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29K views · 3.7K reactions | Why do anxious women struggle in secure relationships? They often wait for safety to come from the outside. Tr

Why do anxious women struggle in secure relationships? They often wait for safety to come from the outside. True security comes when she be

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[boarderlinebandit]

[xlcovo]

[feral-ballad]

Maya C. Popa, from Wound is the Origin of Wonder: Poems: “Wound is the origin of wonder”

[mournfulroses]

Margaret Atwood, from Paper Boat: Selected Poems; "He Shifts from East to West,"

[knittedwithhope]

unresolved grief

[da-da-sk]

[bitter-doses]

how do i care about someone without my entire existence revolving around them or is that just my default setting forever

[autopsyfreak]

i hate that BPD gives me such a lack of emotional permanence.

you can spend hours describing the ways in which you care about me, yet the moment you stop my brain will immediately decide you hate me and are destined to leave me.

[intheshapeofahuman]

fun fact once you know you have a disorder and can tell when you are experiencing those symptoms you can learn what helps to deal with them.

for me, my emotional impermanence issues got a lot better when i realized that i had a problem and decided to start keeping a list in my notes app of all the sweetest nicest things my bf has said to me and i read it over and over again when i am not with him

because for people who aren't in our situation, it's exhausting to keep saying "yes i still love you" "yes i still mean it"

my bf gives me reassurance with words, i write them down to look back on, and thus i reassure him that i believe he loves me even if i can't feel it right now

[muchlovefleursblog]

[elizabethsinclair]

love elizabeth s.

[thepeacefulgarden]

[mxxnlightsblog]

It's crazy how trauma makes you push people away when all you want is love.

[new-twitter-memes]

Teen me pre adhd diagnosis just casually disassociating from stress & anxiety👌💯

[bl0w-m3]

[love-me-love-my-weirdness]

Shout out to the people who never had a safe place. Who didn’t have a before trauma. Who were loved but not protected. Who were collateral damage in someone else’s breakdown. Who got fucked up so young that they’ll never know who they could have been.

Shout out to people who’ve never felt safe. I hope you do someday.

[the-jesus-pill]

You’ve got to forgive yourself for being traumatized and needing to learn how to function again. 

Recovery isn’t always nightmares and depression, it’s forgetting to eat, being scared of what others might see as completely normal things, it’s getting random panic attacks, not knowing how to take care of yourself, not knowing how to live like an adult, even if you’re twenty, thirty, forty, fifty, of feeling like you’re failing to function in a world where everyone seems to have their shit together. 

If you need help, ask for it. Go to forums and ask for advice. Take advantage of community resources. Buy pre-sliced veggies and fruits, eat instant meals if you can’t cook for yourself today. Hire someone. Ask a neighbor for a favor. Buy any item you think might make life easier, even if you feel like you aren’t ‘disabled’ enough to have it. 

Some of the depression posts (ie open your windows, take a shower, go outside, call a friend) are really helpful but they’re not always enough. I’ve found advice for spoonies, people with chronic pain or other disabilities have the best tips because they know what it’s like to be bedridden, out of energy, stuck in a brain fog. 

You may never return back to the energy you had when you were younger and you might always need to use crutches to help you through life. It’s the same with medication. 

Trauma is a real thing that happens to you, it physically alters your brain and it’s alright to have lasting scars. 

You’re not broken, your life is not over and you can still be happy. 

It’s not your fault.