eviscerate your memory

steena. she/her very grown don't go breaking my heart. I have Buffy side blogs. One for earnestness, one for shitposting. Spuffy, Peeta, Zuko

[spuffygifs]

buffy & spike + halloween babysitting duties (requested by @disco-tea )

[tastefullyoffensive]

#Art (via timurse)

[happygoldfish]

Adding a picture of the building so you can see how high that star is off the ground. How the hell did the artist even do this.

[robotlyra]

“Is this the People’s Republic?” “NO, THIS IS PATRICK”

[juniperhillpatient]

everyone is entitled to their own wrong opinions but btvs season 6 haters I am tearing you limb from limb in my mind

[krippe90]

Posted on tumblr with permission from the source

[vivian-the-catboygirl]

The costume and makeup styling is insane??? Unless I'm missing something and this is animated and not live action hello???

Like the "style" makes it look animated but the eyes and the hands and the background look very real to the point where I genuinely can't tell if it's insanely high quality animation detail or insanely artistically skilled makeup and costuming to mimic an animated artstyle

[krippe90]

Don't worry it's 100% real! If you follow the source link and look through their account they demonstrate how they did the cosplay on other videos!

[spuffygifs]

favorite buffy looks: s2e20 | go fish

[isevery0nehereverystoned]

[holyisthenameofmyruthlessaxe]

after a suicide attempt in 2016

[holyisthenameofmyruthlessaxe]

“When Daddy comes in, he carries you to bed. Is there anything you feel like you could eat, Pokey? Anything at all? All you can imagine putting in your mouth is a cold plum, one with really tight skin on the outside but gum-shocking sweetness inside. And he and your mother discuss where he might find some this late in the season. Mother says hell I don’t know. Further north, I’d guess. The next morning, you wake up in your bed and sit up. Mother says, Pete, I think she’s up. He hollers in, You ready for breakfast, Pokey. Then he comes in grinning, still in his work clothes from the night before. He’s holding a farm bushel. The plums he empties onto the bed river toward you through folds in the quilt. If you stacked them up, they’d fill the deepest bin at the Piggly Wiggly. Damned if I didn’t get the urge to drive to Arkansas last night, he says. Your mother stands behind him saying he’s pure USDA crazy. Fort Smith, Arkansas. Found a roadside stand out there with a feller selling plums. And I says, Buddy, I got a little girl sick back in Texas. She’s got a hanker for plums and ain’t nothing else gonna do. It’s when you sink your teeth into the plum that you make a promise. The skin is still warm from riding in the sun in Daddy’s truck, and the nectar runs down your chin. And you snap out of it. Or are snapped out of it. Never again will you lay a hand against yourself, not so long as there are plums to eat and somebody-anybody-who gives enough of a damn to haul them to you. So long as you bear the least nibblet of love for any other creature in this dark world, though in love portions are never stingy. There are no smidgens or pinches, only rolling abundance. That’s how you acquire the resolution for survival that the coming years are about to demand. You don’t earn it. It’s given.”

excerpt from Cherry by Mary Karr, context being after a suicide attempt at age 13

[whatisyourchildhoodtrauma]

BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER | 6.19

[outaspaceman]

I’ve invented ‘The Knife-Wielding Tentacle'👍

[winonaparadise]

they're calling it the healthiest way anyone's ever engaged with art

[kimberlyshaws]

[sanzosin]

I just luv Spikes demon face so did bunch of study sketches of just that. yay!

plus some spuffy because i must!

[napneeders]

i love it when one of buffy's macho guys is threatening spike and he goes sooo slinkety faggoty and they're enraged because suddenly they see what she sees in him

[napneeders]

basically he's like go on push me I know you like it, and they're so mad because if they push more, he'll be right which threatens their masculinity, and if they pull away they'll be admitting that he's got to them, or, for that matter, that they've identified the subtext in the first place, which also threatens their masculinity

and then there's the fact that they couldn't let themselves be pushed like that but ooh don't you wish you could big boy

[invisible-pink-toast]

[closertotheheart]

[bobbiflekman]

june 22

happy 72nd, cyndi lauper

[san-sebastienne]

gonna tell my kids this was Crowley and Aziraphale.

[kliomuse]

Ooooh, you’re so right.

[nondelphic]

editing your own writing is just you vs. the demon who wrote it at 2 a.m. six months ago. and the demon was DRAMATIC

[midnightmurdershow]

Planet Earth II (2016) Episode 05 “Grasslands” Directed by Chadden Hunter

[queer-cosette]

'dating rules' are so fucking stupid btw. "don't talk too much about your hyperfixation on a first date, it'll scare them off!!" it'll only scare them off if they're a coward. Someone worthy of my affections will listen to me talk about my goal of visiting every whale exhibit with a life-sized effigy of a whale in it in the world for a solid half-hour and come away from that experience desiring me carnally.

[queer-cosette]

One time I went on a date with a guy who stared at me with raised eyebrows while I told him about my plan to go to ComicCon as Daphne Blake, and then he scoffed and said it was weird for me to be so into Scooby Doo at the age of 19. Last year I told my boyfriend (before he was my boyfriend) that next time I got ComicCon tickets I wanted to go as Rapunzel, and he gasped and said "NO WAY I WANTED TO GO AS FLYNN RIDER". So, like, not only is talking about your hyperfixations on an early date a good way to learn quickly if someone is going to treat your whole personality with respect or not, you might also find a kindred spirit.

[queer-cosette]

This doesn't just apply to dating btw. Any platonic acquaintance who acts like you're cringe for having a lot of enthusiasm about something is not someone you want in your life. The people who matter will do things that you want to do with you because they love you and like when you are happy. Case in point I could not have paid my high school official-best-friend to spend four and a half hours in London's Natural History Museum taking photos in the whale gallery but my adulthood best friend agreed in a heartbeat despite knowing the bare minimum about whales.

So yeah. Be openly enthusiastic about the things you love and the right people will love you for it.

[pavlovs-titties]

Hey, in the most respectful and platonic way possible? I desired you carnally off the first post alone, and that gave me seconds of you.

If someone does not love and respect both your proper and your freak? They were not meant for you.

No more 'being on our best behaviour' for first dates. Let them see your gremlin. Perceive their gremlin. Fall in ooky, whacky, gremlin love.

[queer-cosette]

MWAH kissing you in a nineteenth-century-author-writing-a-letter-to-a-close-friend-that's-now-heavily-debated-as-evidence-of-their-queerness-by-historians kinda way <3

YOU GET IT

[hbosscreations]

I ended a 15 year friendship over this exact thing.

I loved my dear friend, but it became clear to me in recent years that my friend did not love me.

Oh, she was happy to come and stay at my house half the weekend and tell me all her woes and how excited she was to do pottery and about her job and the men she was pursuing.

But she could not handle a five minute conversation about comics or movies or books or art that I was working on. She would sit there silently and say 'I have nothing to contribute' or she would start watching TikTok WHILE I was talking until I gave up.

It wasn't as if I didn't try, I only brought up topics in those genres I thought might interest her, or referenced things she'd talked about in the past, but it starting being very obvious that she didn't want to have a conversation, she wanted me to listen and affirm while she told me things.

And it genuinely hurt my feelings, because I don't particularly care about pottery or glazing, but I listened and learned and asked questions and eventually learned enough to have an actual conversation on the topic with her. Because I loved her and that is what she loves.

A few weeks ago, I went to see a different friend and she asked me if she could play a video game while we talked. I didn't mind, I was used to trying to fight with TikTok for attention.

We spent five hours talking, actually talking. Five hours of me getting to talk about the novel I've been working on for nearly two years at this point and for her to tell me all about the construction and design of her favorite game franchise, and not once did I feel like I was fighting for attention. It felt very much like hanging out and playing video games when I was a kid.

If someone isn't willing to try to meet you where you're at, especially if you're doing it for them, it's not a good relationship. You deserve someone who'll meet you at your level of freak, you deserve to be listened to and treated with respect.