Caught in the Ether

Basically, it's a vent blog. 28F, Bi, Neurodivergent, single, Mother. I'm pretty nerdy and openminded. Anime, metalcore/rock, and gaming are my core interests. Currently obsessed with Apothecary Diaries and Skyrim. Wouldn't mind having more people to talk to. Minors will be blocked. ☣️POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING CONTENT☣️

[tyynicbubul]

I want to be understood, but I’m not sure If I even understand myself

[decayingrain]

I was never worthy of your love.

[h3lloyou]

I know im a shit friend but oh god am i fucking trying

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

when i’m sad it consumes me completely. i become sadness myself. i’m made out of sadness. it won’t ever end and this is all i’ll ever be and

[12thgrave]

i seek comfort in others because i hate myself.

[decayingrain]

Im slowly deteriorating do you even care?

[speakingspirals]

i feel like killing myself will make everything feel better.

[ifonlyiweredifferent]

TW....

I feel like i'm 3 seconds from a fucking relapse, I swear to the gods. I...just CAN'T anymore

[ifonlyiweredifferent]

Nothing like being so deeply depressed you've barely eaten in the last 4 days. And when you tell your partner that you haven't really eaten, they say 'oh, thats why you've been such a bitch lately'. I'm an absolute fucking idiot for falling for his 'i'll change' bullshit. Fuck this

[ifonlyiweredifferent]

I'm a fucking idiot for ever thinking you'd change

[ifonlyiweredifferent]

I should've married blue collar

[uhmyeahuhmok]

how to not kill yourself over something little, real tutorial no hacks

[girlwithacoldcigarette]

everyone be like oh i can handle your disorders until it starts disordering

[eltdnlhays]

I over explain myself because I grew up defending myself. Not because I’m guilty or lying. Because no one believed me

[professionallyunstable-deactiva]

self sabotage is weird because what do you mean i make myself miserable and i'm aware of it but don't know how to stop.

[ifonlyiweredifferent]

Shaking, shitting, crying, throwing up

[lullxbyblue]

I wish I wasn’t so good at wrecking the people who love me.