Glister Flicks

⏳🌺Time controls she who wants to be controlled.🌺⌛

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Shutting the fuck up and lying to ppl is in

Get with the program bitches

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This time, I’ll feed into this human transaction that you call “love”.

Instead of focusing on how to make one anothers minds broader .

I’ll trade intimacy with you

Provide fuel when you’re On E

And be open to the fact that at least for now

The answer to the question

Why are we here?

May not lie Between you and I.

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One day I’ll miss this silence

I must stop searching for its end.

[synqra]

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She got away

I let the one that got away get away because of internalized homophobia

I’m Almost 25 and still haven’t came out to everyone

I say I’ll do it once I meet the one

And I met her

She was absolutely perfect and everything I ever wanted

But I let her go and chose someone else

Someone I didn’t deserve nor that I wanted

She was so sweet and gave the best hugs

He yelled at me, made me cry and wish I wasn’t who I was

I thought love was pain so I went with that

Once it was over

I thought I could get her back but I ghosted her

And that was way to cold for her

She didn’t want me

I ended it before it started

I didn’t want anyone to know who I really was

Now I do and it’s almost 2 years later

I’m super alone and no where near where I started I want to prove to her how it should of been

I’m ashamed I went with him for all the wrong reasons

I told myself she couldn’t actually like me and he proved that he did

She said I felt like home but I wudnt let her come in

Every other woman I see is so boring to me

how come I’m still not over a girl... I didn’t even date

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Night till morning

Let’s talk about sleep

Are you getting any!?

I mean are you resting your eyes then falling away till completion?

Are you recently finding time to tangle yourself in those sheets you spent x amount of dollars on that you loved so much?

Sleep feels so earth shattering sometimes I swear

You pretend not to want it and hold on for your busy life not to loose grip and let it take control

Other times it consumes you and you cannot get away, your head nods keep bobbing and you’re just barely alive enough to pay attention

Have you seen the commercials!? Always pushing this 8 hour propaganda.

Buy our bed made out of the feathers of geese we abused or this pillow that feels exactly the same but with a “faux” geese feather, feather 😂🙄

Take this cough syrup and it will knock ✊ you right out for your full 8 hours a night. (Oh u can take it wen you’re sick too)

It’s as if they know we are having trouble finishing our snoozes 🛌

Im consistently edging myself to sleep. Do you know what I mean? Like at 10pm Ik I should but not yet, 12am in bed feeling warm and ready but not yet not just yet, 1am my eyes are burning, body is already asleep but my brain is cravin some of that Melatonin!! But noo not just yet.. wait for it falls asleep for 20mins is 2:20am nooot just yet wakes up it’s 2:40 am mmm almost there baby girl just get a lil but more work done annnnd 3am ok fine you can cum to bed now!

But for what!? 🤔 explain to me why I’m doing this to myself

I have no ending to this just a lot of unanswered questions

I just wanna treat sleep like the necessity it actually is and not like this big reward for what I get done in a day

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The 11th year

It happened I truly never imagined it actually happen.

The one time I decided to not be jealous.

This time I didn't even put up a fight.

Like a tornado I saw it spinning I stepped aside and allowed it to pass me.

Many things in the air I was happy to see flung away.

They are all her burdens now.

I only feel muscle soreness from holding it together all those years.

Now and then the perks are worth missing.

Better for me to be alone.

That decade behind us just dust.

After bad weather, u didn't want to pick up the pieces.

So I put down the ones in hand...

Why clean up a mess I didn't create myself just to see it crumble again.

No one stole it from me I gave it away deep down I didnt want it anymore years of pain and tears.

Calm.

Serenity.

No more wondering if Best

Was code for frienemy.

She will envy me once she wanders into what waters she thinks she stole from me..

That year my 11:11 wish came true

No more wishing for you😊

-Tyj

[lemonadeshowers-blog]

Narcissistic lover

When you love someone more than they love you, you don't notice the difference. Not in the beginning. Putting in effort, trying harder plus giving more.

You stay left crying you'll be in pain

They brush it off, say you're trippin

they wish you would change.

Yet when they are upset

going through mess

you sit right there

talk untill you make it better

untill there is no regrets

You do something

they blow up

u work to clam them down

other way around?

they'd just throw up their hands in the air

and give up!

no more sound.....

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Because if you're not them then... You're just not worth the fuss

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Everyone in America is miserable except the Rich. Ppl want their lives to matter others want to "make it great again" and other ppl just want a place to live even with a job! But some hope I figure the rich hates this shit too...

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I lowered my standards.

You did everything wrong yet you want another chance.

Tyj

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"I genuinely Don't feel love anymore. I'm not receiving or giving it out. I'm forcing myself to play along because love was such a big part of my personality. But truly it's all gone now"

-Tyj

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Game over Please

I'm ready to go now! It's time for me to do my own thing

Cus if I have to do things that I dont want to, just to survive...

I pat myself on the back to say good job. It will all be worth it wen I'm gone period. I manifested this I can manifest a way out

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If an entire town is insecure, about merely living in their home town. Imagine how insecure must the citizens be of themselves?

-TYJ

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Easy peace

Deep inhales wrench my entrail

Oh howit burns when I exhale as well. I genuinely want the sharpest part of this apple to cut through my throat and take me whole.

There is sut in my chest

the air here hasn't filtered well in years.

My tears are glued to my cheeks. Change my name to weak.

The easy way out sounds like peace. This shit is hard when it's hard to breathe.

Every breath folding in on me. I'm lonely because I dont know me.

And i dont want to because I'm ready to go!

I dont like it here im done with the show. Tommrow I'll wake up and do it all over again.

Good things happen to those that wait for the end?

Why do I have to pretend to be grateful for this shit.

Manifest my intellect.

Yet hate keeps seeping in.

I'm praying for positivity but

I, wont let me win.

My will to live thins and thins.

Soon my next attempt will be a commit. But at least I'll finally stop this constant,

need to vomit

I seem to continue a grumble.

Nothing I think or mumble is going to change.

I like to slide down hill and never reach out for anything.

I hope I get a good grade for how long I lasted.

Heavy chest

Staring at my phone

if only I could write something positive then that would change the tone

I truly dont want to diminish my soul.

(I wanna go home)

Fuck I'm so tired of feeling anxious and alone

no one did this to me.

I created it all on my own.

[lemonadeshowers-blog]

Unfair

When you love someone more than they love you, you don't notice the difference. Not in the beginning. Putting in effort, trying harder giving more.

You stay left crying you'll be in pain

They brush it off, say your trippin

they wish you would change.

Yet when they are upset

going through mess

you sit right there

talk untill you make it better

untill there is no regrets

You do something

they blow up

u work to clam them down

other way around?

they'd just throw up their hands in the air

and give up!

no more sound.....

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Trying

What is your definition of trying? Is it Follow what you're told and do the minimum work required for your life. Then relax and do nothing. We all know life is hard and it seems like putting more work into it gives us better results. But f@%* I dont want to work, do you? Money is such an inconvenience to need it causes so much trouble. Ppl lie, steal, kill, and ruin others lives for it! Do I truly try, I mean I didnt even spell the word people all the way. Oh and god forbid I have a difficult name, that is something they MUST change. Even tho its unique because my culture was ripped from under me before I could see it. And we just make up names in hopes that some day our culture will be it!

I think maybe work isnt the problem but it is what you get out of the amount of work you put into something. A $12hr 9-5 cannot even get you a home today. And that's almost your whole day. We have gotten to a point where that is a lot to be paid but not enough to survive. And then you get offended when asked to go the extra mile! Study this in your own time for free and come back and make my company better! Even though you really cannot afford a safe home. I want you to leave all your problems at the door, treat these rich ppl as your gods. Serve them love and honor them because their money pays for your life in the projects. Thank them, tell them to have a nice day as they go back to their cozy homes with cars that have air conditioning and boyfriends that arent to messed up in the head to call them a new name! Bi..one that wasn't given to em. You know like you deal with! 😊 but leave all that at the door today because you're here to WORK! And make ppl feel like wen they leave u on the bottom with barely any money they dont have to feel bad for you! Because you're smiling at them saying "you have a wonderful day"!