my journal ~ musing

Hello and welcome! ~ A blog-journal that I hope will help you with your self-discovery ~ Journaling/sharing my thoughts, 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑢𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑣𝑒 insights, perspectives and 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 as I go on my 𝑠𝑝𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑢𝑎𝑙.ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔.ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑒 𝑗𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑒𝑦. ~ 𝐺𝑢𝑖𝑑𝑒𝑑 by 𝐷𝑖𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑒 𝑓𝑒𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑒 𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑟𝑔𝑦. ~ 𝑊𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦. ~ © 𝟸o𝟸𝟺-𝟸o𝟸𝟼 𝖠𝗅𝗅 𝗋𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍𝗌 𝗋𝖾𝗌𝖾𝗋𝗏𝖾𝖽. ☀︎♍︎.☽♓︎.↑♈︎

[feminiel]

Some people can't handle your shine, because it reveals their darkness.

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Wednesday, May 13, 2026

I feel angry at people who give partial help and not complete help. I think any helper, healer, or caretaker should be able to give complete help, within their capacity to do so, without leaving you incomplete in your healing and needs. Sometimes, they are not intentional or even conscious of how and what they give, but it affects you one way or the other. You want someone who will give you full care for your needs, and not someone who is leaving you in limbo and incomplete on your healing journey.

Someone giving you complete help wants your wholeness and long-term development. They are people who have done deep inner work so they can give support in a healthy way; their capacity is not limited by their unprocessed feelings, griefs, or other shadow materials. They can restore your power enough.

On the other hand, someone giving partial help is also helping, but it creates dependency, unhealthy attachments, and it leaves you in emotional hunger because it doesn’t support you in a complete way that is empowering your autonomy and true expansion.

Help is a feminine energy by nature. The way someone offers help says a lot about their relationship with their feminine aspects, especially their dark feminine energy. ~ @feminiel

[feminiel]

The heart breaks so it can see the truth.

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Safe connections reveal more of yourself, not less.

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It's my 2 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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Thursday, January 8, 2026

Your intuition guides you to the truth. Some truths feel good, others will cause pain, but your intuition will guide you to the truth that you need to set yourself free from what is blocking your true self to emerge ~ however it feels. Your intuition knows what feelings and experiences you have to go through to heal, expand your consciousness, and evolve. Your intuition doesn’t fail ~ it guides. Sometimes, we can feel that we were wrong to follow our intuition because we end up in situations that were not what we were expecting, but what is often misunderstood is our misconception about how intuition works. Recently, I've learned that intuition can work closely with feelings of disappointment. It will guide you in disappointing situations, not to work against you, but to initiate you to your inner truth. When you are oriented towards our inner truth and want to trust in higher energies working in our favour, we need to be aware that the process can be revealed to us through light and shadow ~ even if we were to follow our intuition. Understanding this can help in trusting yourself more and knowing that no matter what happens, you will know how to get through the ups and downs of life. ~ @feminiel

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Sunday, January 4, 2026

Many people are not relating; they are positioning. Relating is your authenticity being mutual with someone else. It feels safe. Positioning is how your self-image insecurities are being met through a person. There is a feeling that you are not being valued for the person that you are, both by yourself and by the other. Being aware of this moves you closer to aligning yourself with the right people for you. More importantly, you get to stay loyal and true to yourself first. ~ @feminiel

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Perform to enhance your being, not to prove your worth.

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Change feels easier when you know it gets better after every setback you overcome.

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Energetic backlash is real. I just wait for them to see how their own shadowy energy firebacks to them, just by holding my own frequency and truth. No need to do anything else except to be myself.

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Thursday, 9 October, 2025

Being supported by the right people can make all the difference. Lots of people can give you support, but when it's someone who gives it with an energy that your heart needs the most, it's healing and transforming. It's not about the what or the quantity, but the how and quality of their support. ~ @feminiel

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Thursday, 9 October, 2025

When you are in a relationship, you are in relationship with a person—yes, but at a core level, you are in relationships with love itself. The other person is love. So, when someone you love hurt you, doesn't see you or doesn't treat you as worthy, at an energetic and soul level, your heart is believing that it is love that is hurting you, doesn't see you or is judging you as unworthy. I think it's important to be aware of this because it also deeply influences your relationship with the love residing within you and how you see Yourself.

However, even if a person is love, we need to understand that not everyone will fully show up in their love potential until they heal, work on themselves, and transform toward becoming their best self. We all carry wounds and insecurities that can block the expression of this loving part of ourselves. Consequently, it can distort our relationship with love and the beliefs we hold about it because of how love could be experienced through someone else. The more we heal our wounds and insecurities, the more we are able to see the truth of someone's being (which is love) and what is causing them to act against it, and therefore against themselves. We begin to detach and see that love doesn't hurt us, but the distortion around it does. The other person is a reflection of how you are relating to love, but also with yourself. ~ @feminiel

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Sunday, 28 September, 2025

Judgment and discernment can be easily confused. Sometimes, we can't really know if someone is using judgment or discernment. One way of recognizing which it could be is asking yourself how you feel with someone. A person who makes you feel that your essence is love and still acknowledges your shadows is discernment. Someone who makes you feel that your essence is inherently wrong or bad without seeing you for who you truly are beyond your mistakes and flaws leans more on the judgmental side. You'll also know by how much you are aware of your inner world. Sometimes, because you carry feelings and emotions that go against yourself, you will interpret whatever it is said to you as a judgment when perhaps the person is using discernment. ~ @feminiel

[feminiel]

My beauty is my light.

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My favorite kind of people are the ones with big heart energy, especially those who know how to transform their shadows. I feel relief when I see someone shining more of their own light. Each time they do, their presence becomes a safe and peaceful space for everyone.

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When you change, some connections will no longer be able to meet you where you have leveled up. Strength will be needed to distance yourself from them or to cut ties completely. This is necessary if you want to align with who you are becoming and not be held back by your past self. I would rather walk alone than drag along connections that do not support the best version of myself.

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So many times we take for granted what we have. Until it is lost, we don’t see its true value. Sometimes, losing things is your way of realizing how abundant you truly are, despite all the lack you might be feeling.