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I got a request from someone on Reddit (since I posted my other flags on r/QueerVexillology as well as here) to make flux versions of the flags I made before. So, here are the libraneumascfluid/flux and libraneufemfluid/flux flags I made!
Libraneumascfluid/flux:
Libraneufemfluid/flux:
And here’s the librafluid/libraflux flag that I based these off of!
You know, now that I think about it, maybe having a gradient of the two colors in the middle of the original libraneufem flag would look a lot better. And that could be done for the libraneumasc flag, too. But I honestly don’t know how to do that and I’m pretty sure if I tried I’d fuck it up somehow. If anyone who sees this wants to try, please do!
This looks much better! Again, you can use any version of these flags that you like the most. And I do realize that these look kinda like -flux or -fluid flags, but, I mean, you can fluctuate and be fluid in your libraneumasc or libraneufem identity. And I suppose it is kind of a spectrum all of its own, if you think about it. You can identify with any amount of neutrality and masculinity/femininity in combination with each other.
Also, I tried making a libramascfem one, but it just looks exactly like the librafluid flag :(
You know, now that I think about it, maybe having a gradient of the two colors in the middle of the original libraneufem flag would look a lot better. And that could be done for the libraneumasc flag, too. But I honestly don’t know how to do that and I’m pretty sure if I tried I’d fuck it up somehow. If anyone who sees this wants to try, please do!
I realized that I’m libraneumasc instead of libramasculine.
Here’s the link to a post that defines libraneumasc, as well as libraneufem and libramascfem:
Libraneutrofeminine or librafemineutral: a scale where one side is agender and the other side is femineutral/femneutral or neutrofeminine/ne
I looked at the original flag for libraneumasc, but I didn’t like how it looked with the two smaller stripes in the middle, so I decided to make my own version!
Here’s the original version of the libraneumasc flag:
And here is my version:
To make the flag, I combined the two different colors in the middle of the original flag and mixed them 50/50 to make the color in the middle of my version.
And, to make things even, I made a libraneufem flag!
Well, more like I tried to make one. There are three different versions I made.
Here’s the original libraneufem flag:
And here are the three different versions I made:
1. The green and pink are mixed 50/50
Unfortunately, the color that comes out from mixing the colors evenly is this muddy color. So I decided to make two other versions.
2. The color mix is 2 parts pink and 1 part green
This looks better, but the colors are not mixed evenly in this one, and you can’t really see that there’s green in it, too. Even so, this is my personal favorite version of the libraneufem flag.
3. The color mix is 2 parts green and 1 part pink
This one also looks better, but since it looks more green, you can’t really tell that this is supposed to represent an identity that is partially feminine in nature. Same could be said for the last one, except for representing an identity that is partially neutral in nature. Plus, for the first version, you can’t really tell that it’s either; to be honest, it looks like a color-altered agender flag.
Of course, you don’t have to use my versions of the libraneumasc or libraneufem flags. The originals are fine and aren’t problematic to my knowledge; I just personally didn’t like how they looked.
Also, I tried to make my own version of a libramascfem flag, but mixing the colors 50/50 between the librafeminine and libramasculine flags makes it look almost exactly like the librandrogyne flag. I suppose I could have tried doing what I did with the libraneufem flag, but idk. I guess I got lazy. But if you request me to do it I’d be happy to! Messing with flag colors is actually kinda fun tbh.
Whelp. It finally happened. My mom tested positive for Covid this morning. Almost three years of dodging the virus and it’s finally found us. Though, to be honest, my mom’s a dietician, so it was only a matter of time, I suppose; even if she was extremely careful. But, then again, there were a lot of people around her who weren’t as careful.
But, anyway, as a reminder:
PLEASE wear a mask. It greatly reduces the chances of transmission.
PLEASE get vaccinated (if you can). Herd immunity is extremely important.
Doing either of these things—especially both—could literally save lives, including yours. Thankfully the only symptoms my mom is experiencing are of a mild flu, but not everyone is so lucky. So please, for the sake of yourself and everyone you know and love (and even those you don’t know), take the steps to stop the spread.
Whelp. It finally happened. My mom tested positive for Covid this morning. Almost three years of dodging the virus and it’s finally found us. Though, to be honest, my mom’s a dietician, so it was only a matter of time, I suppose; even if she was extremely careful. But, then again, there were a lot of people around her who weren’t as careful.
But, anyway, as a reminder:
PLEASE wear a mask. It greatly reduces the chances of transmission.
PLEASE get vaccinated (if you can). Herd immunity is extremely important.
Doing either of these things—especially both—could literally save lives, including yours. Thankfully the only symptoms my mom is experiencing are of a mild flu, but not everyone is so lucky. So please, for the sake of yourself and everyone you know and love (and even those you don’t know), take the steps to stop the spread.
So I was looking through the non-binary meme subreddit just now and came across a terrific name prefix in the comments of one of the posts. It goes thusly: Mg. (pronounced “mage”)
That is just so freaking amazing. I’m totally gonna use that now. /srs
Sometimes I wonder if I have internalized arophobia. Bc even though I’m aro (or at least somewhere on the arospec) I enjoy romantic media and want to see romance in media pretty much like an alloromantic person. Like, I just saw a couple of posts talking about how important the relationship between the two main characters of Good Omens is to aro and ace people and about how there have been a lot of aphobic posts about the upcoming season 2. One person in the notes of one of them asked if allo people could only view a relationship as valid when there is clear physical affection and kissing. And I wonder: Am I like that? Do I view romantic relationships to be above friendships and queerplatonic relationships, even if unintentionally? And I think that, yeah, maybe I do. I’ve never seen Good Omens, but I feel like I would have been one of the people who would have shipped the two main characters romantically really hard and been disappointed if the romantic ship was never actually made canon. Even more than that, I see people’s takes about how queer friendships/queerplatonic relationships are important to represent in media, and I feel… a little uncomfortable? I think? Which is DEFINITELY something I need to work on. Even though I sometimes wish I could have a queerplatonic relationship of my own. And I think that I feel like people in romantic relationships are closer than people who are in friendships. Which I KNOW isn’t true. People can share a lifelong bond with friends and have a shallow romance with someone. I’m not sure if I’m articulating this exactly how I want to, and I don’t know how well I’m taking nuances into account, so sorry about that. It’s just that… I guess romantic intentions just feel wonderful to see (if reciprocated, of course), and I feel like friendships/queerplatonic relationships lack that extra… spark??? Which, again, isn’t fucking true. I don’t know, this is all so confusing to me. If anyone has any advice or insight, please lmk. I don’t want to keep being like this.
You know, I’m not sure if I’ve said this somewhere before, but I’m a little bit worried about transitioning. I know I want top surgery, and I’m pretty sure I want to go on low-dose t, but, once I’m further along in my transition, what will I do if I need to use a public bathroom? Because heaven knows there aren’t that many gender-neutral bathrooms around. I could go into the men’s room, but idk how well I’ll pass as a guy (especially since I’m short and like having long hair; not to mention I don’t want to look entirely masculine) and, tbh, I feel more comfortable using the women’s room, since that’s what I’ve used my whole life and I don’t really have a problem with it. But say I use the women’s room. When they see me with masculine features and a deeper voice, they might get uncomfortable with me around. Either way, I run the risk of being harassed. It’s funny; I feel like I’m blowing this out of proportion because I’ve never been harassed for my trans identity before. I mean, I have experienced a little bit of transphobia before. Turns out that my ex-boyfriend had been misgendering me behind my back. Also, when I came out to my grandma as non-binary and told her my new name (which was Fynn at the time; nowadays I go by Rooke), she told me she liked my deadname better. Which actually kind of stung a little. Not to mention the concern my family voiced when I first said I wanted to transition, saying that they were worried I hadn’t thought this through. I mean, maybe they were justified in that. I had just recently figured out I wasn’t cis and was suddenly obsessed with thinking about whether or not I wanted to do these things to my body. I honestly don’t know. But I’ve never been harassed. Maybe because I live in an area that’s particularly accepting; maybe because I tend to dress femininely and therefore people assume me to be a cis woman; maybe for both these reasons. But I know that when I go through with this, I don’t think I can avoid it forever.
Anyway, I just wanted to get that off my chest. Also maybe to ask for some support and encouragement? Idk. But I know I’m not the only one who worries about this kind of stuff. It’s a harsh reality that we have to worry about these kinds of things because the world isn’t friendly towards us. I just hope that future generations of trans people won’t have to do the same.
So, I didn’t get a part (at first). A couple of people quit because I think the rehearsal schedule didn’t work for them or something? Or that the exercises they did were too much? I don’t remember exactly why tbh. But I heard from a friend about this and jumped on the opportunity. And last week, I got a part!
I’m happy, but also a little intimidated, lol. I’ve acted before, but I’ve never been in this kind of production before. I remember doing things like being in an acting group for people up to the age of 18 and doing productions where we would do an arrangement of songs and scenes from different musicals and movies that all pertained to a certain theme (e.g. one of the themes was “Heroes and Villains”). That was really fun; singing, dancing, and acting my heart out. The scenes weren’t ever really all that long, but the play I’m in now kinda has long scenes, lol. There are also a lot of short lines and lines that happen at the same time as each other. Not to mention, at the beginning of the play, there’s this warmup routine we go through while saying some of our lines, and it has to be done in unison. Which is kinda sorta impossible imo. Having to count in your head how many beats you’re doing a certain exercise so you’re in sync with everyone else while also listening for when your line comes up while ALSO saying your lines when they do come up is very taxing on the brain. So, yeah, memorizing is a little bit more difficult than usual. But I’m sure I’ll survive.
But, anyway, yeah! That’s the status on the whole audition thing. Also, if you’re able to (somehow?) guess the play I’m in, good for you!