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currently reading: the secret history (for the fourth time. #grace) 20

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francis vs bunny

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today i opened the 1st edition, 3rd printing from 1992. shipped from concord, near boston

it was basically francis who shipped it atp

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my mother, ladies and gentlemen

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my mom finished reading TSH last night and today she called me and said "now what" girl same idk

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update: she texted me at 4am saying that she started it again. mom you're so me

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how i always pictured camilla, personally

[parakeet]

this gif is fucking me up. stop. stop. youre squorshing her and shes Just a Baby

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What I did experience when alone was a sort of general neurotic horror, a common attack of nerves and self-loathing magnified to the power of ten. Every cruel or fatuous thing I'd ever said came back to me with an amplified clarity, no matter how I talked to myself or jerked my head to shake the thoughts away: old insults and guilts and embarrassments stretching clear back to childhood - the crippled boy I'd made fun of, the Easter chick I'd squeezed to death - paraded before me one by one, in vivid and mordant splendor.

The Secret History, page 356

[chemerges]

Oh, I could throw you in the lake Or feed you poisoned birthday cake I won't deny I'm gonna miss you when you're gone Oh, I could bury you alive But you might crawl out with a knife And kill me when I'm sleeping

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OH MY GOSHHH

[thatsnstwdude]

Richard as a child pulling the legs of insects, Richard as a kid picking at rode kill with a stick, him as a child stomping at ant kills with old shoes. Richard in elementary wondering why the other children where disturbed by him. Wondering why his peers took his quietness as not shyness but judgement.

Unsettling and disturbed Richard Papen how I love you.

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who'd you go with in tsh

im not sure what this means but cloke rayburn lowkey

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my mom finished reading TSH last night and today she called me and said "now what" girl same idk

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“and remember everything’s gonna be okay” who gon tell him…

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10th of april

[dramaticwriter]

richard: ah, yes, gay people. see, i am myself not gay. i have no inclanation at all towards men like that. i do not have an issue with gay people, would be quite hypocritical of me if i did but i am not at all gay. not in the slightest bit. in fact, i am very attracted to women. i am utterly and irrevocably in love with camilla who i do not know anything about other than the fact that she has beautiful masculine legs and a masculine haircut and wears her quite charming brother, charles's clothes. charles is rather handsome too. i have once or twice fantasized about camilla and charles but that is normal and it is of course only happened because i am attracted and in love with camilla. and while yes, i have kissed a man before but it only happened because he kissed me and i kissed back on reflex. i did not want to kiss back as i am not attracted to francis, though he is a very attractive gay man. of course, i know he's gay, i've always known. it is easy to tell, since i am acquainted with homosexuality, though not too closely as i am not gay. i have only kissed francis because i am used to women kissing me first and those times, i would kiss back so i merely had the same reaction. it was the first time a man kissed me after all, and i was quite caught off guard. besides, it was quite a stressful time in my life so even if that kiss lasted longer than it reasonably should have, that only happened because i was glad to use any distraction i could get. there were no feelings involved as i am not gay and i do not have feelings of those sorts for francis. if i was gay, which i am not, i would most likely be in love with henry, truthfully. i admire henry greatly. he is a handsome and great man who i feel very fondly for though of course, i am not in love with him because i am not gay. the one i am in love with is camilla, evem if i am fond of all the members of the greek class. except bunny who is ugly and annoying and i'm glad he's dead. anyway, i am not gay

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modern day henry winter would hate all sorts of social media and bunny would have a horrible addiction to it.

in fact, i doubt henry would even have a smart phone. i imagine bunny printing out memes he found funny and showing them to henry

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i think this is so real because bunny is said to play john philip sousa marches at full volume in the middle of the night

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i think 2026 is fantastic because this year, valentine's day fell on the second saturday of february, which was the day to honour aphrodite. 26th of gamelion (Γαμηλιών), attic calendar

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modern day henry winter would hate all sorts of social media and bunny would have a horrible addiction to it.

in fact, i doubt henry would even have a smart phone. i imagine bunny printing out memes he found funny and showing them to henry

[spookedstarzz]

something about the name 'camilla' being derived from the latin 'camillus' meaning a youth who attends to rituals and 'incest' being derived from the latin 'incestus' meaning ritually unclean