Hello happy Tamlin week!!!!!
I procrastinated this fic so much that I only finished it today so please excuse any mistakes because there are definitely some in here. Also I finished 2 drawings and will be posting them on their respective days but idk if I will be able to finish anything else so sorry Tamlin nation I have failed you my loves šš©
Anyway please enjoy this poopoo quality fic and Iām sending virtual hugs and kisses to anyone who actually finished all the prompts, you are clearly way cooler, sexier and better at planning than me š
Tamlin knew every leaf and every sapling in the Spring Court. He could feel the wind every time it rustled a shrub, taste every wave of water as it crashed against the rocks of babbling streams. He was the Spring Court, and so he felt Erisā polished boots burning into his soil, felt the daisies dying under his careless steps.
Tamlin prowled closer to investigate, still in his beast form with blood matting his mane from the game of his hunt. He found Eris scowling at a thorny branch that had got caught on his pristine tailcoat. He must have heard Tamlinās heavy paws thudding against the ground because he quickly yanked himself free and straightened his posture. The disgruntled arch of his brows remained as they locked eyes and Eris took in Tamlinās monstrous form.
Eris tutted. āStill as untamed as ever, I see.ā
Tamlin leaned closer in reply, quietly prideful that Eris flinched, even if it was just for a split second. He grunted, making a strand of Eris auburn hair fall out of place.
āWhat, donāt tell me youāre here to tame me?ā When Eris didnāt so much as laugh, he grumbled, āwhy are you here?ā
Eris tucked the wayward strand of hair behind his pointed ear. āIām the heir of the Autumn Court. Can I not visit my ally?ā
āAs the heir of the Autumn Court you should know that you shouldnāt cross a courtās boarderās without an invitation. Ally or not. And Iām not convinced we are allies.ā
Eris didnāt even have the decency to pretend to be disappointed. āArenāt we?ā
āNo, not when you insist on getting cozy with the Night Court.ā Tamlin shook his head, not able to hide how he was disappointed. He had always begrudgingly admired Eris. His father could never resist pointing Eris out at every gatheringā not that he needed to, even in his youth Eris carried himself well and dressed even better, with eyes that seemed to pierce Tamlin to the ground he stood on and a laugh so wicked Tamlin found himself praying for salvation. Eris was the pinnacle of what a High Lord wanted in a son, where Tamlin was⦠to put it politely, terribly lacking in nearly every aspect. So to think of Eris making deals with the Night Court was unbelievable. Nearly. āI suppose your father really was right about cock from the Night Court being persuasive.ā Tamlinās chuckle was too weak to convince either of them that he found any amusement in the jibe. āJust get off my land. I donāt want anymore Vanserra blood on my hands.ā With a flick of his tail he began to stomp off, only to find Eris striding beside him.
āIt really isnāt,ā Eris said, staring straight ahead as they approached the crumbling walls of the manor. āI wouldnāt expect you to understand my motivations but just know that Iām not doing this naively. I have a plan.ā
Erisā eyes flickered to Tamlinās. āUnlike some.ā
āIf that is what you choose to believe of me.ā Tamlin didnāt have energy to argue anymore. People thought he was a lot of things these days. There was a time when he cared but that time had passed, like all things do.
āAre you saying Iām wrong?ā
Tamlin sighed as he came to a halt at the manorās vine tangled doors. āIām saying Iām tired. Goodbye Eris.ā When Eris refused to move, only stare him down with a frown, Tamlin added, āYou donāt need to keep checking in on me. Iām fine. Whatever responsibility you feel you have to me, feel free to forget about it.ā
āIād hardly call it responsibility. More like pity.ā
āI can reject you, would that make it easier?ā Tamlin didnāt mean for his words to have as much venom as they did. He steeled himself for a fiery comeback.
āFor you it might. I suppose you and all of Prythian would love to see me driven to insanity.ā He ground out, his cheeks hearing with rage. Without warning Eris tugged at the bond, making Tamlin quiver so much he shifted out of his beast form. Erisā eyes slipped down Tamlinās naked form, his grip on the bond burning hot.
āYou know thatās not what I want.ā Tamlin tried not to melt under Erisā gaze, tried to ignore the way his skin prickled as Erisā grip on the bond became almost tender as he stepped closer.
āNothing. Iāve never wanted anything from you. Iām sorry that you were unfortunate enough to be tied to me, all because that damned cauldron sees me as a female, just because I have the capability to shift into one. I want you to just pretend this thing between us isnāt there. I want you to be as happy as your cold heart is capable of and Iāll try the same.ā Before Eris could utter a word Tamlin pushed open the door. Inside servants and members of the court bustled about. Plant life spilled out from every crack of stone. Paintings and fine pottery lined the walkways and there wasnāt a single blemish on any chair or cushion. Every sentry was in their place and all bowed politely at their High Lord. The manor was perfect, at least in Tamlinās eyes and he learnt over time that that was all that mattered.
āWhat, were you expecting me to live in a shithole?ā
āWell⦠yes. All anyone has been talking about is how run down your court is.ā Eris brushed his thumb over a red rose that clung to the wall. āWhen did you do all this?ā
Tamlin shrugged. āA while. And as far as anyone else is aware my court is still in ruins. Iāve put up a veil so to outsiders it seems as if Iām living with nothing but rubble and dust. I couldnāt risk another attack. I figured if everyone still believed Iād succumbed to defeat theyād leave me and my people alone. So far weāve remained unbothered so it seems to working.ā
Eris blinked back at Tamlin in disbelief. āHowā how did you even find the strength to do it?ā
Tamlin paused for a while before answering, āI suppose I just forgave myself, which maybe I donāt deserve, but I canāt undo all Iāve done. All I can do is try my best to take care of my people and my court. Iāve decided that Iām just going to try and move on. Iāve made mistakes and maybe Iām a monster but this monster has a court to oversee and people who depend on me.ā
Eris forced himself to turn away. āHow noble.ā Was all he could muster. Eris refused to look Tamlin in the eye and Tamlin was much the same, too afraid in case he might see something of himself in there.
āIt would do you good to try the same. I wonāt pretend to know all your secret and misdeeds, but I do think youāve suffered enough. Try forgiving yourself, just for something small every day and then work your way up to the big stuff. It sounds ridiculous but it helps. Itās freeing.ā
Erisā expression hardened, his lips curling into a snarl. āItās just that easy, huh? Well I hope you can forgive me for being blunt but I really donāt think Iāll be taking life lessons from you while youāve still got your whole ass out in front of your court.ā Eris crossed his arms and began to storm off. āI only came here to tell you to stop purring in your sleep, I can hear it in my dreams. Our bond is quite vocal, it seems.ā He barked over his shoulder before disappearing out of sight.
Tamlin rubbed his temples. The maddening smell of burnt cedar and cinnamon still lingering in the space Eris left behind.
He hated how he lied to Eris. The truth was he still hadnāt forgiven himself for one thing, and likely never would. How could he ever forgive himself for cruelly burdening Eris with their mating bond? It was the cauldron that decided it but he was the only one responsible for not being what Eris needed.