Bobby, 9-1-1 (spoilers?) and how it f-ed me up
i just wanted to let someone else know how that episode with his funeral traumatized me :/ (ok it's just more like reminded me about my trauma and really triggered it)
last year my parents went to vacation for a few days, and a had a few days off work, so i decided to catch up on what i missed at the time (i am not really a consistent watcher so the last two seasons were in dust). and in one day i gulped it (bad bad bad decision)
it's worth to mention that i'm already quite sensitive and cry over tiktok videos yes
and when Bobby died well obviously i was bawling my eyes out
however i was absolutely not ready to the funeral ("The Last Alarm")
two years ago i lost my fried who was also in a certain service protecting people, and was brutally murdered and his funeral fucked me up so bad. me and my best friend was there, and we forbid ourselves to cry. he was our close acquaintance, but not our family, or a close friend, and we felt that we should not cry and try to be strong.
also he had really soft and warm hands and beautiful eyes. he always looked like he was searching for something everywhere. i met him two years prior and we were celebrating new year together. also he was so shy all the time
i literally watched that episode with my eyes open wide basically crying/screaming (i didn't know how else can I articulate my feelings outside), because obviously his funeral and Bobby's were quite similar. i literally closed my laptop and lied on my bed howlingggg
i don't know how my neighbors had not called the police or medics if they've heard it (they did i live in an apartment).
after idk 40 minutes of crying really LOUD i calmed down because i literally started to lowkey suffocate and lose consciousness... i stayed in same position for idk another 20-30 minutes trying to catch my breath, MYSELF AT ALL IDK????
this fucked me up mentally AGAIN for another month so yeah idk what to say hooray to the person who wrote it, it was so realistic i almost died myself lollololololo
the year he died fucked me up because my sister also lost her crush (?) and bestie, and we lowkey trauma bonded on that funeral.
all that fucked me up so bad it literally changed my physical health state for a long time, and mental health forever
and i was so triggered lol
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