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[iamthefoundingfather]

guys am i wrong for telling a guy he looks like he'd look hot when he's tired or exhuasted? AND would it be wrong for me to text him randmly and ask why him and his ex broke up

CONTEXT: i said it without thinking weve met in person but he sent me a photo on sc and i just texted it bc i was analyzing his facial feautures and he has like very downturned eyes and downturned lip corners so he kinda looks permanently sad but i cant tell if it was rude he kinda is an insecure guy but like it was just a thought and i cant tell if he is hating it

theres an even longer storytime about him but i cant tell if he likes me as a fwb situation or even more but im hot and sexy so it has to be more ughhhhh men he is kinda boy failure in both a cute way and incel way

CONTEXT 2: im just nosy but it gives me a good idea of how is a partner and a person like what if i do some digging and his ex mysetriously died now im scared or what if he was a cheater idk i need the details and he has brought her up but he said he don't wanna go back but tbh you can't trust a mans word so im not chill ab it. like this man has told me stories that SHOULD be private by not details ab the ex like i wanna knowwww

[iamthefoundingfather]

i dont think if i was a guy id be attracted to my body. because it's not the body i want and even as a guy it wouldn' be my type

i dont got no ass brooooo and id a 100% be an ass guy like wtf am i supposed to do?

my body isn't attractive and it grosses me out that ppl think so. i like as a test sent out my nudes (faceless and consented "strangers" my age) and they like it but im like you gotta be lying dawg because this sin't perfect. but then again teen boys don't care for anything and also men will touch on anything so its like ughhh their opinions not valid but i still wanna know.

but theyre fucking lying to me and are just horned out so its like you know just tell me the truth. i dont think im fat all my friends say im petite but i don't see it maybe its cuz i hit puberty fast and quickly and hella young and had big boobs by the age of 10 but omg i can't i have so many errors w my body because my boobs r so big they sexualized me at lke age 8 so i feel uncomfortable with them so they don't help im also pretty skinny but feel so fucking wide like my bones and ribcage and i dont have an ed or anything or body dismporhia

so its like why would a guy like mines if i as a loving girl dont like mine and don't like mines as a guy

and the worst thing to try to help me feel better is compliment me or tell me you like it the issue is i wanna fix it just tell me howwww and ill fwu heavy

[iamthefoundingfather]

guys im going celibate bc im already uncrackable i need to just complete my streak and be the most beutiful virign

[iamthefoundingfather]

anyone else get the want to throw up when thinking of being fat or food thats fat? but im so chungus i will still eat. i gotta lock in

current stats:109lbs 5'4ft waist 26in BUT i have a fucking large ribcage bc i have big boobs i hate it my ribcage is huge at 28in i wish i had a long torso. im new to this so any tips well help

goal: 83lbs waist 17in i am savin up to get the rib removal waist snatching surgery to hopefully get my ribs smaller or i'll just corset/waist train i want around 23in ribcage

but i still need to have hips

[iamthefoundingfather]

any avoidants genuinely not interested in love too? like i truly dont dream of a relationship/marriage/cuddling/being held/touched/kissed nothing

buttttt i do imagine ppl being obsessed w me thats it but like i just imagine hangouts if i am attracted to someone prob bc ive never dated or done any of those things i dont dream of it but tbh idk im not really sure whay of this means i pretty much only wanna be w myself at the end of the day

[iamthefoundingfather]

fear of intimacy so strong that i'm weirded out by ppl liking my body... also any1 else feel weird ab their body who went thru puberty early

SHORT STORYTIME: cool guy sent some stuff too (no face in it) boobs only IS the same age as me and he sent like a bunch of things first w/o pressuring me to. i like didnt open up his messages after i sent them and i feel bad bc he did compliment me and ofc did his teen boy activities to the picture which idc about but bc i wasnt replying he just said anyway have fun w ur hw and after like 30min i replied thanks ig and he lowkey didn't reply after that then texted me his phone broke and he js got it fixed but honestly i am gonna block him bc im disgusted at me for 1. sending 2. actually fw a man (not literally), 3. the complkiment was too intimate and weird like DONT TELL ME THAT ayway guys he kinda ghosted me again after spamming me over 4 hours asking if i was home when i told him i was leaving but he did ask me to do a favor and i never got to it so idk if hes mad at me but idcccc

but like its kinda gross, i told him if we were to do anything i would use him and leave and he stayed sat HELLO get a life and he said somthing else but again i dont wanna hear allat like he gives me the ick when he does that

when anyone compliments something physical and not js my hair or clothing i get the ick bc i dont need to know allat and i'd rather hear how i can improve

im also avoidant asf and for some reason whenever i get my self confidence at an all time high every guy wants to talk to me I HAVE NEVER DATED CRACKED OR KISSED OR HELD HANDS LEAVE ME ALONE IM NOT BUILT FOR TS GENUINELY like im not even saving myself for the right person im just uncrackable my face is hot my body is weird and disgusting and filthy and i dont like being touched

[iamthefoundingfather]

guys!? should i js lose it to a stranger?

im not that interested in anyone

i wanna just get it over with

i'd rather do it with experience of what i am good at with someone i like than find out i suck at something with a person i like

if anything embarassing happens, i can just never see them again

i dont think i'd like after care and would rather clean myself up and go lay in my own bed alone at night

first time likely wouldnt be great anyway

yes im a minor

i'd like to have time to think to myself and evaluate my performance afterwards

i'd probably be hungry afterwards bc obvi i'm not gonna eat till its over so body is teaaa gurl lol so i'd go drive to get myself food or cook for myself

+ need to do tea time with my girlies after

+ guys usually don't want girls to stay right? like the refactory period or wtv

also it'd be a bad idea for me to stay bc i dont know how to do aftercare and i cant do all my firsts with my same person i need memories

im obvi an indepedent girlie so it'd be a waste of time to wait for someone o do something for me aftercare wise

if im tired after im sure he'll be too so it'd be burdensome to put making sure im fine as one of his resposbilities when i can do it myself yk

questions:

do ppl usually do after care even during hook ups?

how awkward is it afterwards?

would it be weird if i wore a shirt during it? (i have a flat stomach kinda which i hate but i have a big scar from something on my tummy) but would it be odd to say i dont wanna be touched there under my shirt? and the issue that lies here is i have boobs but not butt so i have basically no assests if i don't sacrifice my will to live on take off my shirt

should it actually be with a meaningful person? i talk to my guy friends about it and they always tell me NOT to. but then my girlies are like yeah that makes sense for you

how to look pretty during it?

will my makeup come off?

any tips? on figuring out what you're good at + what u like? WITHOUT BEING AWKWARD AND TRYING WEIRD THINGS

[iamthefoundingfather]

i understand i have the power to but with taking action... how do i know where to start, should i just start somewhere thats somewhat connected to it if it a really big goal

for example if my goal was to be a supermodel (which it isnt) but like thats a huge goal and requires tons of discipline and theres so many places to start like in the gym, learning different languages to build variety, practicing your walk, contacting agencies, etc

with things like this theres not a clear 1 2 3 step plan like there'd be with manifesting a job at a company you're already somewhat qualified for if that makes sense? like they have steps laid out for them learn ab company and values, check job opening, apply, get interview, do your best at interview, get hired, stay hired ofc theres obstacles but idk

[iamthefoundingfather]

when ppl say oh they look a mess/hot mess but its usually their hair/haircut makeup clothes for me why is it my body i cant even fix ts bruv like how my body not know how to assemble itself correctly

like my back sexy cute, torso short, legs long, waist unevenly curved, hips small and one faint hip dip and 1 round, legs 1 longer than other, skin soft but with kp and strawberry legs, thighs no gap. ass just flat, boobs wendy williams like was i just randomly ai generated wtf is ts dawg how am i supposed to live in this shit. its like asking someone to willingly live in hood w no chance of getting out unless i gotta a bunch of money (aka surgery) which is motivating me to lock in

whats even worse is i have kp on my stomach PLSSS TIPS ON HOW TO GET RID OF IT ITS THE ONLY PLACE I HAVE IT and tips for strawberry legs

and like i ONLY wear baggy tops and pants bc ass if flat and i aint no wendy williams baby i cant be a p shaped girlie like whats up with the world tryna curse me and the girlies first periods now crazy beauty standards lke what do i do i have no hips arely i mean my hips are only a lil smaller than my shoulders but my big boobs and fuck ass short torso make shit look like im compact

like id be cute if i had a short torso in a ari grande, sabrina carpenter, lisa blackpink way but noooooooo they said how about we give curves but let a 1 year old with no motor skills draw it like wtf am i supposed to do i cant even live my teen life and fuck around and find out bc my body is cooked like i cant go to a pool party cant fuck cant get touched like im legit lowk revolting to look at i know ppl are glad i hide my body only time i wear tight shirts is if i hav baggy low rise sweats

dear ancestors why curse me with a chungus ass body if your body wasn't tea back then u shouldve just chosen to die out bc now im cooked dawg its like if someone was being chased by a person and comes running over to you why u bring ts over hear dawg no what we both screwed smh

[iamthefoundingfather]

LARAAA JEANNNN YOU SHOULDVE TOLD 9YO ME TO LOCK IN VRUH I COULDVE FIRSTS WITH QUITE HORRIBLE MEN BUT I WOULDVE HAD THEM

now i actually have to be careful if i do anything bc chlymidia and herpes alr going around my hs like a wild fire and GURLLLL I DONT WANT NONEEEEE OF DAT (these men arent getting tested nor will get checked out if their partner tells them they got it from them to get help) like r u embarrased GO GET HELP VRU

but ive locked im going 4b atp

[iamthefoundingfather]

bro growing up realizing that im so far behind relaionship wise LJ was sooo right for every first ill have he will have alr had

and its like is could be a good thing but at the same time its like GURL i dont get the original experience never dated in elementary not even for a second like everyone says that they never dated but theres tiers like never dated in any grade, never held hands romantically, never kissed, never been touched in a flirt way, never had someone flirt w me, never actually talked w someone, done anything past kissing, im lowk the untouched friend maybe soon to be duff like i swear everyone looks at my friends first no matter what friend group im in and my friends r beautiful so i get it

and like my dad banned me from dating but there is no need for that like guys dont look at me unless theyre p*dos or want yk (which rarely happens im like damn atp i can leave the house in anything and without any protection and nothing would happen to me)

but its like what am i doing wrong or what am i doing right maybe im not meant to date im not that interested and my future career wont give me time to waste so it might be for the best idk but like even if i do anything im too late like my friend was talking w me and said middle school relationships dont count girl i have nothing to count dont worry

LIKE I HAVENT EVEN HAD A MOMENT A MOMENT W TENSION

also peter never gave LJ back her scrunchie (TS PMO BC A GOOD HAIR TIE THATS PERFECTLY TIGHT STABLE AND THICKNESS IS HARD TO FIND) and he was never waiting for her hes like a bad boyfriend but a good guy but i think hed be a good husband if that makes sense

but like i do have high expectations which arent high at all like i talk w ppl and theyre like yeah he doesnt open doors for me or walk on the outside of the sidewalk im like honey i do that for my friends!!! chivarly is dead and im sorry but chivarly doesnt equal flirting like ppl will get made at their man for picking up something another girl dropped which if u have to worry ab that being a issue u need a better man bc thats basic manners

[iamthefoundingfather]

ive never done anything and think im missing out but i canNOT kiss someone becaue what if i mess up or its awkward but even worse i cannot do the boom boom

like ew why would i put my lips on someone else that sounds gross and touching toungues but also its awkward because what if i dont like the way they do it or they dont like the way i kiss like thats horrifying much worse if neither of us liked or wnated the kiss

BUT THE BOOM BOOM like wdym i need to be fully undressed and KISS and im on full display like WHAT plus i need to have a shirt on because like why am i uneven but like i dont got that ice spice build just yet (gym 2026 lock in) so my best feauture would be the girlies on top but decided to not be cute so like what am i supposed to do????!!!!!! but like also what if my pet down there looks weird because theres not that many real life examples id see so its like i keep the shirt on and give nothing? like body wont be tea smh. i think if i were to do a boom boom act no one is going down on me, id have a shirt on, not touching under my shirt, no kissing maybe idk, light off, music blasting, not at my place so i can leave because itd be so embarassing for me especially if i stay omg like im thinking about how awkward itd be afterwards like getting up to use the bathroom. id need to come prepared to shower and leave omg also like what if i look bad super up close when kissing or durign the boom boom like i cant and im not loud as a person so why would i be loud also being new and not knowing what i like while everyone was a bit of experience omg so embarassing for me

i wish i were a boy so the only part that mattered so my ding dong but as a girl my face body and voice matters like WHAT why am i carrying the experience

but i love hearing the tea from my friends like its soo fun living thru them and boy/girl talk is so fun except if theyre in a toxic relationship then off with their head

what do i do i need to not miss out on the teen experience but what if i hate it or worse like it i doubt i would theres no cute good guys in my school that arent taken which good on the girlies they got those boys fast lol

[iamthefoundingfather]

hello divas