[flataffectt]

yorkiegregg -> doggemann -> flataffectt

gregg (he/him) , level 2 autistic & unspecified schizospectrum disorder

“ambiguous forest monster”… weird reclusive hermit that’s (generally) loveless & asocial…

icon is of a ghillie suit, unknown exact source

[ysengrm]

some of my favourite details from wain's works

[wtpmmm]

[punkedupfae]

Alright ive seen enough

Someone put a blanket over my cage.

[antiqueanimals]

"Woodland Caribou, Male and Female"

Lives of Game Animals, Volume 3. 1927. Written and illustrated by Ernest Thompson Seton.

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[flataffectt]

It sometimes hits me how overbearingly abnormal and different I am for talking to imaginary people every day, having full conversations with these imaginary people and making gestures to them, and all of this happening because I’m so utterly distant from the sheer concept of friendships and relationships that even if there was a hypothetical chance of being a friend to someone I would deny it and somehow the imagined “friend” is so much more visceral then anything human, anything real. But that doesn’t even come into play because I never had real friends and never have wanted friends and no one wants to be friends with me in the present. I live permanently with these ghosts of what it all could’ve been like in a different life. They are the sheer essence of that. They are the reminders of what it could’ve been like. Somehow I am more natural with the imaginary and so cold and different with the real.

[spinus-pinus]

Black Vulture Coragyps atratus

6/13/2022 Brevard County, Florida

[corvidaemnit]

every single day I think about how american black vultures are known for engaging in interspecific allopreening (preening between different species)

and they have a specific relationship with crested caracaras, in which the black vultures assist them by not only preening them after meals but also leading them to food in the first place, while the caracaras assist the black vultures by acting as a warning signal in case of danger

and while this is more typical of black vultures, this is not common at all for any member of the falconidae family— it’s a special bond!

yet another post in favor of vultures everyone , hope you enjoy:) and I implore you to do some more research on these incredible birds !!

EDIT: I meant interspecific allopreening! excuse my typo!

EDIT 2: black vultures do not have a superior sense of smell to caracaras, sorry for the misunderstanding!

[yellow-cat]

(voice of a person spiralling) its embarrassing but i still havent figured out if its ok for me to be alive

[splattergutz]

i feel like i’m cursed forever but other than that i’m doing alright

[turnipfritters]

[flataffectt]

I got this mattress topper for my bed that’s essentially a huge padded cushion so it’s softer, and I also moved my pillow to the other end of the bed so where I sleep is more “closed in”, and tonight I slept really good! Still woke up in the middle of the night but I was able to fall asleep again. I’ve been struggling with waking up comfortably but this time I did!

[flataffectt]

Kind of funny how I denied my “woman commanding me” episode for so long and only now am I able to recognize its properties.

[flataffectt]

Im ngl I’ve been so scared for this therapy appointment because I feel like I’m going to be completely dismissed of any possibility of having a more specific disorder than just an unspecified disorder.

I literally had a dream last night of me going to my therapist for the appointment, and someone else that wasn’t my therapist did the evaluation for me & proceeded to essentially deny my disorder whilst also never asking me questions of anything and making me do all of the talking in a freestyle-sense. And in the dream I couldn’t remember any of my symptoms? So they denied the deliberateness of my diagnosis lol.

Realistically my therapist is very understanding and didn’t even say anything to convey that she’d dismiss me during our next appointment when I brought up the possibility of being Schizoaffective, but I feel like I can’t think about this in any positive light because what IF something goes wrong and yadadada. Idk, it’s just very frustrating.

[flataffectt]

Ok I did it. Username change from doggemann -> flataffectt.

[amanitaphalloides]

maybe next year instead of amateur fireworks on every block for hours and hours we can try holding up a single beautiful flower

[flataffectt]

Kind of tempted to change my username again to something more general (because then it won’t be confusing when I stop posting about canine stuff, whether that’s temporary or not) and also because I have a good idea for one if it’s not already taken

[sonicyouthsz]

From the book How to make electronic music, by Russell Drake and Ronald Herder with Anne D. Modugno, 1975