Soon hopefully !! I've been so stressed with my thesis paper I haven't really been able to get as many ideas as I want nor work on it as much as I planned I'm sorry 😭😭
i like all your writting so much!! i'm gonna be patienly waiting TTT part 3 because i got so excited when i read that y/n is going to sleep with vernon <3
AAAAAAAHHH YOU’RE NOT THINKING ABOUT ‘THAT’ KINDA SLEEP RITE !?!?!??!!?? not that I’m shaming you or anything, I just suck at writing R-rated content lol
But thank you for supporting me, it really means a lot !!
petals is really good i’m excited to see where u take the story!! if u do a taglist for future parts could i get added to it?
That’s so sweet of you to say !! honestly, I was thinking about opening a taglist, but idk if anyone would be interested tbh and that kinda diminished my confidence a bit lol but I guess if there are 5 more people who’d want to be added to the taglist, I’ll do it.
Warning : mentions of cheating, side piece, yoon jeonghan being a selfish ass, joshua wanting to break one of the commandments, jeonghan being shunned.
a/n : sorry that this took like 300 years to finish (this chapter, it ain't done until I said so), but like I wanna change the plot every 5 minutes and it's not even for the sake of cleaning Jeonghan's image in this story but just to push (Y/N) deeper into the pits of despair lmaoooo I think I might be a puddle of murky water in my previous life because I love angst. Throw me any good, happy plot and I can easily turn it to angst.
Petals (part 1) | (part 2)
You ended up listening to Mingyu and stayed in his ridiculously lavish penthouse. It has been almost 3 weeks since you started staying there.
Between your morning sickness due to pregnancy and your hanahaki symptoms, you find it really hard to do anything else. Really makes you want to thank Mingyu for technically firing you. The technicality is that the paper he shreded wasn't even your contract, that was just some random paper he grabbed to make a dramatic point. He really did hoped the paper wasn't an important document though.
Mingyu told people in the office that you're working from home because you broke your legs in a freak accident. He knew you'd fight tooth and nail for your job or for any job at all because you told him so yourself. Which is why he reluctantly let you keep working just as long as you don't leave his place and keep up with both of your doctor's appointment.
Him, Chan, and Seungkwan had also been a Godsend. They really have been doing a lot for you ever since you decided you want to keep the baby. The two coming to Mingyu's almost every day to help keep an eye and take care of you whilst working, bringing their work with them. When they didn't come, it's because there are pressing matters at the office and if it wasn't really urgent, they would opt-out.
"(Y/N)! Time for your pre-natals!" Seungkwan yelled out from the living room, soon jogging into your room with a glass of water and a small purse Chan had gotten you to put all your medicine in.
They've been trying to make the best out of your misfortune. From accompanying you to your appointments to scrolling through pinterest for baby room ideas.
You had begun showing, your bump is cute and tiny enough for you to feel proud of but still makes you worried as heck.
You look up from your work and look at the pills in Seungkwan's hand, "ugh, must I?" You groaned, face scrunching because you know one of them has a distinct, disgusting aftertaste.
Seungkwan rolled his eyes, "yes, of course, if you want a healthy baby," he shoved the pills into your hand, "you have to take the pills"
What he said made you snickered, "had I been on the pill, I wouldn't have to make a choice whether or not I want a healthy baby" you said before you gulped down the pill with the water Seungkwan had gotten you.
At your snarky remark, he bent down to the level of your tummy and spoke in a calm voice, "little baby, this is why you should be thankful you have uncle Seungkwan on your side, because your mommy is an ungrateful meanie."
You smacked his shoulder lightly but laughed.
You kinda liked how he addressed himself to your bump though. 'Uncle Seungkwan', suits him a lot.
Suddenly your phone buzzed, indicating a new text message had come into your kakaotalk. You look down and grimaced at the name that popped up.
"Who is it?" Seungkwan asked, "that bastard Jeonghan?"
"No," you sighed, "it's Joshua... He's been trying to get me to meet up with him since we haven't really seen each other in the last couple of months"
You really do miss hanging out with Joshua, he's one of your closest friend. But meeting him might mean that you might be seeing Jeonghan and you don't want to meet him yet.
Neither of them need to know your situation.
The pregnancy or your life-threatening disease.
You don't exactly know which one's worse at this point.
As if on cue, you felt something bubbling up in your throat and that can only mean one thing. You immediately reach to the trash bin by the side of your bed and threw up blood and flower petals, coughing like crazy afterwards.
Only this time, it wasn't just flower petals. Some had formed into full blooms.
"Shit," you cursed, tears brimming on your eyes as you look at them, "they weren't like this yesterday" you whimpered.
Chan and Mingyu came running into your room when they heard you. Worried look on their faces when they saw your tears.
Mingyu immediately came to your side, hugging you tightly as you cried. Chan took the full bin and brought them out to throw the content away. Seungkwan rubbed your arm as he urge you to drink the water he brought you.
"I'm scared," you whimpered out, "The doctors doesn't know the full extent of my disease, whether or not it's hurting my baby and the last thing I want is for me to hurt them" your hand instinctively went to your stomach, rubbing circles gently.
When Chan came back, the three looked at each other worriedly, and not really knowing what to say to you.
Chan broke the silence, "well, being scared could be a good thing, it means you care enough about your baby to be afraid for them" he began threading his fingers through your hair to help calm you down, "but don't let the fear overcome you because the stress is not good for you or the tiny human being you're growing in there"
You know he's right.
Being too worried would do more harm than good, and it wouldn't really change anything.
"You see that baby? You got uncle Chan to help calm your worrywart mom, you got him in your corner" Seungkwan said to your belly, making you laugh a little and shove him by his shoulder.
"Hey, what about me?" Mingyu pouted, "what about uncle Mingyu ?" "Ehhh, I guess you're alright, don't know what you really contribute to the gang but we can think about it" Seungkwan shrugged, making the older guy scoffed, "hey, I contribute A LOT!"
The two began to bicker while Chan just looked at them with disapproving eyes.
Even though they were noisy and tend to make big deals out of nothing, you know that they truly care about you and want nothing but the best for you and your situation.
They aren't related to you whatsoever and you all had became friends just over a year and a half ago. They have no obligation to you whatsoever, but they had shown an incomparable loyalty that made you feel special and loved genuinely.
You weren't alone. You would probably never be anymore because you have them.
Unlike you, though. Your supposed better half did not have anyone on his side.
Jeonghan knew he couldn't really blamed anyone for how things had turned out for him currently.
It's not just the fact that the news of him dating broke widely in his company. But the news of him dating another woman broke widely in his company.
When one of his producer heard the stylists gossiping about a homewrecker among them, she wouldn't have imagined that Jeonghan would be involved. She thought he knew better than to create a bad image for himself. Or his group.
She immediately reported to the director who then investigate about the matter, and finally brought it up to the CEO.
Boy, was he not happy.
When Jeonghan was called to face the CEO and board of directors, he was initially confused because he never had such meeting that involved him in it without his other two members.
But when he saw the girl whom he had been cheating with in the room, he knew what the meeting was all about. And he was terrified. Practically shitting himself.
He got an ear full about how his action could ruin his and his friends' careers in seconds. The CEO also brought up the fact that while he was very much okay about his relationship with you, he was very not okay with his infidelity not in a sense of a professional courtesy but in a moral sense.
If he could remember correctly, the CEO even used the words 'disgusted', 'horrified', and 'utterly against' in the matter pertaining to his action.
As if to make the whole thing worse, the girl next to him just had to cry in front of everyone. It irritates him.
Word got out to everyone else in the company. Among his group of friends, his producer friend, Jihoon was first to hear about it who then ask for confirmation from Soonyoung, the company's in-house choreographer and social butterfly, who was in the same room as Seokmin, a vocal coach, who then proceed to ask for further confirmation from Joshua.
All hell broke loose.
It wasn't hyperbolic to say that glasses were thrown and clothes were forcibly packed that night at the dorm.
Joshua had to be held back by Seungcheol or else he would've probably killed Jeonghan with his own bare hands. He might be a devout Christian as everyone knows, but he's not afraid to break Commandment number 6 because his friend broke Commandment number 7.
Jeonghan thought that Seungcheol had been neutral in the situation but he was dead wrong.
Once Joshua had 'calmed down' a little, retreating to his room to cry for you whilst he tried to contact you, Jeonghan tried to reach out to his friend to thank him for helping him. But Seungcheol smacked his friend's hand away and glared at him.
"I don't know what the fuck went through your head to do such thing to a person like (Y/N), but don't misunderstood my action as a way of helping you, I simply didn't want (Y/N) to have to deal with the police if say Joshua did something to you..." he spat.
Was he saddened with the fact that he couldn't even said his piece to his friends? Of course.
Was he hurt by how people are treating him after the news broke out? Of course.
But could he do anything about it? Probably, but there's a chance whatever he does could blew up on him.
Jeonghan hated how awkward people had become with him.
When he stepped into the recording studio for a session with Jihoon, he couldn't help but notice the younger's scrutinizing gaze and cutthroat attitude towards him. Jihoon used to happily greet Jeonghan when he entered, bantering and joking at nonsense as they work together. But now, he only said what needed to be said and only raised his eyebrows when Jeonghan tried to crack the tension.
Same with dance practice.
Soonyoung used to have fun with him, letting him come in slightly late and be all silly during practice. But everything changed and it kind of scared him. Now he understood why the trainees said that they're terrified of Soonyoung.
He made it his mission to show Jeonghan how much he despised his action. Maybe it was the feminist in him that took over, or maybe it was the fact that he was quite close with you since you often frequent his late night dance practice with Seventeen.
When Jeonghan made a mistake, Soonyoung would throw snarky remarks under his breath. Some, Jeonghan heard. Such as 'I don't know how you got away with cheating when you can't even get a simple choreo right' or 'now I know why cheaters are called slippery' and even 'tired after an hour of dancing but not too tired to commit adultery I guess, wow'.
In all honesty, Jeonghan wanted to yell at Soonyoung to cut him off some slack. Heck, he wanted to tell everyone that, tell them to mind their own business.
But he was already in too deep of a shit.
With how everything goes on, he couldn't even muster up the will to see his other woman. Opting to spend his time trying to reach you. But even that was unsuccessful, you hadn't answer his calls whatsoever ever since you discovered him with another girl on the rooftop, you didn't even open his messages. He wondered whether or not you even acknowledge them.
He tried getting some info from Chan, but the guy only said 'I didn't give you my number so that I could give you intel on (Y/N). Have you made up your mind?'
Jeonghan found himself in the apartment you both supposed to shared. He had nowhere else to go to be honest. He felt like his presence is unwanted in the dorm, he's ostracized in his company which sucks because he used to enjoy going there everyday, and staying at the other woman's apartment just felt downright wrong, not in a moral sense but in a sense that he doesn't want to deal with her right now.
Is he kind of blaming that girl for what's happening to him?
Kind of. Probably.
So he spend his free time mindlessly watching netflix alone. Just putting on a show as a background noise while he wallow in his loneliness.
Well, that was at least what he initially planned before a phone call ruined it. And also his mood.
"No, I can't come tonight" he said, pacing around his living room. "No-no! That's not it, okay? I just don't wanna come!" He sighed, massaging his temple while listening to his other girlfriend whine and complain on the other line.
Is she his other girlfriend ?
Are you still his girlfriend?
Whatever her official title is, he's starting to get tired of her constant yapping about herself. He didn't know how her ability to speak her mind and feelings freely, something he used to be very attracted about, manages to strike seven different nerves in him lately.
"Can you just for once listen and respect to what I need ? Not everything is about you, and if you think long enough, you'd realize that I'm stuck in this position too, I'm stuck being hated on and ostracized by everyone in the company" he barked back.
He stiffened up when he heard the response from the other line.
"This must be because of her, isn't it ? She's FINALLY gone and now you're panicking because you're not used to it"
That definitely pushed his buttons.
Poke his nerve.
Whatever the term is but it's definitely a negative emotion.
"Know what, I think we should take a couple days off to just calm ourselves down, okay? How 'bout that?" He said.
Before the girl on the other line answered him, however, he had already hung up, turned his phone off, and tossed it on the couch without looking back.
Jeonghan put his hands to his face and screamed loud, as loud as he could before dropping to the ground.
He wasn't sure if it was the stress, or the negativity around him, or the sense of impending doom, but he's so done now. He feels done. He's tired of what's happening and he wished he could turn back time to when things were easier.
Not that he knows when exactly that is, but he definitely doesn't like that he's currently living in the now.
If he cried now, would it be pathetic?
Without him realizing, he started to compare her with you. How you would know exactly what to do when he's frustrated or stressed, everything you did seems to make him feel better no matter how severe his circumstances are. Nothing had ever been this severe though so what is he supposed to do now?
His fingers move automatically and before he could fully comprehend what he was doing, he had tapped on the call button on his screen and the sound of the call connecting snap him out of his daze.
He panicked when he fully processed what had happened.
But before he could hang up, the person on the other line had picked up.
"Hey, Mingyu, do you think you could pick up some chocolate at the store? And you left your wallet here so you're gonna have to ask Chan for hi-"
"(Y/N)... Angel..." he choked out.
On the other line, you froze.
You held your phone away from your ears only to see '1004 boyfriend' on the screen instead of Mingyu's contact name.
"shit" you muttered and quickly move to hang up.
Realizing what you're going to do, he yelled, "P-PLEASE! DON'T HANG UP! I NEED TO TALK TO YOU!"
You froze at his loud voice. One side of you want to listen to what he said, another is terrified at what he's going to say, and the other is boiling because how dare he tell you what to do after what he had done.
Instead of choosing what to do, you just kept silent on your line. Slowly putting your phone back to your ear and wait for him to talk, feeling more anxious than anything else.
Thankfully, Jeonghan took this as a sign for him to speak. "U-uh... hi," he started, honestly not knowing what to say. 'Is starting with saying sorry too much of a cliché? What am I even gonna talk about? 'Sorry I have a wandering dick, you deserve better but please forgive me because I don't think I want out of your life'? Do I even need her forgiveness? Shit, I haven't even decided what I want for myself' he thought to himself.
"H-how are you? Have you been good?" Jeonghan winced when the question left his lips, 'great, opening the conversation with stupid questions. Nice going' he scolded himself.
You all but answered him. You were honestly torn, it's not like you didn't want to talk to him but what do you wanna tell him first? That you still love him? That you hate him for what he did to you? That you're hurting and dying? Should you divulge him with the information pertaining his unborn child?
Jeonghan cleared his throat when you didn't answer him whatsoever. Though awkward, he was just glad that you didn't flat out reject to talk to him, that you're still on the line with him for whatever reason that you may have.
He took a deep breath, deciding to just say whatever it is bothering him so that everything would be as sincere as it could.
"I missed you"
Well that wasn't what he expected he'd say.
But already being committed with his own plan, he continued, "I'm sorry you had to find out about her that way, I wanted to be honest with you but I just couldn't bring myself to hurt you like that, but you don't deserve to get lied to either... Can you... See where I'm coming from? The limbo I was in?" He asked, biting his bottom lip in while waiting for you to answer him.
You still didn't answer him though.
Or more like you refused to. hearing how he doesn't wanna hurt you didn't make you feel any better whatsoever. It just made you pissed with the fact that he had actually planned on coming forth to you which would mean that he was actually planning on leaving you for her.
Realizing he could took your silence as an opportunity for him to speak freely, he continued, "Don't take me wrong though, it doesn't mean that I plan on cheating on you, but she had the alternate answer to a problem, a problem that I didn't even realized I had or even know what it was about until recently, that I needed the answer to"
God, you're gonna regret asking this.
"And what would that problem be?"
Jeonghan was surprised that you had answered him, but he quickly took a deep breath before answering you, "My problem is that I've became too comfortable with you, so comfortable that I abused you, your presence, and everything else that you had given me. To say I regret it all would be an understatement- but, please, I want to talk to you, I need to talk to you so we can understand things better and we can decide what to do forward"
You kept saying no in your head, reminding yourself to what he did to you.
But on the other hand, you really do feel like you need to hear him out for whatever reason it may be. Closure? Acceptance? Understanding?
You took your time, considering the pros and cons of meeting him and what might happen if you really do it. The cons seem to outweigh the pros. With your hidden pregnancy and hanahaki disease, do you really want him to find out that you're suffering like this? Does he have the privilege of being back to that intimate level in your life?
One thing you're sure of is that you're not cruel. As much as you want to keep your secrets to yourself and some people around you, your body is no longer yours because of the tiny human being growing inside of you. Doesn't the baby get to have the chance of having a father figure in their life?
"You still have late dance practices on Wednesdays?"
'Shit,' Jeonghan thought.
"I-I never had late dance practices" he muttered which you still heard. That confused you, "What do you mean? You always come home late on Wednesdays and when I asked you, you always... said..." it slowly dawned on you what happened, "Did you reserve that day to spend time with your... Side piece?" you asked lowly.
Jeonghan smack his face with his palm in embarassment. Stupidly nodding and when he realized you couldn't see him, he squeaked out a 'yes'.
And then you hang up.
"Damn it" Jeonghan cursed as he stared at his phone. He was about to throw it to the side when his phone lit and a new notification popped up, indicating a new message came in.
Tomorrow, 7 pm
That cafe across Pledis
Come in late and I swear you won't see me again
Come in with HER and I swear no one will ever see you again.
Although it was basically a threat text, Jeonghan pumped his fists in happiness, he felt giddy for the first time in a while.
On the other side, you were smacking your own face with the pillow from your bed. "God, really? Meeting up with him- are you fucking dumb, (Y/N)?" you muttered to yourself.
Despite knowing it was a bad idea, you couldn't help but feel slightly excited at the thought of meeting him again. Sure, he fucked you over in more ways than one, getting you pregnant and cheating on you? What kind of a telenovela are you living in?
But you couldn't help it when you lift your shirt a bit, exposing your tummy and rubbing it gently, "Do you think I should introduce you to your daddy, baby?" you muttered to yourself, talking as if the baby could answer you, or even understand you for that matter.
Suddenly you heard the front door's keypad going off, meaning that the boys are back. Their voices echoed in the large space of the penthouse, laughter following, and it made you feel at peace.
You drape your legs to the side of your bed and stood up, walking out to join the three who had just gotten back.
Unsurprisingly, they bought a ton of things from the supermarket. Things you all probably don't really need. When Chan joked that Mingyu is the type of person to go to the store for milk and came home with the deed to the city zoo, he wasn't kidding.
"Did you all robbed the supermarket or something?" you asked once you arrived at the counter, peeking into each of the bags to see what the heck did they bought. "We don't need to, we could just buy the supermarket and take what we want" Seungkwan said while putting away the things from his bag which is mostly snacks.
You rolled your eyes but nodded, "right... kinda forgot that you guys are RICH rich"
Chan suddenly halted all his movements and snap his neck to you who were still peeking at the content of the plastic bags sprawled on the countertop. His eyebrows furrowed, indicating that he's thinking hard, analyizing the situation in front of him due to his uneasiness. The light spring in your steps, the slight humming, heck there's even a rosy hue on your cheeks.
Then he gasped loudly, shocking you, Seungkwan, and Mingyu.
He almost literally hurtles over to you, planting his hands on your shoulders, "What's the good news?"
'Shit, does he have a sixth sense about female emotions or something?' you thought to yourself, panicking a bit.
Not knowing what else to do, you decided to play coy. So you plaster on your best confused look, tilting your head a little at him, and batting your eyelashes, "what are you talking about, Channie?" "Aha! See, you never called me Channie unless you're drunk or giddy, since you have a fetus in you and assuming you're a responsible mom-to-be," you cut him off by delivering a smack to his arm, "so it must be the latter"
You were cornered.
You wanted to lie and hide things away from them but they've all been so nice to you and the prospect that things might change for the better soon excites you beyond belief. They deserve to be alleviated from the burden that is you.
So you caved in. Sighing before nodding, "okay I'll tell you... but no overreaction, no cutting me off, no judgement, and control your expressions because I'm pregnant and I'm sensitive" you said. The boys nodded while Seungkwan muttered under his breath, "God, she loves playing the pregnancy card doesn't she"
You took a moment, taking a deep deep deep DEEP breath before you started telling them about the phone call. What Jeonghan said and how you feel, how you are actually quite excited and how you're actually considering telling him about your pregnancy.
"Are you gonna tell him about your hanahaki disease?" Chan asked once he's sure you're done talking, "I mean... I want to, but I think knowing about my pregnancy itself would give him a heart attack" you chuckled humorlessly.
"Do you think he's proven himself worthy of that knowledge? After the shit he did to you?" Mingyu asked. He didn't mean to sound harsh, but he can't help it. He was the one who had been with you all this time, he was the one who helped you through your fits of coughs and restless nights when things are particularly bad, he was the one who calmed you during your panic attacks over your pregnancy. He would never in a million years demand reciprocation over his good deeds from you, but right now he felt like an unappreciated sucker.
Thankfully, you didn't regard his snippy question as something offensive. You shrugged your shoulders, "Honestly, I don't think he's worthy or even entitled to receive any information about me... But this is beyond me, this is about the baby and he took part in creating this life," you said as you hold your bump, "I honestly don't even know what I want yet. but completely disregarding him would not be the answer, that much I know"
Mingyu really wanted to retaliate, but he knows you're right. And it's your life anyways, he has no say in it whatsoever. No matter how much it sucks.
Accepting how you wanted things to be, they all just nod and remind them that you'll always have them in your corner, that they'll support your decision no matter what.
Even Mingyu, no matter how much the idea of you meeting Jeonghan to talk things through irked him, assured you that he'd help any way he could and even hugged you tightly.
For now, you feel glad that things are starting to look better.
But is it really?
Or is this the calm before the storm?
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a/a/n : I'm really hoping y'all don't think I'd go easy and turn this shit for the better. ooooooh no baby, I'm just getting started.
ps : kinda went off right there, didn't I? 4.6k whew.
Warning : randomness, fr I had no clue what I was thinking when I wrote this lol
a/n : I wanted to continue my other story (petals pt.3) but like I was in a fluffy-ish mood and like petals is just too depressing lmao (not so depressing but like the ideas I have for it were straight out a whole ass gallon of depresso)
(Pt. 1)
The car ride soon ended and you all filed out of the mini bus to welcome the sight of the villa you all will be occupying for the next 3 days.
Each went to inspect whatever it is that caught their attention first. You and Chan held hands, immediately running to the indoor pool and squealing with excitement. Mingyu walked past you both to unload the groceries you all had bought on the way over, Seokmin and Seungkwan following behind him.
"Ooh, Mingyu," You called, stopping him mid-way to look at you, "you packed my swimsuit, right?"
When the question seem to get processed in his mind, you could've sworn that you saw him blush a bit but nod quickly, almost enthusiastically. "I think it's at the bottom of your bag, I know this place has a pool and since both of you are little tadpoles, I put two and two together and assume you'd want to go for a swim while we're here"
Chan took off his right slipper and kicked the water at Mingyu's direction, not liking being called a tadpole. On the other hand, you just giggled at the scene that's happening in front of you.
Soon both you and Chan decided to investigate the premises further, hands still connected and swinging. You both decided to look at the rooms on the second floor. There were a total of four rooms, three were big enough to fit four people and the last one big enough to fit five people.
Next, you both stopped at the kitchen where Mingyu, Seokmin, and Seungkwan were putting away the groceries. You both inspected the things that you guys bought, giggling at each other and planning on how you guys plan on finishing your portion of the snack throughout the trip.
Slipping past everyone in the kitchen with Chan, you both stopped at the gaming room where there are a couple of arcade games at the corner, a pool table in the middle, and a mini fridge. Jeonghan and Seungcheol were already at the pool while Jun and Minghao was inspecting the arcade games.
You both lingered for a bit, checking in on everyone there before going to the staircase that leads downstairs.
There, you found a whole movie room. A big white screen on one side of the wall, a projector on the ceiling and a computer at the back. There were no chairs there, just a bunch of pillows and a rug.
Both you and Chan slinked to Joshua, Soonyoung, and Vernon who were hunched over the computer. "What'cha doin'?" you called, "Looking for good movies to- Ooh! Frozen!" Soonyoung exclaimed, pointing at the screen where the movie poster appeared. Joshua sighed at him, "If we decided that we're not gonna watch Moana, what makes you think we're gonna watch Frozen?" "uhm, great songs? Awesome graphics? Thrilling story line?" Soonyoung argued.
The two began bickering on why the heck they won't watch Frozen during the trip.
Vernon poked your arm, "you guys wanna get out before Soonyoung hyung start suggesting The Little Mermaid?"
At Vernon's words, Soonyoung clapped his hands, "The Little Mermaid! Thank you, Vernon!" and then a whole new argument started between the two.
With one hand in Chan's, you slip your other in Vernon's and slinked away quietly so neither Joshua nor Soonyoung would realize anything.
The three of you agreed to take a peek at the balcony at the second floor. But when you three were just about to step on the stairs, Seungcheol had called out as he stepped out of the game room.
"Kids, gather here! We're going to decide on our sleeping arrangements!" Seungcheol called. Everyone immediately gathered, putting their bags down and sitting on the floor or on the couch, whichever was available.
"Okay, first thing's first," Seungcheol looked at you and offered a smile, "(Y/N) will be staying with me tonight in whichever room I stay in" he winked.
Unsurprisingly, Jeonghan, Jun, Soonyoung, Mingyu, Seokmin, and Seungkwan boo-ed at him, "That's unfair! You can't get dibs like that!" Soonyoung exclaimed. Seungcheol snapped his head at the younger guy and glared at him, "Like hell I can't, I'm the oldest hence I get the privilege of taking care of our baby and make sure she's safe!" "We've established that (Y/N)'s MY baby so she'll be staying with me" Jeonghan said, scooting closer before wrapping an arm around your shoulder, "Tell him, (Y/N), tell him that you feel much safer with me"
You scrunch your nose at him and offered an awkward smile, "actually... I'd feel much safer with Chan and/or Nonie, I don't trust the rest of you... especially you" Jeonghan faked a dramatic gasp at you and drop to the side against Seokmin,"Rejected, by my own true love, how sad" he moaned in fake agony which made you giggle.
Seungcheol sighed, "come on guys, seriously, we have to pick our rooms" and with that everyone started dividing themselves. In the end there were Joshua, Jun and Chan, then Jeonghan, Wonwoo, Mingyu and Minghao, Seungkwan, Seungcheol, and Vernon teamed up next and lastly Soonyoung, Seokmin and Jihoon (in which Jihoon reluctantly agree because he doesn't want to sleep on the couch alone).
It dawned on you that you're gonna have to make a decision on which room you'd have to choose.
"N-no wait, why can't I just room with Seungkwan, Nonie, and Chan? Y'know, me and the maknaes stick together" you pouted, batting your lashes a little at them in hopes they would falter and agree with you.
In all honesty, your plan was iron clad, because Seokmin, Wonwoo, Mingyu, Minghao, Seungkwan, Chan, Seungcheol, and heck even Jihoon had a look of defeat in their faces.
But sadly Jeonghan shook his head and spoke up first, "nope, it's 13 vs 1, we all picked our roomates so you're gonna have to choose from the available options and not ruin the preexisting team"
Determined to have it your way, you turn to Jeonghan, pout going a teeny tiny bit deeper, you fiddled your fingers in faux innocence, "you think I'm gonna ruin things for you guys?"
For a split second, a VERY quick split second, you could see Jeonghan blushed slightly at your face. You know if you can win him over, you'd be able to have things your way.
Jun smacked your face with a cushion lightly, disturbing the impromptu staring contest you had with Jeonghan, "Nope, sorry princess, that's not gonna work anymore"
You grab the cushion and began hitting Jun with it while glaring at him, "I swear to God Jun, I hate you"
Eventually you give up, you agreed to pick from the options they created. And this is when all hell break lose.
Everyone kept pitching offers to you so that you'd room with them. The pitches varies from giving you snacks, the bed, and even their hoodies.
"Seokmin, stop pitching going on a camping trip, if it doesn't work on any of us, what makes you think it's gonna work on her?" Seungcheol sighed. Seokmin pouted at him, "It's worth a try!"
"(Y/N), if you choose to room with me," Joshua started, earning a cough from Chan and a hard nudge from Jun, "yeah, us, whatever, but if you choose to stay in the same room as me, I'll give you NCT's Mark's number, I go to the same church as him" he said.
That piqued your interest.
Your eyebrows rose at him, eyes widening.
"Really!? For real!? NCT's Mark ???"
"No, not really, but I got your interest and attention, so did it work?"
Instead of answering him, you hurled the cushion you've been holding at his face.
"This is stupid! Why won't any of you just claim me?" You whined.
Realizing what you just said and how it could be implied, you snap your head towards Jun who was already opening his mouth, "and I don't mean that in a sexual way" you cut him off before he could say anything. He laughed a little, raising both of his arms in mock surrender.
Seungkwan spoke up, "no one wants to claim you because no one wants you and your loud snores in their room" he snorted, obviously joking.
You were about to retort something snarky back at him before Vernon suddenly stood up and grab your bag without saying anything to you. But then he turn towards Seungkwan, "Seungcheol hyung and I spoke, we're swapping you with (Y/N)" he smirked before taking off to the stairs, "come on, (Y/N)! I'm letting you pick our room"
Now feeling better due to the fact that you don't have to choose between the boys, you stuck your tongue out at Seungkwan before dashing off to grab Vernon's arm and pick a room.
Seungcheol was quick to react, he immediately grab his own bag and followed after you and Vernon, "guys! Wait!" he squeaked.
The others sighed in defeat, all regretting not doing what Vernon did or not having the courage to just do it. They all grumbled for a bit, poking at each of their roommates for not speaking up quickly or even do anything. But they all eventually give up and proceed to leave the living room to put their things in their rooms.
All the while leaving a confused Seungkwan in the living room.
"W-wait, what does this mean for me? Am I sleeping alone here? Guys? Damn it."
a/n : I legit thought of this whilst watching Seungkwan's 'We Remember Kpop 3' lmaooooo I hate me
"(Y/N)? I'm back" Seungkwan called.
You craned your neck from your position on his back and smiled when he came to view, "hey Booboo" you called out.
He scoffed while putting his bag down to the side of the bed, "really? Booboo? You're still adamant on using that overly cheesy and obvious nickname? Oh, how the mighty has fallen" he joked while plopping himself next to you.
Seeing that he's still wearing his outdoor clothes, you tried to push him off the bed with your feet, "Seungkwan! Corona! Dirty outfit! Change!" You exclaimed with each push.
At first he retaliated, holding onto the bedpost and instead pushing you back. But soon he falters when you lift your legs higher and push at the sides of his waist, jolting him up and off the bed.
"That's a dirty trick! But you got a point so I'll change now" He exclaimed as he walk around to his dresser and pick new sweats and hoodie.
"Oooh~ yeahh that's it baby, strip for me" you smirked, pretending to position yourself more comfortably in the middle of the bed. Hands behind your head, you put on your most daring smirk and suggestively raised both of your eyebrows at him.
Seungkwan had a look of horror on his face, eyes wide and jaws unhinged. He was looking at you as if you've just done something beyond crazy in front of him like strangle a puppy. He couldn't even utter words properly, his brain was buffering due to the shock from your words.
It took a few moments but he managed a scoff, putting his hands on his waist and look at you in bewilderment, "wow, you really are something else, aren't you? 'Strip for me'? Really? Where did you learn that from, Fifty Shades of Grey?" He nagged.
Rather than feeling ashamed because you got scolded, you just giggled at him. He took this opportunity to smack you twice with his hoodie before going out to change his clothes.
Whilst he was changing, you decided to go to instagram and just scroll through nothing, not even knowing what you want to see because you're just bored and Seungkwan will be back in no time anyways.
True to your assumption, Seungkwan came back fairly quickly. Plopping his body on the mattress and snuggling his face into your stomach, making you giggle because it tickles a bit. But you both settled into comfort with him humming a tune and you carding your hand through his hair while still scrolling on your phone.
"Oh, what did you think about today's live broadcast ?" He asked, breaking the silence. You scrunch your eyebrows in confusion, "live broadcast? What live broadcast?" You asked back, not bothering to look up from your phone.
At your response, he lifted himself up slightly, "my live broadcast, you know? 'We Remember Kpop 3'?? On vlive?? You didn't watch?" He pouted, whining a little. "Aww, sorry that I missed it Booboo" you cooed, patting his cheeks lightly.
"I don't get it, you watch MMTG because of Jaejae but not me, everyone loves how knowledgable I am! I'm Professor Boo, for God's sake, I have an unofficial PhD in the study of kpop" he nagged. It honestly looked adorable seeing how passionate he is talking about his job which he loves more than anything. But definitely less than his mom of course.
You drop your gaze from your phone to him, "See, that's the thing Kwannie-," "Kwannie? Who the heck is Kwannie? I'm Booboo, you called me Booboo so I'm Booboo, I accept nothing less" he cut you off, "but I thought it's 'too cheesy'? You said it like 20 minutes ago" "yeah well I change my mind, I'd rather you be cheesy but original than normal but basic" he scoffed, crossing his arms on his chest as he made himself comfortable laying his head on your lap.
You sighed and nod, "yeah, okay, sure. But anywho, there's a slight problem with what you said"
He looked up at you and raised an eyebrow, "what could possibly be reason enough for you to not listen to your own boyfriend's live broadcast?"
A small, apologetic grin rose on your face before you answered him, "I don't even listen to my teachers and/or professors, and I paid for those classes, what makes you think I'd want to listen to a class that I don't pay for?"
Seungkwan now looks incredibly shocked. Looking at you with wide eyes and a bitter smile that screams 'are you freaking serious?'.
"Are you for real? Really? Wow, this is amazing," he laughed sarcastically while sitting up and clapping his hands, "and here I thought my girlfriend came here to spend time with me after seeing me live and she realized she missed me, but apparently that's not the case, I'm lucky I still have Jeonghan hyung and S.Coups hyung by my side supporting my live broadcasts and even showing up-"
"Wait, Seungcheol oppa was in your live broadcast??" You cut him off this time. He nodded, "yeah, why?"
"Well, why didn't you tell me!? You could've start with that!" You immediately go to your vlive application to watch the video of the broadcast. Seungkwan didn't welcome your eagerness at all though, for obvious reasons. You showed interest once he mentioned his leader so you could say he's a little bit jealous. A little.
Maybe a blob.
Or a glob.
Whichever's the bigger one.
Bottom line is it's there.
He grabbed your legs and pulled you to him, snatching your phone out of your hand, "are you really watching the rerun because Coups hyung is in it?" "What ? Noooo of course not, I wanna see you too" "Ha! Too! You said too! Meaning you DO wanna watch Coups hyung more than you wanna watch me!" He exclaimed.
You rolled your eyes at him, "oh come on, I'm trying to fulfill my place as your dutiful girlfriend, gimme back my phone" you whined.
Seungkwan pretended to think for a bit before he shoved his face in front of you, "kiss me first" so you peck him on the lips for a quick second then reach out to grab your phone from his hand. The kiss was unsatisfactory to him so he whined and move your phone further away.
"Properly!" He groaned, puckering his lips and shoving his face to yours again, making you giggle.
So you tackle forward, flinging yourself to his lap and peppering his face with kisses several times before finally landing on his lips. The kiss was sweet and had you both melting. Seems like Seungkwan's initial jealousy melted away too because he handed you your phone in the middle of the kiss.
After a while, you both pulled away, panting slightly but both of you has a stupid smile etched on your faces.
"Watch the rerun with me?" You whispered before leaning in once more to give him a final soft kiss on his lips.
You could see him blush, probably due to the impromptu make out session. But he nodded before pushing you back to lay down, he then lay his head on your chest, snuggling there comfortably as you proceed to press play on the video.
You both spent the rest of the day on his bed, watching different videos together and him spilling fun facts when something familiar came up.
Warning : Randomness, absurdity, 🐴이 안되는 컨텐즈, perverted tendencies (it's ok tho it's not harrassment)
a/n : I saw this one video where hannie literally stashed mentos and dalgona in his front overall pocket and I just !!!!!!! EUREKA
One thing you love about your friend group is that nothing ever happens twice. Meaning life is never boring. It is never flat. There is always something you can expect but you don't know what.
Kind of like anxiety.
But better.
So when Kim Mingyu came to your place, pack YOUR bag with YOUR clothes and YOUR other essentials and claimed that he's kidnapping you, you weren't even surprised.
He had taken every one to an impromptu road trip, going as far as renting a minibus without anyone knowing.
"Yah, Kim Mingyu, you forgot my phone charger!" You whined, throwing a crumpled piece of snack wrapper at him, who was driving.
He snaps his head in your direction for a split second before refocusing on the road, "I'm sorry, but you had a lot of things to begin with"
Chan, who was seated next to you, leaned in and whispered, "that and he was totally distracted by your drawer full of panties and bras" he smirked when he saw you widening your eyes in horror.
"Waaaaaaaaaah, Kim Mingyu is a pervert!" Jeonghan yelled from behind you, teasing the younger, "Kim Mingyu saw (Y/N)'s panties and he likes it!" He continued.
Mingyu stammered, trying to explain himself, "y-yah! No! I mean, I-I did saw it but- but- I was helping her! She wouldn't do it herself and someone has to do it! (Y/N)! You should be thankful of me, if I didn't pack them, you'd have no underwear for the rest of the trip!!" He yelled back.
This time, it was Jun who quipped at him, "so the choices were you seeing her undergarments or us knowing she's not wearing anything underneath? Mingyu-yah, you're selfish"
You groaned at their childish behaviour, "that's it! I'm looking for girl friends to hang out with"
You had hoped that would shut the conversation down but your poor choice of words only resulted in most of them ooh-ing you, "girl on girl action, nice" Seungcheol joked from the front seat next to Mingyu.
At Seungcheol's words, the car went to a whole new level of crazy.
It took 15 minutes before the subject of the conversation changed and boy were you relieved.
Seokmin leaned forward from his seat to tap on your shoulder, "(Y/N), I don't feel so good, do you have anything to help my nausea?" You reached into your bag, trying to look for anything that could help his carsickness but found nothing.
Before you can tell him the bad news though, Jeonghan who was seated next to him had shoved something to his hands, "here, I figured someone might be getting sick of MINGYU'S SHITTY DRIVING SKILLS," he yelled the last part to make sure Mingyu heard him, "so that should help"
"Anything for back pain, hyung?" Soonyoung quipped, "I think I pulled something during yesterday's practice" he pouted.
Jeonghan reached into his bag for a second before producing a patch that could help Soonyoung's problem, "don't worry, it's the brand you like that doesn't smell so bad" he said as he leaned back and hand the small item to the younger guy.
Chan got curious and decided to test Jeonghan, "what about something to nibble on? I think I'm kinda hungry" he said. Jeonghan raised an eyebrow at him, "you think you should snack right now? When we get to the town we're gonna have something to eat and it's in like- wait, Mingyu, how much longer 'till we get there?"
Instead of Mingyu, it was Seungcheol who answered him, "an hour and a half-ish, might as well get comfy back there" he said.
"See? Come on hyung, I'll be splitting some of the snack with (Y/N) anyways and I'll still be able to eat there!" Chan whined. Jeonghan was already convinced by Seungcheol's answer anyways so he thought, 'why not?' Before reaching back into his bag and took a bag of chips and handing it over to Chan, "but share with (Y/N), I don't want to lose my place as her favorite member" he said, winking at you when you turn your head towards him.
"Who said you're my favorite member? It could easily be Chan or Vernon since both of them have my back most of the times" you retorted at him which elicit a "yup yup, cool guys squad never dies" from Vernon at the very back while pumping his fist at you in which you returned. Chan on the other hand was laughing.
This time, Jeonghan raised an eyebrow at you, as if daring you to say more, "I said so because if you won't admit it, I won't lend you one of my chargers" he lifted up a phone charger from his bag.
You squinted your eyes at him and scoffed, "that's an iphone charger." He feigned a shocked look, going as far as putting a hand to his chest, "dear baby (Y/N), I am trully shocked that you don't think I know you at all" he shook his head with mock sadness.
It was until he reached back into his bag again and lifted up a type-C charger proudly with a smirk, "m'lady" he dangle the charger for a bit in front of your face before dropping it on your lap.
"Okay, no, you're right, you're my favourite member" you grinned and shot him a flying kiss which he pretended to catch and press to his heart.
"Woah, hyung, that's awesome! What else do you have in your bag?" Seokmin exclaimed, leaning closer to Jeonghan to take a peek inside his bag.
Jeonghan hummed and scanned the content, "basic things that you guys might need I guess, like... earplugs?" "Oop- that's for me I think" Minghao said from next to Vernon, making Jeonghan toss the items to him so he could sleep.
He then returned to name some other things which entices Seungkwan to say the least. "I bet you don't have EVERY 'basic needs' though" he scoffed, crossing his arms.
This made Jeonghan slightly offended. He turned in his seat to glare at the younger, "I so do!" "Nuuh, you couldn't have" "what if I do?" "Okay, if you have 5 items that I ask for then I'll pay for your next meal" "Done!" "Done!"
Seungkwan narrowed his eyes for a few momenta before clapping his hands, "ah, this, eyemask" Jeonghan took out two eyemasks from his bag before shoving it back in.
"That's easy... what about... masks?"
Jeonghan shoved his hands in and pulled out two items, "which one? Anti-covid or beautifying your face?"
You 'ooh'-ed at him, "oh yeah, we're DEFINITELY having a beauty night tonight" he said.
"Does that mean-"
You were cut off when he took out a jar of facemask that you both loved. Seeing the item in his hand made you squeal in delight.
"Damn it, that was my next guess," Seungkwan muttered under his breath, "okay so, I'll play fair and call it 3 out of 5... but next is... iphone earbuds!" He exclaimed, trying to trick his hyung since he knew his hyung uses a samsung phone.
(Not so) shockingly, he had one in his bag, holding it proudly.
While Seokmin and Soonyoung were whooping in excitement and wonder, Seungkwan was muttering curses under his breath.
Jeonghan looked extremely proud of himself, he had a grin permanently etched on his face which irked Seungkwan even more due to his smugness.
"Okay, okay, one more, you don't have this then I won't have to pay for your damn meal" he said. Jeonghan just shrugged and motioned for Seungkwan to go forth with his guess.
It took him a moment to think of something. Eyebrows were scrunched and eyes flitting, indicating that he's thinking hard.
A look of revelation suddenly appeared on his face. With a smirk, he bravely said, "sanitary pads"
The whole car 'boo'ed at him and his absurd guess. "That is just absurd!" Jihoon said, "hey, I played fair! He said anything!" Seungkwan retorted, defending himself.
Everyone was split between supporting Seungkwan's guess and saying that he was misusing the loophole, some were just straight up calling him nasty, in which you replied with, "how is it nasty ? YOU're nasty"
"Everyone, everyone!" Jeonghan called out, effectively shutting everyone up, "Seungkwan may have found a loophole and it is within his rights to use it, because let's be honest I would've too if I were him," he chuckled.
"However! What he did not realize is that I'm amazing" he smirked.
"No way..." Seungkwan said under his breath.
Jeonghan only nodded victoriously. He reached into his bag for the last time, grab the thing he wanted and held it up proudly.
The whole car went crazy.
Even the driving Mingyu got curious and looked back and forth between the back seat and the road ahead, earning a scolding smack from Seungcheol.
Seungkwan yelled out in disdain, screaming "this is unfair!" Multiple times.
"You forgot it's nearing (Y/N)'s time of the month and she seem to always have it at the most unconvenient time" he smirked.
This made you scrunch your face at him, "how did you know about my cycle??" "You seem to forget that I know a lot of stuffs about you" he smiled proudly. That didn't make you feel any better initially though.
You turn to look at Chan, "does he really know my cycle?" You asked. Chan nodded with a tight-lipped smile at you, "he remind everyone to take precautions whenever it's your period or nearing your period so that you wouldn't lash at anyone for being annoying, he even mark it on his calendar"
Now his constant sweet texts, food delivered, desserts bought, and hoodies lent during your period makes much more sense.
Knowing what you learnt, you look at Jeonghan with puppy dog eyes, batting your lashes at him, "awww you really do care about me don't you, Hannie ?" He squealed and grab your face in his hands, "awww of course I do, you're our baby, my baby" he spoke as if he was speaking with a baby.
Chan frowned at the sight before him, "I thought I was supposed to be the baby around here"
Warning : boring content, this idea came because I was scrolling through tiktok lol
a/n : if I were to open up say prompt game or drabble game, or even open up requests, would anyone be interested ?? It's been a while since I was active here and I miss it 🥺
Today suck.
It sucks really bad.
First, you miss your bus so you were late to your class and just HAD to be humiliated in front of everyone by your professor.
Second, you had hoped to listen to some music during lunch but when you open your earpod case, you found that one was missing and you had forgotten to charge your case so you couldn't do what you had planned.
Third, the guy you had gotten close with turns out was just using you to get to your friend and you found out the hard way.
Lastly, as if to pour salt in your wound, on your way from the bus station to your apartment, the rain suddenly poured hard and you just no longer have the strength to be strong.
So here you are.
Drenched from head to toe, heartbroken, eyes puffy, and is just done with life. Life and whatever other shit is just waiting for you.
Surprisingly, when you opened your apartment, you saw your brother with two of his friends on the couch. They were playing games on the tv, too concentrated to even notice that you had came back home.
The apartment you live in is technically yours. Joshua has his own room for whenever he doesn't feel like staying in the dorms. He helped you pay for it since you're still just a student and he makes more by being an idol.
"Oppa, why are you here?" You called out as you walk in.
Jeonghan and Wonwoo were playing some... fighting game you wanna say ? And Joshua was sat in the middle, watching them as he drink cola.
"Oh hey, you're home," he answered, not looking at you at first, "We were in the neighborhood and we decided to come here and pla- what happened to you ?" His eyes widened when he saw how bad you looked, makeup and hair a mess, and splotches of puddle following behind your trail.
You lift a hand to him, "don't even" you said in english before stomping away to clean yourself up.
All you wanna do is shower, get into bed, and cry.
But noooooooo, you had to be seen first by your brother and his adonis looking friends. You've already feel bad as it is, do you really need to feel even worse ?
The shower you took was fairly quick, but you had been crying in there so it took half an hour for you to come out.
You decided to get a drink before going to your room. As much as you wanna entertain your brother and his friends, you really don't wanna ruin the mood with how sucky you're feeling.
When you got to the kitchen, Wonwoo was there too, getting some snacks. He smiled when you came in, "hey" he called. You pursed your lips and replied him with a less than enthusiastic "hey". You reaaaaally feel like hiding your puffy face in your hoodie so that he wouldn't notice.
But it would seem like he did.
Wonwoo tilted his head to the side to get a better look on you, "you okay, (Y/N)? Your eyes look puffy"
"Wow," you nodded at him, "what an amazing observation skill you have" you muttered as you took a sip of your drink and walk out.
Just as you passed by, Jeonghan called you, "(Y/N)! We're ordering chicken from that place you like! Do you want some?"
But you ignored him completely and just closed your bedroom door.
Once alone, you put the glass on your desk and threw yourself on your bed. You immediately wrap yourself in your blanket like a burrito and cried again.
It honestly felt pathetic, the amount of crying you had done in one day, but you don't care. Everything juat sucks and all you want is for the day to just skip or have your memory erased so you don't have to remember about how bad you're feeling right now.
You cried until you feel tired, like as if there were no more tears left to cry.
Just then, your door suddenly opened and shut.
Pitter patter of footsteps was heard on your floor and suddenly your bed dipped. Joshua's face appeared in front of you, soft smile and all. Which only makes you wanna punch him.
"Do I need to hunt someone down ?"
You shook your head.
"Do I need to send Seungcheol or Jun to intimidate someone?"
You shook your head.
"Are you okay?" He asked in english.
You don't know if it's the question or the way he asked or the way it made you feel loved and cared about, but you cried again. Tears flowed down like waterfall and you couldn't stop.
Joshua cooed and brought you into his arms, pressing your face to his chest as he stroke your head softly.
"Men ain't shit" you choked out in english through your tears.
You felt Joshua nodded, "no we're not, I'm sorry"
"Not you though, you're good," you sniffled, rubbing away the tears from your eyes harshly.
Joshua laughed at that, "why, thank you sis" he said before he scooped down to peck your forehead, "I'll be sure to tell that to Wonwoo and Jeonghan so they'd know how you feel about them" he joked.
Without thinking, you let out a whine and hit his chest with your fist, "okay I guess the rest of Seventeen is fine" you added.
For a while, you both just laid there as you calm down. Joshua never stopped stroking your head though, a habit he developed since little whenever he tries to help you through something. You love your brother to the moon and back and his love for his family is one of the reason you always get through whatever it is you're trying to go through.
"Bad day ?" Joshua asked, breaking the silence once he's sure you're calmer.
"Nothing seems to go my way today" you fiddled with your fingers as you recalled the events that happened.
So you ended up spilling everything to him.
Every. Single. Thing.
A scandalized look appeared on his face when you were done, "I'm gonna have to personally have a talk with your professor and you WILL give me the name of the guy who did you wrong, tomorrow we're going shopping to get you a better alarm and I'll get you new earpods if you want"
Looking up, you frowned at him, "isn't that a bit dramatic?" "What is?" "All that, especially the talking with my professor and making me tell you that guy's name, I'm still trying to get through college without anyone knowing that I'm Seventeen's Joshua's little sister"
Joshua sighed, "fine, I won't out you. But as you said, you're my little sister and I will do everything to make you happy, you hear me?"
Feeling slightly better, you smiled and hug him tight.
"Mmkay oppa"
In return, he hugs you back equally tight, feeling happy that he could help you feel better.
"I love you, (Y/N), you can always come to me when you have bad days, okay? I'll always be there"
"Okay oppa, and I love you too"
.
.
.
.
"Does this mean I can make a move on one of your members?"
a/n : ARE Y'ALL READY FOR HOSHI'S SPIDER TONIGHT !?!?!?!?
Petals (pt. 1)
You woke up to the feeling of sore throat.
It was beyond uncomfortable.
Not to mention the headache, the fact that your eyes felt like it was burning and your lips were very chapped.
It took you a while before you realized that you weren't even in your own bed, or your own room. This place looks fancier and far bigger, it honestly looked like a hotel room.
The door opened slowly and in came Mingyu in a white t-shirt and some blue striped pyjama pants holding a glass of water in one hand and an aspirin in the other.
When he saw that you had woken up, he smiled softly.
"Hey, you're up," he said. He put down the glass and the aspirin on the table next to you before sitting down on the bed.
Mingyu tilted his head to the side a little and reached forward to fix your messed up hair, "I've been waiting for you for quite some times, how are you feeling?" He asked.
Memories from the previous night came flooding back.
The coughing.
The blood.
The petals.
And then Yoon Jeonghan.
Tears began pooling in your eyes as a wave of nausea hit.
As if on instinct, Mingyu grabbed the trash can on the side and lifted it closer to you where you can throw up more blood and petals. He stayed silent, but he was comforting you by rubbing your back and telling you that it's okay.
When you're done coughing and puking, he hands you the water and aspirin which you immediately drink.
The water feels so good. It's like rain after a draught.
"Seungkwan and Chan are coming over soon, they asked me whether or not you want them to pick up some of your clothes" Mingyu said, eyes soft as he wipe your tears away.
You looked up at him in confusion, "W-why would I need my clothes ?" "Because you're staying with me indefinitely"
That was a shocker.
You furrowed your eyebrows and shook your head, "No, no I'm not, I-I need to get home soon a-and-" you glanced at the clock on the bedside table, "-and we should be at work now! We're 2 hours late, you have to finalize the articles and there's a board review meeting later, a-an-" before you could finish, he had cupped your face in his large hands to stop you from talking.
"First of all, we are not going to work because you," he emphasized the 'you' part while poking your forehead, making you smile slightly, "need to rest and you need to figure out what you want to do"
When he said that, your hand instinctively went to your stomach.
It hit you hard.
You're pregnant.
With Jeonghan's child.
His child that he didn't knew.
Him.
Him who hurt you.
Him who cheated on you.
"I-I'm alone" you whispered, voice trembling as sobs began bubbling up again, "I'm pregnant and I'm alone, Jeonghan has found someone else a-and he didn't even- I-I can't tell him about me a-and I- I can't do this by myself" you cried.
It hurt Mingyu more than he thought it would seeing you cry like this. So he scooted closer and hugged you tight, letting you rest your head on his shoulder while you cry to your heart's content.
"You are not alone" he started, "you are never alone, you hear me? You have me, Chan, and Seungkwan and we'll always be there for you," he reached a hand up to wipe your tears away, "Jeonghan's an idiot for mistreating you, but believe me when I say that we won't ever hurt you, especially me"
He didn't know why he said the last part. He knew because it was because of his feelings for you, but he just don't know exactly why blurted that out.
But on the bright side, you laughed a little at what he said, "Don't be silly Mingyu, you're my boss and I'm just your employee" he tsked at your words, "No, you're more than that, you're a friend! And friends help each other out no matter what"
'Though I'd really wanna be more than that with you' Mingyu thought to himself.
Soon enough Seungkwan and Chan came, knocking on the bedroom door with a smile on their faces.
"Heeeeeey pumpkin, how's your morning?" Seungkwan asked. You groaned in response, "Do you even need to ask?" Which earned Seungkwan a harsh nudge to his side by Chan.
"We just wanna make sure," Chan crouched down in front of you, "Have you had time to think about what you're going to do?" He asked.
You bit your bottom lip, a habit you developed when you're deep in thought, "Not really, but obviously I can't stay in my apartment anymore, i-it just feels wrong, it feels too much so I'm gonna have to find a new place and sign off the lease to him... but that means I'm not gonna have anywhere else to stay" you sighed, feeling a headache creeping in.
Mingyu furrowed his eyebrows, "That's not true, you can always stay here, in fact I insist you stay here" he said as he grabbed one of your hand in his, "You're gonna be dealing with a lot of things and you're going to need as much support as you can get"
You look at him with defeated look, torn between wanting to accept and deny his offer, "but you're my boss" you said.
"Fine, then you're fired" he said before standing up and bolt out of the room, leaving the three people in the room with their jaws hanging.
It took a while before you came to your senses, stammering while looking at Seungkwan and Chan for help. In which they only raised their hands in defeat, not knowing what to do and knowing they can't do anything because Mingyu's their boss too.
You ran out to follow Mingyu, finding him in his ridiculously expensive looking home office, with hands on your waist, "You can't just fire me! I'm the best assistant you've ever had- you said so yourself!" Mingyu didn't seem bothered, he instead kept his focus on a drawer on his desk, rummaging through with rustles of paper following his movement, "besides, imagine the lawsuit I'd file, I can tell people that you're firing me because I'm pregnant, that'll do some great damage to you and your company"
Finding what he was looking for, he lifted it up, "What's that ? What are you doing?" He smirked, "Your contract and I'm shredding it"
Before you could react, he had fed the paper to the shreder.
Your eyes both widened and watered, "Mingyu !! Why did you do that !?!?!" You cried, "Now I don't have a place to live in and a job! How am I supposed to survive for myself a- a- and-" you cut yourself off as a fit of cough broke out and you find yourself swaying.
Mingyu went around his desk, swoop you into his arms and brought you out to his living room. Chan already had a glass of water in his hand by the time you landed on the couch and he immediately handed you the glass.
The water feels amazing despite feeling the petals that are stuck in your throat getting swallowed back, pushed by the water that entered.
In all honesty, Mingyu felt responsible for this fit of coughs, he felt like his action shocked you THAT much.
When you calmed down and Seungkwan stopped blotting the sweats off of your forehead, Mingyu began speaking again, "I did that so you wouldn't have any choice but to accept my proposal to stay here and rest while you figure out things," his hand was rubbing your knee and eyes searching your teary ones, you let out a short chuckle at his explanation, "Proposal... Spoken like a true businessman" you muttered, which he heard.
Chan spoke up this time, "honestly, (Y/N), if it wasn't Mingyu hyung, Seungkwan hyung and I would've offered you our places before you could even make other arrangements, you actually can choose with whom you want to stay with, there are options if you are somehow uncomfortable" he said as he plopped down on the other couch on your left side.
You couldn't believe their kindness.
Sure, you always thought of them, even your boss Mingyu, as your friends. But this is beyond generous. For you, and for your child.
It feels weird thinking about you having a child.
It sure is a new feeling.
Sensing you're thinking hard and deep, Seungkwan decided to break you out of your own thoughts, "You don't have to decide the long term plan right now, you can always make a decision any time it feels right" he said as he combed your hair with his fingers from behind you, "go through it day by day and see what happens, whatever you need, we are on your service any time at all"
That did it.
You cried.
You bawled at their kindness and sincerity and love for you.
They all came huddling in and hugged you, ensuring you that you and your baby will not have anything to worry about for a long time.
Hand to your stomach, you think about how this child of yours will come to the world having people who love and want them around no matter what.
But then again, you have your disease.
You know how people die from hanahaki disease. But you never heard of pregnant women with hanahaki disease.
Do they survive?
Can the fetus take on that much stress the mother's body put them through?
All thoughts running wildly in your head, but the arms that hold you tight and the voices that reminds you that you are safe drains away the worry for now.
Right now, the most important thing is that you are not alone.
Unlike your supposed other half.
Yoon Jeonghan.
Jeonghan spent the night at his mistress' house right after the whole ordeal. Having her calm him down like as if he was the victim in this scenario.
But is she really still his mistress now that everything's out in the open especially to you ?
Or is she his girlfriend now and you aren't ?
Jeonghan couldn't sleep that night, couple cans of beers couldn't help him either so he opted to spend his thinking time in front of the tv in his... whatever's living room, pointlessly staring at the television..
Morning came and the damning truth just dawned upon him.
You found out the hard way.
So he impulsively did the first thing that popped into his head. He wanted to look for you and said sorry.
He convinced himself that he feels bad and the reason he wants to say sorry is so that you could have your closure and move on. But it didn't help his case when there's this tiny voice in the back of his head screaming that he wants to apologize so that he wouldn't feel guilty anymore, so that he could live in peace.
Jeonghan went to your shared apartment, thinking that you're just that deep in sorrow that you'd be the cliche who'd just lock herself in her apartment, break some dishes, mess his clothes, or maybe rip his pictures.
But when he stepped in the apartment, he realized that it was empty.
Too empty even.
He looked around and noticed that nothing has changed since he left it. It was as if you weren't living there anymore. But if it wasn't for the piling laundry and the lone set of dishes on the drying rack, he might've thought you did to him what he did to you.
That you were cheating on him too.
Not going to lie to himself, the thought of you with other guys boiled his blood a little. So he convinced himself that you weren't that type of girl. Not the 'eye for an eye' type.
Jeonghan is pretty possessive if he had to be honest.
Maybe borderlining on selfish.
But with his looks and his charms, anyone would agree that it was no surprise. Not that it justified anything.
Before he realized what he was doing, he had began cleaning up the apartment.
Washing your work clothes, going as far as counting them to make sure that you really did stayed in the apartment alone each night while he was not there, dusting and vaccuming, and he even began preparing a simple meal for you even though he didn't know when you will come back.
It wasn't until around 3 pm when he heard the front door unlock.
He visibly gulped.
He hadn't actually planned on what to say.
Well, what do you say to the person you cheat on?
"Hi honey, I'm sorry I have a wandering dick" ?
Though still thinking, he braced himself to face you. To accept if you ended up punching him straight in his face or if you break down crying in front of him.
What he didn't expect was 2 male entering, bringing a luggage with them each and happily strolling as if it's natural for them to be in the apartment.
They were laughing until they realized Jeonghan's presence. Their expression immediately turn stoic while Jeonghan's were of confusion.
"How did you get into my apartment?" Jeonghan asked, his fight or flight instinct tingling on the tips of his fingers.
One of the cocked his head to the side and scoffed, "so you're the sorry excuse of a mother fucking cheating boyfriend of hers" he spat.
Jeonghan is now confused.
Though it was easy for him to put two and two together and realize that the most probable conclusion is that they're your acquintances.
The other one smacked the first one on his shoulder, "dude, chill! Remember why we came here so just..." he nodded his head to the direction of the bedroom, "... okay? Act like nothing happen"
"I'm sorry, but you can't just barge in here with luggages and do... whatever it is you want to do, this is my place" Jeonghan said before they could move.
The first guy sighed, but he dropped his luggage and began motioning his hand towards himself and his friend, "Seungkwan, Chan, friends of (Y/N)'s- no, wait, I think we're way past friends, right Chan?" He looked to Chan, "what was the term you used yesterday? Work husbands?" He snickered.
Chan smirked at the pettiness of his hyung but nodded in agreement, "ah, yes, we're her work husbands which I think trumps cheating boyfriend, we just came by here to help her with her things so... Please excuse us, we have an appointment to get to and promises to keep"
With that, they both just went past Jeonghan and head straight to the bedroom that you shared with Jeonghan.
At this point, Jeonghan didn't know what to do.
Should he stop them ?
What are they helping you with ?
Curiosity winning, he followed both Seungkwan and Chan to see what they're doing.
His eyes widened in shock when he see that the two men had blatantly began putting your clothes in the luggage and packing other things like make up, skin care, and your other favorite items.
All the while talking among themselves as if this isn't something weird.
Seungkwan was holding up a pair of your shorts while he was talking, "see? This is something I'd imagine she'd wear leisurely, her work clothes might be elegant and girly, but she has that 'bruh' side that kind of, you know, pops a bit"
By now Jeonghan is fuming.
He stormed in and snatched the garment right off of Seungkwan's grasp, "What the hell is wrong with you!? Do you have no manners!? Barging into someone's home and just began stealing their stuffs!?"
Jeonghan didn't expect Seungkwan and Chan's reaction.
They were both laughing.
Laughing.
"'What the hell is wrong with you?' He said" Seungkwan cackled, "his 'Do you have no manners?' Killed me!" Chan added.
Both men were acting like Jeonghan's not there. Or worse, acting like Jeonghan's the insane one.
"Get out, get out of my house! I mean it!" Jeonghan yelled.
But the two only laughed louder, shaking their heads, and continue packing clothes, undergarments, and other things. Jeonghan really wanted to drag the two male out but he honestly don't know what to do.
Are they really here to help you ?
Does that mean you're staying with one of them ?
What is their relationship with you ?
He really need to start listening to you more.
Not that it matters now since you're both gonna break up anyways. Right ? That's the plan isn't it ? Jeonghan's beginning to doubt his plan.
It wasn't long until Seungkwan and Chan were done, zipping up the luggages and hauling them out of the room, only nodding to Jeonghan in acknowledgement but not bothering to say anything at all.
Panicking, Jeonghan grabbed Chan by the arm before he could go out the front door, "P-please, I want to know where she is, I have to talk to her! Is she okay?"
Frowning at the older male, Chan snatched his arm from his grasp and scoffed, "you broke her heart, trust, and soul, if you were in her position, would you be okay?" "I-I guess she wouldn't be okay... but she has to understand things from where I'm standing! I need to let her know-"
"Well what about what she needs?" Seungkwan barked, cutting him off.
"What about her? You kept talking about what you need to do, what you want, how you need her to see from where you stand- well, what about her needs? We are the ones who truly cared about her while you ran off to someone else, leaving her all alone to fend for herself a-" Seungkwan immediately stopped himself before he slipped and blurt out that you were pregnant. He wasn't sure wether or not you wanted him to know.
Silence hang in the air as Seungkwan's words pierced Jeonghan deeper than he'd like to admit.
For a while, the three of them just stood there, not knowing how to react. But Chan caved and reached into his pocket, taking out his business card that has his number on it.
At first Jeonghan just stared at it, confused. Chan sighed and motioned for Jeonghan to take it, "I don't usually give out my number, especially to people like you, but call me once you're sure what you actually want to do"
With that, they left.
Leaving Jeonghan by the door, staring at the piece or paper in his hand.
He was sure he want to break up with you. He really did.
But has he really been that neglectful to you ? Has he really been that selfish ?
Jeonghan sat himself on the couch of the living room and rethink his whole relationship with you. Recalling all the memories and all the times you have sacrificed yourself for him and comparing that to the times he sacrificed himself for you.
You were beyond kind and understanding to stay in a secret relationship with him for more than 2 years.
You trusted him a lot in the relationship. Though he broke that trust when he cheated.
You were okay whenever he canceled date night because of a schedule or practice, and you still cater for him and his needs however you can.
You never asked for anything from him, not in the form of money, gift, time, anything at all.
And that was just off the top of his head.
God knows what other kindness he forgot you had given him.
All that, and what did he give in return ?
A knife to your back.
Jeonghan really wanted to believe that he's the good guy in this scenario, that what he's trying to do is the best thing that he could ever do to you. Or for you ?
'This is confusing... and annoying' he thought to himself.
He traced back to where did things went wrong. At which point in the relationship did everything became such a mess?
But that's the thing.
Nothing ever really was a mess. There were no fights, there were no confrontations when things started turning... he want to say, awkward ? And there were no major change in your relationship.
Looking down to the number on his hand, he decided to keep it in his wallet, in case he need it for any reason at all.
He reached to the coffee table where his bag is to grab his wallet. When he opened it, he was greeted with your smiling face and his back when you both celebrated your 100th day. The memory was fresh to him like it was yesterday.
You both went out to a raccoon cafe which he was totally freaked out with when the tiny paws of the animals skittered all up on his arms. You, on the other hand, found it extremely hilarious so you took a bunch of pictures of him panicking while laughing your ass off.
At one point he calmed down even when a raccoon jumped to his shoulder and tried to muss up his hair.
You both took a picture on your polaroid with you holding a baby raccoon in your arms and him having his hand around your shoulders. Both having the biggest smile ever.
It was a great memory.
Kinda reminded him with the fact that his new girl doesn't really do anniversaries or celebrating those kinds of things. She was more into pushing the relationship to the edge of someone finding out. Which made Jeonghan felt dangerous and worried at the same time.
Is that it ?
Is that what went wrong ?
That he only needed a little bit of change or edge in the relationship ?
And that what went wrong in the relationship is him ?
a/n : I suddenly thought of this while I was listening to Kayla DiVenere's Justin Bieber. Listen to it. That song is goooooood!
Oh my God, I wanna stare at your face forever
You woke up to the ray of sun shining brightly, seeping from the small gaps between the curtains. You look to the side and saw that it was still 7.37 am on a Sunday, meaning you don't have anything to do today.
So does he.
Craning your head a little to the side, you see your boyfriend, Vernon, still sleeping soundly without a care in the world. Lips slightly parted, puffs of air escaping his mouth, you wonder how he could look like a model even in this state.
Not a single flaw, you're beautiful like a Hollywood Cheshire.
Without thinking, you traced a finger from his forehead, down to his nose, skimming over his lips and stopping at his jawline. He groaned in his sleep, but he turned his position so now he's facing you.
You're pulling me close, I'll figure out. All pins and needles, I'm weak now.
You plant a soft kiss on his lips, something you usually do before you got up and out of bed to get ready for the day.
As you started to shuffle up, his arms shot out and wrap themselves around your waist. "Don't go" he muffled against your skin, snuggling closer as if not wanting to ever let you go. His hands bunched up the t-shirt, or more like his t-shirt, that you wore to bed.
"You can stay in bed sweetie, I'll go prepare our breakfast," you said, kissing the top of his head. He was reluctant to let you go, but after a couple of more kisses, he loosened his grip and let you off.
When love have taken, it'd be like a dream. But you made a believer.
Before you step out of the room, you look at him one more time, "God, I'm the luckiest woman ever" you mumbled to yourself.
Sunday means pancakes or waffles day. It's some kind of a tradition for you both but it has been a while since the two of you had been able to spend your Sunday together with his busy schedule and all and the fact that you have your own thing to handle. So this Sunday feels good, it feels like home with him around.
You reached to the speaker that was situated at the corner of the kitchen isle and turn on some music.
As you began taking ingredients out, you sway your hips to the groove of the music, nodding along and soon you found yourself singing along to the lyrics.
"You give me feelings like Justin Bieber, I'm living out of my fantasies" you sang as you began flipping the pancakes on the stove, "Good thing there's some kind of perfect creature, you could be my boyfriend, I could be your baby"
Granted you weren't the most expert dancer, but you weren't the worst. What you cared about is dancing to your heart's content while you fall into the lyrics and the vibe, finding yourself relating to the song as it reminds you of how much you adored your boyfriend.
Unbeknownst to you, Vernon had actually gotten out of bed right after you and had been leaning by the wall, looking at you with an adoring smile on his face.
Like you, who are deeply in love with him, he too found himself falling deeper and deeper in love with you.
Maybe it's the domestic life that he's currently living in, maybe it's seeing you in his t-shirt, or maybe it's just him finally finding his better half. Who knows?
You were twirling when you finally spot him, and you stopped abruptly, almost slipping to the floor with your slippery slippers.
"God, Vernon! You scared me!" you exclaimed with a hand to your chest.
Vernon pushed himself off of the wall and got closer to you. You turn your back on him, focusing on flipping the pancakes and putting them on two plates.
"So..." He started, "You practised kissing me on my cardboard cutout, huh?" he said, referring to the lyric you had just sung.
Heat crawled to your face and you coughed, "N-no I don't! That's just the lyrics! Doesn't mean anything!" you defended.
You used your hip to nudge him out of the way while bringing the plates over to the dining table.
Vernon kept tailing you as you walked back to the kitchen towards the fridge, fetching some maple syrup and whipped cream.
But as you close the fridge and turned around, he had trapped you with his arms. He was smirking cockily whilst looking at you up and down. "You know, you look so good in my shirt" his hand reached the can of whip cream in your hand and sprayed some on your nose.
You were about to protest but he leaned in and licked it off of you, making you giggle.
He lifted you up and put you on the kitchen counter, hands on your thighs, and eyes looking straight at you.
For a while, neither of you said anything, only looking at each other in adoration. It felt as if he was studying your features so closely like as if you might disappear from his eyes.
You wrap your hands around his neck, breaking his trance. You tilted your head to the side, "Penny for your thoughts?" you asked.
He reached up and caressed your face softly, "Nothing... It's just..." he sighed contently, "You are so perfect and I can't believe I'm lucky enough to have you in my life" he said.
That made you melt.
If you were snow, you'd be a puddle before him.
You cooed and pecked his nose, "No, Vernon, I'm the lucky one to have someone as perfect as you" he shook his head at your words, "I think we're both equally lucky to have each other"
He then leaned in to kiss you fully on your lips.
It wasn't rushed and it wasn't demanding, it was soft and sweet, filled with his love and care. He was conveying his feelings for you through the kiss.
"I love you, so much" he mumbled against your lips.
a/n : IT HAS BEEN A WHILE !!!!!!! I missed posting my writings here 🥺 but like tumblr roped me back in and I'm just so in love with Seventeen that I can't. Anywho, I hope y'all enjoy despite this story not making any sense but I just wanted to put a little twist in the hanahaki au since I read an s.coups one that was REALLY good. Hope y'all don't cuss me out ><
It has been over two years since you and Jeonghan got together as a couple. What started out as an innocent friendship through your mutuals, Joshua who is one of his groupmates, bloomed into romantic feelings for each other
Mornings spent cuddling in bed, nights spent making love to each other, fulfilling each other's desires. From the outer perspective, you both looked like the 'it' couple, the couple that makes everyone jealous to the point of boiling.
Even Joshua can't stand being in the same room as the both of you. "I know I set you both up, but please tone down the cheesiness, if not I might need to move out of the dorms." He joked.
It's either you clinging onto his arm or him clinging onto your back like a koala. Despite the teasings, people do agree that you both are adorable. Especially the staffs.
Jeonghan’s company decided that it would be best to keep your relationship under wraps for now until they can be sure that neither your relationship nor his reputation needs to suffer.
Which is why rather than just waiting around for him, you decided to work at a fashion magazine as the CEO's head assistant, establishing yourself so people wouldn't think that your purpose of dating Jeonghan is to mooch off of him.
Today was like any other days. You finished up your work, at around 6, knocking onto the door of the CEO's office with your bag on one shoulder while your other hand slowly opens the door.
"Mr. Kim ?" You called.
Mingyu looked up from his desk with his eyebrows furrowed and lips jutting down into a pout, "(Y/N), what did I said about calling me Mr. Kim ?" That made you chuckle a little, "I'm sorry, Mingyu" his exterior visibly softened, "Just want to remind you that tomorrow's meeting has been scheduled, it's on your google calendar, file's prepped on top of my desk in case you want to go over them one more time before office hours, and please don't work past 10 pm tonight"
He only rolled his eyes at you but he didn't try to suppress a grin that stretched on the side of his lips, "Kim Mingyu, I'm serious" he ignored you, "stop, go home, eat, shower, rest, I've even ordered in your favorite chinese takeout so please take care of yourself."
Sighing in defeat, he looked up with a genuine smile and nodded, "Okay, no work after 11-" you glared at him sharply which he ended up raising both of his arms in defense, "okay, okay! 10!" "Good, don't forget that I have your chauffeur's number on speed dial" you jokingly threatened him.
"Bye (Y/N), get back safely" he waved you off.
Once you were out of his office, he looked up again to where you stood and sighed, "God, woman, what would I do without you?" He whispered to himself.
It took you 20 minutes to get back to your shared apartment. You immediately got in, shed your shoes and workbag and immediately jumped into the shower. A nice, long, hot shower.
By the time you finished your shower, the front door has been unlocked and that could only mean one thing. Jeonghan's home.
Rather than feeling happy, you feel something odd lately, something you couldn't put your finger on but you can't shake at the same time. You took your time drying yourself off before putting on a pair of shorts and one of Jeonghan's big, baggy shirt.
When you came out of the bathroom, you saw him on the couch, just sitting there on his phone. Slowly you approached him and put a hand on his shoulder. He didn't seem surprised but he didn't immediately acknowledge your presence either.
This made you frown.
"Hannie ?" You called. "Hmm?" He answered.
You bit your lip, not exactly knowing what else to say. So you opted to sit on the other side of the couch.
There were thick silence between you two, something that he didn't seem to care about but it's killing you.
Suddenly your throat feels itchy and you began coughing a little. He looked up from his phone for a bit with furrowed eyebrows, "you okay?" He asked but it didn't seem genuine, it seemed only like a formality.
"Y-yeah" you coughed, "I-I'm fine"
"Uhh... Listen, if you're sick, I think I should just stay at the dorms for a couple of days, comeback's around the corner and I can't afford getting sick" you felt like he wanted to add "because of you" at the end but he didn't.
Before you could even convinced him to stay, he had already took his bag and fled. Leaving you all alone to yourself in your 'shared' apartment.
It's been like this for months. The last time he touched you, less than two months ago, didn't even feel sincere. It felt like a ruse to shut you up from askint him what's going on with him. And you can't do anything about that. You can't bitch your best friend since he's in the same group as Jeonghan, you can't exactly tell your work friends since you can't unveil your relationship yet, your family would just blow things up out of proportion. So everything just leaves you all alone.
So for now, you just have to be patient with him, with yourself, and with your situation.
Days after that, Jeonghan didn't came home. As far as you know, he only came back when you're at work to pick his clothes up and brought them to the dorm. He didn't even tried to call. Only text messages that informs you about his condition and how busy he is. But even that only lasted 2 days before he completely ghosted you.
"He's preparing for his comeback" you convinced yourself. Though you know that wasn't the only reason. But what is ?
So instead of moping and overthinking, you dove yourself into your work. Getting up as early as you can, took a quick shower, met up at your boss' penthouse to do a morning debriefing, then off to work together, then back home as late as possible. That became a routine for you.
Your friends, Seungkwan and Chan, who are the board members of the company had noticed that you looked different. Paler than usual, coughing more and more, but weirdly enough you were eating more than usual.
"Either it's bulimia, or she has some sort of illness, I tell you" Seungkwan said while eyeing you. Chan furrowed his eyebrows, "She doesn't seem like the type to eat and purge though, maybe stress eating? Because it's related to Mr. Redacted?" He asked, implying to your boyfriend whom you've only mentioned as redacted.
Seungkwan clapped his hands and nod, "Probably!" But then he leaned in close, "but that doesn't explain the coughing though" he said suspiciously.
Unbeknownst to them, Mingyu had overheard everything. He leaned close behind the two boys and whispered, "what are you both gossiping about?"
That scared both Seungkwan and Chan shitless, they jumped from their seats, startling you in the process, breaking off your concentration from work. You eyed them suspiciously before going back to typing some memos that needs to be sent to the editorial team.
Seungkwan made sure you weren't focusing on them before swiveling his chair to face Mingyu, "It's... (Y/N)... We're concerned" he said.
Mingyu raised an eyebrow at that, "Concerned? Why?"
Chan grimaced at him, "Ayy hyung, you work closely with her. Have you not noticed ? The coughing, the pale complexion, the eating?" It was a relief that Mingyu's not one of those uptight boss and is quite close to those who work directly with and for him.
Curious, Mingyu took a peek at you and he had just realized how tired and stressed out you looked. Bags under your eyes, pale skin, chapped lips, he could've sworn he saw blood at the corner of your lips.
God, how can he not realized?
"She's been like that since last Thursday," Chan said which made Seungkwan snapped his finger, "That's the day after she said Mr. Redacted went on a 'business trip'! She told me that over lunch!!" He whisper-yelled.
Mingyu frowned, thinking how much of a jerk can your boyfriend be to leave you while you're sick for more than 5 days.
He left the two boys back to their bickering, not forgetting to remind them to send him a portofolio of the new photographer that they scouted for their next Spring line.
Not even realizing, he stopped by your desk.
Without even looking up nor moving, one of your hand reached to a file and hand it over to him, "The Chinese brand director, Mr. Xu, asked me to give you this while you were at your 2.15 appointment, dropped this off by himself and remind me to call you an idiot at least once a day" you snickered.
Mingyu let out a scoff before taking the file from your hand, "It's my office, how dare he say that to my assistant" "Mingyu, we're way past office title, you know I'm your work wife" you joked.
Blushing a bit, he grinned aa he leaned on your desk, "does that mean I'm your work husband?" He boldly asked. That made you look up, stared at him blankly and shook your head, "No, that's Chan's job"
He pretended to look shocked and hurt, pressing a hand to his chest and gasping loudly. That made you laugh out loud.
But soon your laugh turns to cough.
And before long, those coughs become uncontrolable. You were wheezing as you felt like you've been choked, something harsh scratches your throat so you covered your mouth with both hands.
Mingyu along with your two friends panicked.
They rushed to your side, Chan holding your hair and patting your back, Seungkwan was busy looking for a tissue, and Mingyu hurriedly called 119.
You kept uncontrolably coughing, only stopping to catch a breath before coughing again.
Chan held you close while whispering words that he hoped would help calm you down. It was until he suddenly smelled something floral from somewhere that he stopped.
He looked down to your shaking hands and saw flower petals, tinged with blood.
There was no mistake in what this mean.
You looked down at them with horror in your eyes while the three men worriedly glanced at each other, nervous and confused on what to do.
Soon enough the paramedics came and took you.
"You both can come with by your own cars, I'm jumping in the ambulance- Oh! And please bring my bag and hers!" Mingyu yelled as he followed you on the gurney.
The whole ride to the hospital, Mingyu stayed by your side, holding a medical waste bucket in one hand and stroking your back softly.
He couldn't stop worrying and looking at the blood and petals.
He wanted to cry for you.
Take your pain for you.
But he couldn't, so instead his mind wanders off to you and your relationship with your boyfriend.
"If they are in love, then how come she's throwing up flower petals?" He thought.
During the ride, the red and pink petals slowly drop to the floor. All Mingyu wanted to do is grab all of them and throw it out.
You couldn't even think at the moment, the pain was unbearable and the nausea just made you want to kill yourself. Eyes blurry with tears, body trembling with every vomit, you held onto Mingyu's hand for dear life and all he did was held you closer.
"I wish Jeonghan was here with me" you thought, "would he have cared? Would he have hold me as closely as Mingyu is right now? Where are you, Jeonghan?"
Whilst you were suffering, Jeonghan had began seeing someone else behind everyone's back. He spent his leisure time with one of the makeup artist whom in comparison to you, was daring and adventurous, whereas you were more... domestic. Which became boring for him after a year.
He has been staying with the makeup artist eversince he left, his affair started not long after you both hit the 1 year and 8 months mark.
In all honesty, he didn't felt bad. Not at all.
Jeonghan wanted to break it off with you, he really do. But he doesn't want to make it awkward between him and Joshua since he was the one who set you up together. Not to mention he didn't want to deal with your pity party, with all the blaming yourself and begging him to stay.
Nothing could make him stay with you, he convinced himself.
Last week, on the night that he left you, he had confessed to the new girl he's seeing that he loves her. Which unbeknownst to you, had started your hanahaki symptoms.
Jeonghan's phone buzzed wildly while he was recording, breaking his concentration multiple times which irks him to hell and beyond. "Hyung, go take that call first" Woozi, his producer friend, said. Jeonghan slipped out of the recording room and check his phone, only to see 5 missed calls from you.
He scoffed, thinking you wanted to beg him to come home tonight and talk things through so he just turned his phone off before jumping back in to record.
Mingyu frowned from the other line, now waiting patiently by the waiting room.
"Why won't he answer?" He muttered to himself.
Mingyu had managed to open your phone and boy was he shocked when he saw a photo of you and the vocalist of Seventeen on your wallpaper. He immediately figured out that he's the one you've been dating and that's the reason why you called him redacted.
But it annoys him that Jeonghan won't pick up the calls he made from his girlfriend's phone.
So he decided to try and text him.
Before he could type in anything though, he accidentally read your messages with him and he cringed at how dry it was. Even the pas 3 days, he didn't bother to answer your texts of reminding him to eat, asking if you could stop by the practice room, cheering him on his comeback preparations, etc.
"Are all idols dicks like him?" He muttered to himself.
Seungkwan and Chan joined soon, waiting for you while discussing what happened back there.
"It's gotta be hanahaki, right?" Seungkwan asked, biting his nails, "that, or she ate a whole bouquet of flowers for lunch- of course it's hanahaki!" Chan retorted.
"B-but, that means... her boyfriend fell out of love with her?"
Seungkwan's question made Mingyu sighed but nod.
Both boys' eyes popped open and their mouths gaped, "how did you know ???" Chan asked. "I saw her text with him, and I just knew... He's not trying to be with her anymore... I traced their chats back and there were a big difference between then and now"
Mingyu told Seungkwan and Chan everything he found out, who he is, where he worked, how your relationship is like. And boy both boys were not pleased in the slightest.
The doctor came not long after, "Ms. (Y/N) (Y/L/N) ? Is there anyone here for Ms. (Y/N) (Y/L/N)?" which made the three jumped up and ran to the doctors.
"W-we're her friends, her guardians, she has no one else" Chan said, eyes practically begging to know how you are.
The doctor sighed but nod, "Well, Ms. (Y/L/N) is stable for now and I am guessing you three knows what this means," he said as he lifted up a cup that has bloodied flower petals in it. The three nodded slowly, shoulders slumping in disappointment, "while the coughing and retching is bad for the lungs and the roots will eventually crush he organs, immediate measures needs to be taken as it could potentially harm the baby"
For the third time that day, first was your coughing, second was your hanahaki disease, and now your pregnancy, the three were left utterly shocked.
After some more explaining and saying how rare it is to develop hanahaki whilst being pregnant, the doctor was sure that lowering your external stress might buy you some time until it's time for your labor.
Mingyu was so shocked and heartbroken for you.
Seungkwan had began tearing up and Chan had a permanent frown on his face, probably plotting to hunt your boyfriend who knocked you up and didn't even had the decency to come by and check on you.
It took a while for you to wake up. And when you found out you were around 7 weeks pregnant, you were beyond elated. Oh, how much you wanted to tell Jeonghan the good news.
You were sure that this little bundle of joy is what's going to mend yours and Jeonghan's relationship.
But when they said you had hanahaki disease, you were confused.
"B-but, I-I have a boyfriend, someone who loves me very much, how can I have hanahaki if I'm with the person who loves me?" You began to sob, not wanting to accept the reality. The doctor sighed, not knowing what to say. But he gave you his card, 'hanahaki specialist' written on top of his name, and set you up for an appointment with an OB-GYN.
The doctor left the room, you were sobbing on Chan's shoulder while Seungkwan's on the other side, slowly stroking your hand as Mingyu crouch down in front of you.
"D-does this mean he doesn't love me anymore?" You choked out. The three boys looked at each other, not sure what to answer.
Luckily, Seungkwan braced himself to answer you, "I think you need to ask him that yourself" he glanced at Mingyu who nodded at him, "W-we know it's Seventeen's Jeonghan, (Y/N)-yah..."
You looked up at them and sniffled, "H-how did y-" Mingyu cut you off, "I opened your phone using your thumb print access and I saw your picture... sorry..." he mumbled.
You were about to say something again before you felt nauseous. In an instinct, Mingyu who was closest to the trash can grab it and held it between your legs while Chan held your hair up.
God you're beyond embarassed to be seen throwing up in front of your boss and your friends.
"First thing first, let's get you back home" Seungkwan said, rubbing your arms up and down as if to warm them up.
But you shook your head, determination in your eyes, "No, I need to see Jeonghan" you said sternly.
You looked at the three of them, as if pleading to help you out. In which they relucantly nodded, not knowing how this is going to end.
But, in the end you all hopped into Seungkwan's car, him and Chan at the front and you and Mingyu at the back. Mingyu had purchased some sour candies to help settle your nausea down, a gesture that is beyond sweet that you wanted to hug him and thank him forever.
It took 40 minutes to arrive in front of Pledis building. 10 to gather your courage. 15 to finally step inside the building.
By now, the clock had striked 8 pm, meaning most of the staffs and employess had gone back already.
You went in alone, checking the spots you frequently see Jeonghan in. But he was no where he should be. Not in the practice room, not in the recording room in which you met Woozi and offered him a kind smile and a wave which he returned, and he wasn't also in his napping spots. But you did saw his bag in Woozi's recording room so that means he's still in the building.
Deduction-wise, the only place left is the rooftop. Your special place.
You pressed the elevator button to the top floor and jogged a bit up the stairs since there were no elevator access.
The way up was tiring. Maybe all the throwing up had taken its toll on you but you didn't care. You wanted to see Jeonghan. You wanted to tell him that you both had made something that you both wanted the most in this whole wide world.
You opened the door to the rooftop slowly as it is kind of heavy, you looked around before spotting a leg stretched out by the corner. It was unmistakably Jeonghan.
A small smile stretched on your face but it soon dropped when you saw the scene before you.
One of the makeup artists that you knew, one whom you would say is close to you, is stradling his lap as they made out on the spot he had claimed belonged only to you and him.
Liar.
"Jeonghan..."
Said man jolted up and when he saw you his eyes were as big as saucers. Not because he got caught, but because now he couldn't execute his plan to break up with you cleanly.
"(Y-Y/N), I- you know Ye-" "yes, I know who she is" you spat.
The girl at least looked guilty, she couldn't meet your eyes. Her hands immediately trying to smooth down her now crumpled top, trying to make herself looked as decent as possible.
Homewrecker.
Tears began forming in your eyes.
But what made you panicked is the sudden nausea that hit you.
"Shit" you muttered.
You hurriedly turn around and head for the stairs. Holding onto the doorframe as you coughed wildly, letting some petals fall out before wiping your mouth harshly.
It feels like seconds before you found yourself in Seungkwan's car again. All three of them looked curious but seeing the tears down your face and the blood on your hands, they kept quiet.
"Kwan-ah, could you please drop me off at my home ? (Y/N) will be staying with me tonight" Mingyu said.
Pathetically, you chuckled, "you d-don't have to do that, d-don't pity me" you said.
Chan reached back and put a hand on your knee, he stroke it gently with a sad smile on his face, "we're not pitying you, (Y/N), we're taking care of you, we're your work husbands after all"
That did it.
That broke you.
You wailed in the back seat.
Heart shattering cries filled the car, one hand uselessly tried to shut your mouth while the other held onto your stomach.
Mingyu held you tight as you cried into his chest. His jaw tightened but his hold on you were soft and calming.
"How dare he hurt you? A person as good as you? A woman whom is so selfless and so considerate as you should be treated like a queen, not a sidepiece"
While you cried, Mingyu stroked your hair and continuously kiss the top of your head, "you're alright, you're alright, don't worry, we got you" he mumbled to your hair.
By the time the car stopped, you had passed out. So Mingyu took it upon himself to carry you whilst the bellboy brought your bags.
Seungkwan and Chan drove away, promising to come back tomorrow as the three decided that you won't need to work tomorrow and neither do they.
Mingyu laid you down on one of his 3 guest bedrooms, of course giving you one that has immediate access to a bathroom.
He carefully tucked you in, stroking your face slowly, wiping the stray tears away and wiping the dried blood off of your lips with a wet towel he had gotten from the bathroom.
You looked so frail like this. Doesn't suit your character at all.
His hand glide down from your forehead to the sides of your face, then down your exposed forearms and lastly to your palm.
Slowly, he opened your palms with his hand and saw that you've had a handful of red and pink petals that has splotches of dark red blood on it. Seeing this made him frown.
Mingyu took out his phone and made a simple search on what the flower might have meant.
When he saw the meaning, he choked a bit, trying to swallow his sobs. So instead he leaned down and kissed your forehead, letting his tears drip down, his hands softly craddling your face.
Anemone flowers
Red and pink ; forsaken love.
"Don't you worry, you can lean on me, you can lay all your burden on me and I won't ever let you go, just please stop shedding your tears for him"
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Should I make a part 2 ? I know how I want this all to go but tbh I'm reeeeeeally nervous since it's been a long while since I posted and idk whether my writings sucks or not 🥺
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