Hi! Most posts will be made by our collective identity/host, who you can call J. We don't really have memory gaps which is a big part of why it's taken me so long to begin considering myself some form of plural. After talking about my experiences with a few friends, and reading a bunch of posts, I've come to realize there's other people with similar expereinces who consider themselves plural. It's something I want to explore about myself more, and be more open about, so naturally I made a side-blog to talk about it lol
I’m still questioning whether I’m plural or not, but the term that resonates most with me right now is median system. I/me and we/us will be used interchangeably.
More details below vvv
Here is a list of my headmates/facets/aspects, as I currently understand them:
Cyan 🩵- he/they - Our caretaker and voice of reason, most frequent ‘fronter’ aside from the hosts
Magenta/Sam 💖- they/he/she - My more 'emotional', creative, and social side
Yellow 💛- they/it/she - less of a fully realized 'person', represents my compulsions (mostly bfrbs) - doesn’t really ‘talk’ much or ‘front’ in the traditional sense
Key - he/him - My inner hater and strong 'negative' emotions, like depression and anger
DJ 🐊- he/they/it - Sort of a second host, Dragon Edition, if you remember when I had "stoner" on this list, I think he got sorta subsumed into this guy, but idk. A bit more chill, confident, and masc feeling than the baseline identity. Basically my current dragon-sona on my main blog.
AJ 🪶- it/they - avian dragon shapeshifting thing? mostly fronts at work, more social, likes to mimic
Feel free to send asks! but keep in mind I don't want to get into discourse about what kinds of systems are 'valid' or not. I'm pro-endo, I think diagnostic criteria for complex mental disorders and neurodivergency tends to be lacking and fails to encompass the breadth of human experience, so let's just let people describe themselves however works best for them, yeah?
based on a real conversation I had (in our head) a couple weeks ago while high, wrote the script for this that night actually so I wouldn't forget
*The 'presentations' mentioned here are referring to speaking during live bird programs at work, particularly the mock program presentation I was, at the time, worried about having to do (we've since done it and it went well! so maybe they were telling the truth lol)
Syscourse is really funny if you try to imagine people saying the same things about any other mental phenomenon.
"DNI if you claim to be 'sad' without an MDD diagnosis"
"You're 'proud' of being 'self-confident'? Stop romanticizing NPD, it's a debilitating disorder for people who really have it, faker."
"Trauma is the only valid origin for psychosis, people who claim to have 'hallucinated' because of drugs or sleep deprivation are either lying or they just don't know how traumatized they are"
"Well, I developed my agoraphobia from being kidnapped and tortured THREE TIMES at the age of six, so anyone who claims they developed it later in life or from less severe trauma is faking."
i would like a hug…. JUST KIDDING! i would like TWO hugs. (suddenly becomes cold and standoffish) i don’t need anything or anyone and i don’t want to talk about it.
Executive dysfunction so bad I feel like I'm holding myself hostage at gunpoint and issuing incomprehensible demands to the negotiator, who is also me. Christ.
Pro of working at a bird-focused wildlife ambassador job while (partly) being an avian creature who likes to mimic: mimicking the birds is very normalized, most of your coworkers do it often
Con of this: it’s frustrating when you can’t mimic the sounds very well, especially the ones the corvids make, and it’s even more frustrating when your coworkers can make the sounds better than you :(
Plurality is great actually bc sometimes you just need to listen to a lively debate between headmates while staring off into space to help resolve an issue that’s been bothering you and you couldn’t really think about without your head hurting and feeling slightly nauseous 👍
if you notice that every comic i post has a slightly different style/formatting, it's bc I'm still learning how to make them and playing around with things to figure out what I like best 👍
So I often have like, echoing/repeating thoughts? Not really in an ocd way (usually), they’ll just repeat ~2 or 3 times, and I’ve just had an idea about that- maybe it’s because there’s a slight delay between thinking the thought and some headmates who are co-conscious ‘hearing’ it? And since we’re sharing a consciousness I ‘hear’ them ‘hearing’ it, leading to the echo effect? Idk it’s just a theory
