Much too many feelings

[gatobob-deactivated20240303]

you know that won’t help

[is-there-a-song-there]

brain.jpg(s)

[enbycourse]

[bubblebaath]

im very good at overthinking things

[ahrima-deactivated20240728]

executive dysfunction be like *wants to do something* *doesnt do it* *feels bad* *wants to do something* *doesnt do it* *feels bad* *wants to do something* *doesnt do it* *feels ba

[o-v-e-r-w-h-e-l-m-e-d]

I recently learnt that executive dysfunction can be broken down into two main categories: anxiety that your attempt won't be satisfactory, or confusion about where to start or how to break it down into steps. As much as we feel bad about it, it's extremely important to remember that it is NOT laziness and we in fact shouldn't feel bad.

[ahrima-deactivated20240728]

hey reblog this instead

[pdmori]

[dis-c0nnect-ed]

Unpopular opinion but possessiveness makes me feel validated and like an actual human.

[rotten-ram]

Me: I adore you, never leave me because if you do I’ll die

Also me: I must push everyone away my mental illness and problems will destroy every relationship I have anyway / what if they get tired of me? I must leave them first/ I am not worthy of this relationship please go find someone better

[srvphm]

Dissociation feels

everything is happening 0.5 times too fast

numb

everything but a little bit to the left

Numb™

it feels like Monday the 17th at 3:31pm but also like Saturday at 4:57am

….. existing?

hahahaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

why are the end credits playing I didn’t even hit play

Current emotion is coma

I need to self-harm but I physically cannot move

feeling panic rising up inside but being too numb to physically react

Must Do Thing. Do Not Know What Thing Is.

N҉͏̖͇͕̥ư̷̭̪͇͉̰̱͢ͅḿ͝҉̠̬̘͇̫͇͍̘͜b̴͓͍̱̣

everythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingevery

…I should start a religion

I A M G O D

*vibrating softly* everything in the world is my fault

Numb

Existence Is Fraud

Do I still have legs?

[donnergrauen]

Sometimes, Intruders seem to talk.

[graysoil]

I CAN FUCKING TELL YOU’RE IN HERE I CAN SENSE YOU I CAN HEAR THE SOUND OF YOUR CLOTHES RUSTLING AND YOUR PRESENCE YOU’RE IN HERE I KNOW YOU ARE YOu’re IN HERE I’M NOT STUPID

I CANT LAY DOWN IF I LAY DOWN THEYLL FUCKING CONSUME ME THEYLL EAT ME ALIVE AND FUCKING BURROW THEMSELVES AND LAY EGGS AND CONTROL ME THEYLL UCKCIMG TAKE CONTROL OVERME THIS IS BULLSHIT I NEED SLEEP BUT THIS IS WAY TOO FUCKINF LOUD FOR ME I NEEDTO RELAX AM I HAVINGAN ANXIETY ATTACK IC AN’T TELL I JUST FEEL MY BODY CONVULSING AND IT FEELS HORRIBLE I AM SO UNCOMFORTABLE EVERYTHING IS TOO MUCH I HATE HAVING A BODY I WANT TO FUCKIJG GET OUT OF IT I WANT TO LEAVE MY BODY I NEED TO

IM JUST GONNA WALK IN CIRCLES UNTIL I FEELBETTER I’Ll BE FINE I J UST NEED TO KEEP MOVING AND LOOKING AND

[graysoil]

my delusions are so fucking loud

cameras in my room

watching me through the webcam

but it makes no sense

being targeted

all of those people are planning to do something bad to me

they’re going to try to ruin me

i have no privacy anymore

they can always see me

they can see me type

they can see me suffer

[graysoil]

apartment

your words hurt

not the pain of needles

nor knives

but something of insects

breaking into my skin

the urgency

i find myself sinking into

is overbearing in its own way

you, yourself, can never leave my head

like a permanent resident

[graysoil]

second thoughts

maybe i’m getting better

i can keep this up

but keeping the truth locked up

is doing neither of us favors

[graysoil]

anchor

maybe if i find some time

some time to ponder

maybe if i pour my heart out

let it sink to the bottom

the anchor will take me with it