even before viserra denies it, her mind wanders through the field of poppies. how soft and delicate their petals, redder than the sigil of their draconic house, and how beautiful the flush of her daughter's face still living. much more flushed than her own, vivacious and avaricious, and the love pours itself hot from the iron of her remaining ire and hatred. how mingling are these two, how similar. “don't leave us, please. … please, don't leave us.” absent, drifting from that dream. “but you not leaving us, means you must leave someone else. i have seen it. i tried to tell you and i must have frightened you so. forgive me, viserra.” the princess turns sudden, clear, lilac irises to viserra's face, wrought by the distress of anticipatory grief, and rebuking her not, instead the asking for forgiveness. a part of delfina is startled. the rest floats. “forgive me. you must have heard the ravings of a madwoman be told back to you.”
tears prickle then. viserra holds back no explanation about delfina's greatest fear — a loss of dragon of flight, and not just from her own clutch of chosen eggs — and she does not turn her face away to hide the tears as she did before. her chest rises and falls, and the edges of the wounds ache. “gods. none of them understand. none of them are worthy of what it means to rule. forgive me.” a sharp return to what she murmured. her touch flutters, uncertain of where to land, but viserra finds that most tender place of her scalp, and delfina finds the bruised, broken wrist, but adds no pressure, only gives a light brush to acknowledge the seeing of it. “i am the one who failed you. i pushed you away when i only wished for you to be as free as your sisters. for you to rise from the ashes, that is all i ever wanted.” perhaps it repeats what she said before. perhaps it professes the depths of her own regrets: of how she has lost someone who still stands before her and came to visit her. “i saw them … the figures dark, in my dreams … when will they cease cowering in the shadows?” she speaks not to her daughter — but to the shadow of aegor, who she perceives as cowering in the shadows.