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Guess who’s back.

Hint. It’s me.

I’ve been doing calories in/calories out + exercise and I’m down 40lbs this year.

Lowest weight I’ve been in ten years, probably. Size 16 pants. Feeling very good. Weight loss has kind of slowed, though, so I’m going to try Keto again for the month of August (context: I lost my gallbladder last year and a high-fat diet was very out of the question) and see if I can’t kick it into gear!

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Completely transforming your body can take a really fucking long time and it’s hard so just be patient.  

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Updates -

Despite regular workouts, the scale refuses to budge. So now it’s time to re-examine the diet.

That means yes, it’s true, I’m headed back in a keto direction, but I’ll still have to watch my fats because of my lack-of-gallbladder. I refuse to let PCOS win. I’m making the effort, it has to pay off sometime.

First baby step - I’m a tea drinker. I’ve always liked tea, but creamy sweet coffee in the morning was too good to pass up. I’m sure that even the ‘one cup’ isn’t helping me, so away it goes for now. I had already given up soda/juice, so this isn’t a huge difference...or so I tell myself.

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The Farmer's Market here sells a 'mushroom party pack' which I have chosen to pair with a snapper fillet for the last day of vacation freedom.

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NSV and Weight

Feeling like hot garbage today. I’ve been working out pretty frequently, and while I’m re-wrangling my diet and upping my cardio, I’ve actually gained weight.

Highest weight: 263

Lowest weight: 239

Current weight: 250

I cried when I saw that ‘5′ on the scale this morning. I never wanted to be 250 ever again. I’ve been kicking my ass hard for over three months, and I’ve gained back 10lbs?

My best friend asked about inches, and I dejectedly replied that I hadn’t lost much in the way of inches either recently. So I checked farther back this year.

I’ve lost 7″ total since March. And I’m trying desperately to cling to that on a day where I feel bloated, and gross, and hopeless.

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My gym shirt has little happy sushi on it. That is all.

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Going down?

Scale is trending down for the first time in a few months (weeks?)

Context; Super sick w/gallbladder, lost 25 lbs, recovery, put back on 5-8lbs-ish despite religious gym going. Started tracking calories again, increase cardio, weight now trending down again.

I love and believe in Non Scale Victories, but at 240lbs, at some point the weight’s gonna come off, ya dig? Trying to lose 15ish in time to be a unicorn at the Ren Faire.

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I wish this guy was just a strawman to prove a point, but unfortunately he’s not. I’ve had this conversation over and over with the same damn people.

Having PCOS is probably one of the most frustrating parts of my life because people, male and female, doesn’t understand that being overweight is part of the illness, and being overweight is such a stigmatized thing in our society that everybody think they know what’s wrong with me and feel a need to tell me how to fix it. And to make it worse, PCOS is a bit different from person to person, so some PCOS patients might not be overweight but suffer from oily, spotted or miscolord skin for example, so if someone knows another person with PCOS they might say “The other person I know isn’t overweight, so…”

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YESS

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#currentlife

My old trainer was like, “Can’t you get PCOS from being overweight?” and I had to calmly explain that it’s the other way around, that I’ve been overweight since puberty but was underweight before because hormones, that I’ve been medicated for less than a year, but yes, being lighter can alleviate symptoms (because less human being = less hormones = less imbalance).

1 in 10 women has PCOS. It’s the leading cause of infertility in women. It presents differently in everyone, and it’s one of the least understood conditions. It’s name is even a misnomer now, as cysts are not required to have Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome.

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Lunch today! Dirty mashed potatoes, asparagus, beef sausage.

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NSV - Face comparison 8 months (ish) apart -

Not just 20lbs lighter, but my bangs, hair color, makeup, jewelry, and selfie game are all upped.

Needed some positivity today!

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Exercise makes you feel better. Exercise makes you feel better. Exercise makes you feel better.

When I’m struggling with depression, feeling fat or alone or ugly or useless or unhappy or sad or loud or annoying or whatever...

Exercise makes me feel better. 

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Part of this week’s food prep - 

Asparagus, zucchini (added parsnips halfway through), plus beef sausage for lunches. 

Doing the thing.

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Back to basics

It’s been a rough few months. The TL;DR involves a lot of heartbreak. I’ve been working out consistently, but not eating well. 

So here we are. Still 20lbs down, not one pound more, not one pound less. More muscle, more strength, more flexibility, but not less fat. 

Going to be pre-cooking and tracking here and MFP as much as possible. Wear my Fitbit again. Increase cardio. 

Follow for food (no cheat meal photos) and probably gym selfies. PCOS sufferers and slow carbers, those with allergies. 

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Gym legging status: I'M A GODDAMN MERMAID. Seriously, I love these things.

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My personal trainer always looks thrilled to death when he sees me at the gym working out on my own and it's the best.

Having someone be that pumped is ridiculously motivating to say in the least.

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I made a smoothie this morning. Frozen berries and peaches, almond milk, a bit of heavy cream and some plain Greek yogurt. I'm not sure how I feel about smoothies in the morning - does anyone have like, a go-to recipe they love?

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Today

I ate cookies.

But I showed my son how to use the sewing machine for his project.

I haven’t hit my step goal yet.

But I helped my oldest make a Keychain foe a friend at school.

I am only halfway to my water goal at 7 pm.

But I am there for friends who need to talk (3 private convos today about intense stuff)

I haven’t run or done any yoga (yet).

But I have 2 parcels ready to ship to two amazing friends and I love making my friends smile with surprises and love.

Life is more than the size of my ass or how authenticly pretty I may or may not be. It’s not about belonging to a group to not feel left out or how many likes or reboots or nice messages you get.

Life is about living and some days I forget that.