2-3 days?
Thank you btw, and it's not a bother at all❤️
Also any ideas you can give me? That you want to see included in the next part?
Nervous
Pairing - Kim Namjoon x Female! Reader
Warnings - none!
Summary - Your husband Namjoon and BTS get an invitation to the White House. He's nervous so you comfort him.
I suck at summaries I'm so sorry, but seriously though.. Me being proud is such an understatement 💜
Just look at this man here, who doesn't love him🥺🥺💜
It had been quite a time since the sun had set, covering the sky with a dark blanket filled with a few stars.
There were still various noises heard. Loud honking from cars, chattering of people on the roads and in shops.
You were driving past a row of various stalls, the car window rolled down as you enjoyed the gentle wind caressing your face. Soft romantic songs played on the radio and you hummed softly under your breath.
You were working late today as it was the last weekday and decided to buy some chocolate pastries for the members.
The jet black car slowed down as it neared its location, the streetlights reflecting on the car's surface making it look beautiful.
'Black is always the best colour,' you thought to yourself and smiled at your husband who seemed to disagree with you, his preference being white.
A soft sound was made when your feet padded gently against the ground as you climbed the stairs and rang the doorbell of Bangtan Sonyeondan's dorm.
"Hello, Noona!" Taehyung greeted you with his signature boxy smile and hugged you tightly.
"Hey Tae," you chuckled and rubbed his shoulders. "Alright everyone?"
"Never been better," Jungkook grinned and you furrowed your eyebrows at the ecstatic glint in his eyes.
"Anything I missed out on?" You asked and handed the pastry bag to him.
"Oh yes! Great news indeed," Hoseok nodded dramatically and took his share of the cake.
"And what might that be?" You questioned with an amused look and sat down on the sofa.
"Namjoonie hyung will tell you," Jimin grinned cheekily and as soon as he said that, the very person stepped in.
"Hey there," you smiled softly as your husband made his way over to you, decked in a random t-shirt and tracks as he flopped down next to you.
"Hey," he laughed and pulled you into his warm embrace, wrapping his arms securely around your waist as yours went around his neck.
A deep sigh escaped his lips as he snuggled even closer, arms tightening around you as his head rested on your shoulder.
Your palm rubbed his back, hoping to relieve him from all of the stress and pressure he felt from the day.
"Hyung!" Taehyung called out, succeeding in breaking the peaceful moment between the two of you. "Tell her the news!"
"Yeah do tell this very exciting and thrilling news," you rolled your eyes as your lips twitched upwards.
"It is exciting," Jin smirked and Yoongi nodded enthusiastically in response making you raise your eyebrows.
You turned to look at Namjoon, taking notice of the slight shyness wedged somewhere between his huge excitement. His eyes were shining brightly, his smile so wide that the dimples on his cheeks were more evident.
"We're going to Washington D.C. on Tuesday," he revealed making you nod. "We- We've been invited to the White House to talk about Asian Hate".
As he finished, your mouth hung open and eyes widened unbelievably as his words started to register in your brain. "You're going to give a speech?! At the White House?!"
"Yep," Taehyung grinned, obviously pleased by your incredibly surprised reaction.
"That's- That's amazing!" You finally found the words to speak after comprehending the fantastic announcement.
"You guys- It's so bloody brilliant!" You laughed loudly and pulled Namjoon in a tight hug and repeated the action with every member, the smile never slipping off.
"I was frozen for five minutes when we were informed," said Hoseok with a nervous chuckle.
"I hate when you all do this," you spoke earning yourself confused looks. "Just yesterday I was thinking that I couldn't be more proud of what you're doing, and then you lot prove me wrong the very next day by doing something a lot more incredible".
You looked at every member to see all of their faces becoming flushed at your compliment.
"It's all because of Army really," Jungkook murmured making everyone nod their heads.
"Why don't you all go and sleep?" You questioned in a quiet voice as your eyes scanned their pleased but weary faces. "Must've been a long day".
"Yeah," said Jin and rubbed his eyes before going into his room.
"Night," Yoongi smiled at you and you greeted back.
"Noona! Get me a red velvet pastry next time!" Taehyung's voice was heard making you laugh.
"I'll make sure!"
Everyone had finally disappeared into their bedrooms except for you and Namjoon. You turned to face him, trying to read his thoughts from his expression.
"What's wrong? You seem.. Scared?" Your gentle voice asked making his dark brown eyes snap towards you.
"Just nervous," he replied and took your hand in his, entwining your fingers and rubbing small circles on the back with his thumb.
"It's a big deal you know?" He continued and you simply nodded, not wanting to interrupt him in any way. "BTS is a huge name but I still get scared whenever we are invited to these important events".
"Mhmm. Speaking at the White House about such a critical topic is not an easy task," you agreed and he nodded.
"It's such a meaningful subject, millions of people are involved heavily and... I'm scared that something I'll say will create controversy or an argument," he sighed and leaned his head against the sofa, eyes closed as thoughts ran through his mind.
"Hey now," you whispered. Moving closer as you cupped his cheek, making him look at you. "I know it's difficult and it's okay. But don't you forget those speeches you gave at the UN. Remember all of the messages you received, from Army who loved your speech and were so encouraged".
"But what if I say something wrong and something completely irrelevant?" He asked and looked desperately into your eyes for some sort of comfort.
"I seriously doubt that's gonna happen. You're Kim Namjoon for god's sake! If you have your way, I bet you can even make a poem on the spot," you grinned and squished his cheeks together.
"You know just the thing to say, don't you?" He let out a small laugh making your lips turn upwards naturally.
"It's a skill," you responded and he nodded in complete agreement.
His grin faded to a soft smile as your eyes locked, his gazing intently into yours as they surveyed every inch of your face and stopped to stare at your lips.
Love was lighting every part of his face as he gazed at you. It was present in the crinkles at the corner of his eyes, seen in his glinting irises, and visible in his beautiful smile as he admired the love of his life.
"You're beautiful," he whispered and stared adoringly at you, a fond smile playing on his lips as he contemplated over the overwhelming amount of love that was making his heart swell.
"I know that already," you winked and he chuckled at your answer but smirked when you looked down with a red hue covering your cheeks.
A strand of hair had fallen in front of your face and before you even lifted up your hand, his was already there, carefully tucking it behind your ear. His touch feeling so soft, and so gentle on your skin.
His palm came up and was placed on your cheek as he leaned in closer, eyes slowly fluttering close as your lips collided with each other.
It was the most gentle kiss. Filled with comforting words, proud feelings, supportive actions, loving touches and everything that didn't need to be said.
He pulled away with a subtle blush coating his cheeks, eyes glistening with every ounce of affection he held for you and only you.
"Come with me?" He mumbled and tugged on your arm to pull you against him, his head buried into your neck as the soft strands tickled your cheek.
"I'm sure you can manage fine by yourself," you smiled and gently ran your fingers through his hair soothingly.
"Please?"
"Joon, you know I-"
"I need you there by my side. I need your support, your help. Please come with me," he muttered and fixed his grip on your waist.
"Alright fine," you sighed and accepted defeat. "You can be quite stubborn when you want to," you frowned and he laughed.
"Well I did learn from the best," he teased and pressed a kiss on your shoulder.
"Jungkookie is quite stubborn," you agreed, completely ignoring the actual answer.
"I meant you," he smirked and pulled you against him for another loving kiss.
"Oh I had no idea!" You gasped in mock surprise and laughed, his head resting on your chest as your fingers played with his hair.
A few moments passed in serene silence and Namjoon lifted his head to look at you, his eyes filled with every bit of warmth and passion his entire self held for his wife.
"I love you," he whispered and pressed his lips against your cheek tenderly. "So much".
Your throat abruptly felt tight and you swallowed heavily, your body suddenly overcome with emotion. "I love you too".
You both smiled at each other, a smile that held every feeling and every sentiment you two felt for one another.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THIS WONDERFUL MAN!!! 🥳💜🫰
Y'all thank you sooo much for 50 followers already!!!! 🤩❤️❤️
I'll surely be back with another fic very soon!! Any requests?
PS - love you sm <33
Two Truths and a Lie!
Rules: Share two truths and one lie about yourself, tag five people to guess your lie and to share their own, make sure to guess the lie of the person who tagged you!
and 🤔 mmm I wanna guess that 3, you never went to music festivals, is your lie? I’m real tempted to say 2, but even smart people can repeat grades for one reason or another. Ohh I love this game, though I’m pretty bad at guessing games. I got tagged by@de-sire-blog
Now mine, which I had a lot of trouble coming up with xD
1. I used to get into lots of trouble for fighting and what not in school because anger issues~
2. I was basically raised at renaissance fair for how often my parents and I attended from my birth until I was about 6-7.
3. I once had plans to become a musician and/or actor until I realized my social anxiety was way too terrible, so I settled for doing art instead.
Tagging, but no pressure ~ @thebattlehamster @miss-bibbles @jegulus-trash @clifford-thebigreddog
Thank you for the tag! ♡ I’m gonna be honest, it really sounds like 2 is the lie, but 3 sounds sketchy because who wouldn’t want to listen about carnivorous amphipods??
My 2 truths and a lie
1. I prefer cats over dogs
2. I own more than one crop top
3. I have a drivers’ licence
My tags: @androsovalydochka, @stories-from-saint-petersburg, @kaus-quietis, @platykool, @koiblossom5, and everyone who wants to join ^^
Hmmm, I think 3 one is a lie? Idk, I am not sure, this is just my guess. I amn’t really good at such stuff.
My 2 truths and a lie:
1. My classmate once nearly set our class on fire just with air freshener and lighter.
2. I used to have a crush on historical person for 4 years.
3. I wanted to be a doctor when I was little
Idk, this is what I could come up with, I am very bad at this.
no pressure tag; @crimsonrosee , @kallian , @tachiehara , @blondboyfiend , @okura-s , @quanxui , @immuno , @ficharsimp
My guess is 3 is a lie because 2 must be true and 1 is too specific to be false. Thanks for the tag!
1. i used to want to become a writer
2. i prefer baking over cooking
3. i was a choir kid
Tagging (but no pressure!) @adreaminadream @pannanti @rolling-raccoon @stuffgoeswrong @shokussy @shittydazai @nikiforova @silmarillia @captivatingbookworm
ooh this is fun! thank you for the tag mary 💞
hmm i think 2 is a lie! i’ve seen you talk about lit so 1 seems true and 3 is really specific! so i think maybe you prefer cooking over baking?
my 2 truths and a lie:
i’m a morning person
i can walk on stilts
i used to practice archery because i wanted to be like legolas as a kid
tagging (no pressure!): @reinerist @chebaba @alienjack @sparkly-things @professionallyclumsy @jonwatson @varyagated @sarejanet @hikarry @nostalgic-bee + anyone else who wants to do this!
Thank you for the tag!! This seems fun!!
I think 1 is a lie, 3 is very specific and 2 is also pretty specific? So I’ll say the lie is 1
1. I briefly wanted to be a photographer
2. I’ve never been outside the U.S
3. I used to do dance for awhile as a kid
Tagging: @sarejanet @springstarfangirl @sapphieissleepy @hikarry @bdeblueyes and anyone else who wants to join!
I think 1 is a lie, since I am fully aware that the USA is huge and many people have never left it, and most people wind up doing dance as kids anyway. (I didn’t but there, I’m no measure for the general population.)
I was once almost kidnapped by aliens (in my brain at least)
My younger brother and his friend have Haikyuu nicknames (they haven’t watched the show though, this leads to shenanigans)
I have broken my foot twice (once in first grade, then again in fifth) and my arm once (thankfully it was my left arm, I suck at writing ambidextrously)
Tagging: @kenmas-blue-psp @aliens-took-my-iwa-chan @narashikari @faeratil @hypomanicsatanicpanic @kill-the-liiights @oh-look-isa-weeb @victoronyurionice @fxbvlously-weird @sapphieissleepy
I feel like 2 is a lie, I think 3 is too detailed to be a lie although I could be wrong, and 1 just gives off truth vibes for some reason (i’m probably wrong lmao)
1. i made myself think i had a crush on someone in 4th grade bc we both had the same interests
2. i got glasses in 3rd grade and started wearing contacts in middle school
3. i broke my right arm while on the monkey bars at this playground bc i was trying to prove i could cross it and fell
Tagging (no pressure to do this!): @bussyenthusiast @aliens-took-my-iwa-chan @austin13kai @quinnpenn @strawbxrry-heart @felwastruckbylightning <3
I think 2 is the lie 1 and 3 feel like smth you’d do tbh
1. I’m an oikawa kinnie
2. I once jumped from a balcony and broke my tailbone because I wanted to prove a point
3. I have fancy by Iggy azalea stuck in my head rn
no pressure tags: @invith @chemistink @aliens-took-my-iwa-chan @quinnpenn @okitagumi @roobgumball95 @ anyone tbh
I think it’s 1 because i know you’re an iwa kinnie and i dont think you can be both at once. 2 i believe without a moment of hesatation
1) my earliest memory is stealing candy at a gas station because my mom said i could only have one but i wanted 2
2) i loathe anything that tastes or smells like mint. No it is not “fresh breath” it stinks get out of my face with your nasty gum. The colour mint is beautiful thought
3) i died my hair pink yesterday, because i felt like it. My bathroom is still a mess but you know what? It looks prettier like this.
Good luck ♡♡♡
@fantasticcolorcloudflap @aliens-took-my-iwa-chan @lunar-writes @bussyenthusiast (yes i know you tagged me but i want to know if i was right and also what you’d pick)
Uhhhh- I think 2 ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
Now let’s see… (It took me way to long to think of the lie)
Once skiing I fell down and hit my ass and it still hurts three years later
I once found a dead wild pig in the woods that stunk so bad
I’ve almost got run over by a truck
Tagging (no pressure) @cortanas-wielder @elettralightwood @wtf-is-reality @rinadragomir @ahanahahaha <3
Ooooooh I think. Its 1?
1. ive dug graves.
2. I swallowed an entire banana.
2. I had nightmares about janus.
@i-am-a-really-good-lawyer @romas-dorogaya @wtf-is-reality @onetimetwotimesthreetimess
Hmmmm…..I think 2 is a lie
1. I have broken someone’s heart
2. I played state level chess
3. Someone once fell on top of me and I got a fracture
tagging @i-am-a-really-good-lawyer @elettralightwood @ninacarstairss @lxdyblackthorn
hmm all possible… i think 3?
ok mine:
1. i once dressed up as jace for a costume party
2. i don’t have my ears pierced
3. i’ve lived in 4 different places, but all in the same city
tagging @gayforcarstairsgirls @lqdyofroses
Oooh thanks for the tag @lxdyblackthorn! I feel like number two could be the lie…? If not then you have duped me
Oki so mine:
One time I managed to break my leg by falling off a cross-trainer at school (like a running machine thing), and when I went to the school nurse she wouldn’t even give me paracetamol cause apparently I was fine??
When I was a toddler I used to steal toys from other children at toddler group, I was really fast and just used to take stuff and run
As a kid I was in a choir, but I was so bad at signing that the guy running it told me to just mouth the words instead (I was very upset by this)
Tagging @elettralightwood @fighting-god-69 @fantasticangelrebel @kiwichaeng and anyone else who wants to do this! This was fun 😂
Edit: This is super late, I’m sorry, but here it is 😅
Omg, these all sound feasible 😂 Especially the first one cause ✨school nurses✨ So, maybe two…?
Alright, here are mine:
1. One time I was at school (like first grade or something) and we were listening to this like childish song about penguins and I whispered an edited version of the song to a friend next to me involving blood and gore. The teacher somehow heard it, demanded to know who said it and everyone pointed at me and I got a red card.
2. I have a fear of heights ever since I nearly fell off a ladder.
3. My eyes are brown.
Tagging my mutuals: @wordsinheavyblue @burn-my-kruge @khaleesiofalicante @alec-not-alright-wood @kalifornia2001 @sociallyineptbibliophile @thomastaircompassrose @saphire-blue @fangirlfreak08
Honestly 1 sounds wayyy to specific to be fake so imma guess 3’s the lie
Okay so two truths and a lie
1. I have matching tiktok usernames with a friend
2. I’ve only ever lived in one place (like building not just area)
3. I used to have one direction wallpaper
No pressure tags are gonna beeee @malinisgayfightme @crimsonrose14 @etherealacoustic @nofreakingmourners @fourthwallhateclub @fangirl1005 @iamloki @thecrxwclub
Alright here it goes, also thanks for the tag btw❤️
1. I took some money, only a very less amount and snuck out of my house with my friends to buy chocolates and all.
2. I've never travelled out of my country.
3. I play drums.
@alystar00 @wolfstardaughter-jj @marauders4evr @remusluvpin
In The Stars
Pairing - Remus Lupin x Sirius Black
Warnings - character death, death, depression.
Summary - A oneshot describing Remus' state after the death of his husband.
Sunday mornings were your favorite, I used to meet you down on Woods Creek Road. You did your hair up like you were famous, even though it's only church where we were going.
"Sirius!!" Remus Lupin-Black's tired voice called out yet again from his place on the sofa. "I swear if you don't get here within two minutes I'm going by myself!"
"Hold on I'm coming!" Sirius Lupin-Black yelled back from the bedroom making Remus sigh at the repeated reply.
He was sitting in the living room for fifteen whole minutes, waiting for his husband to get ready. They were just going to go on a walk across the street but Sirius heavily insisted that he needed extra time to become handsome.
"Sirius, love. We're not going to attend a bloody fashion show. It's just a walk for merlin's sake!"
"Yeah yeah just a minute!"
But it certainly had been more than a minute. Five to be exact.
"Sirius Orion-" Remus began in an irritated voice but was cut off by the devil himself standing in front of him.
There he was. Leaning against the wall, arms crossed upon his chest and the classic smirk stretching his pink lips. Dressed in skinny black jeans and a black silk button down with sleeves rolled up to his elbows, and a few buttons unbuttoned; he was quite the view.
"You were saying?" Sirius asked and stepped closer, placing himself only inches apart.
Remus' breath hitched as he noticed the hair being tied into a man bun and a few stray locks framing the well-defined face. "Nothing," he breathed and stood staring for a second before leaning in and kissing the other breathless and senseless, just like he had been moments ago.
"Oh wow," Sirius muttered after pulling away and grinned widely. "You're looking great too," he smiled.
A blush coated Remus' cheeks as they walked out and locked the door behind them. "Let's go".
"Yeah," he smirked and laughed before pressing a kiss on the other's cheek.
That was the last time they had ever hung out freely. Without any care, without any worry. Just them.
This was the last fond and happy memory they had before it was snatched away, taken from them sooner than necessary.
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Now, Sunday mornings I just sleep in. It's like I buried my faith with you. I'm screamin' at a God I don't know if I believe in. 'Cause I don't know what else I can do.
Golden rays passed through the clear glass windows of the small cottage, drowning the room in warmth and waking up the sleeping man from his slumber.
He opened his eyes, not even bothering to look at the time as he sat up. Everything seemed meaningless and empty, but he was used to it.
Or at least, Remus thought so.
It had been three months and still, he felt his heart clench and tighten at the sight of every photo frame. He felt his chest become heavy and his throat burn at every memorable thing.
He walked into the kitchen and did all the work exactly in order, nothing even a little different than the other days.
Everything around him seemed hollow, dull, lifeless and void of every emotion.
He couldn't bring himself to even go outside for some fresh air, afraid that he'll see something that'll make his already broken heart crack once again.
He didn't have a single ounce of energy, hope, faith or warmth inside him. It was like Sirius hadn't just left, but had taken all these things from him as well.
He drained the cup of tea. Black tea, his preferred choice these past few days. The drink mirrored Remus' feelings quite accurately.
Dark. Emotionless.
He went out in the living room to sit on the couch and stare around mindlessly. His wandering honey-brown eyes stopped on a particular photo hung on the opposite wall.
It was their wedding picture.
Sirius, his husband dressed in a gorgeous black tux. His long locks swaying and a genuine smile painting his lips. His hands were intertwined with Remus, who was in a white suit. They were moving on the dancefloor, doing their first dance.
Remus pressed his lips against each other and shifted his glance to another frame.
A lone tear slipped down his cheek, dropping from his chin and onto his lap.
"Why?" He whispered, voice shaking a little. "Why me?"
But there was no one to answer that question. He was alone. Again. Forever.
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I'm still holding on to everything that's dead and gone. I don't wanna say goodbye 'cause this one means forever.
18th June. One year since the death of Sirius Orion Lupin-Black. One year since he passed, leaving his Remus all by himself.
Remus was standing in his bedroom, arms wrapped around himself as he stared out of the window. It was late afternoon and he watched random leaves fly around in the air before falling down.
He sighed, biting his lip before opening his wardrobe. He pushed shirts in search of that familiar clothing and felt his jaw tighten after getting hold of it.
It was that black silk button-down shirt. Sirius' shirt to be clear.
With slightly trembling fingers, he took the clothing and wore it himself, instantly feeling a small amount of warmth and at the same time an abrupt coldness seeping into his body.
He then pulled out a black leather jacket, another one of his husband's prized possession. His fingers ghosted over the Orion belt stitched on the back before putting it on.
He then walked up to his mirror and examined himself, but not seeing his reflection, no. All he could see was Sirius' image staring back at him.
That carefree posture, his signature black clothes, hair tied back with the usual smirk. And those goddamn grey eyes, sharp and mischievous but also loving and sweet.
Remus blinked, and he disappeared.
He shut his eyes tightly for a moment and then went over to the photoframe that depicted a picture of Sirius.
He raised his hand to the level, fingers gently brushing across the length as he admired the beautiful masterpiece before him. A small smile spread on his face.
"I miss you, Sirius. So, so much," he whispered under his breath and then with the bouquet red roses in his hand, he disapparated to the village of Godric's Hollow.
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Now you're in the stars and six feet's never felt so far. Here I am alone between the heavens and the embers.
Remus Lupin smiled at the familiar streets and houses. Feeling a little refreshed by walking in the fresh and clean air.
His feet kept moving as he looked around as though the path was way too familiar. And it was. He had been on this same road thrice already. Once for Euphemia and Fleamont Potter, the second time for James and Lily and the third for Sirius.
All three times being horribly painful, heart-wrenching and shattering.
He took in a shallow breath at the sight of that all-too familiar manor. Previously the most elegant, extravagant and comfortable, but now all broken, destroyed and cold.
Remus closed his eyes, preparing his body and his mind before entering the graveyard which was becoming quite a common place of visit for him.
He walked towards the graves, his feet moving on their own accord as though the route was memorized, and it was.
He stood in front of the gravestone, staring at the gorgeous and flawless white marble before letting out a puff of air and sitting down cross-legged.
A small smile spread across his lips as he looked at the name engraved intricately in the smooth surface.
In loving memory of
Sirius Orion Lupin-Black
3rd November 1959 - 18th June 1996
"What's life without a little bit of risk?"
Remus gently placed the roses on his grave, his fingers lingering on the surface and brushing stray leaves away.
He got up to sit on his knees, leaning forward carefully to press his forehead against the head. Eyes closed tight as he clutched the stone.
Abruptly, he felt a lump in his throat making him swallow down harshly. But it didn't stop, the burning sensation was still present and before he knew it, tears did escape.
And once they had a free opening, they kept falling. Trailing down his cold cheeks, to his lips, to his jaw and then falling down.
He breathed in and let out a quiet sob, being unable to pull himself away from the grave of his husband, wanting nothing more than for him to be alive, wishing nothing more than for the two to be buried side by side.
"Why?" Remus cried out silently, his voice trembling just like his figure. "Why'd you leave me, Pads? We had an agreement, remember?"
He sniffed and pulled away to wipe the tears none too gently. "Y- You don't understand how much I need you here right now. Why? You were always there for me, weren't you? And now that I need you the most, you're n- not here".
He let a few more tears fall down freely before opening his eyes and blinking to clear his vision. His eyebrows furrowed upon feeling something atop his head. He reached up his hand to see a leaf, a maple leaf.
And despite his earlier situation, he couldn't help but let out a small laugh. He looked at the leaf again before turning back to the headstone. "Look at you still making me laugh not even a minute after I cried".
With his honey-brown eyes twinkling, his gaze wandered and stopped at a sight that only caused the smile on his face to widen.
He was staring at the night sky, more specifically at a particular constellation that he spotted at once, his irises not moving from the brightest star that was shining up above in all its glory.
"Sirius," he whispered as he stood up, eyes still locked on the star.
"I know you're up there," he continued softly with his lips twitching. "And I also know you're having quite the fun. What with James, Lily, Reg, Marlene, Dorcas and Mary all being there. I'm really jealous now to be all alone here".
He blinked again to get rid of the few tears that were again welling up, "I miss you, my love. More than you can imagine. And I can't wait until I get to see you again".
"I love you so much," he murmured and looked up again. "Always and forever".
And Remus swore that he saw the star twinkling, he swore that the star actually did brighten for a second and a dorky and loving grin was etched on his face.
The dog star, the brightest star flickered once again. As though it was hearing everything, as though replying to the adoring statement that was said.
It was twinkling as if wanting to say a response. As if Sirius Lupin-Black himself was up there, with his dark hair tied back in a bun and his silvery-grey eyes dancing with mischief. With an affectionate smile on his lips and obvious love present on every inch of his face.
I love you too.
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I love them so much it's not even a joke- 😭❤️🤧
In The Stars
Pairing - Remus Lupin x Sirius Black
Warnings - character death, death, depression.
Summary - A oneshot describing Remus' state after the death of his husband.
Sunday mornings were your favorite, I used to meet you down on Woods Creek Road. You did your hair up like you were famous, even though it's only church where we were going.
"Sirius!!" Remus Lupin-Black's tired voice called out yet again from his place on the sofa. "I swear if you don't get here within two minutes I'm going by myself!"
"Hold on I'm coming!" Sirius Lupin-Black yelled back from the bedroom making Remus sigh at the repeated reply.
He was sitting in the living room for fifteen whole minutes, waiting for his husband to get ready. They were just going to go on a walk across the street but Sirius heavily insisted that he needed extra time to become handsome.
"Sirius, love. We're not going to attend a bloody fashion show. It's just a walk for merlin's sake!"
"Yeah yeah just a minute!"
But it certainly had been more than a minute. Five to be exact.
"Sirius Orion-" Remus began in an irritated voice but was cut off by the devil himself standing in front of him.
There he was. Leaning against the wall, arms crossed upon his chest and the classic smirk stretching his pink lips. Dressed in skinny black jeans and a black silk button down with sleeves rolled up to his elbows, and a few buttons unbuttoned; he was quite the view.
"You were saying?" Sirius asked and stepped closer, placing himself only inches apart.
Remus' breath hitched as he noticed the hair being tied into a man bun and a few stray locks framing the well-defined face. "Nothing," he breathed and stood staring for a second before leaning in and kissing the other breathless and senseless, just like he had been moments ago.
"Oh wow," Sirius muttered after pulling away and grinned widely. "You're looking great too," he smiled.
A blush coated Remus' cheeks as they walked out and locked the door behind them. "Let's go".
"Yeah," he smirked and laughed before pressing a kiss on the other's cheek.
That was the last time they had ever hung out freely. Without any care, without any worry. Just them.
This was the last fond and happy memory they had before it was snatched away, taken from them sooner than necessary.
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Now, Sunday mornings I just sleep in. It's like I buried my faith with you. I'm screamin' at a God I don't know if I believe in. 'Cause I don't know what else I can do.
Golden rays passed through the clear glass windows of the small cottage, drowning the room in warmth and waking up the sleeping man from his slumber.
He opened his eyes, not even bothering to look at the time as he sat up. Everything seemed meaningless and empty, but he was used to it.
Or at least, Remus thought so.
It had been three months and still, he felt his heart clench and tighten at the sight of every photo frame. He felt his chest become heavy and his throat burn at every memorable thing.
He walked into the kitchen and did all the work exactly in order, nothing even a little different than the other days.
Everything around him seemed hollow, dull, lifeless and void of every emotion.
He couldn't bring himself to even go outside for some fresh air, afraid that he'll see something that'll make his already broken heart crack once again.
He didn't have a single ounce of energy, hope, faith or warmth inside him. It was like Sirius hadn't just left, but had taken all these things from him as well.
He drained the cup of tea. Black tea, his preferred choice these past few days. The drink mirrored Remus' feelings quite accurately.
Dark. Emotionless.
He went out in the living room to sit on the couch and stare around mindlessly. His wandering honey-brown eyes stopped on a particular photo hung on the opposite wall.
It was their wedding picture.
Sirius, his husband dressed in a gorgeous black tux. His long locks swaying and a genuine smile painting his lips. His hands were intertwined with Remus, who was in a white suit. They were moving on the dancefloor, doing their first dance.
Remus pressed his lips against each other and shifted his glance to another frame.
A lone tear slipped down his cheek, dropping from his chin and onto his lap.
"Why?" He whispered, voice shaking a little. "Why me?"
But there was no one to answer that question. He was alone. Again. Forever.
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I'm still holding on to everything that's dead and gone. I don't wanna say goodbye 'cause this one means forever.
18th June. One year since the death of Sirius Orion Lupin-Black. One year since he passed, leaving his Remus all by himself.
Remus was standing in his bedroom, arms wrapped around himself as he stared out of the window. It was late afternoon and he watched random leaves fly around in the air before falling down.
He sighed, biting his lip before opening his wardrobe. He pushed shirts in search of that familiar clothing and felt his jaw tighten after getting hold of it.
It was that black silk button-down shirt. Sirius' shirt to be clear.
With slightly trembling fingers, he took the clothing and wore it himself, instantly feeling a small amount of warmth and at the same time an abrupt coldness seeping into his body.
He then pulled out a black leather jacket, another one of his husband's prized possession. His fingers ghosted over the Orion belt stitched on the back before putting it on.
He then walked up to his mirror and examined himself, but not seeing his reflection, no. All he could see was Sirius' image staring back at him.
That carefree posture, his signature black clothes, hair tied back with the usual smirk. And those goddamn grey eyes, sharp and mischievous but also loving and sweet.
Remus blinked, and he disappeared.
He shut his eyes tightly for a moment and then went over to the photoframe that depicted a picture of Sirius.
He raised his hand to the level, fingers gently brushing across the length as he admired the beautiful masterpiece before him. A small smile spread on his face.
"I miss you, Sirius. So, so much," he whispered under his breath and then with the bouquet red roses in his hand, he disapparated to the village of Godric's Hollow.
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Now you're in the stars and six feet's never felt so far. Here I am alone between the heavens and the embers.
Remus Lupin smiled at the familiar streets and houses. Feeling a little refreshed by walking in the fresh and clean air.
His feet kept moving as he looked around as though the path was way too familiar. And it was. He had been on this same road thrice already. Once for Euphemia and Fleamont Potter, the second time for James and Lily and the third for Sirius.
All three times being horribly painful, heart-wrenching and shattering.
He took in a shallow breath at the sight of that all-too familiar manor. Previously the most elegant, extravagant and comfortable, but now all broken, destroyed and cold.
Remus closed his eyes, preparing his body and his mind before entering the graveyard which was becoming quite a common place of visit for him.
He walked towards the graves, his feet moving on their own accord as though the route was memorized, and it was.
He stood in front of the gravestone, staring at the gorgeous and flawless white marble before letting out a puff of air and sitting down cross-legged.
A small smile spread across his lips as he looked at the name engraved intricately in the smooth surface.
In loving memory of
Sirius Orion Lupin-Black
3rd November 1959 - 18th June 1996
"What's life without a little bit of risk?"
Remus gently placed the roses on his grave, his fingers lingering on the surface and brushing stray leaves away.
He got up to sit on his knees, leaning forward carefully to press his forehead against the head. Eyes closed tight as he clutched the stone.
Abruptly, he felt a lump in his throat making him swallow down harshly. But it didn't stop, the burning sensation was still present and before he knew it, tears did escape.
And once they had a free opening, they kept falling. Trailing down his cold cheeks, to his lips, to his jaw and then falling down.
He breathed in and let out a quiet sob, being unable to pull himself away from the grave of his husband, wanting nothing more than for him to be alive, wishing nothing more than for the two to be buried side by side.
"Why?" Remus cried out silently, his voice trembling just like his figure. "Why'd you leave me, Pads? We had an agreement, remember?"
He sniffed and pulled away to wipe the tears none too gently. "Y- You don't understand how much I need you here right now. Why? You were always there for me, weren't you? And now that I need you the most, you're n- not here".
He let a few more tears fall down freely before opening his eyes and blinking to clear his vision. His eyebrows furrowed upon feeling something atop his head. He reached up his hand to see a leaf, a maple leaf.
And despite his earlier situation, he couldn't help but let out a small laugh. He looked at the leaf again before turning back to the headstone. "Look at you still making me laugh not even a minute after I cried".
With his honey-brown eyes twinkling, his gaze wandered and stopped at a sight that only caused the smile on his face to widen.
He was staring at the night sky, more specifically at a particular constellation that he spotted at once, his irises not moving from the brightest star that was shining up above in all its glory.
"Sirius," he whispered as he stood up, eyes still locked on the star.
"I know you're up there," he continued softly with his lips twitching. "And I also know you're having quite the fun. What with James, Lily, Reg, Marlene, Dorcas and Mary all being there. I'm really jealous now to be all alone here".
He blinked again to get rid of the few tears that were again welling up, "I miss you, my love. More than you can imagine. And I can't wait until I get to see you again".
"I love you so much," he murmured and looked up again. "Always and forever".
And Remus swore that he saw the star twinkling, he swore that the star actually did brighten for a second and a dorky and loving grin was etched on his face.
The dog star, the brightest star flickered once again. As though it was hearing everything, as though replying to the adoring statement that was said.
It was twinkling as if wanting to say a response. As if Sirius Lupin-Black himself was up there, with his dark hair tied back in a bun and his silvery-grey eyes dancing with mischief. With an affectionate smile on his lips and obvious love present on every inch of his face.
I love you too.
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