Heart of the Matter

"Not everything that counts can be measured. Not everything that can be measured counts." - Einstein "We're not enemies, we just disagree" - The Strokes Kaye, 25, Tragic Winchesters SPN fan since the pilot, multifandom girl but this is my new personal SPN tumblr. Yes, I am also head organizer of SPN Silent Majority. If you have a problem with that, that's your choice. The internet is a big place, block/unfollow however you want. Just don't try arguing with me about expressing an opinion or helping others express theirs in a respectful manner. I like living a wankfree life.

[jarpad]

[gisbourne]

I’m good

[iamsupernaturalsbitch]

“I believe in you, Dean. So please, please believe in me  too.”

[iamsupernaturalsbitch]

They will always choose each other.

[lovelyembers]

I see light at the end of this tunnel.  And I’m sorry you don’t.  I am.  But it’s there.  And if you come with me…I can take you to it.

[wincastiel-deactivated20130410]

We’re supposed to be a team. 

[whiskyandoldspice]

i know everyone’s focusing on the “you can’t trust me you can only trust you”

but that “i’m done if you’re done” language that’s their entire fucking relationship 

if you’re done fighting with me i’m done fighting with you

if you’re done trusting me i’m done trusting you

if you’re done living i’m done living

[tharenia-deactivated20130821]

“Closing the gates. It’s a suicide mission for you. I want to slam hell shut too, okay? But I want to survive it. I want to live. And so should you. You have friends up here, family. Hell you’ve even got your own room now. You were right, ‘kay. I see light at the end of this tunnel and I’m sorry you don’t. I am. But it’s there. And if you come with me, I can take you to it.”

[bangingpatchouli]

trust and belief

[murakawatoru]

the family business…

[nyxocity]

#burning corpses drinkin booze (via samspurpletoothbrush)

[sopranish]

It’s a suicide mission for you. But I want to survive it. And you should too. You have friends here, family… You even have your own room… I see the light at the end of the tunnel and I’ll take you there… You’re not a grunt you’re a genius… You’re the best hunter I’ve ever seen- better than me, better than Dad… I believe in you, Dean. So please, believe in me too.

Sam, breaking the fandom’s hearts and Dean’s. (via sopranish)

[ashdoode]

“I need you to be safe, Sam. Okay? That’s what I need.”

I find it truly beautiful that the one thing Dean needs in his “unimportant little life” is Sam — safe and happy and away from danger.

That the other 10% of his “90% crap” self is made up entirely of Sam.  

Sam. Sam. Sammy. His Sam.

He needs Sam to realize that there’s more to life than hunting, than demons, than Dean.

But what he doesn’t get is that Sam doesn’t want to be safe.  He doesn’t want to get out, to have a life, become a man of letters — -

He doesn’t get that when Sam says he sees a light at the end of the tunnel — it isn’t with a wife, and kids, and grand-kids, living ‘til he’s fat and bald and chugging viagra —

What he sees is Dean.

Him and Dean.

Together.

Living.

Or Dying. 

Together.

Because as we’ve seen countless times over — our boys are never trulyhappy without the other one right there by their side.

[kieselguhrkid]

“You made these?”

[whiskyandoldspice]

Now eat your dinner.

[iamsupernaturalsbitch]

Dean always willing to sacrifice his life for Sam’s. And Sam always trying to show Dean he has a reason to live.

[nyxocity]

Trial and Error aka the episode where someone on the creative team finally found “The Guide to Sam Winchester Characterization” lying around and went, “OH”

[heartofthemttr-blog]

Snarky. But true. Look at that, 713 people agree and it's not even 12 hours after the episode aired yet.

[risti7]

As much as this episode showed the craving Dean has for stability in his own life - how much he wants to take care of someone in a way that doesn’t involve killing monsters - it also shows something else.

Dean wants Sam to live out HIS dream of ‘normalcy’ and I can’t help but feel like maybe - just maybe - he sees the Batcave as a way to give Sam that. Because he almost lost Sam, and he doesn’t want to do that again, which means that he has to try to give Sam all those things he went out looking for. 

And if that means learning to love salad, then fine. Dean Winchester can learn to love salad. (But also, Dean really does love taking care of people.)

And yes, this is heartbreaking. Because it’s one thing to want to make someone else happy, but Dean doesn’t believe he’ll ever find any of that happiness on his own. 

Sam, meanwhile… Sam wants Dean to be happy too. He just doesn’t know how to make that happen.

(Which is why the conversations that happened in this episode were needed and yes, overdue for both Sam and Dean’s sake.)

[heartofthemttr-blog]

Very smart read on Dean post 810.

[morevnasmarya-deactivated201701]

Oh my god, I have been waiting for this episode since fucking season 5.

One of my favorite episodes, if not my absolute favorite, is Point of No Return, mostly because of the conversation Sam and Dean have in the car at the end. Dean finally puts his faith in Sam and says he’s going to start treating Sam like an adult and an equal instead of a child he has to take care of.

But, everyone seemed to forget that in S6, and between soullessness, the wall in his head, and the Lucifer hallucinates, it would have been hard if not impossible for Dean to keep good on the promise he made in the end of S5. Basically, the writers ruined that with two straight years of Sam-whumping.

But now, Sam took charge. Sam saved Dean. Sam told Dean to believe in him and Dean is. It’s beautiful and it’s everything I’ve been wanting from the show and never thought they’d deliver.

I’m just so happy, you guys.

[littlehollyleaf]

[heartofthemttr-blog]

dustydreamsanddirtyscars said: Glad you are so positive about the episode. :) Wish I could say the same thing. But actually, and that’s rare because I usually agree a lot with you :) I don’t see any of it as positive. For me personally the whole episode 10 steps back in the wrong...

Oh no, I’m so sorry! That’s really not how I see it at all. For me this is the first step FORWARD the boys have made in AGES. 

In a sense it’s going back, because it’s taken the boys back to the point where Sam was the one fighting Lucifer, while Dean had to let him go, had to let his little brother grow up and be a man and stand on his own. But since S06-7 sort of took the boys BACK from that, putting Dean back in his caretaking role when it came to Sam and having Sam dependent on Dean again, that’s still a step forward, it’s just going back to the forward position they’d already reached… ha, if that makes sense? :p

And it’s BETTER than when Sam was standing against Lucifer, because that was a suicide mission for Sam and everyone knew it. And Dean sort of saw it as a suicide mission for him as well, he went to the battlefield planning on going out with his brother. But this time Sam is fighting to LIVE and he’s fighting for Dean to LIVE and in doing so it’s going to show Dean how to embrace being alive and be independent and fight to claw out his own corner of the world (which he’s already started doing with his room).