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i like how when i told my family i thought i had undiagnosed adhd they told me i was a hypochondriac who had been reading about it too much but now whenever i annoy them for any reason they blame it on my undiagnosed "hyperactivity issues" like that's very cool of you guys please stop :/
im calling myself out on this one
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I knew they were gonna say it and yet
interesting but unsurprising thing: when I start to feel bad I don't do as much. Even when I feel like I'm doing the normal amount, or not purposefully not doing things because I don't feel like it, I forget or stand still. Weird.
ADHD THINGS????
Does anybody else do or have these???
Zoning out hard enough that you repeat sounds you hear? Like you hear a car engine and literally say âBrrrrrrrrooooomâ (Iâm literally the worst for this!)
The constant need for music to be playing, or at least have headphones on my head to have the option to listen to it
Random spurts of energy that result in walking quickly around the house or clean your entire room at three in the morning
Canât keep routines for the life of you, itâs either already implanted in your daily life or will never happen again (attempting meditation in the morning or working out)
Getting too excited and stimming by clapping a lot or slapping somebody, normally a sibling. Usually paired with squealing or laughing very very loudly
Somebody saying to âbe quietâ and feeling like youâre the worst person to ever exist then shutting up for the rest of the evening
Being completely overwhelmed and your brain completely shutting down, sending you to your happy place to actively avoid the problem you need to solve
Either not being hungry all day or starving because youâre hyper focusing on the fact you havenât eaten in hours
Migraines from not drinking enough water then chugging to much when you remember
Hobbies involving hyper focusing and purchasing hundreds of dollars worth of stuff for it, just to get bored and let the stuff sit in the back of your closet
NAMES AND FACES! Being awful at matching names and faces then feeling completely awful about it when you forget their name!!!
When something breaks your routine, thatâs it. Youâre done for the day and youâre completely useless and refuse to do anything else
im so afraid that its not going to get better than this
âI loved you, always.â
going to comment a little on this game: the overseeing voice talks as if it owns you, and defies your free will. if you follow its orders, you are praised, and the worldview becomes sharper and more detailed. if you donât, you are chastised, and the world becomes more vague and difficult to navigate, but also more colourful and loud. itâs odd, and sort of eerie, but definitely interesting. take it as you will.
This game really unsettles me. It unsttles me that my first choice to obey, and when I played again and disobeyed, I got really emotional really fast. Failure hurt me more the more I disobeyed. It was⌠interesting to experience.
iâve always said we are trained to obey more than to think.
holy shit. i reblogged this the first time without playing. then i played in and it is terrifying. i very much like this, but it will give you intense feelings.Â
Whatâs the game??
you obey everything the game tells you too, even jumping into barbs and basically killing yourself. if you dont youre chastised and even the scolding is terrifying
So, essentially, itâs a game that illustrates what itâs like to be in an abusive parents or an abusive relationship - and how it affects you emotionally. That is horrific and ingenious - the next time someone negates the affects of emotional abuse, Iâll take them to this game and let them come to their own conclusions.
This game absolutely gets it. The most solid and reliable degradation is a gendered insult. The more you obey and co-operate, the better understanding you seem to have of your word, and things seem easier. But what really gets me is the contradiction. You are not allowed to have the correct answer. Are you a boy or a girl? The answer is no, I will give you the answer. even towards the end, your âpraiseâ is âno, I will give you the answer. You earned this answer, but it is given to you by me.â Disobeying makes the world frightening and confusing and difficult, but beautiful in a world devoid of flavour.
great that itâs made by a fellow australian too
Reblogging this for later.
If anyone was looking for the name itâs called Loved
itâs march again moodboard
Recognizing Abuse Masterlist
Signs that youâre living in abuse:
Behavioral patterns of living in abuse
Was I abused? Checklist
Not knowing you are a victim
Signs your family is abusive
Making excuses for your abusive parents
Experience of living in secrecy
What they taught you was abuse
Emotional experiences of living in abuse
Shame and guilt: how abused children feel
What makes parents abusers (actions)
Have I been manipulated into believing abuse was my fault? Checklist
Am I being held hostage by abusers? Checklist
You are not allowed to mention the past
Why you still love abusive parents
Parental behaviour that isnât normal
Shit parents arenât supposed to say to you
Experience of ânot belonging anywhereâ
Red flags for abusive parents
Healthy vs Abusive Chores
Was my childhood abusive or just had some bad parts?
Rules always change (unpredictable environment is abusive)
Breakdown of abusive parentâs behaviour:
âThis is my houseâ rule
Start living in the real life!
Why all the children arenât abused equally in an abusive home
Common abuser hypocrisies
Do your parents want you to be happy or look happy?
Why do they try to convince you that youâre worthless
Why do they pretend youâre a burden? Controlling behaviour
Why your abusers are not good people
Abusive parents are keeping you in false hope theyâll change
Are your parents preventing you from succeeding?
Abusive parents pretending âit wasnât that badâ
Double Bind (why every choice you make ends wrong)
Incorporating trauma in raising children
Abusers will not allow you to call them out on abuse
Signs your parents are narcissistic:
Stuff delusional narcissists say
Shit narcissistis parents say
Tactics of narcissistic abuse
Recognizing emotional immaturity of narcissistic parents
Examples of narcissistic behaviours
Being punished for growing up by narcissistic parents
What children of narcissists go thru
Signs youâve been thru sexual abuse:
CSA (Childhood Sexual Abuse) Symptoms
Signs you might have endured CSA
Was I sexually abused by adults as a child? Checklist
Signs of abusive friendship/relationship:
How to tell if a friend is not a friend
Am I in an abusive relationship/friendship? Checklist
Manufacturing insecurities
Red flags for abusers
Have I been thru social abuse? Checklist
You can recognize abusers by how they make you feel
How abusive childhood teaches you to stay in abusive relationships
Recognizing abusive friendship
Signs youâre struggling with trauma
Trauma processing information
Experiences of traumatized children
Signs youâre recovering from long term abuse
Things abuse survivors think/say
Thoughts of victims of child abuse
Your brain on trauma
How long term childhood abuse develops into complex trauma (comic)
Ups and downs of trauma
Abuse isn't always what's shown
Abuse Abuse, Abusive, Abuser; these words have become buzzwords on the modern internet. Why? Why have people put such an extreme definition to the words? Most media portrays abuse as physical violence, yelling, screaming, locking someone in a room, drugging them, starving them, etc. The problem with this is that not all abuse is so blatant. Sometimes abuse is so subtle that even the victim doesn't realize it's abuse. Sometimes they could describe the situation to someone else, and they wouldn't pick up on it either.
Not all abuse is loud Abuse can be silent. A simple phrase, a gesture, a look. Outside of context it can seem like so little. But it could be the last time they said that, they yelled at you for spilling water, or the last time they had that look they hit you. Silent threats that just build anxiety, that aren't even conventional "threats"
Not all abuse is physical Some abuse isn't physical in any way. Psychological abuse is powerful, and can be devastating for the victim. Psychological abuse involves gaslighting, demeaning, yelling, unnecessary punishment, comparing you to people, setting high standards, etc. "But they want you to do well in school!" "They just care about your well being" "They're worried about your health." "They don't want you to lose job opportunities over some diagnoses."
Abuse can come with "I love you" Emotional abuse. Emotional abuse is very common for family, and parents manipulating their children, or relatives. Abusers can be nice to their victims, give them gifts, give compliments, or hug them. But they often come back to use the 'gift' as leverage. "I've given you so much" "Be grateful for all I've done for you." "You're lucky I let you dress the way you want." To those anti social they might say, "We never see you! You should come out of your room more" only to be met with, "Look who's finally arrived!" "It's about time you left your cave" "Why don't you come out in the light every once in a while" "We never see you anymore" These are all phrases used for guilt-tripping. They make the victim feel bad, even if their reason for being "locked up all day" is important, such as school, working from home, or even just taking time to themselves. When parents say, "But I've given you clothes, food, shelter, made sure you can go to school, given you a phone!" "You owe me for everything I've done for you." they're just trying to put a price on your basic needs. These things are simply what it means to have a child. You don't owe your parents anything. They chose to have a child. They chose to give you that special something. You don't owe them for basic necessities, or gifts. "But they're your family" Just, no. Family is who you choose, who you truly love and care about, not those you are bound to by blood. Even adoptive parents can be your 'parents', but not your family. You don't owe your birth givers anything for them deciding to have sex. You also don't owe great aunt Betsy, who's father fought so nobly in a war anything because she sees you every few months on holidays.
Abuse can be, "But I need you" Abusive relationships aren't always romantic. Romantic, sexual, or platonic relationships can be abusive. Friends can be abusive by making you their emotional dumping ground. They rant to you for hours about this guy at work who pissed them off, but as soon as you try and mention how your day went, they get mad at you for making it all about you and changing the subject. Abuse can be that whenever you say they upset you, they lash out and call themselves terrible, a piece of shit human, and "stop pretending you care". You try and help them, and you stay because, "They said they're trying to get better." "They didn't mean to hurt me, they're just depressed" "It's because of their illness, they can't control it" As someone who is clinically depressed, has multiple anxiety disorders, and can be socially inept, I can still apologize. Just because you are ill that doesn't mean you lack critical thinking skills. They either know it's not right, or they think they're entitled to treat you that way. Either way, it is never your fault for being victimized. Something someone told me once stuck with me, "It's not that you attract bad people, it's that bad people try and go for everyone, but your door was open." That isn't to say you invited them to abuse you. Nor is it to say it's your fault. You were vulnerable, and they preyed on that vulnerability. It's like how a robber will try every door on a neighborhood street, but the one that was unlocked gets broken into. It's not that person's fault they got robbed, and it's not the victim's fault they were abused.
Abuse can be, "You deserved it." Physical abuse. Spanking a child as punishment, taking away their favorite toy, locking them in their room, or unnecessarily forcing them out of their schedule. Enforcing a strict time to go to sleep. Even if you're being quiet, reading a book, drawing, playing a game, you did nothing to disturb your parents at all, but suddenly they're stomping down the hall to yell at you "for being awake at this hour". Having a strict time to go to bed and wake up regardless of your circumstances is just a way for them to exert control, and have some kind of power to hold over you.
Abuse can be, "Crying doesn't help." Encouraging and glorifying emotional suppression. A child with anxiety will be told to "get over it" or "calm down". Someone who was injured is told, "crying won't make the pain stop" "Stop crying" "Be quiet already" "It wasn't that bad, quit being a baby" Abusers often take advantage of people with mental disorders like anxiety and depression. Parents might tell a depressed child, "If only you would try harder" "I know you can do better than a C" "Stop being lazy" "You can't use your depression as an excuse" "Quit being a couch potato and do your work" Parents might tell a child with anxiety or ADHD, "Just do your work, it's not that hard." "Stop procrastinating" "Just turn in your work" "Stop fidgeting" "You don't need to do [X] thing every day" General emotional neglect, and ignoring your mental well being, instead prioritizing school, and grades above all else.
Abuse can be, "You need me" Emotional manipulation, telling the victim that they need the abusive person to be successful, or live comfortably, etc. Sometimes this involves making the victim reliant on the abuser in some way. It could be by restricting their money, removing their support system, isolating them from their family and friends, and leaving them nowhere to go.
Abuse isn't pretty, and it isn't all one thing. This list doesn't come close to covering everything. I guess in summary, please listen to people who are victims of abuse. If someone thinks they're being abused, listen to them. If you think you're being treated unfairly, reach out to someone.
I hope you are all doing well, and please take care of yourselves out there.
maybe iâm just projecting but i think thereâs an inherent loneliness in living with a severe mental illness that makes you feel permanently estranged from others and long for the kind of connection where you feel completely understood and accepted, all while knowing other people have their own stuff to deal with or are just not equipped to ride out the worst of the illness with you. this leads to downplaying and/or hiding your symptoms as best you can, which takes even more of a psychological toll on you. this leads to not feeling loved as a complete person, and maybe not recognizing that love when it is present, or always fearing the day people have had enough and leave. even more so if this has already happened to you. itâs so exhausting and sad
Executive Dysfunction Tip: Stop in the Middle!
So you just finished a chapter of your work in progress. Congrats! Seems like a good place to stop, right?Â
But wait! Before you go take that much-needed break, do this: Write three sentences of the next chapter. Thatâs it. Three sentences. Now youâre done.
It will be much, much easier for you to come back to it when you feel like youâre already in the middle. You just got rid of the most difficult part of doing anything: Starting.
This also works for:
crafts! go sew a few stitches of that next seam before taking a break.
art! go shade in a bit of that next section before you stop.
homework! go do five minutes of that next subject first.
pretty much everything!
Happy productivity!
what good advice! Canât believe I havenât thought of this before
how do I get people to believe something's wrong
Friendly reminder that none of these things define you and shouldnât matter
no i dont have âself-controlâ or âshameâ stop making words up
Friendly reminder that 1200 calories is the recommended amount for a 5 year old
this hit me.
another fact is that 500 calories isnât even enough for a new born.
why did I go so long convinced that going over 500 in a day was the end of the world?
Another friendly reminder that the United States used 1,000 calorie diets as torture for political prisoners and justified it using the diet industry.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2009/04/17/bush-torture-memos-commer_n_188190.html
In a footnote to a May 10, 2005, memorandum from the Office of Legal Council, the Bush attorney generalâs office argued that restricting the caloric intake of terrorist suspects to 1000 calories a day was medically safe because people in the United States were dieting along those lines voluntarily.
âWhile detainees subject to dietary manipulation are obviously situated differently from individuals who voluntarily engage in commercial weight-loss programs, we note that widely available commercial weight-loss programs in the United States employ diets of 1000 kcal/day for sustain periods of weeks or longer without requiring medical supervision,â read the footnote. âWhile we do not equate commercial weight loss programs and this interrogation technique, the fact that these calorie levels are used in the weight-loss programs, in our view, is instructive in evaluating the medical safety of the interrogation technique.â
Another another friendly reminder that the Minnesota Starvation Experiment subjected adult men who were VOLUNTEERS to 1,560 calorie diets and the psychological effects were so profound that one volunteer cut three of his own fingers off and could not remember why.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Minnesota_Starvation_Experiment
These men were volunteers who knew exactly what they would be going through and when it would end, and who believed they were doing it for a good and moral reason (the research was used to help rehabilitate victims of starvation and famine at the end of WWII).
And these are the things we are expected to engage in FOREVER to stay at a âhealthyâ weight.
Reading about the Minnesota Starvation experiment was my wake-up call. Â It was what kicked me out of my eating disorder. Â The guy missing three fingers, whatever his name was, he was the last straw for me.
Scared me so fucking bad I stopped restricting my food that day, and never went back to it.
Just bringinâ this back around like I sometimes do.
Wow. This really hit me hard.
EAT
Fun factâ calorie restriction exacerbates symptoms of pretty much *every* mental illness.
Anorexia has ~16% mortality rate, slightly higher than acted upon suicidal ideation. Itâs more lethal than actively trying to kill oneself and this is why.
I am unable to describe exactly what is the matter with me; now and then there are horrible fits of anxiety, apparently without cause, or otherwise a feeling of emptiness and fatigue in the head.
â Vincent van Gogh, in a letter to his sister
