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AIN'T NOBODY PRAYING FOR ME.

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𝖔𝖓𝖊 𝖜𝖍𝖔 𝖊𝖓𝖉𝖚𝖗𝖊𝖘. private and highly selective writing blog for multiple characters from Masashi Kishimoto's Naruto. multi-para / plot-based. iconless. low / sporadic activity. cared for by yai♥ ( she/her, '97, afroperuvian ) find me on: @fatedefy, @forestbuilt, @roysenal

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NOHARA  RIN    /   konoha-nin   one  of  the  best  medical  nin   in  the  shinobi  world,    a   benevolent  and  kind   soul. ( since rin had her own blog previously wherein she was heavily developed, important info on my characterization of her can be found here )

YAMANAKA   INO    /   konoha-nin, unrelenting  kunoichi  and  intel  genius,    she’s  a  flower  with  petals  of  steel  and  even  sharper  cunning  and  wit.   don’t  drop  your  guard around  this  one,   lest  she  coax  from  you  your  life’s  story  and  deepest  secrets

UMINO  IRUKA     /     konoha-nin, teacher,   just  your  average  joe  but  somewhat  of  a  street  prophet,   a  good  man  

KARUI     /     kumo-nin, willpower  and  sheer  determination  made  woman,    stubborn  to  boot.   don’t  ever  cross  her  when  she’s  got  a  blade  in  her  hand

KONAN     /     ame  missing-nin, god’s  angel,    the  pillar  beneath  the  bridge  of  peace,    quiet  like  the  eternal  rain  of  her  village  but  beware  the  storm  that  thunders  underneath

KUROTSUCHI     /     iwa-nin, the  true  definition  of  an  iron  maiden,  audacious  and  arrogant   ━━   she  knows  what  she’s  worth

NAMIASHI  RAIDOU     /     konoha-nin, hokage’s  guard,  strict,  methodical,  and  observant.   takes  his  job  seriously  but  overall  a  great  guy

UCHIHA  HIKAKU     /    warring  clans  to  founders  era  ( eventual  konoha-nin  ),  level-headed  and  skilled,   he  was  a  great  asset  to  the  survival  of  the  Uchiha  clan  during  the  infamous  clan  wars  era  and  continues  to  serve  them  loyally  within  the  newfound  village.   a  lingering  skepticism  over  the  Senju-Uchiha  alliance  does  trouble  him  but  he’s  willing  to  make  things  work

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

( dialogue  prompts  taken  from the script of  everything  everywhere  all  at  once  (2022),  directed  by  daniel  kwan  and  daniel  scheinert.  feel  free  to  edit  and  change  as  you  seem  fit. )

❛ you look really pretty right now. ❜

❛ stop changing the subject. ❜

❛ every day i fight, i fight for all of us. ❜

❛ what are you doing? what is wrong? ❜

❛ if i have to think about one more thing today, my head will explode. ❜

❛ you may be in grave danger. there is no time to explain.❜

❛ we can make our own way. please, come with me. ❜

❛ don't even talk to me about this because i won't remember.❜

❛ i am not your husband. at least not the one you know. i am another version of him from another life path, another universe. ❜

❛ i’m here because we need your help.❜

❛ sorry, very busy today. no time to help you– ❜

❛ all those years of searching have brought me here. to this universe. to you. ❜

❛ i’m here to tell you every rejection, every disappointment has led you here. to this moment. ❜

❛ i'm not ready to fight yet. ❜

❛ maybe we don't have a choice. ❜

❛ now, you can either come with me and live up to your ultimate potential, or lie here and live with the consequences. ❜

❛ i... want to lie here. ❜

❛ how often do people literally die laughing? ❜

❛ my husband won't even kill a spider. how are you the same person? ❜

❛ we are talking about infinity. if you can imagine it, somewhere out there, it exists. ❜

❛ how did i die? ❜

❛ i've seen you die a thousand ways. in a thousand worlds. in every single one, you were murdered. ❜

❛ what!? who wants me dead? ❜

❛ you’ve been feeling it too, haven’t you? something is off. your clothes never wear as well the next day, your hair never falls in quite the same way, even your coffee tastes... wrong. ❜

❛ maybe we would have been better off if we had never gotten married. ❜

❛ i never said that. ❜

❛ you didn’t have to. it’s the way you look at me. ❜

❛ can’t you see it? how wonderful it would be if you came with me? ❜

❛ i saw my life without you. i wish you could have seen it. it was beautiful. ❜

❛ shhh, you're not thinking straight. ❜

❛ what is worse than death? ❜

❛ i saw your face on a billboard and — this is silly — i wondered if you remembered me... ❜

❛ is it that i can’t be here, or that i’m not allowed to be here? ❜

❛ there is no good, there is no evil. there is only “goovil”. ❜

❛ if you can imagine it, you have fucked it. ❜

❛ do not be so closed minded that you blind yourself from the truth! ❜

❛ don’t make me fight you. i am really really good. ❜

❛ you're capable of anything because you're so bad at everything. ❜

❛ you can't remember anything because your bodies were under the control of other universes. ❜

❛ you were like puppets. and you could do things you normally can't do. you were like, what's that movie... raccaccoonie? ❜

❛ how can you defeat her in every universe, if you can't even kill her in one? ❜

❛ the sacrifices necessary to win this war... i know all too well. ❜

❛ i cannot lose another loved one to the darkness. ❜

❛ i know you have feelings. feelings that make you so sad. that make you just want to give up. that is not your fault. ❜

❛ i'll see you again soon, somewhere out there in all that noise. ❜

❛ just think happy thoughts. ❜

❛ you okay? caught you staring off into space again. ❜

❛ i'm the one you've been looking for. ❜

❛ i’m the one who will defeat you. ❜

❛ you’re finally free, like me. ❜

❛ you don't have to choose anymore. between loving me or hating me. you can do both at the same time. ❜

❛ before, you were asking about "our daughter". it's crazy, but it really got me thinking. what if you had come with me all of those years ago? ❜

❛ all of this time, i wasn't looking for someone who could defeat me. i was looking for someone who could see what i see, feel what i feel... ❜

❛ oh, good, you're here too. ❜

❛ i'm sorry about ruining everything, i– ❜

❛ we're all stupid. small stupid little humans. it's like our whole deal. ❜

❛ everything is going to be okay. ❜

❛ you think i’m weak don’t you? ❜

❛ when we first fell in love all of those years ago, your father would say i was too sweet for my own good. maybe he was right. ❜

❛ please! can we just stop fighting! ❜

❛ you tell me that it's a cruel world and we're all just running around in circles. i know that. i've been on this earth just as many days as you. ❜

❛ the only thing i do know is we have to be kind. be kind. especially, when we don't know what's going on. ❜

❛ i know you go through life with your fists held tight. you see yourself as a fighter. well, i see myself as one too. this is how i fight. ❜

❛ in another life, i would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with you. ❜

❛ you know what i say? cold, hysterical, unlovable bitches like us make the world go round. ❜

❛ you aren’t unlovable. there is always something to love. ❜

❛ even in a stupid, stupid universe where we have hot dogs for fingers, we’d all be very good with our feet! ❜

❛ in a universe where we both agree that no one could love you, if we look hard enough, something will prove us wrong. ❜

❛ we are all useless alone. so its good you're not alone. ❜

❛ maybe you win in this universe. but in another, i beat you. or we tie. or we eat crepes. ❜

❛ i don't want to hurt anymore. and for some reason when i'm with you, it hurts both of us. ❜

❛ out of all of the places i could be, why would i want to be here with you? ❜

❛ i still want to be here with you. i will always want to be here with you. ❜

❛ i will cherish these few specks of time. ❜

[healpalm]

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03. — final

   𝐹𝐼𝑁𝐴𝐿𝐼𝑇𝑌  ,      𝐿𝐼𝐾𝐸  𝐴𝐿𝐿  𝑇𝐻𝐼𝑁𝐺𝑆    ,       seemed  fickle  and  ephemeral    ;    never  fixed  as  its  definition  implied      ────       not  for  shinobi    ,     not  for  Team  Minato    ,     and  not  for  Rin.       the  final  time  she  had  thought  to  see  his  face  was  there   ,     half-way  out  of  Kirigakure    ,     with  a  weeping  rain  strewn  across  his  impossibly  sad  face.      the  final  words  she  had  thought  to  speak  was  his  name   ,    a   whisper  that   ,    though  broken    ,    conveyed  the  extent  of  her  reverence.      her  love  for  him  had  branched  into  more  than  a  simple  girlish  crush.     she   wanted   to  keep  him  safe  like  she  had  promised  she  would  have  kept  Obito  save.      once  guilty   ,   twice  failed     ────       how  cruel   it  was  to  be  the  one  doing  him  the  most  harm  now.

finality  was  the  salty  tears  dancing  down  her  cheeks    ,    endless  until  they  roll  off  her  chin  and  flatten  onto  the  ground  or  her  bloodied  clothes.      finality  was  the  seal  placed  over  her  heart  snapping  in  two  between  her  friend’s  hands.     finality   was  how  she  had  just  enough  breath  to  call  for  him  but  not  enough  to  beg  his  forgiveness  and  beseech  that  he  not  blame  himself.       finality  was  the  cold  ground  upon  which  her  head  bounced  off  as  she  fell  unconscious     ,     dust  and  blood  mixed  in  dirty  rainwater  forming  puddles  around  her  head  like  the  crown  of  flowers  that  would  decorate  her  child’s  face  at  the  upcoming  funeral.    

that  was  the  final  time  she  thought  to  see  him   ,    and  the  fact  alone  was  more  of  a  gift  than  she  ever  deserved.     that  was  the  final  time  she  thought  to  see  him   ,    and  when  she  wakes  hours  later     ────      head  in  disarray   ,   apron  torn   ,   midriff  bare  with  the  imprint  of  a  swirl  with  sixteen  pointed  edges  that  looked  like  a  mandala  on  the  gilded  walls  of  temple  but  she  knew  was  a  variation  of  an  Uzumaki  seal  because  her  frantic  glance  shoots  up  to  meet  the  pale    ,     worried  face  of  her  Sensei  and  a  flash  of  red  that  could  only  mean  Kushina  rushing  about   ,   she  just  about  faints  again  from  shock.     and   when  she  sees  him     ,    only  a  ghost  of  a  boy  shaking  by  the  feet  of  her  makeshift  bed   (   just  a  blanket  tossed  haphazardly  on  the  floor  )   ,    her  visions  starts  to  blur  with  fat  ,  wet  tears.    

she  had  thought  her  presumed  death  by  his  hand  was  the  final  time  she  would  see  him.    she  had  thought.

[healpalm]

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   𝘿𝘼𝙍𝙆𝙉𝙀𝙎𝙎 𝙆𝙄𝙎𝙎𝙀𝙎 𝙏𝙃𝙀𝙈 ,   the  chill  of  night  pricking  at  their  skin  like  icy  needles  or  the  scrape  of  the  senbon  she  had  carefully  tucked  away  in  her  weapon’s  pouch.       muscles  burn  with  a  glorious  triumph   ,    a  victorious  retreat  leading  their  weary  feet  back  home.      infiltration  came  to  her  now  with  an  unnerving  ease    ;    second-nature    ,     a  skill  she  would  never  had  thought  herself  capable  of  had  she  not  been  forced  to  take  such  elite  rank.      she  has  come  to  embody  her  mask     ───     a   sheep  able  to  fit  in  with  the  rest    ,    yet  masked  a  unexpected  wolf  of  a  girl  within.   

she  owes  at  least  some  of  that  learned  ferocity  to  the  half-pint  killer  running  at  her  side.    Tenzo  had  taught  her  how  to  belong    ,     had  shown  her  how  to  adapt  and  act  the  part  until  she  was  the  part.      (   even  if  she  still  had  to  turn  away  while  he  finished  off  a  target   )         as  gratitude    ,    she  kept  what  innocence  left  in  him  alive.    once  feet  slow  to  navigate  the  slosh  of  marshland  where  Ame  ended  and  Kusa  began   ,   she  takes  the  opening  and  lifts  up  her  mask. 

‛     Tenzo.     ʹ       she  hisses    ,    prying  off  the  rest  of  her  mask  and  clipping  it  against  her  hip.     dainty  finger  swirls  up     ,     lips  swollen  and  nearly  split  from  a  particularly  tough  punch  she  had  received  earlier  spread  into  an  easy  smile.     nose  wrinkles  with  a  childish  joy   ,    wondrous  eyes  cast  up  to  the  dark  abyss  of  sparse  clouds  dotted  with  glimmering  stars  just  above  them.    her  pupils  are  a  blood-red    ,    dusty  yellow  lining  where  the  whites  of  her  eyes  ought  to  have  been    ────     she   takes  on  the  eyes  of  her  inhabitant  to  see  more  clearly  at  night.      they  stomp  through  inundated  grasslands  with  their  sights  set  on  the  skies   ,    a  blanket  of  stars  twinkling  between  a  light  drizzle  of  remnant  rain  thanking  them  for  today’s  service.   

   ‛     i  came  here  once  with  my  genin  squad  during  the  war.    we  were  delivering  supplies  to  leaf  shinobi  stalled  in  Ame  while  they  tried  to  fight  Iwa-nin  out  of  Kusa  from  both  borders.   the  sky  looked  exactly  the  same  then  as  it  does  today.     ʹ         she   relates  the  anecdote  with  a  dreamy  voice     ,     relying  on  memories  of  Obito’s  wild  laughter  and  their  sensei  turning  with  a  fury  to  scold  him  for  being  loud  in  enemy  territory  to  keep  the  sadness  she  felt  at  recalling  happier  times  that  would  never  again  return  at  bay.    she  forges  another  happy  memory  tonight   ,    turning  to  memorize  the  sweetness  of  Tenzo’s  almond  eyes  admiring  the  stars  alongside  her.          ‛     i  never  thought  i’d  be  back  here  .  .  .   but  i’m  glad  i  returned  once  again  in  good  company.     ʹ

[fightrisen]

there really is no believable reason as to why this woman would be straight

[fightrisen]

icecurse​.

❛     Looking me in the eye and lying. I thought we were best friends.   ❜ 

they sip at their sake cup, fixing ino with an incredulous and disappointed glare the entire while. 

❛     First of all, you love going out with me, so jot that down.   ❜  they wrap an arm around her, pointing at her with their cup as they lean over her to take the bottle. ❛     Second of all, you have feelings for Sakura-chan. I know it. You know it. The only one who has no idea is her. What is the hold up?   ❜ once they’re both topped up again, haku leans  back in the club booth, looking down their nose at ino and wondering she this, of all things, is the one shot she won’t shoot. she is so hard-headed and stubborn and tough and – ah, that’s it, isn’t it. sometimes it is the strongest people who are terrified of being broken.  haku softens, though a certain no-nonsense firmness remains in their voice.  ❛     You are the most fearless woman I know. What are you so afraid of?    ❜

it’s a rare sight for ino to be left speechless, painted lips gasping around words just out their plush reach like a fish out of water.   haku seems the only person in the entire universe capable of halting the crazed locomotion of ino’s thoughts to such extent, their levelheaded calm forcing her to focus on what she might willingly refuse to contemplate.   such moments were merely small acts of love,  and while ino was grateful to count on someone with so much of her genuine best interest at heart,   it could do nothing but grate upon her nerves how misplaced the timing always seemed to be.   

  ‘     damn, i thought we were out to have a good time tonight but you’re really set on grilling me, huh?       ’        she chuckles with a touch of nerves before downing her cup again.   she takes brief respite in this liquid courage,   yet the cowardice of it is ill-fitting on one so widely renowned for being unapologetically bold.   what was she afraid of?    rejection was probably only a small percentage of a truthful response.

more than anything,  she was paralyzed by the thought of losing more than she could possibly gain from pursuing her romantic feelings for Sakura.  it had, after all, been half a lifetime of ino choosing to “like” the same guy as her ( hah! ) and chase the same interests if only to remain close to her in the face of that ephemeral ambition (that drove ino wild with simultaneous currents of want and rage) and that so constantly pulled her from ino’s immediate periphery in the chase of something even greater than her last challenge.   it would seem a waste to gamble the sanctity of their rivalry, of that passionate competitiveness and the bond it’s forged, just so she could attain the fulfillment of her heart’s longing. 

  ‘      i just think it’s my purpose in her life to be her motivation, the conflict she needs to become even better.       ’        it wasn’t untrue,    since the moment they had met as children,   ino had felt a great surge of wanting to help sakura become the greatest version of herself she could be.   yet this admittance,   all meek and breathy and teetering as it had left her glossy lips,   felt like a denial of the verity of her desires.      ‘      and don’t you think that my feelings being blatant to the whole wide world except for her is answer enough of how receptive she would be to me shifting our dynamic like that ? it just... it is what it is, haku. some things just shouldn’t be explored.        ’        

[fightrisen]

 icecurse.

@fightrisen​  / /  CONT.

this is just yet another reason haku loves ino: they can always trust her to pick up exactly what they put down. haku braces a hand against their chest with a theatrical gasp, playing every bit of scandalized. ❛  Me? You know I am saving myself for marriage!  ❜ which is just about the fattest lie haku has ever told.

ino’s warmth is a familiar comfort. with her lips against their ear, she almost sounds like the gossipy angel on their shoulder — or the devil, depending on her mood.

❛  Maybe, maybe not,  ❜ haku amends, tapping the gel pen against their lips. ❛  You could say we are seeing a lot of each other these days, but possessing byakugan means Neji sees a lot of everyone.  ❜ Yes, it is a terrible joke, thanks for noticing. No, they aren’t sorry. ❛  We train together regularly.  ❜ the sly quirk of their lips says ‘interpret that as you see fit.’ ❛  He is…. very different than how people portray him.  ❜ perhaps sweet is not the right word, but it’s the best they can come up with at the moment. ❛  Neji is ….  ❜

attentive. always watching. perhaps that sounds unnerving to the average person, but neji’s perceptiveness means he notices the little things, like the way the hair on the left side of haku’s face always falls into their eyes when they laugh, which is annoying, but when they are alone neji brushes the hair from their eyes and tucks it behind their ear without a word. he seems to know haku’s favorite post-training snacks without asking, and wordlessly offers haku tangerines on occasion. and they love his attention: the way his eyes flicker to their lips when they smile. the way his gaze intensifies when he wants to touch them but won’t let himself, and the way his fingers flex and coil when haku breaches the distance between them.

and, goodness, his hands — he’s only given haku a shoulder rub once after haku’d sustained a number of juuken blows during practice, but haku could have sworn they were boneless by the time they were done.

it takes a moment for haku to realize they’ve trailed off. ❛  Neji is sweet, in his own way. I know that is a controversial statement, but I stand by it.  ❜ they clear their throat and roll their eyes at ino’s smug look. it does nothing to calm the rosy blush blooming across their cheeks.

❛  How do you always know everything? If you say a little birdie told you, I will lose my mind.  ❜

her resulting cackle in the face of their elusive affirmation is delightful in its cherubic intonation yet evil as it was steeped in triumph.  a penchant for gossip and the pigheaded need to always be right had made a monster out of ino, however lovable she might be in spite of her incessant meddling. she curls vice-like at their back,  arms and legs winding like insidious vines around the lithe waist she had always envied as she squeezes and squeals in her deranged elation. 

"if you’re saving yourself for marriage, then i must be the next candidate for head monk at the fire temple.” her bright voice rebukes with the certainty capable only of a person privy to every raunchy detail of their friend’s life. picking lint off surface of haku’s clothing, she casts a dry laugh at their pun as she listens intently to the beginning of what could either be a critical assessment of hyuga neji or a saccharine bout of gushing depending on how deep their feelings ran. the latter was something much more prone of one so often reckless with their heart as herself, but haku was always more prudent with their attachments. so it shocks her when the steadiest of her friends not only seems to be lost in thought where they would usually quickly fill her in on their latest flame but then proceeds to cast petals at the feet of one of konoha’s coldest.

considering how haku scolds her tendency to be critical, particularly when their friends were involved, it’s probably a good thing they can’t see the grimace distorting her beauty into a sarcastic snarl, petal lips wrapping soundlessly around the word ‘sweet’ as if she’d tasted something foul.  it was her own immediate stance that the word sweet and hyuga neji should never be in the same paragraph, let alone sentence, but she bites her tongue on that thought in favor of humming in interest like a good friend would.  ( perhaps she still held some bitterness for his callous dismissal of her beauty during the chuunin exams way back when they were genin, despite the fact her lesbian ass could care less about being attractive to him.  in matters of pride, ino had never learned to take a snub at her immaculate appearance without it cutting deep enough to produce festering resentment like puss on an untreated wound )   

“honey, i think you’ve been seeing a side of hyuga neji no one has ever even come close to. if i didn’t know you to be candid and straight-forward,  and him to have a stick eternally stuck up his pert rectum,  i’d think you were lying or delusional. i can’t say i understand whatever this going on between you two is but you look so much more radiant at just thinking about the boy so i support it.” truth coats her words as she leans back to run her fingers soothingly through the endless tumult of their inky waves. she could potentially care less about the boring counterpart that had gained haku’s attention, so long as they were enjoying themselves she was happy. 

she preens at their following inquiry, delighting in the sudden attention. laughter flutter free from her lips like the titter of birds in the morning. “i have my sources.” she replies with faux mystique, as if she wasn’t dying to divulge the questionable methods of her information-gathering process. she waits a beat to let the intrigue ruminate, shifting her immediate focus on threading haku’s hair into a fishtail braid before elaborating. “naturally, i either coerce, bully, or seduce the information from people. sometimes i use mind-switch jutsu to get a firsthand look but thats only when i’m really curious. i’m too pretty to actively stalk people outside of a mission but i always have to be in the know, you know?” the girlish laugh that punctuates this statement is enough to send a chill down anyone’s spine;   this is exactly why she was all but guaranteed a future in intel, and why ibiki was somewhat freaked out by her.

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MILK AND HONEY + THE SUN AND HER FLOWERS by RUPI KAUR, sentence starters. ↷

(may have been altered to better suit the rpc. feel free to change pronouns/etc.)

❝ you have sadness living in places it shouldn’t live. ❞ ❝ you are a war… collateral damage. ❞ ❝ the art of being empty is simple: believe them when they say that you are nothing. ❞ ❝ i understand this world broke you. ❞ ❝ you are every hope i’ve ever had in human form. ❞ ❝ you are the faint line between faith and blindly waiting. ❞ ❝ i have always been ready for you. ❞ ❝ we’re the only ones that can bring us back together. ❞ ❝ the longer i stayed the less i loved myself. ❞ ❝ i am not a hotel room, i am home. ❞ ❝ we keep breaking each other and calling it love. ❞ ❝ people go, but how they left always stays. ❞ ❝ love is not cruel, we are cruel. ❞ ❝ i am losing parts of you like i lose eyelashes: unknowingly and everywhere. ❞ ❝ you cannot leave and have me too. i cannot exist in two places at once. ❞ ❝ why do you leave if you won’t stay gone? ❞ ❝ the way you left told me everything i needed to know. ❞ ❝ grow flowers from your pain. ❞ ❝ losing you was the becoming of myself. ❞ ❝ you are so much more than ‘pretty’. ❞ ❝ how you love yourself is how you teach others to love you. ❞ ❝ i spent the entire night casting spells to bring you back. ❞ ❝ i could be anything in the world, but i wanted to be yours. ❞ ❝ you took the sun with you when you left. ❞ ❝ write a letter and address it to all the insecure parts of me. your voice alone drives me to tears. yours telling me i am beautiful. yours telling me i am enough. ❞ ❝ what do you think happens to the love that’s left behind when two lovers leave? ❞ ❝ how do i turn around and choose myself when you are pulling me in just by standing there? ❞ ❝ why do you live your life hoping that someone will realize they can’t live theirs without you? ❞ ❝ no one warned me it would hurt like this. ❞ ❝ this home is empty now. ❞ ❝ it takes monsters to steal souls and fighters to reclaim them. ❞ ❝ the irony of loneliness is that we all feel it at the same time. ❞ ❝ we’ve been dying since we got here. ❞ ❝ you do not just wake up and become the butterfly. ❞ ❝ i am not a mannequin in the window of your favorite shop. ❞ ❝ what if nothing wants me because i do not want me? ❞ ❝ i have survived far too much to go quietly. ❞ ❝ and here you are living, despite it all. ❞ ❝ i am sorry this world could not keep you safe. ❞ ❝ this boat is not strong enough to carry this much sorrow to the shore. ❞ ❝ when i am about to shatter, i think of your strength and harden. ❞ ❝ i want to fill the rest of your life with ease. ❞ ❝ you are the hero of heroes, the god of gods. ❞ ❝ you sacrificed your dreams so that i could dream. ❞ ❝ you wrapped me in the word ‘special’. ❞ ❝ i am trying to not make you pay for their mistakes. ❞ ❝ maybe we need more than love to make this work. ❞ ❝ there is no place i end and you begin. ❞ ❝ together, we are an endless conversation. ❞ ❝ when death takes my hand, i will hold you with the other and promise to find you in every lifetime. ❞ ❝ if you got anymore beautiful, the sun would leave its place and come for you. ❞ ❝ the universe took its time on you. ❞ ❝ their concept of beauty is manufactured. i am not. ❞ ❝ your accomplishments are not my failures. ❞ ❝ do not shy away from another thing that belongs to you. ❞ ❝ the necessity to protect you overcame me. ❞ ❝ there is nothing left to worry about. ❞

[brown-lesbian]

lesbians doing absolutely anything is so fucking hot

[brown-lesbian]

this was highkey about my girlfriend struggling to cut a bagel with a shitty knife

[fightrisen]

✧✧  SARADA  /   nephils‌  !

                                            bonding time / @fightrisen​

            ❝  do you care about astrology? mom says i’m an aries and not exactly sure what that means.  ❞

          ‘    i  absolutely  do !   aries,  huh ?   that  just  means  you’re  tenacious  and  passionate,  you  might  be  a  little  stubborn  here  and  there  but  you’ll  always  see  things  through  impeccably  to  the  very  end.     common  misconceptions  tend  to  sell  aries  short  by  painting  them  as  temperamental  but  most  of  the  people  of  that  sign  that  i’ve  encountered  have  been  hard-working  and   exceptional.    case  in  point,  you,  Sarada.   ’  

[fightrisen]

   @nebyuula​    !

    FONDNESS        overflows,    pouring  out  of  warm  eyes  which  glisten  just  to  look  at  him.    Naruto  speaks  so  animatedly  that  he  misses  Iruka  taking  a  piece  of  char-siu  from  his  own  bowl  and  placing  it  atop  his  remaining  ramen  broth;    sharing  food  was  an  act  of  love,    that  which  Iruka  held  much  of  in  his  heart  for  Naruto.          ‘    i’m  glad  to  hear  you’ve  been  enjoying  your  missions,  lately.     i’ve  only  heard  good  feedback  on  your  recent  dispatches  when  I  work  the  missions  desk.    i  don’t  think  i  can  tell  you  enough  how  proud  i  always  am  of  you . . .  although,   your  mission  reports  could  be  a  touch  more  legible.   ’  

[loveoaths]

HEADCANON MEME !

@fightrisen​ asked:   ⭐️ for mother rin ofc

it takes one mother to bury another.

haku has forgotten their mother. losing a loved one is not like it is described in films or movies. there is no soft laughter haunting them, no spirits lurking at the ends of corridors, no faded smiles & soft whispers unraveling over time. 

the only phantoms are the questions that haunt their heart. how had her hands felt when she pulled haku into her lap to braid their thick, dirty hair ? when she taught haku to read, did she use birch sticks or yew to dig katakana into the cold, hard ground ? did her scream shatter & splinter like icicles as she died, or was it more a gurgling river ? what color were her eyes: a violet so dark it looked black in the right lighting, honey brown like haku’s, or dirt-brown like the wet hole they’d buried her in ? they remember she smelled of cold earth & something else, something older, darker. they didn’t know what. they still don’t.

it is hard to remember her name, sometimes. ito sango around the others, but she had let haku call her ayai when no one was around. she’d claimed it was her secret nickname. it was only when zabuza revealed haku’s heritage that they realized sango was not her real name at all. over a decade living a lie  …  how painful it must have been to become a new woman, to become a nameless pawn of fate.

it doesn’t matter. ito sango  –  yuki ayai is dead. 

the day haku realizes they’ve all but forgotten their mother, they go to rin nohara. perhaps it is cruel to bury his mother alongside the woman who has replaced her, whose soft face & decisive voice have replaced the ugly memories with something sweeter & more tangible. she was soft in ways their mother could not afford to be most of the time. haku likes to think the two would have gotten along. their mother was a quiet woman. rin would have made her laugh.

haku teaches rin the yuki burial rites: how to stack the sacred stones & where, which direction the empty bier will face. rin complies without complaint, following haku’s cues, for which haku is grateful.  when it is done rin kneels beside haku as they lay the bitter ceremonial herbs on the shrine & pray.

Dear mother, 

I hope you are happy where ever you are. I am sorry I could not protect you. I always will be. I hope one day you find it in your heart to forgive me. 

I love you. I will never stop loving you.

I have found a new home and family here. I pray you have found one too. 

[bunnieresources]

kate bush’s ‘hounds of love’ sentence starters.

“ it doesn’t hurt me. “

“ do you want to know how it feels? “

“ do you want to know that it doesn’t hurt me? “

“ do you want to hear about the deal that i’m making? “

“ and if i could, i’d make a deal with god and have him switch our places. “

“ you don’t want to hurt me. “

“ is there so much hate for the ones we love? “

“ tell me, we both matter, don’t we? “

“ let me steal this moment from you now. “

“ let’s exchange the experience. “

“ it’s in the trees, it’s coming. “

“ i’ve always been a coward. “

“ i don’t know what’s good for me. “

“ it’s coming for me through the trees. “

“ i’m ashamed of running away. “

“ i’m ashamed of running away from nothing real, i just can’t deal with this. “

“ i just can’t deal with this. “

“ i’m still afraid to be there. “

“ don’t let me go. “

“ hold me down. “

“ do you know what i really need? i need love. “

“ you never really understood me. you never really tried. “

“ you want my reply? what was the question? “

“ ____ knows that i’ve been doing something wrong, but she/he/they won’t say anything. “

“ you’re here in my head. “

“ i just know that something good is gonna happen. “

“ i can’t hide you. “

“ let me be weak. “

“ let me sleep. “

“ come here with me now. “

“ i can’t keep my eyes open. “

“ there’s something moving under the ice. “

“ you must wake up! wake up! “

“ wake up, child! pay attention! “

“ listen to me, baby. “

“ help me, baby. “

“ talk to me, please talk to me. “

“ you can’t hear me. “

“ you can’t hear what i’m saying to you. “

“ i should have been home hours ago, but i’m not here. “

“ you don’t hear what i’m saying, do you? “

“ there’s a ghost in our home watching you without me. “

“ don’t ignore me. “

“ let me in and don’t be long. “

“ you won’t hear me leaving. “

“ i know your face well, i know it well. “

“ never say goodbye to my part of your life. “

“ let me live! “

“ this moment in time, it doesn’t belong to you. it belongs to me. “

“ somewhere in the depth, there is a light. “

“ why did i go? “

“ do you know what? i love you better now. “

“ i am falling, like a stone. “

“ like a storm, i am being born again. “

“ i’d love to hold you now. “

“ i’ll tell my loved ones how much i love them. “

[fightrisen]

  lizzo starters /  accepting ┊ @loerchik​​​​​:       heaven, help me. / yahiko to konan uvu

     UNGUARDED,        in  the  presence  of  her  heart’s  center,      Konan  softens.     the  sharp  edges  of  shoulders  tensed  with  worry  curve  and  drop,     a  soft  sigh  cleansing  remnants  of  apprehension  clouding  her  mind.      she  was  safe,   Nagato  was  safe,    Yahiko  was  safe  ───    but  for  the  occasional  ache  of  wounds  denoting  the  arduous  nature  of  their  most  recent  battle,    he  rested  now  against  her  lap  unharmed.    fingertips  barely  graze  against  the  skin  of  his  eyelids,   appreciative  rumination  stuck  on  the  puzzle  of  his  rugged  beauty,    yet  the  ghost  of  her  touch  proves  to  startle  his  rest.    impassive  features  aren’t  disrupted  by  the  brief  gasp  produced  at  the  sight  of  ochre  lashes  fluttering  open  but  the  uptight  jolt  of  her  spine  gone  rigid  to  have  been  caught  immersed  in  such  tenderness  exposes  her  mild  shock.

Yahiko  plays  it  off  with  a  drowsy  smile,   long  limbs  stretching  across  her  like  a  lounging  cat  basking  in  sunlight.     the  sight  of  this  and  subsequent  pained  exclamation  to  have  disturbed  the  bindings  of  his  more  aggravating  wounds  stirs  a  fondness  deep  in  her  heart  to  a  frenzied  boil  threatening  to  spill. 

────    and  overflow,  it  does.    however  infinitesimal  the  effects,   the  resulting  suggestion  of  a  smile  curving  the  edges  of  her  lips  a  brilliant  beacon  of  her  love  shining  back  at  him.       ‘    all  of  heaven  must  be  busy.   would  a  single  angel  be  alright  ?   ’    

[healpalm]

you  ever  think  about  how  Rin  performed  a  jonin  level  eye  surgery  (  of  a  sharingan  no  less  )  while  a  cave  was  about  to  crumble  around  her  and  enemies  were  closing  in  when  she  was  just  a  12-13  year  old  GENIN  

[idleminds]

“Why did you do that? Why did you do that? Why? Why did you leave me all alone? Why did you? Why did you do that? Why?”

[fightrisen]

   lizzo starters  /  accepting ┊ @9sik​​:       "oh, that breaks my heart." - hayate because hes lowkey pinning

      HEAVINESS        permeates  his  entire  being          regret  coloring  his  heavy  sigh,   remorse  crushing  heavy  chest,    limbs  rendered  heavy  and  useless  with  tempered  (  read:  waning  )   longing.     for  all  of  Raidou’s  analytical  prowess,    when  tasked  in  these  more  fragile  situations  he  seems  prone  to  find  a  way  to  put  a  foot  in  his  mouth.    to  think  everything  had  started  so  well;     a  palpable  attraction  made  heady  by  loneliness,    two  bodies  slanting  closer,   closer,   closer  until  mouth  covered  mouth  with  unrelenting  vigor.    the  thrum  of  both  their  powerful  chakras  tangled  and  virile,    a  disarray  of  Hayate’s  longing  and  Raidou’s  whetted  desire.    

                 ────     then  it  happens.

       ‘    Genma . . .   ’     incriminating  evidence  falls  like  the  most  reverent  prayer  from  Raidou’s  full  lips,    revealing  where  his  mind  had  immediately  flown  in  the  instance  of  intimacy.    if  the  moment  the  words  had  flown  from  his  lips  had  been  detrimental,   the  awkward,   tensed  parting  that  followed  it  felt  apocalyptic.    calloused  palm  dislodges  from  its  grip  at  Hayate’s  hip  and  cards  nervously  through  sandy  locks,   the  small  gap  between  his  front  teeth  sucking  in  his  bottom  lip  as  he  bit  it.    Hayate’s  humorless  laugh  rings  in  his  ears,    subsequent  words  a  corrosion  of  rust  on  iron. 

      ‘    . . .  i  know  i’m  coming  off  as  a  huge  jerk  here  but  i  want  you  to  know  i  truly  did  not  mean  to  say  .  .  .  that.    ’     even  as  he  avoids  reiterating  the  forsaken  name,   the  reference  of  Genma  draws  a  particular  softness  from  him  otherwise  missing  in  his  intimidating  presence.      there  was  something  to  be  said  here  about  the  potency  of  first  love,   thats  is,   if  the  realization  of  the  fact  wasn’t  so  deeply  muddled  in  the  shattered  feelings  of  another.        ‘     uh  . . .   shit.     Hayate,   i’m  just  sorry.   i  know  it  probably  means  nothing  right  about  now,   but  i  really  do  care  for  you  and  if  you’re  willing  to  give  it  another  try  . . .    ’