Doctor Hateblog

Gideon it/they 30s https://ko-fi.com/gideongargoyle/commissions

[goofygargoyle]

Honestly, you shouldn't follow my main (this blog). I'm going through fucked up stuff and I use this blog to vent to the void.

—

Gideon, it/they, early 30s.

I follow and unfollow often, depending on factors that have nothing to do with the individuals running blogs — I just like my dash to be a certain way. Don't take it personally.

FAQ

go check out my sideblogs instead:

@neogargoylecore urban goblincore old tech frogs silly creatures gremlin sorta stuff. my favorite sideblog honestly

@happygideon overly organized happyblog and @happygid-unorganized is where some stuff is ending up because tagging is too many spoons

@yooka-kazooie pan fandom blog

@gideonthethistlian is supposed to be my queer blog idk how much has been ending up there I kinda forgot it existed

also if you do want to see some posts here that aren't just me complaining check out the #z tag

I'd suggest blacklisting #📓, and #breakdown blogging

Tags:

📓 = journal/notebook aka personal faff posts

💀 = skull aka talking about my chronic illness which is skull based

🤕 = posts about trying to wrap my skull to fix misalignment

tips and advice and reminders

MY CAT

surviving/determination/not-dead-yet

books I want to read (reminder to self)

[lastvalyrian]

> medical problem > unsure if it's serious or will go away on its own > sees a doctor to be sure > "why the fuck are you here. this is nothing. it will go away on its own"

[lastvalyrian]

> medical problem > unsure if it's serious or will go away on its own > decide to wait to not overreact > problem remains > sees doctor with concrete problem after all > "why did you wait so long. we could have done something if you had come immediately"

[goofygargoyle]

Life Update??

Hurt my back the week after root canal (around May 26th)

Have had to be extremely careful and rest as much as possible. Recovery is slow but it is getting better.

Once I've recovered enough to do so I'll go to a doctor. Whoever the fuck you go to for "lumbar and legs decided they hate each other and idk why"

Definitely recovering and backbrace is very helpful. Fortunately I'm someone who hoards frozen and canned food and ingredients so I'm not starving. I can go down the stairs now but not carry stuff up.

[youthincare]

people should be allowed to have low ambition, and also be able to feed a family on the salary of a cashier at a convenience store.

[local-lesbian-tree-demon]

they should invent a body that feels normal to be inside of

[what-even-is-thiss]

Being physically strong does kinda mess with your head when you have health problems I think. Like you know that logically your muscle mass isn’t gonna stop you from having a sleep disorder or asthma or whatever but when it happens anyways you’re like damn life really doesn’t work like comic books huh? Frankly I am disappointed.

[what-even-is-thiss]

Do you think Superman has to deal with lower back pain? No. He can just lift things with no consequence. Does Batman get sleepy? Obviously not. His ninja training makes him immune to such things.

[what-even-is-thiss]

I want a super strong buff superhero who gets winded running up two flights of stairs, that’s what I want.

[nullpointr]

this pride month remember to love and appreciate aromanticism, aromantic people, aromantic love, aromantic relationships. this pride month get more aromantic

[archivearchangelica]

2006

[unofficial-autism-post]

Unofficial Autism Post

[yesterdaysprint]

Hartford Courant, Connecticut, March 9, 1906

[existennialmemes]

There's way more red tape surrounding how and when you're allowed to modify your own body than there is around how and when the president can drop bombs on other countries.

This country has been having a ten year debate about who is allowed to wear a skirt in public, but Congress didn't even have to approve a whole fucking war with Iran for it to happen.

You are not free. Your freedoms are just dangled above your head like collateral, so you don't dare interfere with all the war your taxes paid for.

[existennialmemes]

To be excruciatingly clear here, I'm saying there should be little to no red tape around bodily autonomy and an unrelentingly gigantic amount of red tape around acts of war.

It should take months to years to get military actions approved. They should have to demonstrate beyond a shadow of a doubt that it's the only option, and they should have to have a plan in place to protect that country's citizens from experiencing any ill effects from war.

And if that sounds like an impossible task then I guess maybe violence just isn't the answer.

[mousegirlheart]

there is absolutely no shame whatsoever in using a shower chair. there's no rule that says you have to shower standing. stop ignoring the pain. get yourself a shower chair. please.

[hyperhypnotichyena]

As someone who uses a shower chair: if you are avoiding showers because of discomfort even if it seems insignificant, consider getting a shower chair. This can make such a difference, you do not have to struggle through something just because you feel like your struggles aren't "severe" enough.

[ingridverse]

Even if you don't "need" a shower chair, it's a very relaxing way to shower. I recommend it.

[scenerwiththegreenery]

You don't have to "earn" getting a shower chair by being disabled "enough".. you can just get one, even if you do not believe you ever "need" one. Get it as a leisure item, whatever man, you can just have one even if you never experience pain or discomfort while showering!

I was 25 years old when I first "needed" a shower chair (shattered my foot, couldn't bear weight on it even once I was out of the cast) and I found myself wondering why people don't just have a seat in the shower by default??

So bypass the entire question of if you're disabled or in pain "enough" for a shower chair by assuming that even if you are not disabled or in pain at all, you can still have one, it's fine, it's very enjoyable and relaxing, go ahead!

[fenmere]

Here's another angle.

Did you know that you can be too disabled to even use a shower chair?

Things can, eventually, get so bad that even using a shower chair is not enough.

When we finally bought a shower chair, our own body was already in so much pain that it didn't increase our ability to take showers. It made it possible, but just barely. It is excruciating to take a shower, even sitting on the chair. Getting in and out of the tub is extremely dangerous, too, and we are not flexible or strong enough to do it while sitting down and pivoting on the chair.

We really need a whole new shower stall designed specifically for us, but we're not getting that ever. We're too poor.

The shower chair is the compromise that allows us to shower once every two weeks, roughly, when we've worked up the spoons and endurance of pain to do so.

We do "sponge baths" using disposable wipes most of the time. And, honestly, that's not enough to really keep our body clean, and it sucks, a lot.

So, like, we implore you. Get the shower chair while you can actually enjoy it!

[lovesicklobotomy]

[metal-autistic-coven]

Happy pride month to him

[funstyle]

having audio processing issues is so humiliating like yeah i heard you and yeah i was actively listening but the problem is i dont know what the fuck you sayed

[jacobtheloofah]

i was paying attention, i was listening, but you see the problem is....it didnt work

[xxscrabiesxx-deactivated2025062]

hey folks if you have an android phone: google shadow installed malware.

Android System SafetyCore - Apps on Google Play

Provides safety features for Android devices.

I had to go and delete it myself this morning.

[oca-rinn-a]

Important info in the notes:

[sailermoon]

having unwashed hair will have you believing shit like i can’t be saved

[goofygargoyle]

it would be super helpful if like a lot of people commissioned me for pencil drawings.

I just got a thing from CareCredit and I still don't know if I have to pay in full in 1 or 2 years but definitely at least 2

I've more or less got everything set up now. I've got Ko-fi here and other commission info here.

I've set up a station to draw in with the tools needed I think.

[yellow-cat]

no one is allowed to have parties outside or drive or smoke during the summer because i like to sleep with the window open. thank you