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She/Her 🏳️‍🌈 A collection of random thoughts and ideas that come to me as I figure out what I'm doing with my life. ✌️Feminist 🌍 Environmentalist 💚 Vegan #infp

[gilbertjane]

I set myself a challenge to walk 100 miles for Suffolk Mind this month to raise some money and get me out and about a bit more! . I've managed 23.1 miles this week which is 1.9 miles off my target. . Enjoyed a lovely walk in the snow today whilst chatting with my friend and got some beautiful pics I thought I'd share 😊 . 🌨️🚶‍♀️❄️ . #100ForSuffolkMind #WalkingChallenge #WinterWalk #SnowyWalk #Ipswich #IpswichWalks #SnowDay #SuffolkMind (at Ipswich Waterfront) https://www.instagram.com/p/CK_03nkjgkB/?igshid=1lwvmhrngb7bx

[gilbertjane]

Bathed and in bed with snacks and cats ready to see the new year in. Once my pizza arrives anyway 😂 . It's not been all bad this year (I've had worse 😂) but I'm glad to be putting this one to rest now🤣 . New Years eve is usually a time of reflection which is why I hate it 😂 but this year I'm doing okay, I'm still learning a lot about me and looking forward to continuing my journey. . I've met some lovely people this year and made some friends which isn't bad considering we haven't been able to go outside for most off it 🤣 . Whatever you're doing tonight, have a lovely evening. Wishing you all the best for the new year ahead 🥂✨💖 . #NewYear #HappyNewYear #Bye2020 #GoodRiddance2020 #FilmNight #BathNight #ItsNotAllBad #RollOn2021 #Reflecting #MakingTheBestOfIt https://www.instagram.com/p/CJeUQpwjeGN/?igshid=wemlm7g4wtde

[gilbertjane]

Me and the two fluffy ones would like to wish everyone a Happy Christmas for tomorrow for those celebrating. A Bleased Yule for my witchy friends and happy holidays/seasons greetings to those celebrating the other holidays that are happening right now ✨🌠 . Although looking at Gypsy's face and Lucy's reaction to my Santa hat I'm not sure any of us are really in the festive spirit 🤣🎄🎁 . Saying it's been a shit year is probably a massive understatement 😂 But I'm so grateful for all of you who have support myself and others through these strange times. . The future doesn't seem to be getting any brighter at the moment, especially after yesterday's announcement but I have faith that it will. This can't go on forever. . I'm the meantime in sending lots of love and light to everyone that needs it, I know this time of year is difficult for some anyway let alone after such a crappy year ❤️💚 . Look after yourselves as best you can. I'm only a message or phone call away and there is support there I fyou need it too. You're not alone and we will get through this together 💖✨🐾 https://www.instagram.com/p/CJLqAKwDBxK/?igshid=10umj4a0n4znc

[gilbertjane]

So happy autumn is finally here and it's time to get all snug and cosy 😌🍂🍁 . I feel like I'm one of the few people who is happy to see the cold weather 😂 Managed to get my fireplace, candles and blankets out and I'm all set for long months of solitude in my happy place 😊😂 Got that hygge feeling going on tonight 🥰 . Loving the witchy vibes from my sideboard too. So glad I managed to paintt my wall during lockdown. . It's been a tough year all round so far but thanks to some absolutely amazing people we're getting through it. I know I've not been around on here much but I'm only ever a message away of you need me 💖 . PS. Look at my handsome boy showing off my pretty purple lights 😻💜 . #hygge #hyggedecor #witchy #witchydecor #witchyvibes #autumn #autumnvibes #autumnishere #homedecor #myhappyplace #cosy #cosyplace #candles #fireplace #myhappytime #happytimes #happyalone #sololiving #carriessolohome https://www.instagram.com/p/CFxYjnMjbvU/?igshid=1cmwkhymot1gb

[gilbertjane]

Happy Monday All 🌞 I'm feeling good today after doing next to nothing all weekend 😂 . I had planned to take a wander into town to do a bit of shopping on Saturday to ease myself I to 'normal' life again. But decided it was too hot and I didn't want to get dressed so I didn't 😂 . I spent the whole weekend in my flat but because I wanted to, not because I had to or because I was too scared to go outside. . I did a few chores but mostly spent my time reading, watching Netflix and taking care of me. I had a long hot bath and refreshed my hair dye again. I did hurt my toe again but we won't talk about that 🤣 . I had a good supervision with my manager this morning and planning on venturing out a bit further in the train this week. I'm feeling brave and more like me again 💪 . Mum came round for lunch today too which was nice 😊 . Im slowly getting there and feeling more positive about the future now. I'm feeling so positive here's me today, no makeup and fluffy hair 😄 waiting for my dinner to cook 😋 . Hope you've all had a nice start to the week and are doing okay. Always here if you want to chat 💖 . #monday #mondaymotivation #happymonday #startoftheweek #newweek #gettingmeback #lifeafterlockdown #thisgirlcan #switchoff #selfcare #selfcareweekend #selfie #nomakeup #nofilter #nofilterneeded https://www.instagram.com/p/CDb4Q8tjVuX/?igshid=25vu4g0wgogb

[gilbertjane]

So happy I was able to see this one today and get back to my home away from home 🥰 I've missed her so much although I'm sure she had been enjoying the peace and quiet 😂 . Braved the trains for the first time since lock down and I didn't freak out 😂 so I'm treating myself to a pizza dinner now 🍕😋 . Getting back into my pre-lockdown routine slowly and feeling more myself for it. Not least because I can see my "therapist" 🤣 . #work #backtowork #backtotheoffice #workfriends #workbestie #bravethetrains #commuter #backtocommuting #anxietywin #ididit https://www.instagram.com/p/CDUPEDFDuEt/?igshid=12cfa1okxya2u

[gilbertjane]

After I stopped laughing at my last picture I did I realised I quite liked the style so thought I'd give it another go. . I did one of another special friend @bezzabee2212 I don't have a favourite picture of us because there's just too many 🥰 . But here's one from our last big night out before the prosseco hit 😂 (I'm not sure why I look like a Stuart King but I thought Beccas face turned out okay 🤣) . Hope you don't hate me for this 😂 . #watercolour #watercolourpencils #watercolourpainting #watercolourart #watercolourportrait #inkliner #inklined #friends #art #iwillgetbetter #practicemakesperfect https://www.instagram.com/p/CDO9s7SjG0O/?igshid=322k558dhykh

[gilbertjane]

After almost 3 months I finally caught up with the lovely @missjigglepuff and got my prize for her last giveaway 😂 . The prize included some awesome wax melts from @bubbasmeltys and they smell sooo good 😍 I can't wait to melt them although I also don't want to because they look so cool! . Please go check out her page/shop for some lovely vegan friendly wax melts and candles which are designed to raise awareness around chronic and mental illness and disabilities. . Also got a bunch of cute and random stickers too 😄 along with a lovely handwritten note which I'm going to frame ❤️ . @missjigglepuff has another giveaway going on at the moment so go check it out and also watch her YouTube video for a 10% discount code for Bubba Meltys wax melts . Mostly importantly though it was lovely I managed to catch up with another amazing friend 🥰 Just hope we don't leave it that along again especially since she only lives down the road 😂 . #bubbasmeltys #missjigglepuff #prizewinner #lookwhatiwon #waxmelt #waxmelt #shapedwaxmelts #stickers #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #chronicillnessawareness #healthawareness #timewithfriends #catchup #missedher #justforme https://www.instagram.com/p/CDMVv2Hj7lf/?igshid=19o2i9zau73o4

[gilbertjane]

Day off today and spent it having a catch up with the bestie 💖 . I haven't seen her for almost 6 months 😭 but she's been my rock during this lock down 💕 . We had a lovely afternoon with prosecco, Pimms, pom bears, peanut butter sandwiches, pananas, prownies & pice cream (pudding) and poffee (we wanted to keep a p theme 😂) All in parrot cups 🐦 . It was so lovely to see her and hopefully soon I can have Chewie cuddles too 😂 and you know, actually be near her and give her a cuddle 😂 . #bestie #daywiththebestie #myrock #mysupport #mysupportsystem #dayoff #dayoffdoneright #lunchdate #lunchdatewiththebestie #p #reunion #isolationreunion #lockdownreunion #obviouslynotdrunk #notdrunk #whoarewekidding #loveher #loveyou https://www.instagram.com/p/CC_RmppD-ki/?igshid=6geeo2a4tgu8

[gilbertjane]

Thank you all so much for your messages from my post yesterday. Everything was getting a bit much but I knew I'd be okay, just needed to let it out. . Been focusing on self care this weekend with a long hot bath last night and lots of Disney+ . Got up this morning (almost afternoon 🙈) and put some makeup on. Then my sister @clur.as.day picked me up and I spent the afternoon watching Frozen 2 and Sophia the First 👸with her and my nieces as my support bubble (I'm asumingg that's still a thing? I have no idea what the rules are anymore!) . We had some fruit cider and lots of snacks too 😄 . I then decided to walk home so I got some gentle exercise and fresh air. Plus I love walking down the little lanes between our homes. I even managed to tackle the washing up when I got in 💪 . I'm not "back to normal" but I'm better then I was this time yesterday. Hoping to spend some time with some more lovely people soon 💗 . Just need to remember no matter how dark things get I am loved and so are you ❤️ Always here for people who ned a chat 💖 . #selfcare #selfcaresunday #family #timewithfamily #supportbubble #supportnetwork #reachout #reachin #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #itsokaytonotbeokay #illgetthere #itsokaytoaskforhelp #youarenotalone https://www.instagram.com/p/CC1cZklDzs5/?igshid=1dqfo4ov1m0py

[gilbertjane]

When I woke up this morning I hadn't planned on sitting on the sofa and crying for 3 hours but such is life.

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I started out right with some light yoga stretches and a nice breakfast. Only had one coffee and been making sure I was drinking water regularly throughout the morning.

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Changed my bedsheets and made a start getting my bedroom tidied between playing with the cats. I didn't push myself to achieve anything specific but wanted to finish jobs I started today.

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All of a sudden it all just became too much. I had the overwhelming sense of loneliness wash over me. I'm so done with all this, I just want my normal life back now 😭

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Thankfully I've made plans to see my best friend next week as I have a couple of days off. It's going to be so hard not to be able to be near her and give her a massive hug though 😞 But at least I know there's at least one person who actually wants to see me. No matter what my brain tells me.

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Managed to pull myself together though and do a little bit of painting. Theres something really soothing about mixing all the colours and discovering different shades and tones on my mixing plate

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❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

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#lonely #lonliness #isolation #imissmyfriends #imissmyfamily #imissme #selfcare #paint #paintcolour #mixingcolours #artforselfcare #distractingmyself #mentalhealth #imnotokay #itsokaytonotbeokay #illgetthere #iwillgetthroughthis

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[gilbertjane]

Happy Birthday to my beautiful fluffy boy 💙 He turns 12 today 🥳 . Hope you enjoyed a peaceful day whilst Mummy was at work 😂 . #birthday #birthdayboy #birthdaycat #gypsytheragdoll #ragdoll #oldcat #12yearsoldtoday https://www.instagram.com/p/CCoWUJajqdQ/?igshid=1hareprprqwwn

[gilbertjane]

A few more paintings I did over the weekend with watercolours and/or gouache paints (all from tubes) . The flowers I followed a Youtube tutorial and I'm quite pleased with them except the rose. That one didn't do what it was supposed to 😂 . Gouache is an interesting paint to use. I like the matt finish but it's weird to work with if you're used to water colour. But I can see how they'd work nicely together on a bigger project. . Going to need to save up for some more paper now 😂 . #watercolor #watercolouring #watercolourpainting #watercolorflowers #gouache #gouachepainting #waterbasedpaint #plants #tryingsomethingnew #thisisfun #experimenting #newpaint #art #isolationart #amianartistnow #amianartistyet #playingwithpaint https://www.instagram.com/p/CClLr-bD6nk/?igshid=zepyach5onde

[gilbertjane]

Hello lovely people 👋 . You may have noticed (or probably not 😅) that I haven't been on here (or social media generally) at all for the last week or so. . Thought it was best to focus on me and do some nice things for myself and not worry about what everyone else was doing right now. Especially with everything happening in the world right now, I was getting stressed over things that were well out of my control. . But wanted to pop back and say hi and see how you're all doing 👋 what have you been up to? . Work has been busy and I'm starting to get in the office again now which has actually been nice. Finished my online course too and think I'll take a break from studying for a few weeks at least 😂 . Treated myself to some more art supplies so I've been back at painting again (I'll post a few things I've done later) and I've got back into reading too (finally finished the book I started in October 🤣) . Had the wonderful round for a socially distanced dinner the other night too which was so lovely and really helped me be a little bit more optimistic about the future ❤️ . Looking forward to start seeing some more people soon just not at a pub just yet 😂 Hope you're all taking care of yourselves and each other. I may not be on here as often but I'm still about if you need someone to talk to 💖 . #hi #hello #imback #didyoumissme #socialmediabreak #takingcareofme #selfcare #selfcarebreak https://www.instagram.com/p/CCiviagjN9A/?igshid=1jni4a8g2ot6h

[gilbertjane]

I may not have a garden anymore but I have managed to sneak some pots by my back door 🌱🌻🌿 . I'm really pleased my little plants have started to flower now so I can enjoy a bit of colour when I sit outside. Hoping the dhalia makes an appearance soon 🤞 . Everything is still a bit much at the moment but I'm hoping that with each new week it'll get easier. . Grateful for the lovely people I'm my life I can talk to that help make things that little bit easier 🥰💖 . #plants #potplants #nogarden #nogardengrowing #growing #growingthings #flower #sunflower #snapdragon #dahlia #gratitude https://www.instagram.com/p/CCB6tJzjXf0/?igshid=u9cqxzz36f8u

[gilbertjane]

The world is an absolute shit show right now. . I haven't checked in on social media much just lately. Yesterday was the first day in about 2 weeks that I didn't break down in tears for one reason or another (or none at all) . The world is just too much for me at the moment and I feel so useless and powerless to do anything about it. . I tried to support the BLM protests over the weekend because guilt got the better of me but I couldn't stick it out. Anxiety took over and I ended up having a full on break down when I got home 🥺 . I can't smile at the moment, not really anyway. I'm too sad and upset that the world got this way so quickly 😞 . I'm lucky that I have a few people in my life that I can talk to and I know these feelings are temporary just like the situation of the world right now. . Thank you to everyone I reached out to over the weekend that just listened to me and to those that keep checking in on me. . If you're struggling too please find one person you can talk to who will listen. If you can't think of anyone come to me. I'm on and off social media at the moment but I alway get my DMs or call me if you have my number. (also don't forgot to check in on people too) . Together we can get through this shitty time and hopefully come out the other side stronger. In the meantime let's all keep going and be kind to yourself and others. I have a few days off from work now so going to be spending them painting, reading, relaxing and generally looking after myself with self care 💖 . Take care of yourselves too 🤍❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤 . . . #mentalhealth #MentalHealthAwareness #mhawareness #keeptalking #keeptalkingmentalhealth #keeptalkingmh #talk #keeptalking #talktome #itsnoteasy #thisshitishard #anxiety #anxietyawareness #lockdownstruggles #whatshappening #reachout #whathashappenedtotheworld #struggling #strugglingrightnow #support #supportnetwork #wewillgetthroughthistogether https://www.instagram.com/p/CBONousDON1/?igshid=1wxizom9tvamm

[gilbertjane]

Thank you @missquirkykicks for my first crystal order! . Im hoping these will bring more positive energies into my home and create a sense of calm and order. But if they don't do that at least they look pretty 😍 . Thought I'd start small with these and dot them about my home whilst I'm learning about crystals. . Trying to support small and local businesses too so will no doubt buy more after payday because they are so pretty 😂😍 . #missquirkykicks #crystals #crystalhealing #crystalshop #crystalhomedecor #amethyst #quartz #clearquartz #blacktourmaline #selenite #minicrystals #smallbusiness #supportsmallbusiness #localbusiness #supportlocal #shoplocal #shopfromhome https://www.instagram.com/p/CAaWcUZDzKX/?igshid=1qprqfcph472i