The Man Who Ate the World
He wasn’t born because no mother would carry that kind of child.
He was built.
From people’s fear, and women’s labour, and "the god-given rights of men".
His blood is commerce, his tongue, scripture. And his stomach? That one is a deep chasmic grotto. He eats everything.
The unquantifiable. Time, bodies, insecurities and the belief that we are not enough of anything.
He’s not one person. He is a something that wears the appearance of other persons.
On most days he is “Smile, it’s good for business.”
Other times he is the pastor because women must submit. It is, afterall, biblical propriety.
On Thursdays, he is the boy trying to woo you with explaining how suffering is love.
Same mouth, different accent.
Our hours bent over sinks, over ledgers, over children.
He eats the years we spend saying sorry for wanting rest from cleaning, cremating, forgiving, and keeping the peace with quiet.
He eats our beauty sleep and beauty, then sells it back to us in laid edges, foundation, and slogans about independence. Because who doesn’t fall for catchy?
He chews our dreams down until they taste like duty.
He calls it order. He calls it faith. He calls it love. He sounds like authority, like reason, like care, but it’s always, always, always control.
When the world started changing, he was Morpheus with it.
When we wanted freedom, he served us in the Mirage Hotel. It definitely looked premium. He sold it.
We break and he calls an Ishmael. We stopped going to church; he stuck one inside every phone.
And when we cried foul, he recorded it, played it back and put a reverb. Named it like a dubstep “Progress ft. Profit” on the Empire of Noise (Deluxe Album)
He’s clever like that. In 3090.
Always two steps ahead, always righteous; we are the ones trying to lose the weight when he is always hungry.
Sometimes I hear him in my head, in my voice telling me to be grateful, to stay pretty, to smile and not breathe too much air. Or use too much space. Or splash too much water. Or use straws.
While he eats the earth, poor Terra. Drinks from her, her Korle Lagoon because this homesteading dung air is perfume.
I am so happy oxygen walls are non-negotiable, and the anti-vacuum is too great for trespassing. He tried to make a dumping ground of that woman, strangling her citizens in revenge but you can't fume against waves. It all goes back to poor Terra.
But I think he is dying.
Hear it in the way women laugh now: not politely, but in wild fonts; noisily.
In the way we talk back, even in whispers, sardonically, cynically, deliberately, evenly.
You can feel it whenever we stop apologizing for being tired and rest without permission.
Every time we love differently, live our truth, walk away to love each other out loudly.
When women refuse to carry both the world and the silence.
And we touch the earth gently and call it home.
He can’t live without our service. He can’t live without our obedience.
Certainly not without our belief that this is the only way we can be.
And maybe that’s the quiet Mutiny.
No fire, firing guns or slogans, just finally saying no.
To the giving and giving.
To the worship of surviving.
He withers without our guilt.
Slain without our belief that he is God.
The man will starve when we stop feeding him. When we stop mistaking his voice for our own. When we stop nourishing his existence with our hopes and dreams and fears and compliance.
And one day, when enough of us stop letting him stuff his face; and the black hole floats by his lonesome, he will sublime quietly.
No war, no trumpet. Just silence.
And in that silence, maybe we will breathe again.
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