19.03.2013 - on the nineteenth of march in two thousand and thirteen, i answered a tumblrbot question in character as regina mills for the first time ever. little did i know that i would develop that character for nearly five years. five. years. that’s half a decade. can you believe i’ve been writing regina for half a decade ? she’s been such a big part of my life, such an important part of my life. both regina mills and lana parrilla had such an impact on me as both a writer and a person. i’ve remade her five times. moved her from one blog to another. my url has changed. five. times. first, i was iamqueenregina. then, i was malevolentqueen. after that, amademonster. from amademonster, i became evilscrown and then i moved her here, to evilsreign. i cannot express to you all the overwhelming emotions i am feeling right now but, you all deserve better and, to be honest, i deserve better. also, this has nothing to do with o.uat getting cancelled. js.
I AM PUTTING REGINA MILLS ON INDEFINITE HIATUS !
i don’t know if i’ll ever bring her back. i might move her to my multi at some point in the future. i might revamp completely and start fresh in a few months. i don’t know. what i do know is that i’ve had the best time writing regina, changing her canon and making her my own. she started off as this secondary muse i wrote just for fun and suddenly it’s four years and eleven months later and she’s become this unbelievable influence on my life. i love this character. i love everything about her. but i’m not happy here anymore. and that became abundantly clear when i took up olivia benson. the difference between how i felt on olivia to how i feel here is indescribable. i need to do what’s best for me and even though regina will always be my number one, it’s time i let her go. i honestly can’t believe i’m doing this. i’ve met so many people through regina and i’ve made so many friends and there have been some really good times and there have been some really bad times but i just can’t put this off any longer. maybe one day, i’ll bring her back. i am still roleplaying on tumblr. you can find me now @40l5 but this character and this account is now, officially, retired.
i just really want to take a moment to just, thank the people i’ve met through regina. people who have become the most important people in my life, who have been there for me through so much or have known me for so long. people i hope to keep in touch with, keep writing with or visit around the world. to lizz, - @sousestime , who, i know no longer writes her on tumblr but is such an important influence in my life. you became my best friend on this website and without you, i don’t know what i would’ve done. you listened to me, you supported me, and you loved me, and for that i will be forever grateful. i love you lea. to ari, - @whatwesacrifice , my oldest friend. you’ve been with me since the absolute beginning, when i first started writing regina and you’re the only one who stuck around as long as i have. we’ve been friends for so long now and though i know i’ll still write with you on olivia, you’ll always my hook. to keira, - @lunyrd , who made me fall in love with fenrir, who developed such a strong and important relationship with regina. i love you so much and i’m beyond happy that we’ve had four years with these two idiots. wolf queen is so dear to my heart and i’ll carry them forever. if i ever do bring her back, i hope you’re still around for us to pick things back up where we left off because our queen loves her wolf with all her black heart. to mia, - @girlreports, my daughter, whom i love so much. we started off with you on snow and me here, on regina and you’ve moved on to lois and you’ve done such an amazing job with her. i know i’m always going to write with you no matter where you go and vice versa, but you’re so important to me here. i love you so much, thank you for supporting me, i have tried so hard throughout the day not to think about what this means and you’ve eased some of that burden when i messaged you earlier so thank you mia, i love you. to ruby, - @ahmazon , my twin, my love. you were the first regina i ever followed back and i am so beyond grateful i did. you’re such an amazing writer and just the best person to chat to about meaningless things. i love you more than i think you know.
you guys have no idea how hard this is to write. i’m literally trying so hard not to cry right now but i just wanted to give a special shout out to these guys here, who i’ve either messaged about my decision and who just supported me wholeheartedly, or who have made writing regina such a joy. i’m going to miss her so much, and i know one day i’ll pick her back up again but for now, i need a break. so thank you everyone for understanding, feel free to follow me on olivia or my multi. i love you guys xx.
@blackpanthcr . @ponytaled . @starhaze . @sytheheart . @showmaxter . @pcrfectdaughter . @interstel . @dinopunching . @chaordiic . thank you ♥ ♥ ♥