love is calling, its time you let it through

🦩 mid 20s 🦩they 🦩 crippled gay flamingo 🦩

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help me pls

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happy pride 😢💕🫶🏽 im a Black nonbinary lesbian artist in recovery for some p severe trauma, please donate if you can so i can afford soup to take my meds on a regular basis while i get a lot of painful dental surgery and go through physical therapy c4$h4pp v3nm0 p4yp4l k0fi

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goal is soup, please help if you can my friend’s cat just threw up and we have to take her to the vet, still havent gotten to eat

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still on the bus to the vet er, havent got to eat, even $1 will help <3

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and i have more dental surgery at 9am 😭 genuinely feeling unwell

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we just got here and they said its $190 just for his cat to be examined!! they are also a Black nonbinary lesbian please please please if you can help please do i do not know what to do but i can ask for help

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just got home, his cant couldnt be seen bcs neither of us passed the credit check and couldnt pay out of pocket enough even combined for her to be seen. my friend has work tomorrow so ill have to try to take her somewhere to be seen after my dental surgery, please consider sharing even $1. i still havent got to eat. grateful for any help bcs truthfully im overwhelmed

[nonbinaryjudean]

OCD things that you don't hear about:

episodes of paranoia, delusions, and dissociation

cyclical thoughts/spirals

magical thinking

episodes that can be very similar to psychosis or mania

attributing human emotions to inanimate objects

dermatillomania and trichotillomania

false sensations (like bugs crawling on skin)

paying way too much attention to very small things

physical health issues caused by compulsions

symptoms that are "problematic" (doing things that are considered "wasteful", needing reassurance or validation from others...)

extreme, deep, dreadful fear of things that can't truly be explained

disconnect between emotional and cognitive/logical responses or thoughts

contamination fears

problems with addiction and dopamine regulation

other people trying to force exposure therapy onto you without your consent and it making your anxiety way worse

list making

[flamingo--ing]

saw myself in the water today

[gaybichon]

not even funny how true this is for me

[kosmogrl]

[gaypornvideoswebsite]

mid-way pride month check-in

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just saw someone comment under a videoclip of the sylvia rivera interview where she insists on the modern (circa 2001) pride movement being a capitalist smokescreen, a “straight gay” movement that worships the almighty dollar, that:

and this person is likely quite young but this really really really captures the limited imagination of capitalist neoliberal indoctrination around freedom and liberation. radical queerness treated as a paintjob over a prison as opposed to the bulldozer that tears the prison down. we have to dream for so much more and endure the pain of dreaming.

[thenervebible]

CONNIE PANZARINO at a pride march in Boston circa 1990

[ID: Connie is marching along in her sip 'n' puff (SNP) wheelchair. She is wearing a patterned poncho and sporting a green felt party crown on her head. She styles a pair of wire-rimmed glasses with her slicked back hair. She is smiling. Attached to the back of her wheelchair is a large green cardboard poster that reads "Trached Dykes Eat Pussy Without Comin' Up For Air!" followed by a pink upside-down triangle with a stick figure person in a wheelchair at the centre (a symbol for disabled women)].

the cyborg & the crip by Alison Kafer

[ID: “Trached dykes eat pussy without coming up for air.” Connie Panzarino, a longtime disability activist and out lesbian, would attach this sign to her wheelchair during Pride marches in Boston in the early 1990s. Shockingly explicit, her sign refuses to cast technology as cold, distancing, or disembodied/disembodying, presenting it instead as a source and site of embodied pleasure. “Trach” is an abbreviation of tracheotomy, a medical procedure in which a breathing tube is inserted directly into the trachea, bypassing the mouth and nose. Someone with a trach, then, can, in effect, breathe through her throat, freeing her mouth for other activities (another version of this sign is “Trached dykes french kiss without coming up for air”). From a cyborgian perspective, this sign is brilliantly provocative and productive. It draws on the pervasive idea that adaptive technologies grant superior abilities,not merely replacing a lost capacity but enhancing it, yet it does so in a highly subversive way. The message here isn’t about blending in, about passing as normal or hypernormal, but about publicly announcing the viability of a queer disabled location. It’s disnormalizing, adamantly refusing compulsory heterosexuality, compulsory able bodiedness, and homonormativity. As Corbett O’Toole argues, it challenges the perceived passivity of disabled women, presenting them as actively pleasuring their partners, thereby graphically refuting stereotypes linking physical disability with nonsexuality.]

[eroscestlavie]

I need to stop replying to “how do you make friends in your 30s?” threads because all my answers boil down to “you have to want to know people instead of have friends” and I don’t think people wanna hear that

[eroscestlavie]

It’s like. People can tell if you don’t really like or connect with them. If you aren’t truly enamored with someone you will have a hard time coming up with activities to do together to deepen the friendship. Because you don’t really like that person that much.

[grrlmusic]

DAZED

[scissorsaint]

you really do meet some of the loveliest people talking about blood and sex on the internet

[gammelgaedda]

shirts that will give the pod matriarch a heart attack

[panducker]

@eddieintheocean

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[angeljeanss]

rosalía by kito muñoz

[burning-sol]

Person who talks about their psychotic "loved one" and how they were tragically "taken over by psychosis" but they just detail all the ways they emotionally abused them and expect you to nod along with the dehumanisation as if what they went through was so much scarier than what the psychotic person was evidently experiencing.

"Maybe I could have done more--" Yes. I agree. You could straight up have not tormented your loved one by belittling them and gossiping about them and throwing out their belongings with the excuse it was "insane stuff" they were "hoarding". If the person is alive and still locked in a psych ward, I wish torment upon your psyche and that you get that poor psychotic person out of there because what the fuck is wrong with you

No more of this narrative.

[burning-sol]

"I lost them to psychosis-" they're in the place you locked them up babe. It is not that hard to find them because they literally don't have freedom? Be /srs right now.

[burning-sol]

The mysterious suicides of psychotic people who were last heard crying about how they can't trust anyone after people dismissed their vivid descriptions of how they were going to be tortured to death and they don't know how to handle this if they have to deal with it alone.

Person who was told all this does not know what the deal was, just that the other was, "talking about some scary stuff". I guess we will never know the strange motivations of schizos, because there is famously no way they could ever commicate their thoughts to us. It's impossible. We haven't figured it out.

So the moral is to always remember that psychotic people are literally so scary and you never know what their deal is.

[burning-sol]

This isn't even exclusive to the news, sometimes you just bring up psychosis at all and someone just.. They are DYING to tell you about the tragic story of their family with a psychotic disorder. "What were they diagnosed with?" You ask. They don't know, they're not even sure if they were diagnosed. They think the disorder probably had to do with drugs of course.

You tell them you think they're a bad person and they're like, "listen, calling the police on them and getting them beat up and thrown in a psych ward was REALLY difficult. it's literally so hard for me to never visit them. because you don't know how painful it is that i visit them and they can't even talk because the psychosis has made them so sleepy and out of it they can't even communicate. i checked with the nurses they were taking their meds, and despite taking an anti-psychotic and four different sedatives, treatment isn't working out. apparently they dont even want to talk to me, like they cant recognise me. you dont even understand how hard it is for me."

The psychotic person, meanwhile, the ever unreliable narrator, will tell you, "my family called the cops on me because i was really freaked out and now im locked in here and if i get slightly aggressive because ive been denied release like two times they force me into taking sedatives and put me on a 2:1 treatment and sexually harass me while i shower. i have been trapped here over a year. the doctors are never around to complain to, the nurses will not even be around to give you your phone at the designated time. the one time the doctor was here they gave me a new diagnosis without asking and keep bringing it up at the tribunals.

...nicer than the last psych ward ive been to though."

And the non-psychotic person would like to know that, in their defence, it was oh so scary. *flashes personal papers the person wrote during their episode* See how scary it is? Look at this paper I stole from them. See how necessary this all is??

But anyways that's the end of my rambling. *walks off to sit beside a nice lake but i smack into a wall that was just painted to look like one*

[uptownthots]

I WANNA HAVE STRAIGHT SEXXXXXXXX AT THE GAY PRIDE PARADE

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[bunjywunjy]