and if i don't belong,

I'm Hunter Clarington. Sophomore at Dalton Academy and member of the Warblers. That's all you need to know.

[hxclarington]

[PM] You can push me away, and say I'm only being nice to you and not let me in all you want. Doesn't mean I'm going to stop trying. But you get a reprieve while I'm in New York with Cooper. I hope you find some fun things to do during the break. I know Kurt was talking of planning some things for the McKinley kids and including those of us from Dalton as well. I know you've let him in a little more than just about anyone, and you like him, so maybe you'll have fun.

[PM] Have fun in New York, Anderson.

[hxclarington]

PM: There you go again.

[PM] Fuck off.

[britticulous]

Good! First kitty dates are kind of a big deal you know? They have to smell right.

[hxclarington]

No, I didn’t know that. I’ll have to consult Mr. Puss and see how he feels about going on a date with another male. Maybe he’ll be alright with it.

[hxclarington]

I think 3 weeks is enough. [Private]

[bawarbler]

They look good on college applications though.  And we might only be sophomores but it doesn’t hurt to be thinking about that kind of thing now too.

If we’re being honest; I thought you barely tolerated me until you gave me those flowers. And then you left.  The first boy to ever give me flowers, gives them to me, and then leaves.  As for Sebastian and I; we were never a couple.  If anything Hunter, it was I who wasn’t ever meant to be part of your coupling.  

Look, Sebastian, never, ever, hid from me the fact that he liked you too.   And so it really shouldn’t have surprised me, and since we’re being truthful, upset me, the way it did to find out you guys were…kissing.  And I don’t even know why it mattered.  I’m not going to be kissing him, not while I’m with Mike.  I just, I didn’t want to ever be just some other boy to him.  And finding out about the two of you, after we’d had such a good talk earlier that same day, that’s exactly how I felt.  Just another boy.

I like this honesty thing Hunter.  And it sucks that we’re being all honest and stuff right as I’m leaving.  So, um, feel free to text me, or call me, or email me while I’m away if you want to continue talking privately.  

[hxclarington]

I’m good at swimming and singing and I can’t do either of those anymore, so I don’t care. Maybe I won’t go to college.

See, the thing is... I told him I loved him and he stopped speaking to me, so I don't see what you're talking about at all. Sebastian never reciprocated my feelings. It was always you and him and it was never me and that's fine. That's fine if neither of you loved me back because I know I'm not easy to love. I never have been. It's why it was so hard for my father and brother to. So, I'd much rather just separate myself from the both of you because I'm so tired, Blaine. I'm tired of trying so hard. I never should have inserted myself into your lives and disrupted because I knew all along I was going to leave you all anyway. I should have just stopped myself.

I'm glad you're happy with Mike. He's a nice guy. You deserve each other.

Thanks for being nice to me, Blaine.

[hxclarington]

I think 3 weeks is enough.

[changtasticmoves-blog]

I’m sure you’ve heard about Regionals already, so I won’t bore you with more of that talk. It’s good to have you back, Hunter. 

[hxclarington]

I guess I should say it’s good to be back although it honestly just feels the same to me.

[hxclarington]

I think 3 weeks is enough.

[bawarbler]

I’m sure you will be able to find some things to enjoy and pass the break with.  Maybe you find something that you might like to do, as an extracurricular after the break.

Maybe that was something we both could have worked on.  I mean I’m pretty sure I have boundry issues and of course, this insane drive to make people like me.  Even when they don’t. 

[hxclarington]

I suppose. I’ve honestly found that extracurriculars were a waste of time.

I never said I didn’t like you. In fact, I liked you and Sebastian a lot, but let’s be honestly, I wasn’t ever meant to be part of your coupling. As they say “two’s company and three’s a crowd.”

[britticulous]

You should ask him! Lord Tubbington definitely approves of his pictures.

[hxclarington]

I’ll be sure to ask him.

[hxclarington]

I think 3 weeks is enough.

[twinningmason-blog]

Where did you go? You just kind of disappeared from the dash.

[hxclarington]

I suppose it could be called a “mourning period”.

[hxclarington]

I think 3 weeks is enough.

[titanfinnhudson-blog]

I know we’ve gotten off on the wrong foot before, but I know Kurt likes you and considers you one of his closest friends.  That’s all I really need to know to vouch for you myself.  Kurt’s a good judge of character.

[hxclarington]

[hxclarington]

I think 3 weeks is enough.

[bawarbler]

I’ll gladly take care of him whenever you need, Hunter.  Well, as long as I’m here of course.  I don’t know if you have plans for the break, but I’ll be in New York with Cooper.  

Your cat isn’t the only thing I miss, for what it’s worth.

[hxclarington]

I’m not going anywhere, no. I have nowhere to go. I’ll be staying on campus and just doing whatever it is people who stay on campus do.

It’d be fine if you did only miss him. I wasn’t much of a friend or roommate.

[datingdetoxgossip-blog1]

[askingjanehayward-deactivated20]

But don’t worry, I won’t tell anyone you were nice. It would be our secret

[hxclarington]

I’d appreciate that.

[britticulous]

Does he like boy cats? Cause Lord Tubbington could use a life companion ever since his last one moved out to China in order to pursue career in culinary business.

[hxclarington]

I’m not sure what sexuality Mr. Puss identifies with, honestly...

[datingdetoxgossip-blog1]

[askingjanehayward-deactivated20]

It’s probably because I’m such a badass and you can’t help to be nice to a fellow badass. 

[hxclarington]

Maybe.

[hxclarington]

I think 3 weeks is enough.

[titanfinnhudson-blog]

I’m sure Kurt will be happy to see you being social again.

[hxclarington]

I suppose so.

[hxclarington]

I think 3 weeks is enough.

[bawarbler]

I hope you’ve been well and that the fact that you’re posting means that perhaps you’re ready to be a little more social.  How’s Mr. Puss doing?  I never thought I’d say it, but I kind of miss the extra weight he’d sometimes add to my bed covers.

[hxclarington]

He’s doing fine. He misses you too, but he does enjoy having a large space to himself. If you’d like, he can stay with you occasionally.

[datingdetoxgossip-blog1]

[askingjanehayward-deactivated20]

Thank you. I think you might be the first person in Dalton to be this nice to me.

[hxclarington]

That’s surprising. I’m not always this nice. This is a fluke, honestly.

[datingdetoxgossip-blog1]

[askingjanehayward-deactivated20]

Thank Hunter. I know this is hard to believe but this has nothing to do with boys or boyfriends. I’m here because I want to sing and I want to be the best at it. Nothing more. 

[hxclarington]

I wouldn’t care if it was. You’re still brave regardless. You chose to fight to go to an all boy’s academy rather than taking the easy way out because of you’re passionate about singing. I respect that.