Handwritten Letters To Myself

Abby. 26. Coffee. Laughter. Extra sass. RGV.

[apoemaday]

The Poetics of Desire

by Rina Singh

Throw away your papers tonight put aside your pen let your fingers write on my body, an empty page a word, a sentence, write a poem if your syntax hurts my skin if I sigh, if I moan just tighten your embrace if your fingers stammer dip them in darkness and start again fill up my margins suffocate me with your grammar proofread the madness you have created erase with your lips any mistakes your fingers make read to me what you have written see the pages of my life come alive in your fingers tonight

[literature-and-caffeine]

Does the nightlight flirt with you too?

Or does it shimmer only for me?

Do you feel the euphoria?

The surrealness of it all,

How the stars look like glitter

Scattered across the sky.

Does it make everyone's problems go away

Or just mine?

It makes you feel small

But in the best way possible

I wish I could bottle this feeling,

And save it up for later.

For when the sun rises,

It brings all my troubles in tow.

And then, the nightlight,

Is all I long for.

[thejournalofveronica]

I want to disappear.

Nobody ever gets that

They tell me

to shut off my cellphone

They tell me to run off

To a quiet place.

They tell me

To quit talking to others

And pretend I wasn't there,

Only temporarily of course.

But what then,

What happens next day

When the load multiplies

When the things I have to do

Cannot be ignored anymore

What happens

When my life is damaged

Or when people ask for me

What happens if I

Know

I have things to do

I wouldn't be happy

If I disappeared this way.

I want to seize existing

For a day

Like I was never there

Nothing on me

Nothing to do

Nothing to feel

Nobody to miss

Or be missed by.

I don't hate life

I really don't.

I just want a break

From living.

And I constantly try

To forget that.

24/3/2022

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[worshipgifs]

[compulsive]

[understands]

[teaboot]

Gonna have a heck of a time overcoming the Pavlovian rage response to seeing a fully exposed human face

[luxet]

Unusual Asks

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? 

is your room messy or clean?

what color are your eyes?

do you like your name? why?

what is your relationship status? 

describe your personality in 3 words or less

what color hair do you have?

what kind of car do you drive? color?

where do you shop?

how would you describe your style?

favorite social media account

what size bed do you have? 

any siblings?

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?

favorite snapchat filter? 

favorite makeup brand(s)

how many times a week do you shower?

favorite tv show?

shoe size?

how tall are you?

sandals or sneakers? 

do you go to the gym? 

describe your dream date

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?

what color socks are you wearing? 

how many pillows do you sleep with?

do you have a job? what do you do? 

how many friends do you have? 

whats the worst thing you have ever done? 

whats your favorite candle scent? 

3 favorite boy names

3 favorite girl names

favorite actor? 

favorite actress? 

who is your celebrity crush?

favorite movie? 

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? 

money or brains? 

do you have a nickname? what is it? 

how many times have you been to the hospital?

top 10 favorite songs

do you take any medications daily? 

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)

what is your biggest fear? 

how many kids do you want? 

whats your go to hair style?

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) 

who is your role model? 

what was the last compliment you received?

what was the last text you sent?

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?

what is your dream car? 

opinion on smoking?

do you go to college? 

what is your dream job? 

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? 

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? 

do you have freckles? 

do you smile for pictures?

how many pictures do you have on your phone? 

have you ever peed in the woods? 

do you still watch cartoons? 

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?

Favorite dipping sauce? 

what do you wear to bed? 

have you ever won a spelling bee?

 what are your hobbies?

can you draw? 

do you play an instrument?

what was the last concert you saw? 

tea or coffee?

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?

do you want to get married?

what is your crush’s first and last initial?

are you going to change your last name when you get married? 

what color looks best on you? 

do you miss anyone right now? 

do you sleep with your door open or closed?

do you believe in ghosts?

what is your biggest pet peeve? 

last person you called`

favorite ice cream flavor? 

regular oreos or golden oreos? 

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? 

what shirt are you wearing? 

what is your phone background?

are you outgoing or shy?

do you like it when people play with your hair?

do you like your neighbors? 

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?

have you ever been high? 

have you ever been drunk? 

last thing you ate? 

favorite lyrics right now

summer or winter? 

day or night? 

dark, milk, or white chocolate? 

favorite month? 

what is your zodiac sign

 who was the last person you cried in front of? 

[artandchocolate]

“Letters from Medea”- Salma Deera

[thoughtkick]

“We are all a people in need. We are not perfect. We are not machines. We make mistakes. We need grace. We need compassion. We need help at times. We need other people. And that’s okay.”

— Jamie Tworkowski

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[healingmyheart]

Good to see you doing well. Always had a sort spot for you

Oh? I’m so sorry I’m just seeing this now, but whoever you are, I hope you’re doing well too! And I’m always here if you’d like to talk ☺️

[cowpokeprose]

Maybe I didn’t come to love skipping and dancing and running all out. Maybe I came to love slowly and cautiously and limping from my previous injuries. Maybe I came to love with difficulty and effort. Love isn’t always a fall. Sometimes it’s a climb. I didn’t gain your trust in an instant and I didn’t lose my inhibitions in your eyes. Instead you put out your hand and I took it, walking slowly and taking our time, getting to know each other and getting comfortable with the pressure of one hand in another. I’m happy the stroll towards love. Aren’t you?

[thebookquotes]

Being brave doesn't mean you aren't scared. Being brave means you are scared, really scared, badly scared, and you do the right thing anyway.

— Neil Gaiman, Coraline

[iwriteinblues]

So tell me, oh foolish one do I cross your mind  when you sink your head into the pillow? Do you stare at the ceiling, with tears in your eyes and long for me to be your bedfellow?

If you do, call me. I’m here, waiting for you I will always be here, waiting for you. That’s all I ever do

There is something truly remarkable, so enigmatic and absurd. For you would think a heart would learn  after all of the ocean of pain endured.

Because there is just something  so wickedly good about you. And I know our days together are over but I still throw stones at the universe  asking what wrong did I ever do.

It was heaven with the angels to be loved and adored and listened to. I was grateful for that, before he ever even knew that he had fallen for someone  who had started his life anew. 

This hurt inside of me is uncontainable. I think I may burst and disperse into nothing.  To hold myself until I could feel something.

[qvotable]

“Maybe I’ll see you in another life, if this one wasn’t enough.”

— Florence + the Machine // How Big, How Blue, How Beautiful

[tkkatherineblog]

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