note: this is the second angst iβve ever written in my life so iβm sorry if itβs not that good; written from his point of view; iβm addicted to f(x)βs rude love at the moment which sparked some inspiration for the title; slight ravn x reader mixed inΒ
you and him had been best friends since middle school.Β
you had a crush on him when you first met. it lasted a long time. but during high school dongju had multiple partners, none of them being you. so you gave up. you were still best friends, of course, nothing could change that... or so you thought.Β
in college, you finally found a lover. his name is youngjo, but his friends call him ravn. dongju was happy for you, as any best friend would be. but.. ever since you and youngjo got together he felt like you forgot about him. youngjo was your first serious relationship since high school, so of course you wanted to spend time with him. but you failed to notice your neglect to your best friend.Β
why was he feeling an ache in his chest when he saw youngjo kiss your cheek or move a bit of hair out of your face?Β
why did he feel like wanting to be swallowed whole when he saw you kiss for the first time?Β
he had no idea what was going on. he never felt this way with his past partners... he just brushed it off as wanting to protect his best friend.Β
he confided in his twin, who was also close to you.Β
βwhy am i feeling this way?βΒ
βi donβt know, why are you feeling this way?βΒ
pause.Β
then it hit him.Β
fuck. iβm in love with my best friend.Β
two years later, heβs walking you down the aisle at yours and youngjoβs wedding. the aching, the sadness, the loathing never went away.Β
he realized too late that he wanted you, and always had. you were the first and last person he ever loved, and he doubt heβd ever love another like you.Β
he tried. he had many dates, flings, even friends with benefits, but heβd only retreat to your apartment the next morning, in a hurry to get away from them. he always wanted to run to you. but he couldnβt anymore.Β
βyou may kiss the bride.βΒ
he imagined he was in youngjoβs place with you. but he clapped and smiled at you anyway.Β
Listening to old songs and letting them carry you to an another time
Owning a journal and filling it with your favourite moments of the season so you won't forget about them because they will become moments from your past one day so they are important
Picking up a random book from your dusty shelf and daring to finish it
Covering yourself with tones of clothes from head to toe
Sleepovers with friends
Having lunch dates with friends in their car while the rain is pouring outside
Hydrating and moisturizing
Drawing symbols on the windows covered with humidity
Spending your free time napping or getting cozy under your blankets while watching your favorite movie
Making handmade cards then sending them to your dearest people
Rescuing stray cats and giving them shelter
Romanticizing your life by thinking that everything you do is worth the care and admiration
Reading, reading and reading
Going to art exhibitions of artists you've never heard of
Long walks alone or with your friends and making up back stories for people you see on the street
Waking up early than usual when the world is still asleep
Listening to some playlists made by strangers on the internet
The agreeable warmth of your cocoa cup between your hands
Feeling the delicate coldness of the snowflakes on your skin
i wanna get back into writing but life got the best of me π and i don't have access to wifi to use my laptop atm! but i'm looking for prompts i can use to help me get inspiration for when i can write again!
also, i think i'm gonna end up changing my user. i still love astro and oneus but i don't stan them as much as i did when i started this blog :( i still wanna keep a space theme so i might take inspiration from loona and/or wjsn
kuroinana asked: Hi, thank you for replying! The prompts I was looking for were for character A discovering that character B is not who they said were (secret identify). Character B reacts by lashing out on A for "snooping around"
Finding out the truth dialogue
"I don't even know who you really are!"
"We both made mistakes, but I'm not sure I can forgive yours."
"I know it wasn't right to snoop around, but you were lying to me the whole time."
"Why are you upset now, I should be the one who is upset!"
"I can't believe you wouldn't trust me!" "Well, I can't believe you lied to me like that!"
"Don't spin it around, like I'm the bad guy right now."
"You don't snoop on your friends!" "But you also don't lie to your friends."
long time no see, i ended up moving + i got a full time job, but i'm getting inspiration to write again :) i'll try to have new fics out soon! i'm going to start doing optional bias, so that the readers can think of anyone they want. i lile reading those and thinking of my biases that don't have a lot of fics. however i'm not doing smut, i don't feel comfortable writing it! but i wanna practice angst so expect that <3
i woke up in the middle of the night, shivering. the room had suddenly grown cold. i huddled the blankets closer to me, before i realized that my source of warmth wasn't there. puzzled, i sat up, turning the lamp on and looking around the room, he was nowhere to be found. i started to panic a bit, and i put my glasses on and walked out of the room. i arrive in the kitchen to see keonhee, arms and hands covered in flour, his apron adorned a splotch of egg and sugar.Β
"keonhee? what are you doing? it's 2 in the morning." i stood there with my arms crossed. "o-oh, uh, hi y/n! i wanted to surprise you with breakfast in bed, but we have no pancake mix, so i wanted to bake your favorite cookies for you but i ended up making a mess..." he pouted, setting the bowl of dough down. i started to smile uncontrollably, before bursting out into a fit of giggles. "keonhee, love, you didn't have to do that..." i walked over and hugged him tight, before starting to mix the bowl myself. "you need to break the egg for it to mix in, like this."Β
he watched me like a little kid, his arms around my waist, his chin on my shoulder. he was literally the human version of the pleading emoji as he watched me stir the dough until it was the proper mixture. "we'll finish these, then go to bed, okay? i'll stuff you into a blanket burrito if you don't stay and cuddle me." he just smiled and nodded, holding onto me tighter. i started to lay balls of dough on the cookie sheet, before putting it in the oven and waiting for them to come out so i could eat a couple and go to back to bed.Β
"hey, y/n?"
"yes, keonhee?"
"can we do late night bake nights more often?" if he wasn't the pleading emoji before, he definitely was now. i giggled, smiling. "of course. just don't abandon our cuddle time in the process."Β
you sighed as you stepped onto the train. you were heading to your classes, and it was the same old gray and boring day. it was raining, as it always seemed to do. you didn't even know what it was like to experience a bright, sunny, colorful day. see, you hadn't found your soulmate. everyone starts to see color as they fall in love with their soulmate. only they know what it's like to experience a bright, sunny, colorful day. when the grass is glowing a bright green, when the sky is beaming blue. all you saw was monochrome. you longed to see the colorful side of life.
as you were walking, you were looking down at your phone. you bumped into somebody and dropped your phone, your screen shattering. your heart dropped as you bent down to pick it up. but someone else had beat you to it. someone much taller than you. you hesitantly looked up to see a man. a very gorgeous man. you saw a very slight blue tone to his outfit. he was wearing denim and you didn't realize that you could see the color of it.Β
"i'm so sorry, i was in such a hurry to meet my friend so we could go to our classes together that i was trying to see where they were and i wasn't looking where i was going and-"
"it's okay, really." you were cut off by him. he chuckled a bit and handed you your phone. "i'm sorry about your phone. it doesn't seem to have my name in it." you just blinked and stared at him, confused. he laughed as he scrambled his instagram and name down on a piece of paper, scurrying off. "i'll pay for your phone to be fixed!" he yelled behind him as he ran off. you just stared in disbelief. your friend, minhyuk, or rocky, was behind you and witnessed the whole thing, and he was laughing behind you.
"what's so funny?"
"looks like you got a boyfriend."
"y-you know what- shut up. let's just go to classes before we're late again..."Β
you were sitting in your math class, your least favorite subject, and your mind kept drifting to the man you met at the train station. what was it about him? you were looking down at your hands, when you noticed a small cut on your finger. probably from falling, or maybe just a papercut, you thought. but what you then noticed is that you could see a hint of red. your eyes immediately widened, and you texted your friend, rocky.Β
you rushed out of your class as soon as it ended. you had sometime before your next one, as did rocky, so you both decided to talk about this over lunch.Β
"so, you ready to text him?" he asked you as soon as he saw you rushing towards him.
you were catching your breath, so you simply shook your head. he frowned. "why? iβm sure itβll be fine. besides, you guys are clearly soulmates, so itβs not like he can reject you or anything."Β
"he still can... but anyways, i was waiting for you so i could have some moral support. i'm really scared. i thought i'd never meet my soulmate, it seems like everyone but you and me had found theirs already and i thought it was a cruel joke that you and i weren't soulmates. it would've made life so much easier." you chuckled a bit at the end.Β
he just laughed with you, before you both started walking towards your restaurant of choice. you settled on mcdonald's.
"so, are you gonna text him?"
"yes, yes... let's get situated with our food first."
after you two got your lunch, you both sat down. you shakily pulled the paper out that held his name and instagram on it, and your heartbeat started to race as you typed it in to follow and dm.Β
he replied almost immediately. did that mean he was thinking about you, too?Β
he was, as a matter of fact.Β
you hadn't left his mind all morning. he noticed the color thing, too. but he didn't want to scare you off, so he said nothing. but deep down, he was overcome with emotions. finally, after so long, he found you. he'd longed to find you for so long. he couldn't believe it was actually real, that you were in front of him. he was determined to see you again. he, too, never knew who his soulmate was or where they were. so all his life, heβs seen grey.Β
you read the messages and you started to blush heavily. rocky just looked at you in confusion, so you showed him the messages to which he started laughing.
"he's your soulmate, y/n, this was destined to happen, quit getting so embarrassed."
"okay but look at his posts, he literally looks like a supermodel from some magazine..."
you weren't wrong.Β
deep breath in. you could do this. rocky gave you a pat on the shoulder as he watched you type.Β
his heart sank. not from sadness, but from the fact he couldn't believe it. his soulmate... he started to not believe in those. i mean, he was 23, a lot of his younger friends already found theirs. he lost hope in finding his. he thought his brain was playing tricks on him when he started to see color after running away from you. that's why he ran away. he was scared. not scared of you, but he was just scared. he didn't know what the future held next.
it took him a few minutes to reply, he just stared at the notification of your last message. but you were worried you freaked him out.Β
you took in a shaky breath. it really was your soulmate. you were worried it'd be one of those rare but very unfortunate instances where it was one sided. where he was your soulmate but you weren't his. which is a tragic thing to happen to anyone, because it means they are destined to live without a definitive soulmate, while their soulmate lives obliviously with another.Β
rocky just smiled and clapped at you. he knew you could do it! you were his best friend, after all.Β
"so, uh, rocky- he's on his way over... do you want to stay?"
"nah, i don't wanna get cooties. plus, soulmates are supposed to be alone the first time they really interact with each other. it will ensure that nothing gets in the way of their relationship."Β
"how do you know that? you haven't even found yours, yet you sound so wise. it's a nice change."
you laughed as he lightly smacked your arm. "it happened to one of my friends. they ended up together in the end but everything was really rocky. no pun intended." he stood up from his seat, taking his drink with him. "good luck. text me if he tries to kidnap you."
you waved goodbye, and you sat on your phone, scrolling through his instagram. he was... really gorgeous. how could you compare? he looked like a supermodel.Β
then, he walked through the door. he ordered himself a drink and sat down across from you.
"well... hello, soulmate." he smiled his beautiful grin.Β
"hi, soulmate." you giggled a bit at how lighthearted it was. you were still nervous, but with how light he was about it, you felt your nerves begin to ease. you and him talked some, and got to know each other.Β
before you knew it, it was time for you to go to your next class. you had stood up after telling him you had to rush back to campus, and he gently grabbed your wrist. you looked up at him, surprised.
"please don't go, this is the most fun i've had in a long time. i'll help you make up your work another time." his eyes sparkled. in fact, they looked as if they had actual galaxies in them. he looked at you with such adoration and love. you couldn't help but agree, so you sat back down. you both sat there and talked until the sun had started to set and the restaurant was mostly empty from daytime rush being over. you both got up and threw your tray away, your food long gone.Β
you and him walked out hand in hand, witnessing the first sunset you had ever seen in color. the reds, the pinks, the oranges, and the yellows. each hue kissed yours and his skin. he leaned in and gave you the sweetest kiss youβve ever felt.Β
this was the very first astro thing i ever wrote when i was a baby aroha last year and i still get butterflies when i see eunwoo,, i hope you all like it!Β
