WASP'S NEST IN MY ATTIC

can you soothe my itching soul?

[fallenrulers]

THE CALL OF THE ROTTEN FOG . . .

A.K.A — The Crawling Rot, The Forsaken Ones, The Ptōsis Archon

Florence / Mavis / Presence — it / that / guts / rot / fog / evil / lie

Do not they/them us. Do not gender us. We will send our maggots.

Rentry — Pronouns.CC — SimplyPlural (thosewholisten_)

We are a HC-DID polyfrag system. We have NPD, BPD, HPD, ADHD, GAD, and more. We are autistic, depressed, and struggle with paranoia and delusions. We are also partially willogenic.

We are pro-endogenic and willogenic. We are anti-radqueer. We do not want to be involved in shipcourse, but we do not want pro/com/darkshippers interacting.

We are an avatar of the Lonely, and aligned closely with the Corruption and the Spiral. You can ask about our alignments, but please know they are heavily linked to our trauma and delusions.

We are fallen angels, as well as Shadow Milk Cookie, Eyeless Jack, and Jane Prentiss. We have more kintypes listed in our kin rentry. Please view this, as we are uncomfortable with doubles for some.

[never-have-we-ever]

never have we ever hyperfixated on something so hard we split almost the entire cast

Never have we ever hyperfixated on something so hard we split almost the entire cast

We have

We have not

Nuance/unsure

Remaining time: 1 day 16 hours

[never-have-we-ever]

never have we ever hyperfixated on something so hard we split almost the entire cast

Never have we ever hyperfixated on something so hard we split almost the entire cast

We have

We have not

Nuance/unsure

Remaining time: 1 day 16 hours

[oxymirony]

When you have no filter for who gets to speak

[abadbutsadcollective]

Traumagenic and endogenic headmates aren't enemies by the way. Sometimes they play Minecraft together. Sometimes they hold hands. Sometimes they kiss. Sometimes they cover work shifts or school for each other. Sometimes even within the same system. This goes for disordered and nondisordered systems too btw.

[femceladonite]

Just seen a guy laugh at how a 'fake' DID system "slipped up" and said "I" instead of "we" and my god does this only go to show that these fakeclaimers know NOTHING about us or our disorder and yet they think they know better than the literal people WITH the disorder.

Like I already knew this but seeing this guy act so smug about 'exposing a faker' with the most nothing burger evidence ever makes me want to commit homicide no joke. ^^

They try to act like they're helping DID systems by 'rooting out the fakers', but in reality they're merely trying to restrict disabled people's way of expressing themselves comfortably. They don't really see any of us as actual people and are just looking for yet another way to feel superior to and suppress disabled people in a less frowned upon way.

[jugheadbah]

can i requesxt an flowery deltaruen alter wiht milkshake and frines

“one milkshake and fries, coming right up.”

note from the narrator: my apologies - i’m not super familiar with deltarune, i tried my best based on the wiki.

𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄(𝐒). flowery, flower, fleur, daffodil, marigold.

𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐊𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐒. goldie, daffy, mar

𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐒. masc-aligned nonbinary; finboy; flowerboy; fagmaxxed; floragender; springfrilled.

𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍(𝐒). gay, polyflux.

𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐒. he/him; shx/hxr; fleur/fleurs; bouquet/bouquets; sun/shine; 🌼/🌼s; 💐/💐s.

𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘. very vivid and extroverted, fleur thrives in social situations. he’s very confident in hxrself to a point that can be overbearing sometimes, which can cause trouble. however, 🌼 cares deeply about bouquets friends.

𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐄. mood booster, socializer, social battery, hygienist.

𝐒𝐈𝐆𝐍𝐎𝐅𝐅. - 🌼, -☀️, -💐, - ✿

𝐅𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐓 𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐑𝐒. sourcetalk (esp asgore), the smell of flowers, parties, weddings, the body having a low social battery.

𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐒. party planning, fashion (esp high fashion/formalwear), gardening, floral arranging, romance movies, self care.

𝐓𝐘𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐐𝐔𝐈𝐑𝐊. calls others “princess”, correct capitalism and punctuation, uses ~ a lot as well as lots of emojis (esp flower emojis).

𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐒𝐏𝐀𝐂𝐄 𝐑𝐎𝐎𝐌.

[tributarysgalaxy]

saw a genuinely mega dumbass take so here's a reminder

if you are a traumagenic system/CDD system that supports endos, I love you, you are so appreciated and needed in this community just as much as endos, please NEVER let anti endos tell you that you arent a valid system or that you're harming system communities by loving your plural and system siblings. You are so important and loved here and you are so needed just as much as every other person. Y'all are so strong for dealing with the bullshit thrown at you so often and i feel nobody recognizes it as much as it should be recognized

[canvas-sys-comics]

TW for religious trauma and guilt, childhood abuse (mental, emotional and sexual), grooming and internalized homophobia.

Viewer discretion is advised.

Dear diary

[fallenrulers]

I love you, hivemate with debilitating anxiety who stutter types. I think you should kill everyone

[strangerconnection]

Trauma is a special kind of haunting. Old emotions slamming cabinets and rattling doorknobs. i check and there's no one there. The fear is there but there's nothing. it leaves me anticipating something that will never come. leaving me in a loop of dread. maybe i check again, there's no one. check, check, double, triple check, maybe there will be someone ready to storm towards the door. i can hear the footsteps, i can hear the door, so why hasn't anyone come in?

[chimerid]

things I didn't realize were signs of covert DID

a lot of "signs of plurality" lists focus heavily on introjection and alter communication, two things that we have very little of. we wanted to lay out some experiences we had prior to syscovery with a focus on memory loss, identity confusion, dissociation, and unconscious masking since these are what we experience most. we hope this helps someone.

this is not an exhaustive list and identifying with it does not guarantee anything nor does not identifying with it mean you are not plural. we are one system and these are our experiences, which have heavy overlap with our other comorbid conditions. you know yourself/ves best, use your own judgement when reading.

feeling as though i was never a child even when my body was, that i was always an "old soul"

feeling as though i never stopped being a child, that my body aged without me

feeling as though it is my first day on earth and nothing has existed before the present moment

experiencing all of the above so strongly at different times that i cannot imagine feeling any other way

"i don't hear voices, i just have multiple overlapping trains of thought all reacting to and arguing with one another. probably the ADHD"

feeling upset as a kid that my imaginary friends didn't act the way i wanted, or that they didn't like me

remembering my childhood in third person, as though watching a movie of my own life

feeling as though i am having lines fed to me when talking about myself

remembering times that i was upset, but with the inciting incident cut out. being unable to understand why i felt the way i did

feeling as though the "real" me died a long time ago and i took their place

being talented at acting and lying. feeling like i have spent my whole life acting, as though "i" am a character i put on for other people

being afraid of voicing opinions because i know they might change suddenly, being upset when someone tells me a supposed opinion of mine that i no longer remember or agree with

knowing when i am supposed to have an opinion on something but not knowing what it is, having to make up my own opinions based on what i think "i" would most likely say

"what did you do today" i don't know "how do you feel" i don't know "what do you want" i don't know "did you have work yesterday" ...probably?

feeling like my body sometimes says things that my mind does not remember/agree with, or that i'm surprised to hear the things i'm saying

reflexively lying about things i didn't do because i assume i must have forgotten about it

being freaked out when someone touches my stuff without telling me, because i assume i moved it and forgot entirely. being afraid of how quick i can forget things

having excellent memory as a young child and terrible memory as an adult

"face blindness" where i can tell that people look familiar but feel like i have never met them, being unable to put faces in context

feeling like i have never actually met my own friends and loved ones

"i don't have amnesia, i can objectively tell you what happened. even when i do forget, i can usually put it together through context clues."

"it can't have been that bad, i barely remember it and don't feel upset when i think about it"

"i can't have DID, nothing bad has ever happened to me"

no name ever feels right longterm

creating alt accounts due to a desire to "pretend" to be someone else

lacking a solid sense of identity, feeling like a hollow husk of a person who occasionally experiences moments of clarity and wants to be treated as someone other than the "me" i present to the world

"i've never had a switch, i just have an inconsistent sense of identity"

"i've never had a switch, i have always felt exactly the way i do right now"

feeling like my mind is being pulled in several different directions, especially when i'm upset. being unable to act because different "parts" of me want different things

feeling jealousy when seeing other systems be open about their plurality. feeling like it's something you're not supposed to talk about

feeling guilty for being happiest when i'm "faking" plurality

feeling drawn to stories about possession, secret identities, or doppelgangers

all of the above being such routine experiences that i never even thought to question them

[bah-whatever]

BlackBoxWarrior - OKULTRA BAH Pack!

(attack for @mouthwilloing, a will wood songtive! legit couldn't decide on what song to do so we just settled for one of our favorites. hope ya don't mind that we based this off your sourcelist and not your wishlist...)

@bah-fight

Names / Nicknames . War, Odd, Nikto, Oleander, Haunt, Maximus, Malakai, Conscious, Franklin, Oddity, Nathaniel, Stranger, Omen, Bennett, Particle, Rafael, Nikolai, Leonidas, Animal, Darius, Jack

Pronouns . he, it, sick, dead, fight, kill, skin, insane, up, down, knife, weird, nest, ego, wit, end, bloom, gone, attack, bleed, mirror, tux, glass

Sign Off . 🔪,🦠,🔩,💜,🪚,🔬,🪛,🪏,💙,💊,🧬

Species . demigod, entity

Age . unknown, adult in maturity

Gender . "boy", genderfluid, masculine, genderqueer man

Sexuality . queer, ambiamorous

Other . weirdkin, sickness conceptkin, zombiekin, insect kin, deathkin, hospital related objectum, businessman conceptkin, rat therian, angelkin, fallenangelkin

Alter Type / Source . songtive of BlackBoxWarrior - OKULTRA by Will Wood

Roles . sickness holder, warrior, paranoia holder, vigilante, political protector, anger holder, mania holder, lifeline, HPD holder, hypersexuality holder, sexual protector

Appearance . a tall, skinny masculine person with brown skin and short curly black hair

(quuintessential)

Style . formal, semiformal, colorful, baggy, light colors

Aesthetic . ⤵︎

Descriptors / Personality . insane, friendly, laughs at everything, paranoid, loving, desperate, poetic, strange, angry, jealous

Pick anything you want before you go through that portal... remember, expect the unexpected and be ready for whatever comes your way!

-🍏mod Oliver! (he/they/it/xy)

[fallenrulers]

ACK THANK YOU SO MUCH

[one-in-a-nestillion]

people always describe the system experience as either the host makes all the decisions with input from their headmates, or the headmates vote and come to a collective decision, but what i experience is more closer to a dictatorship where whoever’s fronting at the moment does whatever the fuck they want until they leave and then it repeats with the next fronter and the one after that too.

[bahofchange]

@mouthwilloing has been found GUILTY ! Here's a Tsukasa Yugi themed Punishment ESPECIALLY for you !

✦ NAMES — Tsukasa , Tsuuki , Yugi , Yunaga , Yori , Apricot , Amii , Ringo , Saka

✦ PRNS — he / they / it / fang / ghost / boo / whisp / willo / dark / haunt / 👻 / 🏮

✦ AGE — ageless child , ageslider

✦ GENDER — transmasc , unlabeled

✦ SEXUALITY — queer in whatever way angers people the most

✦ OTHER LABELS — Apricot scentian , control freak , brat lover , teasic attraction , predator(animal) attraction

✦ PERSONALITY — unserious , playful , eccentric , off putting , eerie , demanding , pushy

✦ ROLES — jester , protescutor , jokestar , adhd holder , childhood trauma holder , serpent , charge

✦ LIKES — family , cats , bugs , squishing bugs , bratty characters in media , teasing others and getting reactions out of them

✦ DISLIKES — being dismissed or ignored , boredom , thinking about the past , being denied anything , most adults and teachers

✦ SOURCE — Toilet Bound Hanako-Kun -- Tsukasa Yugi

✦ FRONTING TRAITS — licking the body's canines often , latching onto close friends , smiling almost nonstop , teasing others consistently , lacking attention

✦ SHSL / ULTIMATE — Apparition

✦ FAVORITE ITEM — Antique Doll (#059)

✦ HATED ITEM — Space Egg (#091)

@bah-fight

[fallenrulers]

ACK THANK YOU SO MUCH WAGHGHAGH

[fallenrulers]

i'm sooo good at socializing new splits <- guy who has done nothing with him but be a little hater

[fallenrulers]

i'm sooo good at socializing new splits <- guy who has done nothing with him but be a little hater