do what you want

vent blog // ill probobly dump some art here too. // obviously not my main, but if interested just dm me.

[kosmogrl]

[maneatered]

Me: I'm tired of being alive

Me: *random chest pain*

Me: Please lord not like this

[tyynicbubul]

I don’t want to be mysterious i want someone to notice i’m drowning without me having to say anything.

[virgomoon]

you can never go back. this is your one life. you had a bad childhood and that's it. you lost your teen years to mental illness and that's it. you're miserable in your 20s and that's it. you just go forward

[sentientsky]

[randomfriendlyloser]

i cant even pretend like i'm not hurt. i am. i'm too sensitive. i'm too vulnerable. i get hurt easily. i'm afraid of everything and everyone. i take everything seriously. i dont want to put on an act

[catchymemes]

[bpdohwhatajoy]

I hate bpd. Sadness is grief. It swallows me whole and makes me feel like I’ll never know light again. Anger is lightning striking throughout me. Happiness makes me feel like I’ll never feel a negative emotion again. So it’s ten million times more painful when I do.

[dudejealousy]

My hobbies don't matter, there's always someone that's better than me. My interests don't matter, there's always someone that likes it more

[borderline-culture-is]

bpd culture is being highly insecure about every facet of a relationship. Also nothing feels real right now

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[3000s]

emotionally retreating from everyone to focus on getting worse

[i-have-rabies-dw]

My bpd symptoms aren't that bad if I don't care about anything, or let anyone get close to me, or leave my house or

[sneakupandhitya]

last 2 minutes of the downward spiral sounds like dying and going to heaven its so beautiful

[bl0w-m3]

[egolesst]

Artist.: Henry Daubrez

[braaainwaaash]

[autopsyfreak]

i hate that BPD gives me such a lack of emotional permanence.

you can spend hours describing the ways in which you care about me, yet the moment you stop my brain will immediately decide you hate me and are destined to leave me.

[intheshapeofahuman]

fun fact once you know you have a disorder and can tell when you are experiencing those symptoms you can learn what helps to deal with them.

for me, my emotional impermanence issues got a lot better when i realized that i had a problem and decided to start keeping a list in my notes app of all the sweetest nicest things my bf has said to me and i read it over and over again when i am not with him

because for people who aren't in our situation, it's exhausting to keep saying "yes i still love you" "yes i still mean it"

my bf gives me reassurance with words, i write them down to look back on, and thus i reassure him that i believe he loves me even if i can't feel it right now

[typewriter-worries]

Manhattan is a Lenape Word, Natalie Diaz | Winter Without You, Sarah Kay 

[ Text ID: It is December and we must be brave. / It is December and nobody asked if I was ready. ]