[fineline-live]

Nothing

really depressed ilya fic sorry bout that ;/ 11.9k words

He looked down at the dirty floor; he needed to clean up. To get rid of the evidence that this had ever happened. Not that anyone was ever coming over anymore, it had been just him for months. He couldn’t bear the idea of someone being in his house, not after… Not after he was the last person here. And he ran away. And that settled something in Ilya about his worth that so deeply told him that that was the end of everything. Of them. Of himself. That he wasn’t worth anything. He was nothing.

/ OR

Ilya knew he was depressed, he feared he took after his mother that way. No one else knew Ilya was depressed, and maybe that was part of the problem. Facing the aftermath and the guilt from failing to kill himself seemed to be a whole other issue. Especially when it came to Jane and Jane finding out what he did.

,,,, this is a fic that has lowkey pretty graphic descriptions of an attempt but it's Ilya so of course he acts like it's no biggie and that he's fine are we surprised

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[hudconera]

“when rozanov pressed in, it was slow and careful, but shane’s whole body trembled anyway. the pain was there, but not as sharp as shane had been expecting. the pressure was the most overwhelming sensation"

[lexicanons]

AU where Shane starts talking to this guy in Russia and everyone thinks he’s getting scammed. Shane has never had a FaceTime/video call with this guy and Shane’s like “it’s because he’s in the Russian countryside taking care of his sick father. The internet they have out there can’t support a video call”. Shane shows them photos of a beautiful man, and everyone thinks the photos are stolen from a random IG account. Then, the guy’s dad dies. Shane tells everyone that he sent the guy money to come to Canada. Shane explains the man has a trust but he doesn’t have access to it yet, and he’ll pay Shane back once he gets access. They all think Shane was just scammed. They think the sick dad was a sob story created to get money.

On the day the Russian is suppose to land in Ottawa, Yuna and David clean up Shane’s childhood bedroom and make sure they have enough beer, wine and liquor for the inevitable heartbreak. They’re debating if they should tell Shane’s friends to come over when their front door opens, and in walks Shane with the stunning man from the photos. Yuna and David are frozen in shock as Shane introduces Ilya to them. Ilya also wasn’t lying about the trust. Turns out his mother’s family was super wealthy and she left Ilya a lot of money. Once Ilya gets access to the trust, he pays Shane back and then invests the rest. Ilya’s investments are so successful and he ends up with so much money that Shane’s friends are begging Shane to find them a hot Russian to date.

[hollanov248108]

In love with the idea of Ilya sitting Rose down like she did with Shane and him being like “lesbian 🫵🏻” and then the next time Ilya, Shane, and Rose hang out, she’s telling them how she can’t believe she didn’t realize she was gay and that all of the gay men she’s dated should have been a clue, etc. and Ilya looks her dead in the eyes and goes “not so gay you couldn’t fuck Shane Hollander”

[hudconera]

little gay yearning bottom eyes and big sexy russian to feast on

[gaynehollander]

They don't ever discuss it, really - not truly; the way Shane craves Ilya in his mouth with an intensity that at times buzzes under his skin like a hive of bees. They don't actually talk about it when he raises Ilya's fingers to his mouth while they're watching a movie. When he's reading while the pads of two fingers press into his tongue or the roof of his mouth. When Ilya's fingers run along the insides of his teeth as he answers emails. When Shane gently sucks on them without paying any of it much thought, mind occupied by other matters. Just like Ilya doesn't make a big thing of it when Shane gently bites down on his forearm or his pec, letting his tongue glide over the skin out of sheer need to be close to him, to have something of him in him, preferably at all times. They allow it to remain unspoken. Just one of those things that is tacitly understood and lovingly obliged with.

Or, well, Ilya does bring it up sometimes but only when Shane's mind is already clouded with desire. It's only ever said in that syrupy sweet tone of voice - the same tone he uses when he says "do you need me to fuck you, sweetheart?" The tone that doesn't require a response beyond whimpers and perhaps the occasional "please." When Shane's head is fuzzy and full of cotton, when he's in that place where nothing beyond longing can reach him. He'll bring it up then. Whisper it in his ear or let the words drip out between kisses. "Are you so empty, baby? Does my sweet boy need something in his mouth?" Shane will never admit how affected he is by that tone; sugary sweet and dripping with gentle condescension. "Are you still not full enough?" he'll ask when Shane desperately chases his fingers while Ilya's ramming into him from behind. That's when he brings it up. "So greedy," he'll say, "so needy," and the words sound like terms of endearment, "always need me in your mouth, don't you?" And Shane will say please and be rewarded for it. But they don't discuss it. Not really. After all, Shane knows better than to talk with his mouth full.

[shane-bug]

childhood friends!hollanov

[bugslibraryy]

This is driving me fucking crazy.

Video source

[fineline-live]

i need a compilation vid of shane hollander moaning STAT

[finelytaylored]

he was down SO BAD IMMEDIATELY

[shanehollandered]

my unpopular opinion (i think?) is that shane doesn't really use pet names on ilya, at least not at first and not before he works through some of his internalized homophobia, and then, the first time he absentmindedly drops a 'babe' on ilya, ilya nearly brains himself on the nearest surface

[ginger-coke]

like everything with them, it happens during sex first. ilya's eating him out slow and sloppy, spit dripping down his chin, two fingers teasing at shane's prostate, when shane pulls his hair and whines "ilya, baby, please."

blood rushes to ilya's dick so fast he almost blacks out. baby. he pulls away. shane whines again, pulls again, begs again, "nononono don't stop, baby, please--"

"say it again," he croaks. he'd meant it to come out stronger than that, but he's fighting shane's hold and flailing for the lube and trying to slick himself all at once while his brain goes baby baby baby he called me baby i'm his baby.

"please."

"not that. what did you call me? call me that again."

he lines himself up while shane tries to collect himself. finally recognition lights his eyes. he sniffles. "...baby?"

ilya sinks into him with a groan. shane's tighter than they usually like, but he keeps pressing forward anyway, through the stretch, through the heat, through their combined cries of pleasure, and he fucks shane until neither of them can speak.

after that, shane quickly learns calling ilya "baby" is the quickest way to make his brain stop working. ilya gets him a ginger ale from his parents' fridge, shane says "thank you baby" and ilya walks into the wall. they're coming off the ice after practice, shane says "hey babe don't forget--" and ilya trips over his own skates and almost causes a ten-Centaur pileup. shane says "babe will you--" and ilya stands up so fast he bangs his knee on the table.

but he never gets embarrassed no matter how ridiculous he looks, and he never chirps back no matter how relentlessly he's mocked. if anything, he leans into it all, puffing out his chest and playing up his reactions until shane's belly laughing with delight.

"is only reaction when you are shane hollander's baby," he declares. "only natural. no other choice. you would not know this. you will never understand. he is mine, and only i am his baby."

[bloominflowers]

i guess i like these guys a lot 💆‍♀️

[gaygoatshane]

he couldn't believe he was being asked if he liked girls

[handsywoman]

welcome to Pound Town population: Shane Hollander

[grabmybush]

ilya putting shane into a headlock mid thrust send tweet

[fineline-live]

maybe this is niche but every three years or so i out of nowhere remember Beat Again by JLS and that fuckass video of niall horan dancing in the street

[russianblush]

tummy touching (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)