religion has proved itself to be wayyy harder than I anticipated originally, as someone who had never been religious before.
I haven't really been participating in any pagan practices recently, or even praying, to be honest. I haven't forgotten, and I do think about the Gods everyday. I've just had a really complicated and hard time with family, friends, school, myself, and just life in general. I am also just the worst when it comes to dusting off my altar cause of all the little seashells and other accessories I have on it.
this is all to say, that I guess I just hope my experience with paganism thus far hasn't been concerningly unusual. if anyone has had a similar time as I when it comes to starting this practice, please let me know if you'd like, since that'd definitely be nice to hear.
I'm quite an emotional and paranoid person, so that has also been a huge obtacle in more ways than one for me, here. I'm constantly worried that I've offended, disrespected, or somehow else wronged a deity, even if accidentally. I know this might not be really logical but it's just a result of those traits and I have no idea how to make amends and clear the air with, I suppose, every element, every deity?
again I'm just asking for advice, but I've came to the conclusion that this just wasn't something I was ready to do with the level of commitment that even just having an altar implies. I'm not calling it off completely or anything like that, but I think I should just put it out there that this isn't something I'm trying to do as wholeheartedly anymore as I just am not in a position to do so, all things considered.
I'm not abandoning this blog and maybe one day I will be very commited and active, but for now, I'll just post "whenever" (as if I wasn't doing so before too 😓) and try not to stress about it.
all of the help I've recieved has been greatly appreciated, though, so thank you very much! and sorry for the mess every other post I've made has turned out to be 🥲















