Welcome to more of me. Here I am a different snail with a whole different blog posting type of life aka I post the stuff I have posted on ao3. Mostly for challanges that take place on Tumblr like Whumptober and such. You can find all of it here first. But you can tell it is still me because I blab about the same characters and people and look at my header that is my og snail with my moots! I swear its me and not some scam page!! No really welcome to my side blog it is 10/02/2025 at 12:18 AM when I am making this and just deicided that before writing any of my stuff that this is more important obviously! Anyways this Snails name is Ao3 Snail and my OG Snails name is Tumblr Snail so you know which one leads you where depending on which snail you want to speak to.
Hello, you can call me Flow or Ao3 Snail works to I guess if you want to be like that. My preferred pronouns are they/them but I really dont care.
Here is my side blog where I am going to post all of my writings and musing about stuff.
What Will I Post Here:
How does this different from my other blogs/ao3 account?: @flow-geeksout-poetry is exclusively for my original poetry and analysis of poetry. There might be crossposting with my ao3 account FlowWrites but there will none with this blog. Their content is complete sperate. However if I write a poem like i recently did that I think a character in universe wrote and I want to write a fanfic prequel about the character writing the poem and a sequel where the characters teacher reacts to it those would be posted on here because I already posted the poem originally on a blog @flow-geeksout-poetry and would link the og poem in the posts here. The prequel and sequel would obviously be posted on ao3 too.
What differences counts to post on ao3 vs on here? Will you repost your ao3 back log on here?: I will not be reposting my back log on here other then my @fluffbruary which was a Tumblr challenge. So challenges that took place on Tumblr will be crossposted on here. Along with anything I write for my moots on Tumblr will be crossposted on here. As not all of them have a ao3 account.
Other Stuff Fandom Related I Want To Post But Cant On Ao3: I also want to write more fandom analysis type papers like talking about tropes in general and the different ways they work. Along with ways I think they work so i can link them to my works to summarize for my writings. And to track my long ass Chapter Notes for certain fics. Along with summarizing books I read so I can add the lore of say Six Of Crows I was inspired by to the Batman fic im writing but if you never read Six Of Crows I just need to link it.
Did I mention Batman? Yeah, the other thing I am going to be doing is dropping lore on all the comics I have and summaries about what happened and such without giving to much away. Cause I don't want to replace the comics or get sued or something idk. This is for readers who dent have access to the comics because been there done that my poor poor fellow Americans that live up in the North. Yall get nothing for cheap, do you? Don't worry my bbys mama snail has been there and mama snail will provide! *Cough cough* @the-kinning-hour *cough cough* Sorry mama snail is sick: (did you hear that?)
You should look into at other places!
You guys should check out my amzing beatiful kind talented cowriters blog (that has nothing to do with me) @amfroggwrites and their main blog @amfrogg
Poetry blog @flow-geeksout-poetry which was inspired by my moot @morallyambiguousfrog whos potery blog is @musings-of-a-frog
How I Fell In Love With Space (Kinda Against My Will)
Oh Carl Sagan how you will always haunt me...
From stories from my dad loving space as a kid wanting to grow up to be like you only to have his dreams crushed and turned to dust because his eyes where shaped the wrong way.
From going to the planetarium in 5th grade and being amazed my breath taken away by the beauty and being scared at the same time. From looking in at the telescope at the planetarium to see by complete accident sun spots and solar flares happen in real time as I looked through the lenses of the telescope. To learning about Nebulas and being blown away by their beauty to this day to being after school for Battle of the Books when NASA Dropped the first ever black hole captured on photo and my teacher whipped our her phone and showed it me and my mom and the other girls on my team excitedly.
But space always scared me.
Its so big and wide and makes us seem so meaningless.
I remember seeing my first partial solar eclipse and watching the nasa footage inside my house. As we didnt have a good view.
I remember looking up at poluated filled sky's of Seattle Washington where you couldn't see the big dipper but could see helicopters more commonly.
On the last birthday I had with my Father alive the day before there was to be a total solar eclipse in the area we lived in Texas and so we went out on the lake that we live on and watched it I was floored when it happened no one could have prepared me for it. There is no words to describe the happenings of it
I remember my first reading assignment in college being works of Carl Sagan for my US Government class. The name sounded familiar but I couldn't put my finger on it now that my father had long since passed and my elementary school days of learning about the planets had been buried with him.
I choose the video first as it was the shortest in content. I cried. I became scared to open the full length chapter that I was expected to read by Carl Sagan Demon Hunted World Chapter 2 but I did. It wasnt required but I have always been one to want to go above and beyond and I felt I needed to so I did. It hit me like a gut punch in the chest.
When I was in my Intro to Pysch class and was learning about Freud the professor teased us that once we knew of him we would find him everywhere in all our classes. She was right of course he was in my US Government class now, he was in my Intro to Psych class of course and my Compostion 1 class. But he was Freud. Everyone knew about him before this. Heard about him before this. I was warned how he would pop up everywhere after this.
But Carl Sagan did something Freud didnt he popped into my personal life.
We must go back to a time i was just learning how to read in 3rd grade by reading the book Wonder by R.J. Palacio in the book Auggie's English teacher Mr. Browne has precepts which is a big theme in the book and its squeal Auggie and Me this in universe book "written by Mr. Browne" collecting his precepts was gifted me that Christmas after i was tutored all summer by my 3rd grade teacher and finally had learned how to read. As you can see there is 3 quotes though actually technically only 2 where truly written/spoken by Carl Sagan the first one has been misquoted by him and was actually written completely originally by the woman who was interviewing him at the time. I found this out as I choose to do my Compostion 1 final on the topic.
I didnt realize until studying for said final looking for quotes to use in the book that Carl Sagan was used and then it came back to me on Christmas Morning I was flying through the book and showed my dad the quote and he said "oh I love Carl Sagan." And I was not really paying attention haha. But it reminded me of something...
I opened my poetry books i was also checking for quotes to use in my Compostion 1 final and yes sure enough my first and one of my all time favorite poets Nikita Gill wrote about Carl Sagan writing a poem in honor of him. Though now that I thought about it and was now familiar with his concepts I knew she had used his concepts through out the book he was honored in "Where Hope Comes From" which i had bought in 2022 shortly after it realsed it came to my house after I got back from Orlando Florida bring back Covid for the first time. Irony as this book is about how the author delt with 2020. I was reading it (or reading as much as i could as having Covid makes me not brain power on) and asked out loud who Carl Sagan was and my Dad also laid up with Covid was like "I love Carl Sagan."
Her book "Wild Embers" also has a lot of Carl Sagan concepts in her poetry.
But I wouldnt make this connection until the end of the semester he had been with me all along.
So now Carl Sagan would come up in lectures in US Government from time to time as any reading does and he also came up in intro to psychology for philosophy.
Now its nearing the end of the semester and I need to pick something for me and my partners leading the lecture day so looking through the readings I go to the climate poetry section (note compostion 1 is other words for college English class and mine specialized in climate change and environmental justice) where the first poem i clicked on was called Earthrise by Amanda Gorman
I started skimming the work which started with a date which sounded suspiciously familiar and I quickly realized OMG THIS WAS THE SAME EVENT THAT WAS "A PALE BLUE DOT BY CARL SAGAN" IT EVEN REFENCES "A PALE BLUE DOT" OMG so of course I hit up my partner and was like we are doing this im familiar with the content already here's the video link and the chapter pdf file I read in US government I think it will help you.
And she was down.
I thought about it more and I couldn't help but worry some of my classmates wouldn't get the poem cause not everyone liked poetry or understood it well i mean I didnt start liking it until I started reading Nikita Gills works in 2021 when I lived in Texas for the summer and found the first copy of her work. So I asked my professor if I could add the video a pale blue dot to the reading requirements as I feel it would also add much need context to the story I was trying to share. She said yes.
The lecture went off great it was really well liked and I thought my love affair with Carl Sagan was finally over.
Then the bastard showed up for my Compostion 1 final making it like so much longer then it needed to be luckily there was not a max length 😅 as explained earlier I literally started crashing out mid writing my Compostion 1 final cause I realized Carl Sagan has ALWAYS BEEN IN DRENCHED IN MY GOD FORSAKEN LIFE I CANT ESCAPE HIM
After I had that crisis called my more adult friend who is also in college about it freaking the fuck iut because my life started feeling fake and like it was written by someone and she just laughed at me
I thought I was truly done with Carl Sagan so I opened Tiktok and was scrolling and what is this math stuff about the 4th dimensional space? Fell down a math physics rabbit hole and found a sci fi movie about it only to find out MOTHER FUCKING CARL SAGAN MADE THAT THEORY AS WELL
So I was like its 3 am i have my last lecture of college this semester tomorrow I need to go to bed so I go to bed and I wake up and go to my last lecture which is US Government fitting as my first lecture was also US government and you WILL NOT FUCKING BELIEVE WHAT WE TALKED ABOUT BUT THAT GOD DAMN MOVIE TIKTOK SHOWED ME LAST NIGHT ABOUT THE 4TH DIMENSIONAL SPACE AT THE VERY END OF GROUP PRESENTATIONS (which where about basically analyzing fiction for goverment shit I did HP and how you can tell JK Rowlling is a Bigot based off her world building) AND THAT ONE WAS THE LAST ONE SO WHILE EVERYONE WAS GIVING TEAR FILLED GOODBYES MY BRAIN WAS FALFUNTIONING BECAUSE CARL SAGAN FOUND ME AGAIN
If you think he would be done haunting me no he isnt my moots have accidently posted shit about him and im just banging my head in the corner. Then my second semester of college which I unfortunately didnt get to completely finish he showed up again in my Compostion 2 class I had the same professor on purpose and dragged that more adult friend then me to her class. So my mire adult friend was group 1 to host a lecture for class and you wont believe what she accidently choose as her writing fucking Earthrise by Amanda Gorman. She didnt realize I told her I did it last semester until after she did the lecture lol and I didnt realize she choose it until the day of class when I was like wait what did she choose again so I could read it right before the lecture .
Speaking of Earthrise then on my birthday Artemis 2 landed safely back on Earth and WE GOT PICTURES OF EARTHSET OMG I WAS SO EXCITED and it was a little later after my birthday my lecture was up I forgot what poem I picked but I went off about Artemis 2 more instead omg like I deadass went on Tumblr and was taking fucking photos from here and sending them to my classmates to analyze and talk to me about im deadass 😃 it was amazing.
Please note this low-key reads as a journal entry but I swear theres a point.
You know its funny back when I was a young girl before I got sick before it got hard to walk the story of Batgirl to Oracle was one of the few I knew from DC from how truly tragic it was.
As a hopeful to be ballet dancer myself it is the kind of story that haunts.
The story of the gifted dancer who was just to kind to the world who maybe if she was selfish and did nothing or maybe if she had another Father she could still dance still feel the feeling of going on stage and performing.
I remember dreaming of being the girl from the Nutcracker in the ballet. As it was one of my parents first dates together to go see it. I would watch renditions of it over and over again and try to perform the moves. Or watching Swan Lake the Barbie movie or the 12 dancing Princesses Barbie Movie. The latter I watched when it came out with my cousin we each got a matching Barbie doll from the movie afterwards that I cherished.
I loved dancing. I loved music. My Mother would make me tutus so I can show her my own ballets. I wanted to be a ballet dancer so badly. My parents even though money was tight with the help of my Grandparents and Great Grandparents as they all saw my dances got me ballet lessons.
I got real ballet shoes, a real tutu and ballet top and tights i was going to be a real ballet dancer. We had to drive all the way up to Bellevue far from where i used to live at the time for the lessons as they where the real deal. I remember walking into the class for the first time seeing the mirrors and the bar and the floors.
All the other girls my age where as excited as me I made a friend with a girl whose Father was a stay at home dad compared to the Mother's that where all their. He had wild stories. I remember looking forward to it every day. I remember my first and sadly only performance I had pratsiced and memorized it as best I could and didnt have to look at instructor as much as the other girls to see what we were supposed to be doing. I remember looking at the crowd trying to find my parents and brother...they weren't their a family friend had to pick me up afterwards because my brother got really sick. I tried not to be sad about it because it was the first of many but unforently the danc studio closed down and there wasnt any good ones near us we could afford. So I stopped for a couple of years my tutu and ballet shoes collecting dust.
Until a year later or so we joined the YMCA and I was going to get to dust them off when classes where regeneration became available. For the time I was going to do cheerleading and gymnastics.
But I got diagnosed with my first chronic illness shortly there after the one that had impeded my mobility. It was silly dreams of 9 year old but they where important to me. I used to be able to hike and climb run but then suddenly I could barely walk on a even path. I used to be good at soccer beating all the kids in the neighborhood and riding bikes all summer in races with them.
The nightmare of Batgirl happened to me. Or well I guess Barbara Gordan. My mobility and health declined i got more health issues now I use a cane to get around.
I dont remember my body functioning okay.
My health and struggles with mobility have defined my life weather i liked it or not. I got bullied because of it. I couldn't keep up with my peers I lost so many friends I became abnormal.
But the most important that most dont get.
I dont know who I would be without my illness. The girl I was becoming didnt like school or education or learning she hated it. Her highest grades where in PE. She liked sports and moving her body and was talented or at least showed signs of it. Early in my diagnosis I was on a swim team but had to quit that because they didnt understand me.
Because of my illness I started to love to read i wouldn't have otherwise because I was trying to escape then hell my body gave. Because of my illness I learned how i learned best because of how much school I missed. I studied out of boredom from being bed bound and having a chip on shoulder from teachers comments on weather or not I would make it in school or ne successful and found out I loved it more then anything in the world and discovered my strongest passions through it. I wouldn't have become a writer because I wouldn't have become a reader. I would have never met most of the amazing people in my life because of what happened to me like I would not have gone to my High school(s) if I was able bodied I only went because of my poor health and met my best friends same with my Middle school. Let alone college.
I dont know who I would have been without my health issues they are a stranger to me a different person entirely.
I hate the pain I went through and go through now and will go through at the cause of my health issues but its made me who I am
And I kinda like me a little bit
At least certain aspects
So I think its a price im willing to pay.
I may never get to be the Nutcracker girl
I may never get to be the girl who was physically talented again
But im something new
I cant help but think Barbara Gordon would agree...
She loved being Batgirl she loved Ballet she loved being able to walk and that is not wrong.
She loved living without the trauma of what happened to her she loved living without the medical trauma im sure she has.
But she found a whole new her that would have never come out otherwise.
@subtlenighttribute (please go check out my moot!! They where the inspo behind this) Also this my main account and usually i would post something like this on my side blog @flow-geeksout-writes but me and @subtlenighttribute are not moots there so I had to post it here originally lol. Also this wasn't supposed to be something like this at first.
Descrption: (I guess??)
This gave me brain worms 🪱 or seals 🦭? Of like a mocumentary on "selkies" and reader and her seals somehow get in on it because they are wild seals but so well behaved. So they can get footage of them out in the wild and they will listen to you lol. Like idk you where offered this as like a director or to like be able to get a position as a wild life safety person (therefore able to legally touch the boys without worry of legal repercussions 👀) for free thanks to them. And all the money goes to like helping seals and stuff so you were like "sure" and the boys where like "Okay no more FBI to worry about!"
Disclaimers:
1. I wrote this one sitting the worms/seals just didnt let me go
2. Im so sorry about Rafs name im like 99% sure i spelled it wrong ever damn time but im dyslexic and tried and this isn't getting edited cause its a Crack post. Rafs name is so hard for me. I tired okay. If its wrong it's wrong again one sitting its been like an hour.
3. This was meant to be a little short thing for my moot @subtlenighttribute and now its kinda fic ish idk what happened i backed out.
4. Im sorry for grammar and spelling ahead of time again one sitting no proof reading i typed it and then im hitting post the only thing im doing is coming back up here for disclaimers lol.
[Narrator voice with the British Accent TM]: ...and here we see seal selkie Zayne Li in his chosen natural habit. It might be hard to pick him out at first quick glance but if one looks for a moment long enough you will find him quite quickly.
*Camera zooms in more on Zayne's face having not even moved at all*
[Narrator voice with the British accent TM continues after the pause slightly out of breathe of course]: You might be wondering why such a creature would take it upon himself to do so such a thing. For so such purpose as one of the biggest predators^ in the ocean and seas of the world, what does Zayne here have to camflogue from?
*Camera zooms slightly out*
[Narrator voice with the British accent TM continues without missing a beat]: Well, just like how we showed how Rayfalel Qi has grown accustomed to communicating with the sea birds and other sea creatures of the waters. It is to adapt to their certain circumstances of living in their spefic environments...
*Now it shows a recap of Rayfalel swimming with a school of fish. Though their natural predator and much larger was treated as one of them instead*
[Narrator with the British accent TM recounts what was said earlier]: Rayalfel had no parents or siblings to guide him after getting out of the youngest stages of being a seal pup and being the most vulnerable.
*Now showing feed show earlier of Rayfalel swimming alone looking sad with the notice that this was taken while he was held in a rescue due to being injured due to being almost poached^^*
[Narrator with the British accent TM now sad]: ...meaning that he was alone for most of his life...
*Camera shows more feed of Rayfalel with seabirds having fun making them sing(?) Almost*
[Narrator with the British accent TM now sounding hopeful]:...but the seal selkies have always been quick to adapt. So Rayfalel learned to communicate with other sea creatures to live the rest of his younger years to adulthood. Getting away from predators that could hurt him then only when they would be unable to in adulthood and being with friends.
*shows Rayfalel with a red fish he particular likes, named Reddie by his local wildlife safety person [you] as ending to the recap of what was said previously*
*back to feed with Zayne as show with pic above*
[Narrator with British accent TM back to normal speech]: But what does this have to do with Zayne seemingly pretending to be a rock? Well Zayne is not naturally this color^^^.
*shows "natural pic" of Zayne that shows he is really an all black coat colored seal*
[Narrator with the British accent TM continues in a questioning tone]: But how is this Zayne?
*feed shows pic of "natural" Zayne and a snapshot of the live feed (or the pic above)*
*changes back to live feed*
[Narrator with the British accent TM continues answering his own question]: well he can camflogue himself to blend in with his favorite environment. The rocky parts of the beach. But why does he have to do that? And what kind of creature would mistake Zayne so obviously hidden with his face as a stone when it takes one long look to figure it out?
*instead of answering the light music that was playing in the back slowly goes out of background leaving the smashing of waves. With the background music the camera zooms out in sync. Now Zayne is far out and looks to be quite frank very stone like now.*
[Camera guy with an Australian accent TM] Alright I think I got enough of this one....is he alive?
*he cant be seen the moving of the camera from its stand and the waves making the sound bite almost impossible to hear so subtitles are given*
*the sound of laughter comes from a distantly different person*
[You answer]: He is dont worry! He just does that sometimes. He loves building with rocks that I think he sometimes wants to be the rock. If that makes sense? He loves napping like that he mightve fallen asleep in fact.
[Camera guy with Australian accent TM astounded]: Really? Thats insane. How can he stay so stil- OOOF
*the Camera Guy was suddenly cut off with a sharp in take of breath and the camera he was now holding down at both of your feet his with boots yours where bare had flung out of his hands and onto the side where the viewer could now see the seend in full.*
[You shouted panicked]: CALEB NO-
[Camera guy with Australian accent TM]: Well hi you there big guy :D
*on top of the now seen Camera Guy was Caleb the Selkie Seal who had snuck up on you both. He got off the Camera Guy came over and rub against your leg and made noises at you*
[You to Caleb embarrassed ashamed mad]: IM NOT REWARDING BAD BEHAVIOR
*Caleb did the seal pout equivalent and started blobbing as fast as his seal body could take him which was in the path of the camera Caleb knocked into causing it to turn with his body to show at a new angle (though very unflattering) what was happening. Caleb was looking for something. When Caleb bumped into the camera in his haste it zoomed back into Zayne though not as close as before by far you could still see Caleb searching quickly desperately and very sluppily whose eyes where now wide awake and was somehow even stiller.*
*Caleb looked him practically dead in the eyes for grant it 0.137372189192938474738 of a second and kept moving with haste and excitement barking and clearly calling for someone.*
*the clip paused suddenly and the background music came back*
[Narrator with the British accent TM]: This is why Zayne has this skill. Back when both Zayne and Caleb where just seal pups they where raised together.
*the feed now shows Zayne laying on the sand looking like he would rather actually be dead then here and Caleb sitting up next to him looking down and nudging him with his snout and even licking him. Zayne just blicks. It screams SAVE ME BUT SAVE YOURSELF FIRST ITS TO LATE FOR ME.*
[Narrator with the British accent TM]: Zayne is about 2 years older then Caleb and you can tell. But they have been insprable ever since. But sometimes Zayne needs alone time. Because Caleb dosent always get Zayne...
*feed shows Zayne carefully constructing his rock wall TM and Caleb blobbing over happily barking and knocking it over accidentally with his tail in excitement. Zaynes face says all that needs to be said while Caleb comes up and starts cuddling him like he did nothing*
[Narrator with the British accent TM]: So Zayne came up with this method and his biology helped him out with it. Since Caleb is so hyper active he dosent look to hard where he is going and therefore dosent see Zayne. And that's why Zayne is able to do this.
End notes:
^ - the selikes in mythos are lowkey like lemerians so like how Raf can talk to the sea creatures and they get respect from all of them and lowkey worshiped by the other sea creatures etc. So that this comment
In the mocumentary they are making the selkies be a "species" of "seal" they are using "your" aka the LaDs boys "normal wild seals" as the seal counter parts they have wild life experts/conservation activists that are male (and female ones as well but since "you" dont have female wild seas you dont worry about it. Could be just the LaDs Gender bent or in a comment i made under one of @subtlenighttribute posts where the no touching law post where its a common knowledge in the like the law and or fuck i forgot what they are called but they study sea creatures its on the tip of my tongue anyways communities they exist but not like the general public. So they just find another selkie person who had selkie(s) who have imprinted (i think that's what they would called it lol) on a human that female they would use them. The benefit to the person then is to be a wild life expert so no one (like random people) call the authorities over it though there would be a note in the file saying its fine it would still be a legal hassle (as all things are).
^^ - sorry I killed your Aunt Raf but it was for the plot!!! Also yes this did actually happen to Raf and he was on an episode of like you know those TV shows where they find animals and rehabilitate them and send them back to the wild like I remember one was in association with Sea World at one point. When the mocumentary reached out for unused footage they were so happy to find out he was doing well!!! Also unforently its not unique that Raf can talk to sea animals the birds included but he likes doing so more then the rest of the boys!!!!
^^^ - Zayne can actually do this and each selkie can actually develop their own unique abilities (though they can over lap if circumstances allow) also yes its true Caleb and him grew up together!!! They will always be the childhood friends >:) so actually true story and "you" came up with it when showing off Zaynes life and Caleb going crazy to see his bff.
Also Caleb LOVES THE CAMERA GUY idk why "you" dont know why and the boys dont know why but he does.
The Camera guys name is Gideon ;) (yes I gave him an Australian accent for this because why wouldn't I?)
You know when you met to make a short silly little post on here for a moot but accidentally write a whole ass fanfic?
It was me.
I did that.
And I had to post it to main first so my moot could find it lol. But here it is for me to put here since it is for my Tumblr Wiritng. Omg my hands hurt so bad I typed this shit out on my phone.
Why did I do this to myself??
This idea had me and chokehold.
I had to get it out now or it would idk disappear?
It was supposed to be under 100 words....
Anyways this is the first thing I post here???? It was supposed to be Batman related....oh well.
