Jock!James Potter X Tweemo!Lily Evans
Lily Evans wasnât supposed to like James Potter. But under the stars, with his laugh soft and his walls down, she realizes the universe can be cruel like that.
Warnings: Some tooth rotting fluff, mentions of underage alcohol consumption, Slight angst (if you squint), mentions of relations with food, pining, kissing, and mentions of slight harassment (only two lines i believe) Let me know if i missed anything!
A/N: Haiiii!! Happy Halloween! this is like my first ever jily one-shot, which is like so surprising because they are genuinely my favorite ship LMFAO but i deceided to write this after seeming a tweemo lily edit and UGHH it was beautiful! i also deceided to make this happy because halloween is a pretty depressing day for us marauders fans, anyways i hope you guys enjoy! REBLOGS ARE ALWAYS LOVED!!<3
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Lily wasn't supposed to like him. God, no. James Potter is the epitome of Lily's existence. All he does is slack off in class, play football, go to parties, and now apparently have the fattest, most irritating crush on her. Lily doesn't understand how and when it happened- actually no, she does.
It was Junior year AP physics when Mr. Slughorn decided to separate James and Sirius due to âexcessive tomfooleryâ (his words, not hers). And because the universe is a cruel thing and believes in testing her patience, he sat James right next to her. See it wouldn't be an issue if it was anyone else, but it was James. James, who threw away his smarts just to be some irritating jock, the boy who was clever enough to answer questions spot on when called on by a teacher after messing around with Black. It infuriated Lily how he didn't have to try, everyone, and I mean everyone loved James Potter. He didn't have to do a single thing! People loved him.
Heâd lean back in his chair, spinning his pen, whispering dumb comments under his breath in attempts to make her laugh. And fine, fine, maybe sheâd notice things that she normally wouldn't have. Like how good his forearms looked when he pushed up his hoodie sleeves, or how his stupid hair curled at the nape of his neck when it got too long, or how his laugh, loud and reckless, seemed to always make her smile. But worse, much worse. She started to notice smaller things about him. He was nice, gosh, he was stupidly nice. The kind of nice that had you thinking for days, the type to make your chest ache and want to cave in, the type that carved a James Potter sized hole in your chest. Heâd hold open the doors for everyone, not just people he cared for. Heâd even offered to carry Marlene's books the month she sprained her wrist! He had given her a pencil, and highlighters when she couldn't find hers, not with a teasing tone, but with a smile and a âHere Evansâ. He was such a goddamned gentleman it wasnât fair. This (if you couldn't tell) drove her mental. James wasn't supposed to be nice or ridiculously sweet. He wasn't supposed to give her an extra set of notes because she was out sick, his handwriting sucked, but she canât even lie, it did make her heart melt a bit.
It was a slow unraveling moment for her, one second he was an annoying boy she had to tolerate, another second later he was sitting close enough during a movie in class, making her laugh at stupid jokes and where she could smell his cologne. The hint of cedar and pine was fabulous, but there was something else hidden. It was the musky smell of James, it filled her lungs.. and lord did she gulp it down like she was trying to commit it to memory, filling her lungs until she couldn't think straight.
And tonight, tonight was just another test from the universe.
So when both Mary and Marlene had dragged her out on a friday night after the football game to some party at a seniors house, she was already not feeling it. The party was loud, suffocating, sticky with the scent of cheap vodka and cologne, Lily promised to avoid him. Not with this new crush that has formed.
When walking in she almost immediately turned around, she would dart out the door if Mary and Marlene werenât basically holding her hostage. Everyone there was at least pretending that they were older than they even were, there was a group of football players around the island drinking and chanting. Of course Sirius and James were around participating with their friends, but when she passed James⌠There was this moment where everything felt like it had stopped. Not slowed, but stopped. Their eyes met for a brief second before Lily felt the feeling of beer spilling on her boots. Well, avoiding him had gone to shit..
She had lasted half a beer before the headache had set in.
Three different guys had called her âRedâ, two asking for her snap with below mediocre pick up lines, one guy begging to take her upstairs, telling her in broken slurs âItâll be funâ. The room stunk of teenage desperation, and Lily had decided sheâd had enough fun for the night. So she stepped out.
She had slipped out the back door quietly, her boots crunching under the dewy grass, the backyard was huge with an open field, and the air smelled like fresh rain, even though it hadn't rained in a few weeks. The noise of the party fading in the background as soft hums as she stepped farther and farther away finding a nice tree to sit under, pulling her knees to her chest and pulling out her phone. Times like this lily felt different. Not in an annoying or attention seeking way, but in a normal way. She didn't really like partying, I mean it was fun every once and awhile to get shit faced with your friends, but if you didn't have a boyfriend to protect you or were a man, a high school party was just a place to be objectified in.
As she looked up closing her eyes she imagined her life if she was different, if she didn't grow up lower middle class, if she and her sister got along more, if she had a better relationship with food, or if she just stopped avoiding her feelings for once in her damn life. When she opened her eyes the stars were staring back. The stars were something she always found comfort in, the sparkles in a black fogged sky was amazing. She often reminisces about a trip when she was 8 going up into the mountains and watching the stars in the clear, smog-ridden sky. As she stared at the inky black sky with scattered sparkles she felt a wave of calmness. Oh, what she would do for life to be that simple. She hugged her knees closer to her chest, letting her breathing and heartbeat slow down.
âAre you hiding out too?â
Well there goes her slow heartbeat.
Her head snapped towards the voice (honestly she didn't even need to look she knew who it was.) James Potter stood a few feet away, his hands shoved in the pockets of his letterman jacket, his smile radiant as he rocked on the balls of his feet. The moonlight reflecting off his chocolate curls and the tortoise shell glasses framing his eyes.
âJesus Potter! You scared me!â She groaned holding her chest, causing James face to break out in an even bigger smile. If that's even possible.
He wondered over plopping down under the tree next to her like it was the most natural thing in the world, it probably was for him. âDidnât mean to, I just really need air. Sirius spilled beer on my shirt again.â He scoffed, unbuttoning the jacket to show the wet stain. âHe called it a ârite of passage.ââ
Lily snorted, covering her face, "sounds about right.â They both sat in silence for a minute, it wasn't awkward or uncomfortable, it was just quiet and oddly comforting. The sound of crickets filling the noise around them. If you didn't know either of then you may have thought that they've known each other for years.
After a while Lily broke the silence, âwhy are you here potter?â She questioned with an eyebrow raise. There was an uneasy feeling in her gut that there was no way he came out here to just be around her.
âSaw you left, people were annoying, figured you needed amazing company.â He replied shifting in the dirt to get comfortable like he was staying long.
âI donât.â she answered plainly.
âWell, lucky for you I'm amazing company.â He grinned, wiping his hands on his jeans.
Lily rolled her eyes, huffing a laugh, âYour impossible James.â
âCompliment taken.â He smirks, shaking out his curls, and Lily stares hard. She thinks how it would feel to run her fingers through the chocolate and honey curls, she looks at his jawline how it would feel to run her teet- âYou can really see Orion tonight.â He interrupts her quite filthy thoughts on the boy she's not even supposed to like.
âI- uh⌠what?â She blinked offguard, her mind a bit blank from where it was just ten seconds ago.
âOrion? The constellation?â He looked at her with a questioning gaze. âIts.. uhm right there,â James shuffled closer pointing up to the three sparkles close together in a small line. âThat's a belt: Orion's belt. Itâs surprisingly really bright right here,â He shrugged, still staring straight up pushing his lenses up further on his nose.
âWowâŚâ lily mumbled looking up at all the stars for a second, James was right, the three lined up stars were really bright. But that's not really what Lily was looking at for the majority of the time. She was looking at James. The way he stared up in awe, the lights almost reflecting off the tanned skin of him. If he was a star he would be the bloody fucking sun. He was so bright and beautiful it hurt. He was always shining so bright, more than her pathetic words can describe. âYou're so smart.â Lily blurted, shutting her mouth fast with embarrassment. Blessed James couldn't see the blooming red blush that engulfed her face.
All James did was look at her through the corner of his eye and laugh, âWell when your best friend is named Sirius, you hear quite a lot of stars.â
Lily laughed a quiet, but genuine laugh. âI bet, but⌠that's not what I mean.â She paused, playing with her red waves trying to find the right words. âI mean⌠you're so bloody smart, and- and you don't use it. I would've never guessed King James not only knows, but likes astrology.â She scoffed a bit, but it had no real heat behind it.
James looked at Lily, his smirk dropped and he went to play with his hands. For a second he looked more like a boy, then a 17 year old high school jock known for his cocky behavior. Lily worried for a second, thinking she had offended or worse hurt James. Lily was just about to open her mouth to blurt out some apology that she doesn't think before she speaks and she's sorry when James finally opens his mouth and speaks. âI- uh⌠wow.â he laughed nervously a bit before speaking again, âI know I'm smart and clever enough, I justâŚI feel like it's easier yâknow, act like im not, because it's easier?â He said, unsure of himself, she's never seen James like this. Never seen him nervous or on the spot in his life, he usually walks with this confidence where nothing or no one can stop him. But he continued, âI just, I thought it would be better to be liked.â James took a deep breath, before chuckling a laugh, âI'm sorry I didn't mean to like to over share.â
Lily's chest tightened, she didn't know what to say. What do you even say to the boy you misjudged for almost 2 years? She stared at him before smiling, âwell if it helps,â she said scooting closer, âI like you much better this way than your jock persona.â
James blinked a bit before turning at her like she had grown 3 heads, but then it had melted into something gentler. The corners of his mouth twitched like he was trying to hold back a goofy grin, he tilted his head studying her with the caramel colored eyes that adored his face, he suddenly looked so much more vulnerable under the moonlight, so much more handsome.
âYeah?â he asked quietly before smirking, âYou like me better this way Evans?â
Lily scoffed with a smile, "Don't make me take it back Potter.â She replied, though her voice had no real bite in it.
James laughed, throwing his head back. God, that sound was intoxicating. âNoted.â He said, bumping his shoulder against hers.
For a while they just sat there, shoulders touching, breathing in the same rhythm, staring up at the sky. The air was cold but not enough to bite, the kind to make you want to seek warmth in another. The vulnerability in James did something to Lily. Yeah, she can already admit she liked the boy, but this⌠this new stage of him being vulnerable enough to share⌠oh she needed this man.
James sighed quietly, his eyes still on the sky. âYâknow,â he murmured. âI think Sirus may kill me for saying this but⌠sometimes I understand why people are so drawn to stars.â
âOh?â Lily asked, her voice softer than she intended it to be.
He nodded, still gazing at the glitter, "They're kind of like people. The brightest ones burn the fastest but they are the ones everyone notices first.â He adjusted his glasses carelessly like it wasn't the most poetic thing Lily's ever heard.
Lily's heart did that thing where it annoyingly fluttered in her chest, âThats.. Wow Potter, that's actually quite poetic.â
He grinned, scoffing faintly, âOh don't sound so surprised Evans, I do have layers. Mâlike an onionâ He smirked at her through the corner of his eyes.
âApparently,â she muttered, but there was no hiding her smile. James looked at her again, really looked, neither of them saying anything, the air around them still with tension. Lily smiled before talking again, her voice barely above a whisper. âThe universe is cruel sometimes.â
James tilted his head, like a stag looking at a passerby, her eyebrows furrowing slightly. âWhyâs that?â
âBecause,â she said, looking up at the stars instead of him, âit makes you want people youâre not supposed to.â
James didn't answer right away, just stared. He stared at her like she had said something jat rearranged his view on the world. His hand was still in the grass, tensing and relaxing, almost like he was hesitating. âLily,â He finally after a moment of silence, it came out softer and lower almost unheard of if Lily wasn't so close.
She shouldn't have turned to him when she did, but of course she did it anyway.
He was close now, too close, the faint smell of the cedar and pine filling the space between the two of them. His curls catching in the starlight like spun gold, and his lips. Oh his lips, parted in uncertainty like he was afraid she'd be disgusted. Little did he know, now she could never be disgusted by him.
He hesitated for a half of a second, maybe less, maybe more. Then quietly like he was testing the universe from her answer, âCan I..?â
She didn't let him finish, she couldn't let him. Because by the time the word had left his mouth, she was already leaning in close.
The kiss was far from perfect. Their noses bumped, and she tasted the cheap beer on his lips, but it was soft, warm, and real. His hand slid to her cheek, tentative at first, then certain, almost like heâd been waiting for this moment his entire life, which⌠He probably has. The world spun slower and quieter.
When they finally pulled, Lily was utterly stunned and breathless by her sudden burst of boldness. James also looked just as stunned, his pupils blown and mouth opening and closing every second.
âWow,â he murmured, voice barely there.
She tried to play it off, but of course her own voice betrayed her. âYou talk too much, Potter.â
He grinned, soft, lopsided, and impossibly endearing. âYou kiss too well, Evans.â
Lily rolled her eyes, but her cheeks burned crimson all at the same. âDonât make this weird.â
He leaned back against the tree trunk, grinning at the stars like the whole universe had just let him win something heâd been fighting for all year. And maybe it had.
Lily looked back up at the sky, a faint smile tugging at her lips, the ghost of his kiss still warm on her skin.
The universe, she decided, really was cruel.
Because it made her fall for James Potter, and there wasnât a damn thing she could do about it.