im so sorry im doing this but i need help again
ok so i was really really trying to better my situation on time so i wouldn’t have to do this ever again, but as of this moment, everything backfired on me and im in a dire situation on every level. I’m terribly sorry guys but right now i need to ask for your help once more.
i had a job but as some of you might know, i was barely managing getting basics tasks done end eventually i got disposed of due to office games and me being considered unproductive. I managed to get 6 months of partially paid sick leave but that too is coing to an end.
I have cerebral palsy and after being hit by a car almost two years ago i sustained permanent damage and devoloped fibromyalgia, which is only getting worse. most days i dont get out of bed and in the few hours of less pain i try to do everything at once and i pay for it later. I have terrible issues with memory and balance which already on top of things got me injured. im not capable of having a job as of now. Currently im on like fifth and i think last medications, and i am on wait list for two MRIs that maybe will tell the doctors if theres something left to help or nah.
What money i had i invested in getting tattooing stuff because i figured i could do small simple work few times a week, depending on my health eventually and ideally be able to afford food and medications. I will be applying for health benefits but in Poland they’re a joke and doctors hate my illness and i am regularly being told to fuck off, so im not sure how that’s gonna go.
On top of it the dude who was supposed to be taking care of my apprenticeship apparently just wanted to screw me over so im slowly learning to do the inking on my own. very slowly bc my health is getting worse. Sometimes it gets better for a while so i train whenever i can.
This summer due to the storms the windows from my rented roof were ripped out and the owner held me partially financially accuontable and i havent yet paid full. Also there was time when i had nothing on me other than my already existing debt and i couldnt ask my family for chash bc they dont have it either and now i have to pay that back or else the bank will foreclose on me.
I expected to have a smoother financial flow by that time so i could easily pay it off on time, but the national health fund decided my post accident chronic illness is not related to the accident to they will not even out the amount of monthly money they give me. Last crappiest thing is that after near two years of battling with the driver’s who hit me insurance company for losing all my health and life perspectives, they told me that yeah you did lose everything but we dont think your illness exists and u cant proove its related, all your loss is worth approx. $898 (3350 zł) and you can go fuck yourself with that forever.
And they still haven’t even paid me that, so now i cant pay the bank ($160), the window thing ($93), and my rent ($156) or meds+doctor ($53). I’m completely ignoring over $1700 debt from 5 years ago when i took a loan to pay for my rent while i was unemployed, still in university, and had to pay rent for months. Maybe i’ll pay it off in 5-10 years. I hope to.)
Since my current flat became way too expensive for me to mantain, and simpply not safe to live in, i will be moving out soon and will be renting just one room elsewhere at a much lower price. So much for my peace and freedom (i come from places of both poverty and abuse, yikes), but hey. Survival.
But to make a move in pretty much any direction, i need financial aid of any kind to try to take care of all the super urgent financial fires, which are approximately $400 (1800 zł), and that is taking into consideration that currently my meals are dry bread.
So i would be endlessly endlessly grateful for any kind of financial help if anyone of you have even the tiniest amount to spare, because it’s a life or death situation for me :(
I regret being born but i dont want to die, not like this, not now. Please. I need help.
If you are willing and able to donate, here is my Paypal, and here’s my Ko-Fi.
If you can’t, I understand. But please, reblog and signal boost it if you can.
As of now what i will be able to offer in exchange other than my gratitude:
- slowly updated fics whenever im able to type long enough
- free tattoos once i gt okay at it and ur in poland by any chance
