GothTransAndroid

Alchemy through contemplation

[gothtransandroid]

My body feels like its been cocooned in the sensation of tinnitus. The slow grind of wool not on my eardrums but every inch of my soul, grating away at my calm in the quiet moments where nothing is expected of me and I can be alone and myself. This is the closest thing to a cosmic horror in my life because the moment the doors close and the background noise of day clicks on it permeates everything and I have to drown it out with more and more and MORE THINGS so I can just feel like I have agency over my alone time.

My mind always grasps at straws of thoughts when its silent, and its horrible when Im waiting for something without a distraction because then I have an imagination without a leash, and I see the people around me without clothes, then without hair. Then without skin and organs and inhibitions and laws and the permeations of this train I no longer have a way to get off of take me all over the wilds I do not want to be in anymore and I would just shut my eyes but the moment I see or hear something my brain can cling onto its like a Clockwork Orange in my brain and my minds eye is stapled open until either I get to focus on something vital to my day or I give up and go home and distract myself again.

ADHD Bi-Polar Antisocial because I got USED to the unskippable cutscenes of horror in my head as a kid because I thought I would get locked up in a padded room if I told someone and now that Im old enough to know thats not how it works I just get to casually laugh and sigh every time I real-time experience the gas that turned the Simpsons inside-out in treehouse of horror on a bi-monthly basis out of context to reality as long as my head isnt pulled three directions at once on purpose.

And the worat part is I thought this all would make me a good writer when all it really does is make it easier to find ways to not docus and harder to stay committed lest my brain fucks me over and cant handle things I love because it always catches me off guard and fills the cracks around those happy things with the cancer of overthinking and I can't just wash it off because every new thought about that thing is like a vietnam fucking flashback to the moment where my brain decides "actually that, but with more awful or sad or horror but not in the consumable story way but the people go to jail for doing this irl way and youve gotten really good at visualizing it".

So I write, I burn out, I try again, I burn out again, rinse and repeat until the threads wear out and I get a new fixation that i pray doesnt get dropped in the "oops all fucked up shit" mud I force myself out off the moment the room goes silent. And I keep reposting my thoughts like this when I want to write but cant bring myself to write the old thing I loved and cant stand anymore.

[romint-drake]

[gothtransandroid]

EDIT: This meme was made after watching https://m.youtube.com/@OverlySarcasticProductions and their 2025 Halloween Special about The Count of Monte Cristo https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=idObk4I4bdg made by @comicaurora while remembering the meme about Keikaku from Death Note.

[aquiboni]

would u raise him? ♥︎~(◕‿◕｡)

[gothtransandroid]

[gothtransandroid]

My drought of creativity is slowly reversing, but that also means the nightmares are gonna come back. This time they should be more mild though, as I decided to write a "what does it mean to be human" story. I dont think I have a groundswell of followers but any positive enforcement is appreciated. Im going to work on the Plante Coop again in the meantime, will hopefully have something this weekend and reposts of the main link to follow. Might rewrite the "dracula" one given time. Galenstien blood makes cyberpunk vampires go wild.

[silly-aurora-polls]

If Erin Could Only Use One Element Which One Would It Be?

Stone

Life

Water

Fire

Lightning

Wind

Results

Voting ended onAug 28, 2025

[gothtransandroid]

I'm surprised more people didn't click Results because he is clearly a Results based wizard.

[gothtransandroid]

Angels are Demons and Demons are Angels.

The sin was not the damage, nor was it the attempt, but the lack of ownership. It was the idea that one person could cause such damage and not be held accountable. It was that one could try to change the world and run away when they failed. It was in the giving up despite the failure, and the lack of recognition in where things went wrong so a better step forward could be taken.

Angela are demons unwilling to fail to see a different world, and demons are angels unwilling to try again after not realizing their mistakes. The geberation before us did not inherently place us here to improve the world, nor did they inherently expect us to maintain it in the form they carved out for themselves. The world changes constantly, and our place in it changes with it.

Mistakes are meant to be chains we can climb higher on, not ones to drag us down and keep us there. Each link a choice we made, good or ill, to lead us onto the next one. And no matter how strong or weak those links are, there is no going back and changing them all. We live and die by our choices, and sometimes those around us do as well. And pretending we don't is the biggest failing.

Add links to your chain, build a way forward and see where your place in the world leads you, but most importantly OWN YOUR ACTIONS.

[pukicho]

The skies are no longer the limit. I have become the new limit. I am the limit.

[gothtransandroid]

Sweet, I don't have to limit myself anymore! Pukicho is the Christ of Tumblr, limiting themself so we all don't have to!

[probablybadrpgideas]

Elemental Plane of me Kicking Your Ass

[gothtransandroid]

So... the "Punch Dimension" From X-Men?

[probablybadrpgideas]

ritual that allows you to speak with the dead, but there’s no way to specify which person you want to talk to so you usually end up with some random person whose language you don’t understand

[gothtransandroid]

Its all fun and games until you have to burn two more spell slots on Tongues and Comprehend Languages because no one remembers that most famous historical figurs did not in fact speak English.

[gothtransandroid]

Real Talk: the stress of working with people who refer to the SAME KIND OF PEOPLE they're paid to help and keep safe as "Methican Americans" just because they're not in our care and filming them and laughing at them like they're animals in a zoo is the most dehumanizing thing I've been in the proximity of in my life and I have to be calm and measured when skinheads pull out racial slurs and steal food from their neighbors. Im sick of my co-workers being less than human.

If you can't hold back your anger at how bad choices hurt the lives around those who make them, that's one thing, but no one is your fucking joke just because they're struggling being alive. Help or shut the fuck up.

[elvis-official]

Might become a dark lich hummina hummina hummina. You know how it is

[gothtransandroid]

You aren't one? I assumed the hair was a phylactery and you just gave it to one of the impersonators so no one would figure out where it was.

[gothtransandroid]

Have had the main theme to To Be Hero X in my head for the past week and just realized its not an anthem to motivate you to be better but a manic episode where the ideal of being a hero is an addiction and each hit of the characters feeling stronger and more validated from their Trust is hitting less and less and those who fail get swallowed up by the Fear so easily that they become their worst selves.

"All my life, they said that I was strange... But I knew that I could be the change.... I still ain't done enough... Not even close..."

The song hits so much darker now :s

Hell, its called Inertia because the characters cannot stop. Literally.

[elvis-official]

Woah mama I found you at Homegoods

Woah mama that's not me that's the imposter ghoul!

[gothtransandroid]

Look, I was up late watching Subspecies, like three fingers of Rum deep and a commercial for an Elvis Greatest Hits collection came on... I had a leftover skeleton from the pixie farm... Just don't give him any bugs, He'll glue wings on and we'll never catch him.

[greylilplum]

Y’all think necromancy would work on plants?

[gothtransandroid]

Two schools of thought here; on one hand a plant is a living, vital thing and since necromancy is a pseudo-revival of the dead it stands to reason you could make a tree undead and force it to move how you want with the magic BUT if necromancy actively works with souls or nervous systems in any meaningful way then it might not work as most plants have neither.

Personally necromancy is just puppeting a dead thing by pushing magic through the parts where the "magic" of being alive once was, be it a soul or something else, so I dont see why not.

[gothtransandroid]

Contemplating Necromantic Curses and Classifications

The anatomy of most curses that induce an "undead" or necrotically charged state in a living being must fundamentally bind themselves to organs or systems of the body in order to function as desired. The end result may just be a common zombie or ghoul but those things are what determine the difference between zombies and ghouls, for example.

To begin with, a zombie plague is a curse not only dictated by bite but also by death. Brain death must occur because the magical hijacking starts at the brain, thus puppeting the corpse through the nervous system and where the soul has left the body, filling the space with command magic of the most banal variety that gets more complex with the kind of undead it is used on.

A ghoul starts at the stomach, usually via an injestion of some cannibalised flesh. The curse becomes more potent if the flesh was fresh when consumed but when digested fully the curse sets in so ensure the victim doesnt vomit. From there the victim will only be able to consume flesh of its own kind to persist and the less they do the stronger your command spell becomes, eventually overriding the body completely on brain death like with the zombie.

Vampirism is similar as a curse except it starts in the liver and kidneys, as they filter both blood and what you consume. When a vampire bites its victim the curse attacks the kidneys and makes them a thrall, easily contorlable and desiring blood for themselves. When they consume blood the curse then activates in the liver as well, giving them more power based on the type of blood they consume. Virginity plays no role in this save how STDs and STIs can interfere with the potency of blood so you get worse results. The cleaner the blood, the better. And if they abstain with blood the same control magic takes over until brain death, forcing them into direct servitude.

Wights are a rare breed but are only complex ob the casters side as it works similar to the zombie but focuses entirely on the nervous system and not the soul. A wight is made via a disruption of brain activity via magic that crawls into the nerves over time and must be done at the right pace; too slow kills the brain too early and too fast wrecks the nerves. When done the wight's nerves can harden and extend like needles through the fingertips, stunning and disrupting the nerves of other living beings. A well made enough wight can even drain this vital energy like charging a battery off another battery, slowly leaving the wight's victim catatonic or just brain dead. This does not spread the curse however, and a wight needs so much care to make that usually you want the victim restrained during the process lest they resist and interfere.

These curses are not restricted to humanoids and by testing limits one could easily make a octopus wight or a vampiric mosquito so long as they understand the biology properly. Already cannibalistic creatures or hemophages are good places to start.

[kaijuno]

[gothtransandroid]

Homophobes: be more masculine

Internet: lol

Poors: I wish i could afford to fill a log polished into a bathtub with whiskey to prove a point.