I am neurodivergent.
But i didnt get the fun, hyperfixation, learn everything, consume everything, neurodivergence.
I will hyperfixate on one thing. Only one. I won't watch the rest of the series, Il stay with just the one.
I cant handle the new.
Il hyperfixate on Jurassic World, but only that. Not park, not rebirth. Just Jurassic world.
Heck, I didnt even choose to watch it. My family had to keep the tv remote and turn it on.
I havent chosen to watch a new Tv-show in years, Im lucky I can read and read without struggling.
Do I want to watch Jurassic park? YES.
Am I terrified of the new, of the assumptions i made about charaters being untrue, of having to watch something that I dont know what comes next? YES.
I dont always remeber what I fixated on, and I know the dopamine isnt forever.
Whatever created me must have hated me.












