TheDoctorsNexRegen

[ call me Ellie or Alice ] [ The Forensics Collective ] ------------------------------------------------------ "How is the world inside your mind any less real than the one outside it?" —Cheshire cat ------------------------------------------------------ "No one important, Blimey, thats amazing. Do you know, in 900 years of time and space, I've never met anybody who wasnt important before" —Doctor Who ------------------------------------------------------ "Life is pain. I go to work everyday im in pain. Do you how many times i thought about giving up. How many times i wanted to end it?" —house ------------------------------------------------------ "Have a little cry, pick myself up, dust myself off, and try again. The show must go on" —bluey and bingo ------------------------------------------------------ "Maximum effort!" — deadpool ------------------------------------------------------ "I will be a problem to the world, that is my prophecy" — Me

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Do I actually feel sad by using the library and not owning books [even when I would have to wait to afford them]

Or is my brain just craving dopamine

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Whenever my family tells me "im so start" for doing something plainly logical to me

I say "its elementary"

Both because im a sherlockian and because to me it feels that easy.

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No one should have let me get a library card.

Im unstoppable

HAHA

< I have over 26 books checked out >

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I am neurodivergent.

But i didnt get the fun, hyperfixation, learn everything, consume everything, neurodivergence.

I will hyperfixate on one thing. Only one. I won't watch the rest of the series, Il stay with just the one.

I cant handle the new.

Il hyperfixate on Jurassic World, but only that. Not park, not rebirth. Just Jurassic world.

Heck, I didnt even choose to watch it. My family had to keep the tv remote and turn it on.

I havent chosen to watch a new Tv-show in years, Im lucky I can read and read without struggling.

Do I want to watch Jurassic park? YES.

Am I terrified of the new, of the assumptions i made about charaters being untrue, of having to watch something that I dont know what comes next? YES.

I dont always remeber what I fixated on, and I know the dopamine isnt forever.

Whatever created me must have hated me.

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Daydreamed so hard im still hearing the chains of rollarcoasters going up and i feel a little nausous because i just daydreamed i was at sixflags–

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I keep trying to call everyome 'my love' and 'darling'

should i accept it and start?

yes

no

Voting ended onMay 20

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"I had a dream, I got everything I wanted" –b.e

BUT IT WAS JUST A DREAM. I HAD MY DESIRED THINGS, I HAD A GIRLFRIEND.

I LOVED THEM SO MUCH.

I thought i was awake twice.

I HATE THIS.

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"I'm doing good, I'm on some new shit"

Except I've just been reading half the day, listening to lana and taylor half the day, sleep less regular but consuming more coffee, daydreaming, and rewatching my comfort shows.

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I can promise you they don't

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~ Question <3

When you devote a perfume, do you continue to use it?

I've seen 70$ and up perfumes being devoted or on their altar, and I just can't help but wonder if they use it

I'd love to devotee a perfume but I also dont have 70$ or more to buy something I'm not using

[rubysue1909]

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Being a shifter, with a speficific story line/timeline, and watching the media move on;+ ruin and kill the charaters:

"Help. Im still at the resturant.

Sitting crosslegged, in a corner i haunt."

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My anxiety goes so bad during weather–

And being raised catholic is funny.

Because tell me why i just sat, rocking back n forth, singing "this little light of mine" because of thunder–

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"We all look for heaven"

"And we put love first"

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Trying put my LED lights up and damn–

Out of breath, sweating, dead qnd crying on the inside

[writingdose]

a writer’s struggle

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[Slight parental vent using music]

You've used up all your fake apologies

And thats fucking pathetic.