emi 🩰🪩

my super sparkly life ✨ popstar in training

[disneyendlessmagic-moved-deacti]

[hotpinksparkles]

had these for the first time during my most recent trip and they were 10/10 delishhh

[hotpinksparkles]

yeah “float like a butterfly, sting like a bee” SOUNDS cooler but ali could’ve just said “be like a jellyfish” and that would’ve gotten the point across just as well. tbh.

[hotpinksparkles]

forever afraid that i’m going to be stuck oscillating between “looks are currency you need to look good to do well in society” and “beauty is inherent and i don’t exist to be attractive” for the rest of my damn life

[n1pp]

quit brainrot. unfollow trolls. read essays. go down rabbit holes. have a calendar. maintain a todo list. read old books. watch old movies. turn on dnd. walk with intent. eat without youtube. chew more. train without music. plan for 15 mins. execute. organise your desk. take something seriously. read ancient scripts. act fast. find bread. eat clean. journal. save a life. learn to code. read poetry. create art. stay composed. refine your speech. optimise for efficiency. act sincere. help people. be kind. stop doing things that waste your time. follow your intuition. craft reputation. learn persuasion. systemise your day (or don't). write. write. write. write more. iterate violently. leave your phone at home. walk to the grocery store. talk to strangers. feed the dogs. visit bookstores. look for 1800s novels. experience art. then love. sit with a monk and offer them lunch. don't talk shit about people. embody virtue. sit alone. do something with your life. what do you want to create? turn off your mind. play. play a sport. combat sports. notice fonts in trees. fall in love. notice patterns on a table. visualise it. talk to people with respect. don't hate. be loving. be real. become yourself. cherrypick your qualities. discard the useless. rejections aren't permanent. invite what aligns. accept what does not. read great people. be different. choose different. do great work. let it consume you. lose your mind. value your time. experience life.

[hotpinksparkles]

more of this too

[borntodieparadiseedition3]

365 partygirl

[hotpinksparkles]

more of this next year (in a very legal way)

[hotpinksparkles]

current status:

got the sign i was asking for, mad about it nonetheless

(bc wdym i had the guy i’ve been kinda seeing over and we were about to kiss and i straight threw up instead) (like okay you could be a little more subtle about it) (i already knew this wasn’t going anywhere long term but can’t a girl have some fun DAMN)

[wetheurban]

Not sure who needs to hear this, but… it won’t feel this heavy forever.

[hotpinksparkles]

it’s me i needed to hear this actually

[dreamgirlvibes]

[hotpinksparkles]

it’s been so strange being on top of the world externally and yet so down bad mentally. like yeah i have a day job i like that pays me well and lets me pursue the things i love & i’m also making big moves towards the career i want to have like i’m releasing my first single as an artist and making my professional theatre debut & making connections and actually having plans and dreams for the future?? that i’m actually excited about? like my life feels so limitless and full of endless possibilities?

and yet.

i am so lonely all the time. my day job that i like leaves me exhausted at the end of the day. i still haven’t learned how to live with the guilt of not being on good terms with my best friend when she died. she got a lot of our friends in the divorce and then buried them with her. i haven’t taken a dance class in four months. i might have a tear in my hip. i don’t know if i’ll ever be able to keep myself healthy enough to dance again. that would really throw a wrench in my world domination plans. and like, my near future plans too.

don’t get me wrong though!! i’m just as happy about the happy things as i am sad about the sad things. the problem is that i am feeling all of it all at once near constantly and that is just exhausting. i need a nap. i need a hug. i need a sedative. i need a therapist. hopefully i can get one of those things.

[avaaa777]

no one gets me like my music 🎧💕🌟😚

[hotpinksparkles]

smart enough to realize i’m being brainwashed by the internet dumb enough to keep sticking my brain in the suds bucket anyway

[vanilllagirlss]

[hotpinksparkles]

the bows on the tuning pegs i’m obsessed 😭

[hotpinksparkles]

are hot dogs just americanized bao buns

(sponsored by my dinner tonight where i ate both? senioritis man 😔)

[somnifique-deactivated20170821]

[hotpinksparkles]

i miss london 😭😭

[plain-flavoured-english]

Your purpose in life is not to love yourself but to love being yourself.

If you goal is to love yourself, then your focus is directed inward toward yourself, and you end up constantly watching yourself from the outside, disconnected, trying to summon the “correct” feelings towards yourself or fashion yourself into something you can approve of.

If your goal is to love being yourself, then your focus is directed outward towards life, on living and making decisions based on what brings you pleasure and fulfillment.

Be the subject, not the object. It doesn’t matter what you think of yourself. You are experiencing life. Life is not experiencing you.

[hotpinksparkles]

bout to buy tumblr premium for the sole purpose of never seeing that tubi ad series of the guy with the flesh cowboy hat EVER AGAINNNNN MAKE IT STOP

[hotpinksparkles]

VIOLATED ON MY OWN BLOG ENOUGH

[hotpinksparkles]

bout to buy tumblr premium for the sole purpose of never seeing that tubi ad series of the guy with the flesh cowboy hat EVER AGAINNNNN MAKE IT STOP