fangzawa

33 y/o multi fandom cosplayer NOT a vampire an affront to god and man alike

[fangzawa]

honestly love to just continue improving him, every time I cosplay him he molds himself a little more clearly in my brain and I’ve *almost* got it I can feel it in me bones

[jaceofspadescos]

Neither of us remember this one but it’s funny asf

Aizawa: @fangzawa

[fangzawa]

Been cosplaying him almost 3 years now…

[jaceofspadescos]

I mean I don’t like throwing up either so I get it

Mic: @fangzawa

[fangzawa]

my beautiful Archive

Jon is @jaceofspadescos

[fangzawa]

soooooo we did JonElias again for pride month, rejoice toxic yaoi lovers in my phone

Jon is @jaceofspadescos

[jaceofspadescos]

What IS he gonna do in a submarine fr

Ava: @fangzawa

[fangzawa]

the spirit of 2020 was invited into my soul for just a moment. I don’t support this band btw it was a ⏰ app audio :/

[jaceofspadescos]

Therapy? No. Who needs therapy. Not Mic. That’s for sure. He’s so normal.

Aizawa: @fangzawa

[cheetz0]

Iran is slowly coming back online, but by "online," I mean they've moved from whitelisting some websites to blacklisting everything. I had no idea what these terms meant, but living in Iran forces you to know about technical network and connection stuff. Basically, instead of banning everything except for a few shitty malware apps posing as "social media platforms", they have now moved to filter out and ban the same usual things as before (like Telegram, Instagram, YouTube, everything). So what does that mean? It means more IPs will be available to bypass the ban, and VPNs will be more affordable. So more people can access the internet, STILL ILLEGALLY and THROUGH A PAYWALL.

It's currently close to 4 AM now that I'm posting this, and I've been crying non-stop since midnight because my friends came back online one by one through an unstable connection and said: "Hi, I'm alive." I had prepared myself for the funeral of so many of my friends. Some haven't come back online yet, and we've formed small "search and rescue" groups to find their contacts or families to check if they're okay.

What remains a fact amidst all of this is that nobody in the world ever gave a single fuck about us. I was one of the lucky ones to connect during the complete shutdown via some newly invented way we were too scared to even publish on GitHub for fear of getting arrested. In the time I was connected, I felt immense guilt for having access to the internet, and I begged you all on my socials to be the voice of the people who were about to get executed.

Not even once did I see someone talk about the internet blackout in Iran, and it enrages me.

We've been massacred, mass executed, and then silenced by getting our only way of communicating with the world shut off and the world treats it as some background noise, some irrelevant news that isn't even worth spending time hearing about.

So I'm asking you again, please, be the voice for the people in Iran. We are barely surviving.

[eisenkrahe]

Yes!

[fangzawa]

well how was I supposed to Know? Oh wait…

[jaceofspadescos]

He did not want to do it, he’s too Shwy 🥺 (doesn’t know what Ava wants from him)

Ava: @fangzawa

[fangzawa]

I can upload the other version if u want me to xoxo

[mousidy]

a lot of my disillusionment with the trans "community" comes down to the fact that too many of you take "gender is different from sex" and go "ah ok, so instead of saying women are fragile and men are strong, I should say afabs are fragile and amabs are strong. to be Inclusive"

then you just treat gender like a surface level aesthetic draped over what someone "actually" is. really is indistinguishable from terf rhetoric

[mousidy]

you all need to unpack your bioessentialism, but we also need a better theory of gender than "it's just dressup." I will pick my words carefully here, but the word "gender" itself refers to so many different phenomena that have been lumped together, and we need to un-lump them

[mousidy]

in a feminist context, "gender" has historically referred to externally imposed categorization and the internalization and performance of said categories. in a paper I wrote on this subject, I called this sense of the word "extrinsic gender"

"intrinsic gender," on the other hand, is what I used to refer to the sense of the word "gender" that a lot of trans people are talking about when they discuss social gender dysphoria and euphoria. it's the internal sense of category that's resistant to external impositions

but then we also use the word "gender" to refer to subconscious sex, which is the term Julia Serano coins in Whipping Girl to name the phenomenon we're talking about when we talk about bodily dysphoria. it is the "gender" being "affirmed" by gender affirming healthcare like HRT and bottom surgery

so, "gender" is: a social classing system, a performance, and at least two internal phenomena as well. and I really don't know if it's doing us a service to conflate all of these things!

[infinity-on-hiii]

Darkiplier art in the big 26? More likely than you think (alt versions under cut)

[fangzawa]

My favorite props to use as Elias are: my Brutal Pipe and my signature glass of Cabernet or Zinfandel if I’m feeling fancy

@jaceofspadescos as 🅱️eter

[fangzawa]

Pride month toxic old man yaoi !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

With @jaceofspadescos as my sailor